LADDIE
A TRUE BLUE STORY
To
LEANDER ELLIOT STRATTON
"The Way to Be Happy Is to Be Good"
Contents
CHAPTER
I. Little Sister
II. Our Angel Boy
III. Mr. Pryor's Door
IV. The Last Day in Eden
V. The First Day of School
VI. The Wedding Gown
VII. When Sally Married Peter
VIII. The Shropshire and the Crusader
IX. "Even So"
X. Laddie Takes the Plunge
XI. Keeping Christmas Our Way
XII. The Horn of the Hunter
XIII. The Garden of the Lord
XIV. The Crest of Eastbrooke
XV. Laddie, the Princess, and the Pie
XVI. The Homing Pigeon
XVII. In Faith Believing
XVIII. The Pryor Mystery
LADDIE
CHARACTERS
LADDIE, Who Loved and Asked No Questions.
THE PRINCESS, From the House of Mystery.
LEON, Our Angel Child.
LITTLE SISTER, Who Tells What Happened.
MR. and MRS. STANTON, Who Faced Life Shoulder to Shoulder.
SALLY and PETER, Who Married Each Other.
ELIZABETH, SHELLEY, MAY and Other Stanton Children.
MR. and MRS. PRYOR, Father and Mother of the Princess.
ROBERT PAGET, a Chicago Lawyer.
MRS. FRESHETT, Who Offered Her Life for Her Friend.
CANDACE, the Cook.
MISS AMELIA, the School Mistress.
Interested Relatives, Friends, and Neighbours.
CHAPTER I
Little Sister
"And could another child-world be my share,
I'd be a Little Sister there."
Have I got a Little Sister anywhere in this house?" inquired
Laddie at the door, in his most coaxing voice.
"Yes sir," I answered, dropping the trousers I was making
for Hezekiah, my pet bluejay, and running as fast as I could.
There was no telling what minute May might take it into her head
that she was a little sister and reach him first. Maybe he wanted
me to do something for him, and I loved to wait on Laddie.
"Ask mother if you may go with me a while."
"Mother doesn't care where I am, if I come when the supper
bell rings."
"All right!" said Laddie.
He led the way around the house, sat on the front step and took
me between his knees.
"Oh, is it going to be a secret?" I cried.
Secrets with Laddie were the greatest joy in life. He was so big
and so handsome. He was so much nicer than any one else in our
family, or among our friends, that to share his secrets, run his
errands, and love him blindly was the greatest happiness. Sometimes
I disobeyed father and mother; I minded Laddie like his right
hand.
"The biggest secret yet," he said gravely.
"Tell quick!" I begged, holding my ear to his lips.
"Not so fast!" said Laddie. "Not so fast! I have
doubts about this. I don't know that I should send you. Possibly
you can't find the way. You may be afraid. Above all, there is
never to be a whisper. Not to any one! Do you understand?"
"What's the matter?" I asked.
"Something serious," said Laddie. "You see, I expected
to have an hour or two for myself this afternoon, so I made an
engagement to spend the time with a Fairy Princess in our Big
Woods. Father and I broke the reaper taking it from the shed just
now and you know how he is about Fairies."
I did know how he was about Fairies. He hadn't a particle of patience
with them. A Princess would be the Queen's daughter. My father's
people were English, and I had heard enough talk to understand
that. I was almost wild with excitement.
"Tell me the secret, hurry!" I cried.
"It's just this," he said. "It took me a long time
to coax the Princess into our Big Woods. I had to fix a throne
for her to sit on; spread a Magic Carpet for her feet, and build
a wall to screen her. Now, what is she going to think if I'm not
there to welcome her when she comes? She promised to show me how
to make sunshine on dark days."
"Tell father and he can have Leon help him."
"But it is a secret with the Princess, and it's HERS as much
as mine. If I tell, she may not like it, and then she won't make
me her Prince and send me on her errands."
"Then you don't dare tell a breath," I said.
"Will you go in my place, and carry her a letter to explain
why I'm not coming, Little Sister?"
"Of course!" I said stoutly, and then my heart turned
right over; for I never had been in our Big Woods alone, and neither
mother nor father wanted me to go. Passing Gypsies sometimes laid
down the fence and went there to camp. Father thought all the
wolves and wildcats were gone, he hadn't seen any in years, but
every once in a while some one said they had, and he was not quite
sure yet. And that wasn't the beginning of it. Paddy Ryan had
come back from the war wrong in his head. He wore his old army
overcoat summer and winter, slept on the ground, and ate whatever
he could find. Once Laddie and Leon, hunting squirrels to make
broth for mother on one of her bad days, saw him in our Big Woods
and he was eating SNAKES. If I found Pat Ryan eating a snake,
it
would frighten me so I would stand still and let him eat me, if
he wanted to, and perhaps he wasn't too crazy to see how plump
I was. I seemed to see swarthy, dark faces, big, sleek cats dropping
from limbs, and Paddy Ryan's matted gray hair, the flying rags
of the old blue coat, and a snake in his hands. Laddie was slipping
the letter into my apron pocket. My knees threatened to let me
down.
"Must I lift the leaves and hunt for her, or will she come
to me?" I wavered.
"That's the biggest secret of all," said Laddie. "Since
the Princess entered them, our woods are Enchanted, and there
is no telling what wonderful things may happen any minute. One
of them is this: whenever the Princess comes there, she grows
in size until she is as big as, say our Sally, and she fills all
the place with glory, until you are so blinded you scarcely can
see her face."
"What is she like, Laddie?" I questioned, so filled
with awe and interest, that fear was forgotten.
"She is taller than Sally," said Laddie. "Her face
is oval, and her cheeks are bright. Her eyes are big moonlit pools
of darkness, and silken curls fall over her shoulders. One hair
is strong enough for a lifeline that will draw a drowning man
ashore, or strangle an unhappy one. But you will not see her.
I'm purposely sending you early, so you can do what you are told
and come back to me before she even reaches the woods."
"What am I to do, Laddie?"
"You must put one hand in your apron pocket and take the
letter in it, and as long as you hold it tight, nothing in the
world can hurt you. Go out our lane to the Big Woods, climb the
gate and walk straight back the wagon road to the water. When
you reach that, you must turn to your right and go toward Hoods'
until you come to the pawpaw thicket. Go around that, look ahead,
and you'll see the biggest beech tree you ever saw. You know a
beech, don't you?"
"Of course I do," I said indignantly. "Father taught
me beech with the other trees."
"Well then," said Laddie, "straight before you
will be a purple beech, and under it is the throne of the Princess,
the Magic Carpet, and the walls I made. Among the beech roots
there is a stone hidden with moss. Roll the stone back and there
will be a piece of bark. Lift that, lay the letter in the box
you'll find, and scamper to me like flying. I'll be at the barn
with father."
"Is that all?"
"Not quite," said Laddie. "It's possible that the
Fairy Queen may have set the Princess spinning silk for the caterpillars
to weave their little houses with this winter; and if she has,
she may have left a letter there to tell me. If there is one,
put it in your pocket, hold it close every step of the way, and
you'll be safe coming home as you were going. But you mustn't
let a soul see it; you must slip it into my pocket when I'm not
looking. If you let any one see, then the Magic will be spoiled,
and the Fairy won't come again."
"No one shall see," I promised.
"I knew you could be trusted," said Laddie, kissing
and hugging me hard. "Now go! If anything gets after you
that such a big girl as you really wouldn't be ashamed to be afraid
of, climb on a fence and call. I'll be listening, and I'll come
flying. Now I must hurry. Father will think it's going to take
me the remainder of the day to find the bolts he wants."
We went down the front walk between the rows of hollyhocks and
tasselled lady-slippers, out the gate, and followed the road.
Laddie held one of my hands tight, and in the other I gripped
the letter in my pocket. So long as Laddie could see me, and the
lane lay between open fields, I wasn't afraid. I was thinking
so deeply about our woods being Enchanted, and a tiny Fairy growing
big as our Sally, because she was in them, that I stepped out
bravely.
Every few days I followed the lane as far back as the Big Gate.
This stood where four fields cornered, and opened into the road
leading to the woods. Beyond it, I had walked on Sunday afternoons
with father while he taught me all the flowers, vines, and bushes
he knew, only he didn't know some of the prettiest ones; I had
to have books for them, and I was studying to learn enough that
I could find out. Or I had ridden on the wagon with Laddie and
Leon when they went to bring wood for the cookstove, outoven,
and big fireplace. But to walk! To go all alone! Not that I didn't
walk by myself over every other foot of the acres and acres of
beautiful land my father owned; but plowed fields, grassy meadows,
wood pasture, and the orchard were different. I played in them
without a thought of fear.
The only things to be careful about were a little, shiny, slender
snake, with a head as bright as mother's copper kettle, and a
big thick one with patterns on its back like those in Laddie's
geometry books, and a whole rattlebox on its tail; not to eat
any berry or fruit I didn't know without first asking father;
and always to be sure to measure how deep the water was before
I waded in alone.
But our Big Woods! Leon said the wildcats would get me there.
I sat in our catalpa and watched the Gypsies drive past every
summer. Mother hated them as hard as ever she could hate any one,
because once they had stolen some fine shirts, with linen bosoms,
that she had made by hand for father, and was bleaching on the
grass. If Gypsies should be in our west woods to-day and steal
me, she would hate them worse than ever; because my mother loved
me now, even if she didn't want me when I was born.
But you could excuse her for that. She had already bathed, spanked,
sewed for, and reared eleven babies so big and strong not one
of them ever even threatened to die. When you thought of that,
you could see she wouldn't be likely to implore the Almighty to
send her another, just to make her family even numbers. I never
felt much hurt at her, but some of the others I never have forgiven
and maybe I never will. As long as there had been eleven babies,
they should have been so accustomed to children that they needn't
all of them have objected to me, all except Laddie, of course.
That was the reason I loved him so and tried to do every single
thing he wanted me to, just the way he liked it done. That was
why I was facing the only spot on our land where I was in the
slightest afraid; because he asked me to.
If he had told me to dance a jig on the ridgepole of our barn,
I would have tried it.
So I clasped the note, set my teeth, and climbed over the gate.
I walked fast and kept my eyes straight before me. If I looked
on either side, sure as life I would see something I never had
before, and be down digging up a strange flower, chasing a butterfly,
or watching a bird. Besides, if I didn't look in the fence corners
that I passed, maybe I wouldn't see anything to scare me. I was
going along finely, and feeling better every minute as I went
down the bank of an old creek that had gone dry, and started up
the other side toward the sugar camp not far from the Big Woods.
The bed was full of weeds and as I passed through, away! went
Something among them.
Beside the camp shed there was corded wood, and the first thing
I knew, I was on top of it. The next, my hand was on the note
in my pocket. My heart jumped until I could see my apron move,
and my throat went all stiff and dry. I gripped the note and waited.
Father believed God would take care of him. I was only a little
girl and needed help much more than a man; maybe God would take
care of me. There was nothing wrong in carrying a letter to the
Fairy Princess. I thought perhaps it would help if I should kneel
on the top of the woodpile and ask God to not let anything get
me.
The more I thought about it, the less I felt like doing it, though,
because really you have no business to ask God to take care of
you, unless you KNOW you are doing right. This was right, but
in my heart I also knew that if Laddie had asked me, I would be
shivering on top of that cordwood on a hot August day, when it
was wrong. On the whole, I thought it would be more honest to
leave God out of it, and take the risk myself. That made me think
of the Crusaders, and the little gold trinket in father's chest
till. There were four shells on it and each one stood for a trip
on foot or horseback to the Holy City when you had to fight almost
every step of the way. Those shells meant that my father's people
had gone four times, so he said; that, although it was away far
back, still each of us had a tiny share of the blood of the Crusaders
in our veins, and that it would make us brave and strong, and
whenever we were afraid, if we would think of them, we never could
do a cowardly thing or let any one else do one before us. He said
any one with Crusader blood had to be brave as Richard the Lion-hearted.
Thinking about that helped ever so much, so I gripped the note
and turned to take one last look at the house before I made a
dash for the gate that led into the Big Woods.
Beyond our land lay the farm of Jacob Hood, and Mrs. Hood always
teased me because Laddie had gone racing after her when I was
born. She was in the middle of Monday's washing, and the bluing
settled in the rinse water and stained her white clothes in streaks
it took months to bleach out. I always liked Sarah Hood for coming
and dressing me, though, because our Sally, who was big enough
to have done it, was upstairs crying and wouldn't come down. I
liked Laddie too, because he was the only one of our family who
went to my mother and kissed her, said he was glad, and offered
to help her. Maybe the reason he went was because he had an awful
scare, but anyway he WENT, and that was enough for me.
You see it was this way: no one wanted me; as there had been eleven
of us, every one felt that was enough. May was six years old and
in school, and my mother thought there never would be any more
babies. She had given away the cradle and divided the baby clothes
among my big married sisters and brothers, and was having a fine
time and enjoying herself the most she ever had in her life. The
land was paid for long ago; the house she had planned, builded
as she wanted it; she had a big team of matched grays and a carriage
with side lamps and patent leather trimmings; and sometimes there
was money in the bank. I do not know that there was very much,
but any at all was a marvel, considering how many of us there
were to feed, clothe, and send to college. Mother was forty-six
and father was fifty; so they felt young enough yet to have a
fine time and enjoy life, and just when things were going best,
I announced that I was halfway over my journey to earth.
You can't blame my mother so much. She must have been tired of
babies and disliked to go back and begin all over after resting
six years. And you mustn't be too hard on my father if he was
not just overjoyed. He felt sure the cook would leave, and she
did. He knew Sally would object to a baby, when she wanted to
begin having beaus, so he and mother talked it over and sent her
away for a long visit to Ohio with father's people, and never
told her. They intended to leave her there until I was over the
colic, at least. They knew the big married brothers and sisters
would object, and they did. They said it would be embarrassing
for their children to be the nieces and nephews of an aunt or
uncle younger than themselves. They said it so often and so emphatically
that father was provoked and mother cried. Shelley didn't like
it because she was going to school in Groveville, where Lucy,
one of our married sisters, lived, and she was afraid I would
make so much work she would have to give up her books and friends
and remain at home. There never was a baby born who was any less
wanted than I was. I knew as much about it as any one else, because
from the day I could understand, all of them, father, mother,
Shelley, Sarah Hood, every one who knew, took turns telling me
how badly I was not wanted, how much trouble I made, and how Laddie
was the only one who loved me at first. Because of that I was
on the cordwood trying to find courage to go farther. Over and
over Laddie had told me himself. He had been to visit our big
sister Elizabeth over Sunday and about eight o'clock Monday morning
he came riding down the road, and saw the most dreadful thing.
There was not a curl of smoke from the chimneys, not a tablecloth
or pillowslip on the line, not a blind raised. Laddie said his
heart went--just like mine did when the Something jumped in the
creek bed, no doubt. Then he laid on the whip and rode.
He flung the rein over the hitching post, leaped the fence and
reached the back door. The young green girl, who was all father
could get when the cook left, was crying. So were Shelley and
little May, although she said afterward she had a boil on her
heel and there was no one to poultice it. Laddie leaned against
the door casing, and it is easy enough to understand what he thought.
He told me he had to try twice before he could speak, and then
he could only ask: "What's the matter?"
Probably May never thought she would have the chance, but the
others were so busy crying harder, now that they had an audience,
that she was first to tell him: "We have got a little sister."
"Great Day!" cried Laddie. "You made me think we
had a funeral! Where is mother, and where is my Little Sister?"
He went bolting right into mother's room and kissed her like the
gladdest boy alive; because he was only a boy then, and he told
her how happy he was that she was safe, and then he ASKED for
me.
He said I was the only living creature in that house who was not
shedding tears, and I didn't begin for about six months afterward.
In fact, not until Shelley taught me by pinching me if she had
to rock the cradle; then I would cry so hard mother would have
to take me. He said he didn't believe I'd ever have learned by
myself.
He took a pillow from the bed, fixed it in the rocking chair and
laid me on it. When he found that father was hitching the horses
to send Leon for Doctor Fenner, Laddie rode back after Sarah Hood
and spoiled her washing. It may be that the interest he always
took in me had its beginning in all of them scaring him with their
weeping; even Sally, whom father had to telegraph to come home,
was upstairs crying, and she was almost a woman. It may be that
all the tears they shed over not wanting me so scared Laddie that
he went farther in his welcome than he ever would have thought
of going if he hadn't done it for joy when he learned his mother
was safe. I don't care about the reason. It is enough for me that
from the hour of my birth Laddie named me Little Sister, seldom
called me anything else, and cared for me all he possibly could
to rest mother. He took me to the fields with him in the morning
and brought me back on the horse before him at noon. He could
plow with me riding the horse, drive a reaper with me on his knees,
and hoe corn while I slept on his coat in a fence corner. The
winters he was away at college left me lonely, and when he came
back for a vacation I was too happy for words. Maybe it was wrong
to love him most. I knew my mother cared for and wanted me now.
And all my secrets were not with Laddie. I had one with father
that I was never to tell so long as he lived, but it was about
the one he loved best, next after mother. Perhaps I should never
tell it, but I wouldn't be surprised if the family knew. I followed
Laddie like a faithful dog, when I was not gripping his waving
hair and riding in triumph on his shoulders. He never had to go
so fast he couldn't take me on his back. He never was in too big
a hurry to be kind. He always had patience to explain every shell,
leaf, bird, and flower I asked about. I was just as much his when
pretty young girls were around, and the house full of company,
as when we were alone. That was the reason I was shivering on
the cordwood, gripping his letter and thinking of all these things
in order to force myself to go farther.
I was excited about the Fairies too. I often had close chances
of seeing them, but I always just missed. Now here was Laddie
writing letters and expecting answers; our Big Woods Enchanted,
a Magic Carpet and the Queen's daughter becoming our size so she
could speak with him. No doubt the Queen had her grow big as Shelley,
when she sent her on an errand to tell Laddie about how to make
sunshine; because she was afraid if she went her real size he
would accidentally step on her, he was so dreadfully big.
Or maybe her voice was so fine he could not hear what she said.
He had told me I was to hurry, and I had gone as fast as I could
until Something jumped; since, I had been settled on that cordwood
like Robinson Crusoe on his desert island. I had to get down some
time; I might as well start.
I gripped the letter, slid to the ground, and ran toward the big
gate straight before me. I climbed it, clutched the note again,
and ran blindly down the road through the forest toward the creek.
I could hurry there. On either side of it I could not have run
ten steps at a time. The big trees reached so high above me it
seemed as if they would push through the floor of Heaven. I tried
to shut my ears and run so fast I couldn't hear a sound, and so
going, I soon came to the creek bank. There I turned to my right
and went slower, watching for the pawpaw thicket. On leaving the
road I thought I would have to crawl over logs and make my way;
but there seemed to be kind of a path not very plain, but travelled
enough to follow. It led straight to the thicket. At the edge
I stopped to look for the beech. It could be reached in one breathless
dash, but there seemed to be a green enclosure, so I walked around
until I found an entrance. Once there I was so amazed I stood
and stared. I was half indignant too.
Laddie hadn't done a thing but make an exact copy of my playhouse
under the biggest maiden's-blush in our orchard. He used the immense
beech for one corner, where I had the apple tree. His Magic Carpet
was woolly-dog moss, and all the magic about it, was that on the
damp woods floor, in the deep shade, the moss had taken root and
was growing as if it always had been there. He had been able to
cut and stick much larger willow sprouts for his walls than I
could, and in the wet black mould they didn't look as if they
ever had wilted. They were so fresh and green, no doubt they had
taken root and were growing. Where I had a low bench under my
tree, he had used a log; but he had hewed the top flat, and made
a moss cover. In each corner he had set a fern as high as my head.
On either side of the entrance he had planted a cluster of cardinal
flower that was in full bloom, and around the walls in a few places
thrifty bunches of Oswego tea and foxfire, that I would have walked
miles to secure for my wild garden under the Bartlett pear tree.
It was so beautiful it took my breath away.
"If the Queen's daughter doesn't like this," I said
softly, "she'll have to go to Heaven before she finds anything
better, for there can't be another place on earth so pretty."
It was wonderful how the sound of my own voice gave me courage,
even if it did seem a little strange. So I hurried to the beech,
knelt and slipped the letter in the box, and put back the bark
and stone. Laddie had said that nothing could hurt me while I
had the letter, so my protection was gone as soon as it left my
hands.
There was nothing but my feet to save me now. I thanked goodness
I was a fine runner, and started for the pawpaw thicket. Once
there, I paused only one minute to see whether the way to the
stream was clear, and while standing tense and gazing, I heard
something. For an instant it was every bit as bad as at the dry
creek. Then I realized that this was a soft voice singing, and
I forgot everything else in a glow of delight. The Princess was
coming!
Never in all my life was I so surprised, and astonished, and bewildered.
She was even larger than our Sally; her dress was pale green,
like I thought a Fairy's should be; her eyes were deep and dark
as Laddie had said, her hair hung from a part in the middle of
her forehead over her shoulders, and if she had been in the sun,
it would have gleamed like a blackbird's wing. She was just as
Laddie said she would be; she was so much more beautiful than
you would suppose any woman could be, I stood there dumbly staring.
I wouldn't have asked for any one more perfectly beautiful or
more like Laddie had said the Princess would be; but she was no
more the daughter of the Fairy Queen than I was. She was not any
more of a Princess. If father ever would tell all about the little
bauble he kept in the till of his big chest, maybe she was not
as near! She was no one on earth but one of those new English
people who had moved on the land that cornered with ours on the
northwest. She had ridden over the roads, and been at our meeting
house. There could be no mistake.
And neither father nor mother would want her on our place. They
didn't like her family at all. Mother called them the neighbourhood
mystery, and father spoke of them as the Infidels. They had dropped
from nowhere, mother said, bought that splendid big farm, moved
on and shut out every one. Before any one knew people were shut
out, mother, dressed in her finest, with Laddie driving, went
in the carriage, all shining, to make friends with them. This
very girl opened the door and said that her mother was "indisposed,"
and could not see callers. "In-dis-posed!" That's a
good word that fills your mouth, but our mother didn't like having
it used to her. She said the "saucy chit" was insulting.
Then the man came, and he said he was very sorry, but his wife
would see no one. He did invite mother in, but she wouldn't go.
She told us she could see past him into the house and there was
such finery as never in all her days had she laid eyes on. She
said he was mannerly as could be, but he had the coldest, severest
face she ever saw.
They had two men and a woman servant, and no one could coax a
word from them, about why those people acted as they did. They
said 'orse, and 'ouse, and Hengland. They talked so funny you
couldn't have understood them anyway. They never plowed or put
in a crop. They made everything into a meadow and had more horses,
cattle, and sheep than a county fair, and everything you ever
knew with feathers, even peacocks. We could hear them scream whenever
it was going to rain. Father said they sounded heathenish. I rather
liked them. The man had stacks of money or they couldn't have
lived the way they did. He came to our house twice on business:
once to see about road laws, and again about tax rates. Father
was mightily pleased at first, because Mr. Pryor seemed to have
books, and to know everything, and father thought it would be
fine to be neighbours. But the minute Mr. Pryor finished business
he began to argue that every single thing father and mother believed
was wrong. He said right out in plain English that God was a myth.
Father told him pretty quickly that no man could say that in his
house; so he left suddenly and had not been back since, and father
didn't want him ever to come again.
Then their neighbours often saw the woman around the house and
garden. She looked and acted quite as well as any one, so probably
she was not half so sick as my mother, who had nursed three of
us through typhoid fever, and then had it herself when she was
all tired out. She wouldn't let a soul know she had a pain until
she dropped over and couldn't take another step, and father or
Laddie carried her to bed. But she went everywhere, saw all her
friends, and did more good from her bed than any other woman in
our neighbourhood could on her feet. So we thought mighty little
of those Pryor people.
Every one said the girl was pretty. Then her clothes drove the
other women crazy. Some of our neighbourhood came from far down
east, like my mother. Our people back a little were from over
the sea, and they knew how things should be, to be right. Many
of the others were from Kentucky and Virginia, and they were well
dressed, proud, handsome women; none better looking anywhere.
They followed the fashions and spent much time and money on their
clothes. When it was Quarterly Meeting or the Bishop dedicated
the church or they went to town on court days, you should have
seen them--until Pryors came. Then something new happened, and
not a woman in our neighbourhood liked it. Pamela Pryor didn't
follow the fashions. She set them. If every other woman made long
tight sleeves to their wrists, she let hers flow to the elbow
and filled them with silk lining, ruffled with lace. If they wore
high neckbands, she had none, and used a flat lace collar. If
they cut their waists straight around and gathered their skirts
on six yards full, she ran hers down to a little point front and
back, that made her look slenderer, and put only half as much
goods in her skirt. Maybe Laddie rode as well as she could; he
couldn't manage a horse any better, and aside from him there wasn't
a man we knew who would have tried to ride some of the animals
she did.
If she ever worked a stroke, no one knew it. All day long she
sat in the parlour, the very best one, every day; or on benches
under the trees with embroidery frames or books, some of them
fearful, big, difficult looking ones, or rode over the country.
She rode in sunshine and she rode in storm, until you would think
she couldn't see her way through her tangled black hair. She rode
through snow and in pouring rain, when she could have stayed out
of it, if she had wanted to. She didn't seem to be afraid of anything
on earth or in Heaven. Every one thought she was like her father
and didn't believe there was any God; so when she came among us
at church or any public gathering, as she sometimes did, people
were in no hurry to be friendly, while she looked straight ahead
and never spoke until she was spoken to, and then she was precise
and cold, I tell you.
Men took off their hats, got out of the road when she came pounding
along, and stared after her like "be-addled mummies,"
my mother said. But that was all she, or any one else, could say.
The young fellows were wild about her, and if they tried to sidle
up to her in the hope that they might lead her horse or get to
hold her foot when she mounted, they always saw when they reached
her, that she wasn't there.
But she was here! I had seen her only a few times, but this was
the Pryor girl, just as sure as I would have known if it had been
Sally. What dazed me was that she answered in every particular
the description Laddie had given me of the Queen's daughter. And
worst of all, from the day she first came among us, moving so
proud and cold, blabbing old Hannah Dover said she carried herself
like a Princess--as if Hannah Dover knew HOW a Princess carried
herself!--every living soul, my father even, had called her the
Princess. At first it was because she was like they thought a
Princess would be, but later they did it in meanness, to make
fun. After they knew her name, they were used to calling her the
Princess, so they kept it up, but some of them were secretly proud
of her; because she could look, and do, and be what they would
have given anything to, and knew they couldn't to save them.
I was never in such a fix in all my life. She looked more as Laddie
had said the Princess would than you would have thought any woman
could, but she was Pamela Pryor, nevertheless. Every one called
her the Princess, but she couldn't make reality out of that. She
just couldn't be the Fairy Queen's daughter; so the letter couldn't
possibly be for her.
She had no business in our woods; you could see that they had
plenty of their own. She went straight to the door of the willow
room and walked in as if she belonged there. What if she found
the hollow and took Laddie's letter! Fast as I could slip over
the leaves, I went back. She was on the moss carpet, on her knees,
and the letter was in her fingers. It's a good thing to have your
manners soundly thrashed into you. You've got to be scared stiff
before you forget them. I wasn't so afraid of her as I would have
been if I had known she WAS the princess, and have Laddies letter,
she should not. What had the kind of girl she was, from a home
like hers, to teach any one from our house about making sunshine?
I was at the willow wall by that time peering through, so I just
parted it a little and said: "Please put back that letter
where you got it. It isn't for you."
She knelt on the mosses, the letter in her hand, and her face,
as she turned to me, was rather startled; but when she saw me
she laughed, and said in the sweetest voice I ever heard: "Are
you so very sure of that?"
"Well I ought to be," I said. "I put it there."
"Might I inquire for whom you put it there?"
"No ma'am! That's a secret."
You should have seen the light flame in her eyes, the red deepen
on her cheeks, and the little curl of laughter that curved her
lips.
"How interesting!" she cried. "I wonder now if
you are not Little Sister."
"I am to Laddie and our folks," I said. "You are
a stranger."
All the dancing lights went from her face. She looked as if she
were going to cry unless she hurried up and swallowed it down
hard and fast.
"That is quite true," she said. "I am a stranger.
Do you know that being a stranger is the hardest thing that can
happen to any one in all this world?"
"Then why don't you open your doors, invite your neighbours
in, go to see them, and stop your father from saying such dreadful
things?"
"They are not my doors," she said, "and could you
keep your father from saying anything he chooses?"
I stood and blinked at her. Of course I wouldn't even dare try
that.
"I'm so sorry," was all I could think to say.
I couldn't ask her to come to our house. I knew no one wanted
her. But if I couldn't speak for the others, surely I might for
myself. I let go the willows and went to the door. The Princess
arose and sat on the seat Laddie had made for the Queen's daughter.
It was an awful pity to tell her she shouldn't sit there, for
I had my doubts if the real, true Princess would be half as lovely
when she came--if she ever did. Some way the Princess, who was
not a Princess, appeared so real, I couldn't keep from becoming
confused and forgetting that she was only just Pamela Pryor. Already
the lovely lights had gone from her face until it made me so sad
I wanted to cry, and I was no easy cry- baby either. If I couldn't
offer friendship for my family I would for myself.
"You may call me Little Sister, if you like," I said.
"I won't be a stranger."
"Why how lovely!" cried the Princess.
You should have seen the dancing lights fly back to her eyes.
Probably you won't believe this, but the first thing I knew I
was beside her on the throne, her arm was around me, and it's
the gospel truth that she hugged me tight. I just had sense enough
to reach over and pick Laddie's letter from her fingers, and then
I was on her side. I don't know what she did to me, but all at
once I knew that she was dreadfully lonely; that she hated being
a stranger; that she was sorry enough to cry because their house
was one of mystery, and that she would open the door if she could.
"I like you," I said, reaching up to touch her curls.
I never had seen her that I did not want to. They were like I
thought they would be. Father and Laddie and some of us had wavy
hair, but hers was crisp--and it clung to your fingers, and wrapped
around them and seemed to tug at your heart like it does when
a baby grips you. I drew away my hand, and the hair stretched
out until it was long as any of ours, and then curled up again,
and you could see that no tins had stabbed into her head to make
those curls. I began trying to single out one hair.
"What are you doing?" she asked.
"I want to know if only one hair is strong enough to draw
a drowning man from the water or strangle an unhappy one,"
I said.
"Believe me, no!" cried the Princess. "It would
take all I have, woven into a rope, to do that."
"Laddie knows curls that just one hair of them is strong
enough," I boasted.
"I wonder now!" said the Princess. "I think he
must have been making poetry or telling Fairy tales."
"He was telling the truth," I assured her. "Father
doesn't believe in Fairies, and mother laughs, but Laddie and
I know. Do you believe in Fairies?"
"Of course I do!" she said.
"Then you know that this COULD be an Enchanted Wood?"
"I have found it so," said the Princess.
"And MAYBE this is a Magic Carpet?"
"It surely is a Magic Carpet."
"And you might be the daughter of the Queen? Your eyes are
`moonlit pools of darkness.' If only your hair were stronger,
and you knew about making sunshine!"
"Maybe it is stronger than I think. It never has been tested.
Perhaps I do know about making sunshine. Possibly I am as true
as the wood and the carpet."
I drew away and stared at her. The longer I looked the more uncertain
I became. Maybe her mother was the Queen. Perhaps that was the
mystery. It might be the reason she didn't want the people to
see her. Maybe she was so busy making sunshine for the Princess
to bring to Laddie that she had no time to sew carpet rags, and
to go to quiltings, and funerals, and make visits. It was hard
to know what to think.
"I wish you'd tell me plain out if you are the Queen's daughter,"
I said. "It's most important. You can't have this letter
unless I KNOW. It's the very first time Laddie ever trusted me
with a letter, and I just can't give it to the wrong person."
"Then why don't you leave it where he told you?"
"But you have gone and found the place. You started to take
it once; you would again, soon as I left."
"Look me straight in the eyes, Little Sister," said
the Princess softly. "Am I like a person who would take anything
that didn't belong to her?"
"No!" I said instantly.
"How do you think I happened to come to this place?"
"Maybe our woods are prettier than yours."
"How do you think I knew where the letter was?"
I shook my head.
"If I show you some others exactly like the one you have
there, then will you believe that is for me?"
"Yes," I answered.
I believed it anyway. It just SEEMED so, the better you knew her.
The Princess slipped her hand among the folds of the trailing
pale green skirt, and from a hidden pocket drew other letters
exactly like the one I held. She opened one and ran her finger
along the top line and I read, "To the Princess," and
then she pointed to the ending and it was merely signed, "Laddie,"
but all the words written between were his writing. Slowly I handed
her the letter.
"You don't want me to have it?" she asked.
"Yes," I said. "I want you to have it if Laddie
wrote it for you--but mother and father won't, not at all."
"What makes you think so?" she asked gently.
"Don't you know what people say about you?"
"Some of it, perhaps."
"Well?"
"Do you think it is true?"
"Not that you're stuck up, and hateful and proud, not that
you don't want to be neighbourly with other people, no, I don't
think that. But your father said in our home that there was no
God, and you wouldn't let my mother in when she put on her best
dress and went in the carriage, and wanted to be friends. I have
to believe that."
"Yes, you can't help believing that," said the Princess.
"Then can't you see why you'll be likely to show Laddie the
way to find trouble, instead of sunshine?"
"I can see," said the Princess.
"Oh Princess, you won't do it, will you?" I cried.
"Don't you think such a big man as Laddie can take care of
himself?" she asked, and the dancing lights that had begun
to fade came back. "Over there," she pointed through
our woods toward the southwest, "lives a man you know. What
do his neighbours call him?"
"Stiff-necked Johnny," I answered promptly.
"And the man who lives next him?"
"Pinch-fist Williams."
Her finger veered to another neighbour's.
"The girls of that house?"
"Giggle-head Smithsons."
"What about the man who lives over there?"
"He beats his wife."
"And the house beyond?"
"Mother whispers about them. I don't know."
"And the woman on the hill?"
"She doesn't do anything but gussip and make every one trouble."
"Exactly!" said the Princess. "Yet most of these
people come to your house, and your family goes to theirs. Do
you suppose people they know nothing about are so much worse than
these others?"
"If your father will take it back about God, and your mother
will let people in--my mother and father both wanted to be friends,
you know."
"That I can't possibly do," she said, "but maybe
I could change their feelings toward me."
"Do it!" I cried. "Oh, I'd just love you to do
it! I wish you would come to our house and be friends. Sally is
pretty as you are, only a different way, and I know she'd like
you, and so would Shelley. If Laddie writes you letters and comes
here about sunshine, of course he'd be delighted if mother knew
you; because she loves him best of any of us. She depends on him
most as much as father."
"Then will you keep the secret until I have time to try--say
until this time next year?"
"I'll keep it just as long as Laddie wants me to."
"Good!" said the Princess. "No wonder Laddie thinks
you the finest Little Sister any one ever had."
"Does Laddie think that?" I asked
"He does indeed!" said the Princess.
"Then I'm not afraid to go home," I said. "And
I'll bring his letter the next time he can't come."
"Were you scared this time?"
I told her about that Something in the dry bed, the wolves, wildcats,
Paddy Ryan, and the Gypsies.
"You little goosie," said the Princess. "I am afraid
that brother Leon of yours is the biggest rogue loose in this
part of the country. Didn't it ever occur to you that people named
Wolfe live over there, and they call that crowd next us `wildcats,'
because they just went on some land and took it, and began living
there without any more permission than real wildcats ask to enter
the woods? Do you suppose I would be here, and everywhere else
I want to go, if there were any danger? Did anything really harm
you coming?"
"You're harmed when you're scared until you can't breathe,"
I said. "Anyway, nothing could get me coming, because I held
the letter tight in my hand, like Laddie said. If you'd write
me one to take back, I'd be safe going home."
"I see," said the Princess. "But I've no pencil,
and no paper, unless I use the back of one of Laddie's letters,
and that wouldn't be polite."
"You can make new fashions," I said, "but you don't
know much about the woods, do you? I could fix fifty ways to send
a message to Laddie."
"How would you?" asked the Princess.
Running to the pawpaw bushes I pulled some big tender leaves.
Then I took the bark from the box and laid a leaf on it.
"Press with one of your rings," I said, "and print
what you want to say. I write to the Fairies every day that way,
only I use an old knife handle."
She tried. She spoiled two or three by bearing down so hard she
cut the leaves. She didn't even know enough to write on the frosty
side, until she was told. But pretty soon she got along so well
she printed all over two big ones. Then I took a stick and punched
little holes and stuck a piece of foxfire bloom through.
"What makes you do that?" she asked.
"That's the stamp," I explained.
"But it's my letter, and I didn't put it there."
"Has to be there or the Fairies won't like it," I said.
"Well then, let it go," said the Princess.
I put back the bark and replaced the stone, gathered up the scattered
leaves, and put the two with writing on between fresh ones.
"Now I must run," I said, "or Laddie will think
the Gypsies have got me sure."
"I'll go with you past the dry creek," she offered.
"You better not," I said. "I'd love to have you,
but it would be best for you to change their opinion, before father
or mother sees you on their land."
"Perhaps it would," said the Princess. "I'll wait
here until you reach the fence and then you call and I'll know
you are in the open and feel comfortable."
"I am most all over being afraid now," I told her.
Just to show her, I walked to the creek, climbed the gate and
went down the lane. Almost to the road I began wondering what
I could do with the letter, when looking ahead I saw Laddie coming.
"I was just starting to find you. You've been an age, child,"
he said.
I held up the letter.
"No one is looking," I said, "and this won't go
in your pocket."
You should have seen his face.
"Where did you get it?" he asked.
I told him all about it. I told him everything--about the hair
that maybe was stronger than she thought, and that she was going
to change father's and mother's opinions, and that I put the red
flower on, but she left it; and when I was done Laddie almost
hugged the life out of me. I never did see him so happy.
"If you be very, very careful never to breathe a whisper,
I'll take you with me some day," he promised.
CHAPTER II
Our Angel Boy
"I had a brother once--a gracious boy,
Full of all gentleness, of calmest hope,
Of sweet and quiet joy,--there was the look
Of heaven upon his face."
It was supper time when we reached home, and Bobby was at the
front gate to meet me. He always hunted me all over the place
when the big bell in the yard rang at meal time, because if he
crowed nicely when he was told, he was allowed to stand on the
back of my chair and every little while I held up my plate and
shared bites with him. I have seen many white bantams, but never
another like Bobby. My big brothers bought him for me in Fort
Wayne, and sent him in a box, alone on the cars. Father and I
drove to Groveville to meet him. The minute father pried off the
lid, Bobby hopped on the edge of the box and crowed--the biggest
crow you ever heard from such a mite of a body; he wasn't in the
least afraid of us and we were pleased about it. You scarcely
could see his beady black eyes for his bushy topknot, his wing
tips touched the ground, his tail had two beautiful plumy feathers
much longer than the others, his feet were covered with feathers,
and his knee tufts dragged. He was the sauciest, spunkiest little
fellow, and white as muslin. We went to supper together, but no
one asked where I had been, and because I was so bursting full
of importance, I talked only to Bobby, in order to be safe.
After supper I finished Hezekiah's trousers, and May cut his coat
for me. School would begin in September and our clothes were being
made, so I used the scraps to dress him. His suit was done by
the next forenoon, and father never laughed harder than when Hezekiah
hopped down the walk to meet him dressed in pink trousers and
coat. The coat had flowing sleeves like the Princess wore, so
Hezekiah could fly, and he seemed to like them.
His suit was such a success I began a sunbonnet, and when that
was tied on him, the folks almost had spasms. They said he wouldn't
like being dressed; that he would fly away to punish me, but he
did no such thing. He stayed around the house and was tame as
ever.
When I became tired sewing that afternoon, I went down the lane
leading to our meadow, where Leon was killing thistles with a
grubbing hoe. I thought he would be glad to see me, and he was.
Every one had been busy in the house, so I went to the cellar
the outside way and ate all I wanted from the cupboard. Then I
spread two big slices of bread the best I could with my fingers,
putting apple butter on one, and mashed potatoes on the other.
Leon leaned on the hoe and watched me coming. He was a hungry
boy, and lonesome too, but he couldn't be forced to say so.
"Laddie is at work in the barn," he said.
"I'm going to play in the creek," I answered.
Crossing our meadow there was a stream that had grassy banks,
big trees, willows, bushes and vines for shade, a solid pebbly
bed; it was all turns and bends so that the water hurried until
it bubbled and sang as it went; in it lived tiny fish coloured
brightly as flowers, beside it ran killdeer, plover and solemn
blue herons almost as tall as I was came from the river to fish;
for a place to play on an August afternoon, it couldn't be beaten.
The sheep had been put in the lower pasture; so the cross old
Shropshire ram was not there to bother us.
"Come to the shade," I said to Leon, and when we were
comfortably seated under a big maple weighted down with trailing
grapevines, I offered the bread. Leon took a piece in each hand
and began to eat as if he were starving. Laddie would have kissed
me and said: "What a fine treat! Thank you, Little Sister."
Leon was different. He ate so greedily you had to know he was
glad to get it, but he wouldn't say so, not if he never got any
more. When you knew him, you understood he wouldn't forget it,
and he'd be certain to do something nice for you before the day
was over to pay back. We sat there talking about everything we
saw, and at last Leon said with a grin: "Shelley isn't getting
much grape sap is she?"
"I didn't know she wanted grape sap."
"She read about it in a paper. It said to cut the vine of
a wild grape, catch the drippings and moisten your hair. This
would make it glossy and grow faster."
"What on earth does Shelley want with more hair than she
has?"
"Oh, she has heard it bragged on so much she thinks people
would say more if she could improve it."
I looked and there was the vine, dry as could be, and a milk crock
beneath it.
"Didn't the silly know she had to cut the vine in the spring
when the sap was running?"
"Bear witness, O vine! that she did not," said Leon,
"and speak, ye voiceless pottery, and testify that she expected
to find you overflowing."
"Too bad that she's going to be disappointed."
"She isn't! She's going to find ample liquid to bathe her
streaming tresses. Keep quiet and watch me."
He picked up the crock, carried it to the creek and dipped it
full of water.
"That's too much," I objected. "She'll know she
never got a crock full from a dry vine."
"She'll think the vine bled itself dry for her sake."
"She isn't that silly."
"Well then, how silly is she?" asked Leon, spilling
out half. "About so?"
"Not so bad as that. Less yet!"
"Anything to please the ladies," said Leon, pouring
out more. Then we sat and giggled a while.
"What are you going to do now?" asked Leon.
"Play in the creek," I answered.
"All right! I'll work near you."
He rolled his trousers above his knees and took the hoe, but he
was in the water most of the time. We had to climb on the bank
when we came to the deep curve, under the stump of the old oak
that father cut because Pete Billings would climb it and yowl
like a wildcat on cold winter nights. Pete was wrong in his head
like Paddy Ryan, only worse. As we passed we heard the faintest
sounds, so we lay and looked, and there in the dark place under
the roots, where the water was deepest, huddled some of the cunningest
little downy wild ducks you ever saw. We looked at each other
and never said a word. Leon chased them out with the hoe and they
swam down stream faster than old ones. I stood in the shallow
water behind them and kept them from going back to the deep place,
while Leon worked to catch them. Every time he got one he brought
it to me, and I made a bag of my apron front to put them in. The
supper bell rang before we caught all of them. We were dripping
wet with creek water and perspiration, but we had the ducks, every
one of them, and proudly started home. I'll wager Leon was sorry
he didn't wear aprons so he could carry them. He did keep the
last one in his hands, and held its little fluffy body against
his cheeks every few minutes.
"Couldn't anything be prettier than a young duck."
"Except a little guinea," I said.
"That's so!" said Leon. "They are most as pretty
as quail. I guess all young things that have down are about as
cunning as they can be. I don't believe I know which I like best,
myself."
"Baby killdeers."
"I mean tame. Things we raise."
"I'll take guineas."
"I'll say white turkeys. They seem so innocent. Nothing of
ours is pretty as these."
"But these are wild."
"So they are," said Leon. "Twelve of them. Won't
mother be pleased?"
She was not in the least. She said we were a sight to behold;
that she was ashamed to be the mother of two children who didn't
know tame ducks from wild ones. She remembered instantly that
Amanda Deam had set a speckled Dorking hen on Mallard duck eggs,
where she got the eggs, and what she paid for them. She said the
ducks had found the creek that flowed beside Deams' barnyard before
it entered our land, and they had swum away from the hen, and
both the hen and Amanda would be frantic. She put the ducks into
a basket and said to take them back soon as ever we got our suppers,
and we must hurry because we had to bathe and learn our texts
for Sunday-school in the morning.
We went through the orchard, down the hill and across the meadow
until we came to the creek. By that time we were tired of the
basket. It was one father had woven himself of shaved and soaked
hickory strips, and it was heavy. The sight of water suggested
the proper place for ducks, anyway. We talked it over and decided
that they would be much more comfortable swimming than in the
basket, and it was more fun to wade than to walk, so we went above
the deep place, I stood in the creek to keep them from going down,
and Leon poured them on the water. Pigs couldn't have acted more
contrary. Those ducks LIKED us. They wouldn't go to Deams'. They
just fought to swim back to us. Anyway, we had the worst time
you ever saw. Leon cut long switches to herd them with, and both
of us waded and tried to drive them, but they would dart under
embankments and roots, and dive and hide.
Before we reached the Deams' I wished that we had carried them
as mother told us, for we had lost three, and if we stopped to
hunt them, more would hide. By the time we drove them under the
floodgate crossing the creek between our land and the Deams' four
were gone. Leon left me on the gate with both switches to keep
them from going back and he ran to call Mrs. Deam. She had red
hair and a hot temper, and we were not very anxious to see her,
but we had to do it. While Leon was gone I was thinking pretty
fast and I knew exactly how things would happen. First time mother
saw Mrs. Deam she would ask her if the ducks were all right, and
she would tell that four were gone. Mother would ask how many
she had, and she would say twelve, then mother would remember
that she started us with twelve in the basket--Oh what's the use!
Something had to be done. It had to be done quickly too, for I
could hear Amanda Deam, her boy Sammy and Leon coming across the
barnyard. I looked around in despair, but when things are the
very worst, there is almost always some way out.
On the dry straw worked between and pushing against the panels
of the floodgate, not far from me, I saw a big black water snake.
I took one good look at it: no coppery head, no geometry patterns,
no rattlebox, so I knew it wasn't poisonous and wouldn't bite
until it was hurt, and if it did, all you had to do was to suck
the place, and it wouldn't amount to more than two little pricks
as if pins had stuck you; but a big snake was a good excuse. I
rolled from the floodgate among the ducks, and cried, "Snake!"
They scattered everywhere. The snake lazily uncoiled and slid
across the straw so slowly that--thank goodness! Amanda Deam got
a fair look at it. She immediately began to jump up and down and
scream. Leon grabbed a stick and came running to the water. I
cried so he had to help me out first.
"Don't let her count them!" I whispered.
Leon gave me one swift look and all the mischief in his blue eyes
peeped out. He was the funniest boy you ever knew, anyway. Mostly
he looked scowly and abused. He had a grievance against everybody
and everything. He said none of us liked him, and we imposed on
him. Father said that if he tanned Leon's jacket for anything,
and set him down to think it over, he would pout a while, then
he would look thoughtful, suddenly his face would light up and
he would go away sparkling; and you could depend upon it he would
do the same thing over, or something worse, inside an hour. When
he wanted to, he could smile the most winning smile, and he could
coax you into anything. Mother said she dreaded to have to borrow
a dime from him, if a peddler caught her without change, because
she knew she'd be kept paying it back for the next six months.
Right now he was the busiest kind of a boy.
"Where is it? Let me get a good lick at it! Don't scare the
ducks!" he would cry, and chase them from one bank to the
other, while Amanda danced and fought imaginary snakes. For a
woman who had seen as many as she must have in her life, it was
too funny. I don't think I could laugh harder, or Leon and Sammy.
We enjoyed ourselves so much that at last she began to be angry.
She quit dancing, and commenced hunting ducks, for sure. She held
her skirts high, poked along the banks, jumped the creek and didn't
always get clear across. Her hair shook down, she lost a sidecomb,
and she couldn't find half the ducks.
"You younguns pack right out of here," she said. "Me
and Sammy can get them better ourselves, and if we don't find
all of them, we'll know where they are."
"We haven't got any of your ducks," I said angrily,
but Leon smiled his most angelic smile, and it seemed as if he
were going to cry.
"Of course, if you want to accuse mother of stealing your
ducks, you can," he said plaintively, "but I should
think you'd be ashamed to do it, after all the trouble we took
to catch them before they swam to the river, where you never would
have found one of them. Come on, Little Sister, let's go home."
He started and I followed. As soon as we got around the bend we
sat on the bank, hung our feet in the water, leaned against each
other and laughed. We just laughed ourselves almost sick. When
Amanda's face got fire red, and her hair came down, and she jumped
and didn't go quite over, she looked a perfect fright.
"Will she ever find all of them?" I asked at last.
"Of course," said Leon. "She will comb the grass
and strain the water until she gets every one."
"Hoo-hoo!"
I looked at Leon. He was so intently watching an old turkey buzzard
hanging in the air, he never heard the call that meant it was
time for us to be home and cleaning up for Sunday. It was difficult
to hurry, for after we had been soaped and scoured, we had to
sit on the back steps and commit to memory verses from the Bible.
At last we waded toward home. Two of the ducks we had lost swam
before us all the way, so we knew they were alive, and all they
needed was finding.
"If she hadn't accused mother of stealing her old ducks,
I'd catch those and carry them back to her," said Leon. "But
since she thinks we are so mean, I'll just let her and little
Sammy find them."
Then we heard their voices as they came down the creek, so Leon
reached me his hand and we scampered across the water and meadow,
never stopping until we sat on the top rail of our back orchard
fence. There we heard another call, but that was only two. We
sat there, rested and looked at the green apples above our heads,
wishing they were ripe, and talking about the ducks. We could
see Mrs. Deam and Sammy coming down the creek, one on each side.
We slid from the fence and ran into a queer hollow that was cut
into the hill between the never-fail and the Baldwin apple trees.
That hollow was overgrown with weeds, and full of trimmings from
trees, stumps, everything that no one wanted any place else in
the orchard. It was the only unkept spot on our land, and I always
wondered why father didn't clean it out and make it look respectable.
I said so to Leon as we crouched there watching down the hill
where Mrs. Deam and Sammy hunted ducks with not such very grand
success. They seemed to have so many they couldn't decide whether
to go back or go on, so they must have found most of them.
"You know I've always had my suspicions about this place,"
said Leon. "There is somewhere on our land that people can
be hidden for a long time. I can remember well enough before the
war ever so long, and while it was going worst, we would find
the wagon covered with more mud in the morning than had been on
it at night; and the horses would be splashed and tired. Once
I was awake in the night and heard voices. It made me want a drink,
so I went downstairs for it, and ran right into the biggest, blackest
man who ever grew. If father and mother hadn't been there I'd
have been scared into fits. Next morning he was gone and there
wasn't a whisper. Father said I'd had bad dreams. That night the
horses made another mysterious trip. Now where did they keep the
black man all that day?"
"What did they have a black man for?"
"They were helping him run away from slavery to be free in
Canada. It was all right. I'd have done the same thing. They helped
a lot. Father was a friend of the Governor. There were letters
from him, and there was some good reason why father stayed at
home, when he was crazy about the war. I think this farm was what
they called an Underground Station. What I want to know is where
the station was."
"Maybe it's here. Let's hunt," I said. "If the
black men were here some time, they would have to be fed, and
this is not far from the house."
So we took long sticks and began poking into the weeds. Then we
moved the brush, and sure as you live, we found an old door with
a big stone against it. I looked at Leon and he looked at me.
"Hoo-hoo!" came mother's voice, and that was the third
call.
"Hum! Must be for us," said Leon. "We better go
as soon as we get a little dryer."
He slid down the bank on one side, and I on the other, and we
pushed at the stone. I thought we never would get it rolled away
so we could open the door a crack, but when we did what we saw
was most surprising. There was a little room, dreadfully small.
but a room. There was straw scattered over the floor, very deep
on one side, where an old blanket showed that it had been a bed.
Across the end there was a shelf. On it was a candlestick, with
a half-burned candle in it, a pie pan with some mouldy crumbs,
crusts, bones in it, and a tin can. Leon picked up the can and
looked in. I could see too.
It had been used for water or coffee, as the plate had for food,
once, but now it was stuffed full of money. I saw Leon pull some
out and then shove it back, and he came to the door white as could
be, shut it behind him and began to push at the stone. When we
got it in place we put the brush over it, and fixed everything
like it had been.
At last Leon said: "That's the time we got into something
not intended for us, and if father finds it out, we are in for
a good thrashing. Are you just a blubbering baby, or are you big
enough to keep still?"
"I am old enough that I could have gone to school two years
ago, and I won't tell!" I said stoutly.
"All right! Come on then," said Leon. "I don't
know but mother has been calling us."
We started up the orchard path at the fourth call.
"Hoo-hoo!" answered Leon in a sick little voice to make
it sound far away. Must have made mother think we were on Deams'
hill. Then we went on side by side.
"Say Leon, you found the Station, didn't you?"
"Don't talk about it!" snapped Leon.
I changed the subject
"Whose money do you suppose that is?"
"Oh crackey! You can depend on a girl to see everything,"
groaned Leon. "Do you think you'll be able to stand the switching
that job will bring you, without getting sick in bed?"
Now I never had been sick in bed, and from what I had seen of
other people who were, I never wanted to be. The idea of being
switched until it made me sick was too much for me. I shut my
mouth tight and I never opened it about the Station place. As
we reached the maiden's-blush apple tree came another call, and
it sounded pretty cross, I can tell you. Leon reached his hand.
"Now, it's time to run. Let me do the talking."
We were out of breath when we reached the back door. There stood
the tub on the kitchen floor, the boiler on the stove, soap, towels,
and clean clothing on chairs. Leon had his turn at having his
ears washed first, because he could bathe himself while mother
did my hair.
"Was Mrs. Deam glad to get her ducks back?" she asked
as she fine-combed Leon.
"Aw, you never can tell whether she's glad about anything
or not," growled Leon. "You'd have thought from the
way she acted, that we'd been trying to steal her ducks. She said
if she missed any she'd know where to find them."
"Well as I live!" cried mother. "Why I wouldn't
have believed that of Amanda Deam. You told her you thought they
were wild, of course."
"I didn't have a chance to tell her anything. The minute
the ducks struck the water they started right back down stream,
and there was a big snake, and we had an awful time. We got wet
trying to head them back, and then we didn't find all of them."
"They are like little eels. You should have helped Amanda."
"Well, you called so cross we thought you would come after
us, so we had to run."
"One never knows," sighed mother. "I thought you
were loitering.
Of course if I had known you were having trouble with the ducks!
I think you had better go back and help them."
"Didn't I do enough to take them home? Can't Sammy Deam catch
ducks as fast as I can?"
"I suppose so," said mother. "And I must get your
bathing out of the way of supper. You use the tub while I do Little
Sister's hair."
I almost hated Sunday, because of what had to be done to my hair
on Saturday, to get ready for it. All week it hung in two long
braids that were brushed and arranged each morning. But on Saturday
it had to be combed with a fine comb, oiled and rolled around
strips of tin until Sunday morning. Mother did everything thoroughly.
She raked that fine comb over our scalps until she almost raised
the blood. She hadn't time to fool with tangles, and we had so
much hair she didn't know what to do with all of it, anyway. When
she was busy talking she reached around too far and combed across
our foreheads or raked the tip of an ear.
But on Sunday morning we forgot all that, when we walked down
the aisle with shining curls hanging below our waists. Mother
was using the fine comb, when she looked up, and there stood Mrs.
Freshett. We could see at a glance that she was out of breath.
"Have I beat them?" she cried.
"Whom are you trying to beat?" asked mother as she told
May to set a chair for Mrs. Freshett and bring her a drink.
"The grave-kiver men," she said. "I wanted to get
to you first."
"Well, you have," said mother. "Rest a while and
then tell me."
But Mrs. Freshett was so excited she couldn't rest.
"I thought they were coming straight on down," she said,
"but they must have turned off at the cross roads. I want
to do what's right by my children here or there," panted
Mrs. Freshett, "and these men seemed to think the contrivance
they was sellin' perfectly grand, an' like to be an aid to the
soul's salvation. Nice as it seemed, an' convincin' as they talked,
I couldn't get the consent of my mind to order, until I knowed
if you was goin' to kiver your dead with the contraption. None
of the rest of the neighbours seem over friendly to me, an' I've
told Josiah many's the time, that I didn't care a rap if they
wa'n't, so long as I had you. Says I, `Josiah, to my way of thinkin',
she is top crust in this neighbourhood, and I'm on the safe side
apin' her ways clost as possible.'"
"I'll gladly help you all I can," said my mother.
"Thanky!" said Mrs. Freshett. "I knowed you would.
Josiah he says to me, `Don't you be apin' nobody.' `Josiah,' says
I, `it takes a pretty smart woman in this world to realize what
she doesn't know. Now I know what I know, well enough, but all
I know is like to keep me an' my children in a log cabin an' on
log cabin ways to the end of our time. You ain't even got the
remains of the cabin you started in for a cow shed.' Says I, `Josiah,
Miss Stanton knows how to get out of a cabin an' into a grand
big palace, fit fur a queen woman. She's a ridin' in a shinin'
kerridge, 'stid of a spring wagon. She goes abroad dressed so's
you men all stand starin' like cabbage heads. All hern go to church,
an' Sunday-school, an' college, an' come out on the top of the
heap. She does jest what I'd like to if I knowed how. An' she
ain't come-uppety one morsel.' If I was to strike acrost fields
to them stuck-up Pryors, I'd get the door slammed in my face if
'twas the missus, a sneer if 'twas the man, an' at best a nod
cold as an iceberg if 'twas the girl. Them as want to call her
kind `Princess,' and encourage her in being more stuck up 'an
she was born to be, can, but to my mind a Princess is a person
who thinks of some one besides herself once in a while."
"I don't find the Pryors easy to become acquainted with,"
said mother. "I have never met the woman; I know the man
very slightly; he has been here on business once or twice, but
the girl seems as if she would be nice, if one knew her."
"Well, I wouldn't have s'posed she was your kind," said
Mrs. Freshett. "If she is, I won't open my head against her
any more.
Anyway, it was the grave-kivers I come about."
"Just what is it, Mrs. Freshett?" asked mother.
"It's two men sellin' a patent iron kiver for to protect
the graves of your dead from the sun an' the rain."
"Who wants the graves of their dead protected from the sun
and the rain?" demanded my mother sharply.
"I said to Josiah, `I don't know how she'll feel about it,
but I can't do more than ask.'"
"Do they carry a sample? What is it like?"
"Jest the len'th an' width of a grave. They got from baby
to six-footer sizes. They are cast iron like the bottom of a cook
stove on the under side, but atop they are polished so they shine
somethin' beautiful. You can get them in a solid piece, or with
a hole in the centre about the size of a milk crock to set flowers
through. They come ten to the grave, an' they are mighty stylish
lookin' things. I have been savin' all I could skimp from butter,
an' eggs, to get Samantha a organ; but says I to her: `You are
gettin' all I can do for you every day; there lays your poor brother
'at ain't had a finger lifted for him since he was took so sudden
he was gone before I knowed he was goin'.' I never can get over
Henry bein' took the way he was, so I says: `If this would be
a nice thing to have for Henry's grave, and the neighbours are
goin' to have them for theirn, looks to me like some of the organ
money will have to go, an' we'll make it up later.' I don't 'low
for Henry to be slighted bekase he rid himself to death trying
to make a president out of his pa's gin'ral."
"You never told me how you lost your son," said mother,
feeling so badly she wiped one of my eyes full of oil.
"Law now, didn't I?" inquired Mrs. Freshett. "Well
mebby that is bekase I ain't had a chance to tell you much of
anythin', your bein' always so busy like, an' me not wantin' to
wear out my welcome. It was like this: All endurin' the war Henry
an' me did the best we could without pa at home, but by the time
it was over, Henry was most a man. Seemed as if when he got home,
his pa was all tired out and glad to set down an' rest, but Henry
was afire to be up an' goin'. His pa filled him so full o' Grant,
it was runnin' out of his ears. Come the second run the Gin'ral
made, peered like Henry set out to 'lect him all by hisself. He
wore every horse on the place out, ridin' to rallies. Sometimes
he was gone three days at a stretch. He'd git one place an' hear
of a rally on ten miles or so furder, an' blest if he didn't ride
plum acrost the state 'fore he got through with one trip. He set
out in July, and he rid right straight through to November, nigh
onto every day of his life. He got white, an' thin, an' narvous,
from loss of sleep an' lack of food, an' his pa got restless,
said Henry was takin' the 'lection more serious 'an he ever took
the war. Last few days before votin' was cold an' raw an' Henry
rid constant. 'Lection day he couldn't vote, for he lacked a year
of bein' o' age, an' he rid in with a hard chill, an' white as
a ghost, an' he says: `Ma,' says he, `I've 'lected Grant, but
I'm all tuckered out. Put me to bed an' kiver me warm.'"
I forgot the sting in my eyes watching Mrs. Freshett. She was
the largest woman I knew, and strong as most men. Her hair was
black and glisteny, her eyes black, her cheeks red, her skin a
clear, even dark tint. She was handsome, she was honest, and she
was in earnest over everything. There was something about her,
or her family, that had to be told in whispers, and some of the
neighbours would have nothing to do with her. But mother said
Mrs. Freshett was doing the very best she knew, and for the sake
of that, and of her children, anyone who wouldn't help her was
not a Christian, and not to be a Christian was the very worst
thing that could happen to you. I stared at her steadily. She
talked straight along, so rapidly you scarcely could keep up with
the words; you couldn't if you wanted to think about them any
between. There was not a quiver in her voice, but from her eyes
there rolled, steadily, the biggest, roundest tears I ever saw.
They ran down her cheeks, formed a stream in the first groove
of her double chin, overflowed it, and dripped drop, drop, a drop
at a time, on the breast of her stiffly starched calico dress,
and from there shot to her knees.
"'Twa'n't no time at all 'til he was chokin' an' burnin'
red with fever, an' his pa and me, stout as we be, couldn't hold
him down nor keep him kivered. He was speechifyin' to beat anythin'
you ever heard. His pa said he was repeatin' what he'd heard said
by every big stump speaker from Greeley to Logan. When he got
so hoarse we couldn't tell what he said any more, he jest mouthed
it, an' at last he dropped back and laid like he was pinned to
the sheets, an' I thought he was restin', but 'twa'n't an hour
'til he was gone."
Suddenly Mrs. Freshett lifted her apron, covered her face and
sobbed until her broad shoulders shook.
"Oh you poor soul!" said my mother. "I'm so sorry
for you!"
"I never knowed he was a-goin' until he was gone," she
said. "He was the only one of mine I ever lost, an' I thought
it would jest lay me out. I couldn't 'a' stood it at all if I
hadn't 'a' knowed he was saved. I well know my Henry went straight
to Heaven. Why Miss Stanton, he riz right up in bed at the last,
and clear and strong he jest yelled it: `Hurrah fur Grant!'"
My mother's fingers tightened in my hair until I thought she would
pull out a lot, and I could feel her knees stiffen. Leon just
whooped. Mother sprang up and ran to the door.
"Leon!" she cried. Then there was a slam. "What
in the world is the matter?" she asked.
"Stepped out of the tub right on the soap, and it threw me
down," explained Leon.
"For mercy sake, be careful!" said my mother, and shut
the door.
It wasn't a minute before the knob turned and it opened again
a little.
I never saw mother's face look so queer, but at last she said
softly: "You were thinking of the grave cover for him?"
"Yes, but I wanted to ask you before I bound myself. I heard
you lost two when the scarlet fever was ragin' an' I'm goin' to
do jest what you do. If you have kivers, I will. If you don't
like them when you see how bright and shiny they are, I won't
get any either."
"I can tell you without seeing them, Mrs. Freshett,"
said my mother, wrapping a strand of hair around the tin so tight
I slipped up my fingers to feel whether my neck wasn't like a
buck- eye hull looks, and it was. "I don't want any cover
for the graves of my dead but grass and flowers, and sky and clouds.
I like the rain to fall on them, and the sun to shine, so that
the grass and flowers will grow. If you are satisfied that the
soul of Henry is safe in Heaven, that is all that is necessary.
Laying a slab of iron on top of earth six feet above his body
will make no difference to him. If he is singing with the angels,
by all means save your money for the organ."
"I don't know about the singin', but I'd stake my last red
cent he's still hollerin' fur Grant. I was kind o' took with the
idea; the things was so shiny and scilloped at the edges, peered
like it was payin' considerable respect to the dead to kiver them
that-a-way."
"What good would it do?" asked mother. "The sun
shining on the iron would make it so hot it would burn any flower
you tried to plant in the opening; the water couldn't reach the
roots, and all that fell on the slab would run off and make it
that much wetter at the edges. The iron would soon rust and grow
dreadfully ugly lying under winter snow. There is nothing at all
in it, save a method to work on the feelings of the living, and
get them to pay their money for something that wouldn't affect
their dead a particle."
"'Twould be a poor idea for me," said Mrs. Freshett.
"I said to the men that I wanted to honour Henry all I could,
but with my bulk, I'd hev all I could do, come Jedgment Day, to
bust my box, an' heave up the clods, without havin' to hist up
a piece of iron an' klim from under it."
Mother stiffened and Leon slipped again. He could have more accidents
than any boy I ever knew. But it was only a few minutes until
he came to mother and gave her a Bible to mark the verses he had
to learn to recite at Sunday-school next day. Mother couldn't
take the time when she had company, so she asked if he weren't
big enough to pick out ten proper verses and learn them by himself,
and he said of course he was. He took his Bible and he and May
and I sat on the back steps and studied our verses. He and May
were so big they had ten; but I had only two, and mine were not
very long. Leon giggled half the time he was studying. I haven't
found anything so very funny in the Bible. Every few minutes he
would whisper to himself: "THAT'S A GOOD ONE!"
He took the book and heard May do hers until she had them perfectly,
then he went and sat on the back fence with his book and studied
as I never before had seen him. Mrs. Freshett stayed so long mother
had no time to hear him, but he told her he had them all learned
so he could repeat them without a mistake.
Next morning mother was busy, so she had no time then. Father,
Shelley, and I rode on the front seat, mother, May, and Sally
on the back, while the boys started early and walked.
When we reached the top of the hill, the road was lined with carriages,
wagons, spring wagons, and saddle horses. Father found a place
for our team and we went down the walk between the hitching rack
and the cemetery fence. Mother opened the gate and knelt beside
two small graves covered with grass, shaded by yellow rose bushes,
and marked with little white stones. She laid some flowers on
each and wiped the dust from the carved letters with her handkerchief.
The little sisters who had scarlet fever and whooping cough lay
there. Mother was still a minute and then she said softly: "`The
Lord has given and the Lord has taken away. Blessed be the name
of the Lord.'"
She was very pale when she came to us, but her eyes were bright
and she smiled as she put her arms around as many of us as she
could reach.
"What a beautiful horse!" said Sally. "Look at
that saddle and bridle! The Pryor girl is here."
"Why should she come?" asked Shelley.
"To show her fine clothes and queen it over us!"
"Children, children!" said mother. "`Judge not!'
This is a house of worship. The Lord may be drawing her in His
own way. It is for us to help Him by being kind and making her
welcome."
At the church door we parted and sat with our teachers, but for
the first time as I went down the aisle I was not thinking of
my linen dress, my patent leather slippers, and my pretty curls.
It suddenly seemed cheap to me to twist my hair when it was straight
as a shingle, and cut my head on tin. If the Lord had wanted me
to have curls, my hair would have been like Sally's. Seemed to
me hers tried to see into what big soft curls it could roll. May
said ours was so straight it bent back the other way. Anyway,
I made up my mind to talk it over with father and always wear
braids after that, if I could get him to coax mother to let me.
Our church was quite new and it was beautiful. All the casings
were oiled wood, and the walls had just a little yellow in the
last skin coating used to make them smooth, so they were a creamy
colour, and the blinds were yellow. The windows were wide open
and the wind drifted through, while the birds sang as much as
they ever do in August, among the trees and bushes of the cemetery.
Every one had planted so many flowers of all kinds on the graves
you could scent sweet odours. Often a big, black- striped, brown
butterfly came sailing in through one of the windows, followed
the draft across the room, and out of another. I was thinking
something funny: it was about what the Princess had said of other
people, and whether hers were worse. I looked at my father sitting
in calm dignity in his Sunday suit and thought him quite as fine
and handsome as mother did. Every Sabbath he wore the same suit,
he sat in the same spot, he worshipped the Lord in his calm, earnest
way. The ministers changed, but father was as much a part of the
service as the Bible on the desk or the communion table. I wondered
if people said things about him, and if they did, what they were.
I never had heard. Twisting in my seat, one by one I studied the
faces on the men's side, and then the women. It was a mighty good-
looking crowd. Some had finer clothes than others--that is always
the way--but as a rule every one was clean, neat, and good to
see. From some you scarcely could turn away. There was Widow Fall.
She was French, from Virginia, and she talked like little tinkly
notes of music. I just loved to hear her, and she walked like
high-up royalty. Her dress was always black, with white bands
at the neck and sleeves, black rustly silk, and her eyes and hair
were like the dress. There was a little red on her cheeks and
lips, and her face was always grave until she saw you directly
before her, and then she smiled the sweetest smile.
Maybe Sarah Hood was not pretty, but there was something about
her lean face and shining eyes that made you look twice before
you were sure of it, and by that time you had got so used to her,
you liked her better as she was, and wouldn't have changed her
for anything. Mrs. Fritz had a pretty face and dresses and manners,
and so did Hannah Dover, only she talked too much. So I studied
them and remembered what the Princess had said, and I wondered
if she heard some one say that Peter Justice beat his wife, or
if she showed it in her face and manner. She reminded me of a
scared cowslip that had been cut and laid in the sun an hour.
I don't know as that expresses it. Perhaps a flower couldn't look
scared, but it could be wilted and faded. I wondered if she ever
had bright hair, laughing eyes, and red in her lips and cheeks.
She must have been pretty if she had.
At last I reached my mother. There was nothing scared or faded
about her, and she was dreadfully sick too, once in a while since
she had the fever. She was a little bit of a woman, coloured like
a wild rose petal, face and body--a piece of pink porcelain Dutch,
father said. She had brown eyes, hair like silk, and she always
had three best dresses. There was one of alpaca or woollen, of
black, gray or brown, and two silks. Always there was a fine rustly
black one with a bonnet and mantle to match, and then a softer,
finer one of either gold brown, like her hair, or dainty gray,
like a dove's wing. When these grew too old for fine use, she
wore them to Sunday-school and had a fresh one for best. There
was a new gray in her closet at home, so she put on the old brown
to-day, and she was lovely in it.
Usually the minister didn't come for church services until Sunday-school
was half over, so the superintendent read a chapter, Daddy Debs
prayed, and all of us stood up and sang: "Ring Out the Joy
Bells." Then the superintendent read the lesson over as impressively
as he could. The secretary made his report, we sang another song,
gathered the pennies, and each teacher took a class and talked
over the lesson a few minutes. Then we repeated the verses we
had committed to memory to our teachers; the member of each class
who had learned the nicest texts, and knew them best, was selected
to recite before the school. Beginning with the littlest people,
we came to the big folks. Each one recited two texts until they
reached the class above mine. We walked to the front, stood inside
the altar, made a little bow, and the superintendent kept score.
I could see that mother appeared worried when Leon's name was
called for his class, for she hadn't heard him, and she was afraid
he would forget.
Among the funny things about Leon was this: while you had to drive
other boys of his age to recite, you almost had to hold him to
keep him from it. Father said he was born for a politician or
a preacher, if he would be good, and grow into the right kind
of a man to do such responsible work.
"I forgot several last Sabbath, so I have thirteen to-day,"
he said politely.
Of course no one expected anything like that. You never knew what
might happen when Leon did anything. He must have been about sixteen.
He was a slender lad, having almost sandy hair, like his English
grandfather. He wore a white ruffled shirt with a broad collar,
and cuffs turning back over his black jacket, and his trousers
fitted his slight legs closely. The wind whipped his soft black
tie a little and ruffled the light hair where it was longest and
wavy above his forehead. Such a perfect picture of innocence you
never saw. There was one part of him that couldn't be described
any better than the way Mr. Rienzi told about his brother in his
"Address to the Romans," in McGuffey's Sixth. "The
look of heaven on his face" stayed most of the time; again,
there was a dealish twinkle that sparkled and flashed while he
was thinking up something mischievous to do. When he was fighting
angry, and going to thrash Absalom Saunders or die trying, he
was plain white and his eyes were like steel. Mother called him
"Weiscope," half the time. I can only spell the way
that sounds, but it means "white-head," and she always
used that name when she loved him most. "The look of heaven"
was strong on his face now.
"One," said the recording secretary.
"Jesus wept," answered Leon promptly.
There was not a sound in the church. You could almost hear the
butterflies pass. Father looked down and laid his lower lip in
folds with his fingers, like he did sometimes when it wouldn't
behave to suit him.
"Two," said the secretary after just a breath of pause.
Leon looked over the congregation easily and then fastened his
eyes on Abram Saunders, the father of Absalom, and said reprovingly:
"Give not sleep to thine eyes nor slumber to thine eyelids."
Abram straightened up suddenly and blinked in astonishment, while
father held fast to his lip.
"Three," called the secretary hurriedly.
Leon shifted his gaze to Betsy Alton, who hadn't spoken to her
next door neighbour in five years.
"Hatred stirreth up strife," he told her softly, "but
love covereth all sins."
Things were so quiet it seemed as if the air would snap.
"Four."
The mild blue eyes travelled back to the men's side and settled
on Isaac Thomas, a man too lazy to plow and sow land his father
had left him. They were not so mild, and the voice was touched
with command: "Go to the ant, thou sluggard, consider her
ways and be wise."
Still that silence.
"Five," said the secretary hurriedly, as if he wished
it were over. Back came the eyes to the women's side and past
all question looked straight at Hannah Dover.
"As a jewel of gold in a swine's snout, so is a fair woman
without discretion."
"Six," said the secretary and looked appealingly at
father, whose face was filled with dismay.
Again Leon's eyes crossed the aisle and he looked directly at
the man whom everybody in the community called "Stiff-necked
Johnny."
I think he was rather proud of it, he worked so hard to keep them
doing it.
"Lift not up your horn on high: speak not with a stiff neck,"
Leon commanded him.
Toward the door some one tittered.
"Seven," called the secretary hastily.
Leon glanced around the room.
"But how good and how pleasant it is for brethren to dwell
together in unity," he announced in delighted tones as if
he had found it out by himself.
"Eight," called the secretary with something like a
breath of relief.
Our angel boy never had looked so angelic, and he was beaming
on the Princess.
"Thou art all fair, my love; there is no spot in thee,"
he told her.
Laddie would thrash him for that.
Instantly after, "Nine," he recited straight at Laddie:
"I made a covenant with mine eyes; why then should I think
upon a maid?"
More than one giggled that time.
"Ten!" came almost sharply.
Leon looked scared for the first time. He actually seemed to shiver.
Maybe he realized at last that it was a pretty serious thing he
was doing. When he spoke he said these words in the most surprised
voice you ever heard: "I was almost in all evil in the midst
of the congregation and assembly."
"Eleven."
Perhaps these words are in the Bible. They are not there to read
the way Leon repeated them, for he put a short pause after the
first name, and he glanced toward our father: "Jesus Christ,
the SAME, yesterday, and to-day, and forever!"
Sure as you live my mother's shoulders shook.
"Twelve."
Suddenly Leon seemed to be forsaken. He surely shrank in size
and appeared abused.
"When my father and my mother forsake me, then the Lord will
take me up," he announced, and looked as happy over the ending
as he had seemed forlorn at the beginning.
"Thirteen."
"The Lord is on my side; I will not fear; what can man do
unto me?" inquired Leon of every one in the church. Then
he soberly made a bow and walked to his seat.
Father's voice broke that silence. "Let us kneel in prayer,"
he said.
He took a step forward, knelt, laid his hands on the altar, closed
his eyes and turned his face upward.
"Our Heavenly Father, we come before Thee in a trying situation,"
he said. "Thy word of truth has been spoken to us by a thoughtless
boy, whether in a spirit of helpfulness or of jest, Thou knowest.
Since we are reasoning creatures, it little matters in what form
Thy truth comes to us; the essential thing is that we soften our
hearts for its entrance, and grow in grace by its application.
Tears of compassion such as our dear Saviour wept are in our eyes
this morning as we plead with Thee to help us to apply these words
to the betterment of this community."
Then father began to pray. If the Lord had been standing six feet
in front of him, and his life had depended on what he said, he
could have prayed no harder. Goodness knows how fathers remember.
He began at "Jesus wept" and told about this sinful
world and why He wept over it; then one at a time he took those
other twelve verses and hammered them down where they belonged
much harder than Leon ever could by merely looking at people.
After that he prayed all around each one so fervently that those
who had been hit the very worst cried aloud and said: "Amen!"
You wouldn't think any one could do a thing like that; but I heard
and saw my father do it.
When he arose the tears were running down his cheeks, and before
him stood Leon. He was white as could be, but he spoke out loudly
and clearly.
"Please forgive me, sir; I didn't intend to hurt your feelings.
Please every one forgive me. I didn't mean to offend any one.
It happened through hunting short verses. All the short ones seemed
to be like that, and they made me think----"
He got no farther. Father must have been afraid of what he might
say next. He threw his arms around Leon's shoulders, drew him
to the seat, and with the tears still rolling, he laughed as happily
as you ever heard, and he cried: "`Sweeping through the Gates!'
All join in!"
You never heard such singing in your life. That was another wonderful
thing. My father didn't know the notes. He couldn't sing; he said
so himself. Neither could half the people there, yet all of them
were singing at the tops of their voices, and I don't believe
the angels in Heaven could make grander music. My father was leading:
"These, these are they, who in the conflict dire----"
You could tell Emanuel Ripley had been in the war from the way
he roared:
"Boldly have stood amidst the hottest fire----"
The Widow Fall soared above all of them on the next line; her
man was there, and maybe she was lonely and would have been glad
to go to him:
"Jesus now says, `Come up higher----'"
Then my little mother:
"Washed in the blood of the Lamb----"
Like thunder all of them rolled into the chorus:
"Sweepin, through the gates to the New Jerusalem----"
You wouldn't have been left out of that company for anything in
all this world, and nothing else ever could make you want to go
so badly as to hear every one sing, straight from the heart, a
grand old song like that. It is no right way to have to sit and
keep still, and pay other people money to sing about Heaven to
you. No matter if you can't sing by note, if your heart and soul
are full, until they are running over, so that you are forced
to sing as those people did, whether you can or not, you are sure
to be straight on the way to the Gates.
Before three lines were finished my father was keeping time like
a choirmaster, his face all beaming with shining light; mother
was rocking on her toes like a wood robin on a twig at twilight,
and at the end of the chorus she cried "Glory!" right
out loud, and turned and started down the aisle, shaking hands
with every one, singing as she went. When she reached Betsy Alton
she held her hand and led her down the aisle straight toward Rachel
Brown.
When Rachel saw them coming she hurried to meet them, and they
shook hands and were glad to make up as any two people you ever
saw. It must have been perfectly dreadful to see a woman every
day for five years, and not to give her a pie, when you felt sure
yours were better than she could make, or loan her a new pattern,
or tell her first who had a baby, or was married, or dead, or
anything like that. It was no wonder they felt glad. Mother came
on, and as she passed me the verses were all finished and every
one began talking and moving. Johnny Dover forgot his neck and
shook hands too, and father pronounced the benediction. He always
had to when the minister wasn't there, because he was ordained
himself, and you didn't dare pronounce the benediction unless
you were.
Every one began talking again, and wondering if the minister wouldn't
come soon, and some one went out to see. There was mother standing
only a few feet from the Princess, and I thought of something.
I had seen it done often enough, but I never had tried it myself,
yet I wanted to so badly, there was no time to think how scared
I would be. I took mother's hand and led her a few steps farther
and said: "Mother, this is my friend, Pamela Pryor."
I believe I did it fairly well. Mother must have been surprised,
but she put out her hand.
"I didn't know Miss Pryor and you were acquainted."
"It's only been a little while," I told her. "I
met her when I was on some business with the Fairies. They know
everything and they told me her father was busy"--I thought
she wouldn't want me to tell that he was plain CROSS, where every
one could hear, so I said "busy" for politeness--"and
her mother not very strong, and that she was a good girl, and
dreadfully lonesome. Can't you do something, mother?"
"Well, I should think so!" said mother, for her heart
was soft as rose leaves. Maybe you won't believe this, but it's
quite true. My mother took the Princess' arm and led her to Sally
and Shelley, and introduced her to all the girls. By the time
the minister came and mother went back to her seat, she had forgotten
all about the "indisposed" word she disliked, and as
you live! she invited the Princess to go home with us to dinner.
She stood tall and straight, her eyes very bright, and her cheeks
a little redder than usual, as she shook hands and said a few
pleasant words that were like from a book, they fitted and were
so right. When mother asked her to dinner she said: "Thank
you kindly. I should be glad to go, but my people expect me at
home and they would be uneasy. Perhaps you would allow me to ride
over some week day and become acquainted?"
Mother said she would be happy to have her, and Shelley said so
too, but Sally was none too cordial. She had dark curls and pink
cheeks herself, and every one had said she was the prettiest girl
in the county before Shelley began to blossom out and show what
she was going to be. Sally never minded that, but when the Princess
came she was a little taller, and her hair was a trifle longer,
and heavier, and blacker, and her eyes were a little larger and
darker, and where Sally had pink skin and red lips, the Princess
was dark as olive, and her lips and cheeks were like red velvet.
Anyway, the Princess had said she would come over; mother and
Shelley had been decent to her, and Sally hadn't been exactly
insulting. It would be a little more than you could expect for
her to be wild about the Princess. I believe she was pleased over
having been invited to dinner, and as she was a stranger she couldn't
know that mother had what we called the "invitation habit."
I have seen her ask from fifteen to twenty in one trip down the
aisle on Sunday morning. She wanted them to come too; the more
who came, the better she liked it. If the hitching rack and barnyard
were full on Sunday she just beamed. If the sermon pleased her,
she invited more. That morning she was feeling so good she asked
seventeen; and as she only had dressed six chickens--third table,
backs and ham, for me as usual; but when the prospects were as
now, I always managed to coax a few gizzards from Candace; she
didn't dare give me livers--they were counted. Almost everyone
in the church was the happiest that morning they had been in years.
When the preacher came, he breathed it from the air, and it worked
on him so he preached the best sermon he ever had, and never knew
that Leon made him do it.
Maybe after all it's a good thing to tell people about their meanness
and give them a stirring up once in a while.
CHAPTER III
Mr. Pryor's Door
"Grief will be joy if on its edge
Fall soft that holiest ray,
Joy will be grief if no faint pledge
Be there of heavenly day."
Have Sally and Peter said anything about getting married yet?"
asked my big sister Lucy of mother. Lucy was home on a visit.
She was bathing her baby and mother was sewing.
"Not a word!"
"Are they engaged?"
"Sally hasn't mentioned it."
"Well, can't you find out?"
"How could I?" asked mother.
"Why, watch them a little and see how they act when they
are together. If he kisses her when he leaves, of course they
are engaged."
"It would be best to wait until Sally tells me," laughed
mother.
I heard this from the back steps. Neither mother nor Lucy knew
I was there. I went in to see if they would let me take the baby.
Of course they wouldn't! Mother took it herself. She was rocking,
and softly singing my Dutch song that I loved best; I can't spell
it, but it sounds like this:
"Trus, trus, trill;
Der power rid der fill,
Fill sphring aveck,
Plodschlicter power in der dreck."
Once I asked mother to sing it in English, and she couldn't because
it didn't rhyme that way and the words wouldn't fit the notes;
it was just, "Trot, trot, trot, a boy rode a colt. The colt
sprang aside; down went the boy in the dirt."
"Aw, don't sing my song to that little red, pug-nosed bald-head!"
I said.
Really, it was a very nice baby; I only said that because I wanted
to hold it, and mother wouldn't give it up. I tried to coax May
to the dam snake hunting, but she couldn't go, so I had to amuse
myself. I had a doll, but I never played with it except when I
was dressed up on Sunday. Anyway, what's the use of a doll when
there's a live baby in the house? I didn't care much for my playhouse
since I had seen one so much finer that Laddie had made for the
Princess. Of course I knew moss wouldn't take root in our orchard
as it did in the woods, neither would willow cuttings or the red
flowers. Finally, I decided to go hunting. I went into the garden
and gathered every ripe touch-me-not pod I could find, and all
the portulaca. Then I stripped the tiger lilies of each little
black ball at the bases of the leaves, and took all the four o'clock
seed there was. Then I got my biggest alder popgun and started
up the road toward Sarah Hood's.
I was going along singing a little verse; it wasn't Dutch either;
the old baby could have that if it wanted it. Soon as I got from
sight of the house I made a powderhorn of a curled leaf, loaded
my gun with portulaca powder, rammed in a tiger lily bullet, laid
the weapon across my shoulder, and stepped high and lightly as
Laddie does when he's in the Big Woods hunting for squirrel. It
must have been my own singing--I am rather good at hearing things,
but I never noticed a sound that time, until a voice like a rusty
saw said: "Good morning, Nimrod!"
I sprang from the soft dust and landed among the dog fennel of
a fence corner, in a flying leap. Then I looked. It was the Princess'
father, tall, and gray, and grim, riding a big black horse that
seemed as if it had been curried with the fine comb and brushed
with the grease rag.
"Good morning!" I said when I could speak.
"Am I correct in the surmise that you are on the chase with
a popgun?" he asked politely.
"Yes sir," I answered, getting my breath the best I
could.
It came easier after I noticed he didn't seem to be angry about
anything.
"Where is your hunting ground, and what game are you after?"
he asked gravely.
"You can see the great African jungle over there. I am going
to hunt for lions and tigers."
You always must answer politely any one who speaks to you; and
you get soundly thrashed, at least at our house, if you don't
be politest of all to an older person especially with white hair.
Father is extremely particular about white hair. It is a "crown
of glory," when it is found in the way of the Lord. Mahlon
Pryor had enough crown of glory for three men, but maybe his wasn't
exactly glory, because he wasn't in the way of the Lord. He was
in a way of his own. He must have had much confidence in himself.
At our house we would rather trust in the Lord. I only told him
about the lions and tigers because he asked me, and that was the
way I played. But you should have heard him laugh. You wouldn't
have supposed to see him that he could.
"Umph!" he said at last. "I am a little curious
about your ammunition. Just how to you bring down your prey?"
"I use portulaca powder and tiger lily bullets on the tigers,
and four o'clocks on the lions," I said.
You could have heard him a mile, dried up as he was.
"I used to wear a red coat and ride to the hounds fox hunting,"
he said. "It's great sport. Won't you take me with you to
the jungle?"
I didn't want him in the least, but if any one older asks right
out to go with you, what can you do? I am going to tell several
things you won't believe, and this is one of them: He got off
his horse, tied it to the fence, and climbed over after me. He
went on asking questions and of course I had to tell him. Most
of what he wanted to know, his people should have taught him before
he was ten years old, but father says they do things differently
in England.
"There doesn't seem to be many trees in the jungle."
"Well, there's one, and it's about the most important on
our land," I told him. "Father wouldn't cut it down
for a farm. You see that little dark bag nearly as big as your
fist, swinging out there on that limb? Well, every spring one
of these birds, yellow as orange peel, with velvet black wings,
weaves a nest like that, and over on that big branch, high up,
one just as bright red as the other is yellow, and the same black
wings, builds a cradle for his babies. Father says a red bird
and a yellow one keeping house in the same tree is the biggest
thing that ever happened in our family. They come every year and
that is their tree. I believe father would shoot any one who drove
them away."
"Your father is a gunner also?" he asked, and I thought
he was laughing to himself.
"He's enough of a gunner to bring mother in a wagon from
Pennsylvania all the way here, and he kept wolves, bears, Indians,
and Gypsies from her, and shot things for food. Yes sir, my father
can shoot if he wants to, better than any of our family except
Laddie."
"And does Laddie shoot well?"
"Laddie does everything well," I answered proudly. "He
won't try to do anything at all, until he practises so he can
do it well."
"Score one for Laddie," he said in a queer voice.
"Are you in a hurry about the lions and tigers?"
"Not at all," he answered.
"Well, here I always stop and let Governor Oglesby go swimming,"
I said.
Mr. Mahlon Pryor sat on the bank of our Little Creek, took off
his hat and shook back his hair as if the wind felt good on his
forehead. I fished Dick Oglesby from the ammunition in my apron
pocket, and held him toward the cross old man, and he wasn't cross
at all. It's funny how you come to get such wrong ideas about
people.
"My big married sister who lives in Westchester sent him
to me last Christmas," I explained. "I have another
doll, great big, with a Scotch plaid dress made from pieces of
mine, but I only play with her on Sunday when I dare not do much
else. I like Dick the best because he fits my apron pocket. Father
wanted me to change his name and call him Oliver P. Morton, after
a friend of his, but I told him this doll had to be called by
the name he came with, and if he wanted me to have one named for
his friend, to get it, and I'd play with it."
"What did he do?"
"He didn't want one named Morton that much."
Mr. Pryor took Dick Oglesby in his fingers and looked at his curly
black hair and blue eyes, his chubby outstretched arms, like a
baby when it wants you to take it, and his plump little feet and
the white shirt with red stripes all a piece of him as he was
made, and said: "The honourable governor of our sister state
seems a little weighty; I am at a loss to understand how he swims."
"It's a new way," I said. "He just stands still
and the water swims around him. It's very easy for him."
Then I carried Dick to the water, waded in and stood him against
a stone. Something funny happened instantly. It always did. I
found it out one day when I got some apple butter on the governor
giving him a bite of my bread, and put him in the wash bowl to
soak. He was two and a half inches tall; but the minute you stood
him in water he went down to about half that height and spread
out to twice his size around. You should have heard Mr. Pryor.
"If you will lie on the bank and watch you'll have more to
laugh at than that," I promised.
He lay down and never paid the least attention to his clothes.
Pretty soon a little chub fish came swimming around to make friends
with Governor Oglesby, and then a shiner and some more chub. They
nibbled at his hands and toes, and then went flashing away, and
from under the stone came backing a big crayfish and seized the
governor by the leg and started dragging him, so I had to jump
in and stop it. I took a shot at the crayfish with the tiger ammunition
and then loaded for lions.
We went on until the marsh became a thicket of cattails, bulrushes,
willow bushes, and blue flags; then I found a path where the lions
left the jungle, hid Mr. Pryor and told him he must be very still
or they wouldn't come. At last I heard one. I touched Mr. Pryor's
sleeve to warn him to keep his eyes on the trail. Pretty soon
the lion came in sight. Really it was only a little gray rabbit
hopping along, but when it was opposite us, I pinged it in the
side, it jumped up and turned a somersault with surprise, and
squealed a funny little squeal,--well, I wondered if Mr. Pryor's
people didn't hear him, and think he had gone crazy as Paddy Ryan.
I never did hear any one laugh so. I thought if he enjoyed it
like that, I'd let him shoot one. I do May sometimes; so we went
to another place I knew where there was a tiger's den, and I loaded
with tiger lily bullets, gave him the gun and showed him where
to aim. After we had waited a long time out came a muskrat, and
started for the river. I looked to see why Mr. Pryor didn't shoot,
and there he was gazing at it as if a snake had charmed him; his
hands shaking a little, his cheeks almost red, his eyes very bright.
"Shoot!" I whispered. "It won't stay all day!"
He forgot how to push the ramrod like I showed him, so he reached
out and tried to hit it with the gun.
"Don't do that!" I said.
"But it's getting away! It's getting away!" he cried.
"Well, what if it is?" I asked, half provoked. "Do
you suppose I really would hurt a poor little muskrat? Maybe it
has six hungry babies in its home."
"Oh THAT way," he said, but he kept looking at it, so
he made me think if I hadn't been there, he would have thrown
a stone or hit it with a stick. It is perfectly wonderful about
how some men can't get along without killing things, such little
bits of helpless creatures too. I thought he'd better be got from
the jungle, so I invited him to see the place at the foot of the
hill below our orchard where some men thought they had discovered
gold before the war. They had been to California in '49, and although
they didn't come home with millions, or anything else except sick
and tired, they thought they had learned enough about gold to
know it when they saw it.
I told him about it and he was interested and anxious to see the
place. If there had been a shovel, I am quite sure he would have
gone to digging. He kept poking around with his boot toe, and
he said maybe the yokels didn't look good.
He said our meadow was a beautiful place, and when he praised
the creek I told him about the wild ducks, and he laughed again.
He didn't seem to be the same man when we went back to the road.
I pulled some sweet marsh grass and gave his horse bites, so Mr.
Pryor asked if I liked animals. I said I loved horses, Laddie's
best of all. He asked about it and I told him.
"Hasn't your father but one thoroughbred?"
"Father hasn't any," I said. "Flos really belongs
to Laddie, and we are mighty glad he has her."
"You should have one soon, yourself," he said.
"Well, if the rest of them will hurry up and marry off, so
the expenses won't be so heavy, maybe I can."
"How many of you are there?" he asked.
"Only twelve," I said.
He looked down the road at our house.
"Do you mean to tell me you have twelve children there?"
he inquired.
"Oh no!" I answered. "Some of the big boys have
gone into business in the cities around, and some of the girls
are married.
Mother says she has only to show her girls in the cities to have
them snapped up like hot cakes."
"I fancy that is the truth," he said. "I've passed
the one who rides the little black pony and she is a picture.
A fine, healthy, sensible-appearing young woman!"
"I don't think she's as pretty as your girl," I said.
"Perhaps I don't either," he replied, smiling at me.
Then he mounted his horse.
"I don't remember that I ever have passed that house,"
he said, "without hearing some one singing. Does it go on
all the time?"
"Yes, unless mother is sick."
"And what is it all about?"
"Oh just joy! Gladness that we are alive, that we have things
to do that we like, and praising the Lord."
"Umph!" said Mr. Pryor.
"It's just letting out what our hearts are full of,"
I told him. "Don't you know that song:
"`Tis the old time religion And you cannot keep it still?'"
He shook his head.
"It's an awful nice song," I explained. "After
it sings about all the other things religion is good for, there
is one line that says: `IT'S GOOD FOR THOSE IN TROUBLE.'"
I looked at him straight and hard, but he only turned white and
seemed sick.
"So?" said Mr. Pryor. "Well, thank you for the
most interesting morning I've had this side England. I should
be delighted if you would come and hunt lions in my woods with
me some time."
"Oh, do you open the door to children?"
"Certainly we open the door to children," he said, and
as I live, he looked so sad I couldn't help thinking he was sorry
to close it against any one. A mystery is the dreadfulest thing.
"Then if children don't matter, maybe I can come lion-hunting
some time with the Princess, after she has made the visit at our
house she said she would."
"Indeed! I hadn't been informed that my daughter contemplated
visiting your house," he said. "When was it arranged?"
"My mother invited her last Sunday."
I didn't like the way he said: "O-o-o-h!" Some way it
seemed insulting to my mother.
"She did it to please me," I said. "There was a
Fairy Princess told me the other day that your girl felt like
a stranger, and that to be a stranger was the hardest thing in
all the world. She sat a little way from the others, and she looked
so lonely. I pulled my mother's sleeve and led her to your girl
and made them shake hands, and then mother HAD to ask her to come
to dinner with us. She always invites every one she meets coming
down the aisle; she couldn't help asking your girl, too. She said
she was expected at home, but she'd come some day and get acquainted.
She needn't if you object. My mother only asked her because she
thought she was lonely, and maybe she wanted to come."
He sat there staring straight ahead and he seemed to grow whiter,
and older, and colder every minute.
"Possibly she is lonely," he said at last. "This
isn't much like the life she left. Perhaps she does feel herself
a stranger. It was very kind of your mother to invite her. If
she wants to come, I shall make no objections."
"No, but my father will," I said.
He straightened up as if something had hit him. "Why will
he object?"
"On account of what you said about God at our house,"
I told him. "And then, too, father's people were from England,
and he says real Englishmen have their doors wide open, and welcome
people who offer friendliness."
Mr. Pryor hit his horse an awful blow. It reared and went racing
up the road until I thought it was running away. I could see I
had made him angry enough to burst. Mother always tells me not
to repeat things; but I'm not smart enough to know what to say,
so I don't see what is left but to tell what mother, or father,
or Laddie says when grown people ask me questions.
I went home, but every one was too busy even to look at me, so
I took Bobby under my arm, hunted father, and told him all about
the morning. I wondered what he would think. I never found out.
He wouldn't say anything, so Bobby and I went across the lane,
and climbed the gate into the orchard to see if Hezekiah were
there and wanted to fight. He hadn't time to fight Bobby because
he was busy chasing every wild jay from our orchard. By the time
he got that done, he was tired, so he came hopping along on branches
above us as Bobby and I went down the west fence beside the lane.
If I had been compelled to choose the side of our orchard I liked
best, I don't know which I would have selected. The west side--
that is, the one behind the dooryard--was running over with interesting
things. Two gates opened into it, one from near each corner of
the yard. Between these there was quite a wide level space, where
mother fed the big chickens and kept the hens in coops with little
ones. She had to have them close enough that the big hawks were
afraid to come to earth, or they would take more chickens than
they could pay for, by cleaning rabbits, snakes, and mice from
the fields. Then came a double row of prize peach trees; rare
fruit that mother canned to take to county fairs. One bore big,
white freestones, and around the seed they were pink as a rose.
One was a white cling, and one was yellow. There was a yellow
freestone as big as a young sun, and as golden, and the queerest
of all was a cling purple as a beet.
Sometimes father read about the hairs of the head being numbered,
because we were so precious in the sight of the Almighty. Mother
was just as particular with her purple tree; every peach on it
was counted, and if we found one on the ground, we had to carry
it to her, because it MIGHT be sound enough to can or spice for
a fair, or she had promised the seed to some one halfway across
the state. At each end of the peach row was an enormous big pear
tree; not far from one the chicken house stood on the path to
the barn, and beside the other the smoke house with the dog kennel
a yard away. Father said there was a distinct relationship between
a smoke house and a dog kennel, and bulldogs were best. Just at
present we were out of bulldogs, but Jones, Jenkins and Co. could
make as much noise as any dog you ever heard. On the left grew
the plum trees all the way to the south fence, and I think there
was one of every kind in the fruit catalogues. Father spent hours
pruning, grafting, and fertilizing them. He said they required
twice as much work as peaches.
Around the other sides of the orchard were two rows of peach trees
of every variety; but one cling on the north was just a little
the best of any, and we might eat all we wanted from any tree
we liked, after father tested them and said: "Peaches are
ripe!" In the middle were the apple; selected trees, planted,
trimmed, and cultivated like human beings. The apples were so
big and fine they were picked by hand, wrapped in paper, packed
in barrels, and all we could not use at home went to J. B. White
in Fort Wayne for the biggest fruit house in the state. My! but
father was proud! He always packed especially fine ones for Mr.
White's family. He said he liked him, because he was a real sandy
Scotchman, who knew when an apple was right, and wasn't afraid
to say so.
On the south side of the orchard there was the earliest June apple
tree. The apples were small, bright red with yellow stripes, crisp,
juicy and sweet enough to be just right. The tree was very large,
and so heavy it leaned far to the northeast.
This sounds like make-believe, but it's gospel truth. Almost two
feet from the ground there was a big round growth, the size of
a hash bowl. The tree must have been hurt when very small and
the place enlarged with the trunk. Now it made a grand step. If
you understood that no one could keep from running the last few
rods from the tree, then figured on the help to be had from this
step, you could see how we went up it like squirrels. All the
bark on the south side was worn away and the trunk was smooth
and shiny. The birds loved to nest among the branches, and under
the peach tree in the fence corner opposite was a big bed of my
mother's favourite wild flowers, blue-eyed Marys. They had dainty
stems from six to eight inches high and delicate heads of bloom
made up of little flowers, two petals up, blue, two turning down,
white. Perhaps you don't know about anything prettier than that.
There were maiden-hair ferns among them too! and the biggest lichens
you ever saw on the fence, while in the hollow of a rotten rail
a little chippy bird always built a hair nest. She got the hairs
at our barn, for most of them were gray from our carriage horses,
Ned and Jo. All down that side of the orchard the fence corners
were filled with long grass and wild flowers, a few alder bushes
left to furnish berries for the birds, and wild roses for us,
to keep their beauty impressed on us, father said.
The east end ran along the brow of a hill so steep we coasted
down it on the big meat board all winter. The board was six inches
thick, two and a half feet wide, and six long. Father said slipping
over ice and snow gave it the good scouring it needed, and it
was thick enough to last all our lives, so we might play with
it as we pleased. At least seven of us could go skimming down
that hill and halfway across the meadow on it. In the very place
we slid across, in summer lay the cowslip bed. The world is full
of beautiful spots, but I doubt if any of them ever were prettier
than that. Father called it swale. We didn't sink deep, but all
summer there was water standing there. The grass was long and
very sweet, there were ferns and a few calamus flowers, and there
must have been an acre of cowslips--cowslips with big-veined,
heartshaped, green leaves, and large pale gold flowers. I used
to sit on the top rail of that orchard fence and look down at
them, and try to figure out what God was thinking when He created
them, and I wished that I might have been where I could watch
His face as He worked.
Halfway across the east side was a gully where Leon and I found
the Underground Station, and from any place along the north you
looked, you saw the Little Creek and the marsh. At the same time
the cowslips were most golden, the marsh was blue with flags,
pink with smart weed, white and yellow with dodder, yellow with
marsh buttercups having ragged frosty leaves, while the yellow
and the red birds flashed above it, the red crying, "Chip,"
"Chip," in short, sharp notes, the yellow spilling music
all over the marsh while on wing.
It would take a whole book to describe the butterflies; once in
a while you scared up a big, wonderful moth, large as a sparrow;
and the orchard was alive with doves, thrushes, catbirds, bluebirds,
vireos, and orioles. When you climbed the fence, or a tree, and
kept quiet, and heard the music and studied the pictures, it made
you feel as if you had to put it into words. I often had meeting
all by myself, unless Bobby and Hezekiah were along, and I tried
to tell God what I thought about things. Probably He was so busy
making more birds and flowers for other worlds, He never heard
me; but I didn't say anything disrespectful at all, so it made
no difference if He did listen. It just seemed as if I must tell
what I thought, and I felt better, not so full and restless after
I had finished.
All of us were alike about that. At that minute I knew mother
was humming, as she did a dozen times a day:
"I think when I read that sweet story of old,
When Jesus was here among men
How He called little children as lambs to His fold,
I should like to have been with Him then."
Lucy would be rocking her baby and singing, "Hush, my dear,
lie still and slumber." Candace's favourite she made up about
her man who had been killed in the war, when they had been married
only six weeks, which hadn't given her time to grow tired of him
if he hadn't been "all her fancy painted." She arranged
the words like "Ben Battle was a soldier bold," and
she sang them to suit herself, and cried every single minute:
"They wrapped him in his uniform,
They laid him in the tomb,
My aching heart I thought 'twould break,
But such was my sad doom."
Candace just loved that song. She sang it all the time. Leon said
our pie always tasted salty from her tears, and he'd take a bite
and smile at her sweetly and say: "How UNIFORM you get your
pie, Candace!"
May's favourite was "Joy Bells." Father would be whispering
over to himself the speech he was preparing to make at the next
prayer-meeting. We never could learn his speeches, because he
read and studied so much it kept his head so full, he made a new
one every time. You could hear Laddie's deep bass booming the
"Bedouin Love Song" for a mile; this minute it came
rolling across the corn:
"Open the door of thy heart,
And open thy chamber door,
And my kisses shall teach thy lips
The love that shall fade no more
Till the sun grows cold,
And the Stars are old,
And the leaves of the Judgment
Book unfold!"
I don't know how the Princess stood it. If he had been singing
that song where I could hear it and I had known it was about me,
as she must have known he meant her, I couldn't have kept my arms
from around his neck. Over in the barn Leon was singing:
"A life on the ocean wave,
A home on the rolling deep,
Where codfish waggle their tails
'Mid tadpoles two feet deep."
The minute he finished, he would begin reciting "Marco Bozzaris,"
and you could be sure that he would reach the last line only to
commence on the speech of "Logan, Chief of the Mingoes,"
or any one of the fifty others. He could make your hair stand
a little straighter than any one else; the best teachers we ever
had, or even Laddie, couldn't make you shivery and creepy as he
could. Because all of us kept going like that every day, people
couldn't pass without hearing, so THAT was what Mr. Pryor meant.
I had a pulpit in the southeast corner of the orchard. I liked
that place best of all because from it you could see two sides
at once. The very first little, old log cabin that had been on
our land, the one my father and mother moved into, had stood in
that corner. It was all gone now; but a flowerbed of tiny, purple
iris, not so tall as the grass, spread there, and some striped
grass in the shadiest places, and among the flowers a lark brooded
every spring. In the fence corner mother's big white turkey hen
always nested. To protect her from rain and too hot sun, father
had slipped some boards between the rails about three feet from
the ground. After the turkey left, that was my pulpit.
I stood there and used the top of the fence for my railing.
The little flags and all the orchard and birds were behind me;
on one hand was the broad, grassy meadow with the creek running
so swiftly, I could hear it, and the breath of the cowslips came
up the hill. Straight in front was the lane running down from
the barn, crossing the creek and spreading into the woods pasture,
where the water ran wider and yet swifter, big forest trees grew,
and bushes of berries, pawpaws, willow, everything ever found
in an Indiana thicket; grass under foot, and many wild flowers
and ferns wherever the cattle and horses didn't trample them,
and bigger, wilder birds, many having names I didn't know. On
the left, across the lane, was a large cornfield, with trees here
and there, and down the valley I could see the Big Creek coming
from the west, the Big Hill with the church on top, and always
the white gravestones around it. Always too there was the sky
overhead, often with clouds banked until you felt if you only
could reach them, you could climb straight to the gates that father
was so fond of singing about sweeping through. Mostly there was
a big hawk or a turkey buzzard hanging among them, just to show
us that we were not so much, and that we couldn't shoot them,
unless they chose to come down and give us a chance.
I set Bobby and Hezekiah on the fence and stood between them.
"We will open service this morning by singing the thirty-fifth
hymn," I said. "Sister Dover, will you pitch the tune?"
Then I made my voice high and squeally like hers and sang:
"Come ye that love the Lord,
And let your joys be known,
Join in a song of sweet accord,
And thus surround the throne."
I sang all of it and then said: "Brother Hastings, will you
lead us in prayer?"
Then I knelt down, and prayed Brother Hastings' prayer. I could
have repeated any one of a dozen of the prayers the men of our
church prayed, but I liked Brother Hastings' best, because it
had the biggest words in it. I loved words that filled your mouth,
and sounded as if you were used to books. It began sort of sing-
songy and measured in stops, like a poetry piece:
"Our Heavenly Father: We come before Thee this morning,
Humble worms of the dust, imploring thy blessing.
We beseech Thee to forgive our transgressions,
Heal our backsliding, and love us freely."
Sometimes from there on it changed a little, but it always began
and ended exactly the same way. Father said Brother Hastings was
powerful in prayer, but he did wish he'd leave out the "worms
of the dust." He said we were not "worms of the dust";
we were reasoning, progressive, inventive men and women. He said
a worm would never be anything except a worm, but we could study
and improve ourselves, help others, make great machines, paint
pictures, write books, and go to an extent that must almost amaze
the Almighty Himself. He said that if Brother Hastings had done
more plowing in his time, and had a little closer acquaintance
with worms, he wouldn't be so ready to call himself and every
one else a worm. Now if you are talking about cutworms or fishworms,
father is right. But there is that place where--"Charles
his heel had raised, upon the humble worm to tread," and
the worm lifted up its voice and spake thus to Charles:
"I know I'm now among the things
Uncomely to your sight,
But, by and by, on splendid wings,
You'll see me high and bright."
Now I'll bet a cent THAT is the kind of worm Brother Hastings
said we were. I must speak to father about it. I don't want him
to be mistaken; and I really think he is about worms. Of course
he knows the kind that have wings and fly. Brother Hastings mixed
him up by saying "worms of the dust" when he should
have said worms of the leaves. Those that go into little round
cases in earth or spin cocoons on trees always live on leaves,
and many of them rear the head, having large horns, and wave it
in a manner far from humble. So father and Brother Hastings were
both partly right, and partly wrong.
When the prayer came to a close, where every one always said "Amen,"
I punched Bobby and whispered, "Crow, Bobby, crow!"
and he stood up and brought it out strong, like he always did
when I told him. I had to stop the service to feed him a little
wheat, to pay him for crowing; but as no one was there except
us, that didn't matter. Then Hezekiah crowded over for some, so
I had to pretend I was Mrs. Daniels feeding her children caraway
cake, like she always did in meeting. If I had been the mother
of children who couldn't have gone without things to eat in church
I'd have kept them at home. Mrs. Daniels always had the carpet
greasy with cake crumbs wherever she sat, and mother didn't think
the Lord liked a dirty church any more than we would have wanted
a mussy house. When I had Bobby and Hezekiah settled I took my
text from my head, because I didn't know the meeting feeling was
coming on me when I started, and I had brought no Bible along.
"Blessed are all men, but most blessed are they who hold
their tempers." I had to stroke Bobby a little and pat Hezekiah
once in a while, to keep them from flying down and fighting, but
mostly I could give my attention to my sermon.
"We have only to look around us this morning to see that
all men are blessed," I said. "The sky is big enough
to cover every one.
If the sun gets too hot, there are trees for shade or the clouds
come up for a while. If the earth becomes too dry, it always rains
before it is everlastingly too late. There are birds enough to
sing for every one, butterflies enough to go around, and so many
flowers we can't always keep the cattle and horses from tramping
down and even devouring beautiful ones, like Daniel thought the
lions would devour him--but they didn't. Wouldn't it be a good
idea, O Lord, for You to shut the cows' mouths and save the cowslips
also; they may not be worth as much as a man, but they are lots
better looking, and they make fine greens. It doesn't seem right
for cows to eat flowers; but maybe it is as right for them as
it is for us. The best way would be for our cattle to do like
that piece about the cow in the meadow exactly the same as ours:
"`And through it ran a little brook,
Where oft the cows would drink,
And then lie down among the flowers,
That grew upon the brink.'
"You notice, O Lord, the cows did not eat the flowers in
this instance; they merely rested among them, and goodness knows,
that's enough for any cow. They had better done like the next
verse, where it says:
"`They like to lie beneath the trees,
All shaded by the boughs,
Whene'er the noontide heat came on:
Sure, they were happy cows!'
"Now, O Lord, this plainly teaches that if cows are happy,
men should be much more so, for like the cows, they have all Thou
canst do for them, and all they can do for themselves, besides.
So every man is blessed, because Thy bounty has provided all these
things for him, without money and without price. If some men are
not so blessed as others, it is their own fault, and not Yours.
You made the earth, and all that is therein, and You made the
men. Of course You had to make men different, so each woman can
tell which one belongs to her; but I believe it would have been
a good idea while You were at it, if You would have made all of
them enough alike that they would all work. Perhaps it isn't polite
of me to ask more of You than You saw fit to do; and then, again,
it may be that there are some things impossible, even to You.
If there is anything at all, seems as if making Isaac Thomas work
would be it. Father says that man would rather starve and see
his wife and children hungry than to take off his coat, roll up
his sleeves, and plow corn; so it was good enough for him when
Leon said, `Go to the ant, thou sluggard,' right at him. So, of
course, Isaac is not so blessed as some men, because he won't
work, and thus he never knows whether he's going to have a big
dinner on Sunday, until after some one asks him, because he looks
so empty. Mother thinks it isn't fair to feed Isaac and send him
home with his stomach full, while Mandy and the babies are sick
and hungry. But Isaac is some blessed, because he has religion
and gets real happy, and sings, and shouts, and he's going to
Heaven when he dies. He must wish he'd go soon, especially in
winter.
"There are men who do not have even this blessing, and to
make things worse, O Lord, they get mad as fire and hit their
horses, and look like all possessed. The words of my text this
morning apply especially to a man who has all the blessings Thou
hast showered and flowered upon men who work, or whose people
worked and left them so much money they don't need to, and yet
a sadder face I never saw, or a crosser one. He looks like he
was going to hit people, and he does hit his horse an awful crack.
It's no way to hit a horse, not even if it balks, because it can't
hit back, and it's a cowardly thing to do. If you rub their ears
and talk to them, they come quicker, O our Heavenly Father, and
if you hit them just because you are mad, it's a bigger sin yet.
"No man is nearly so blessed as he might be who goes around
looking killed with grief when he should cheer up, no matter what
ails him; and who shuts up his door and says his wife is sick
when she isn't, and who scowls at every one, when he can be real
pleasant if he likes, as some in Divine Presence can testify.
So we are going to beseech Thee, O Lord, to lay Thy mighty hand
upon the man who got mad this beautiful morning and make him feel
Thy might, until he will know for himself and not another, that
You are not a myth. Teach him to have a pleasant countenance,
an open door, and to hold his temper. Help him to come over to
our house and be friendly with all his neighbours, and get all
the blessings You have provided for every one; but please don't
make him have any more trouble than he has now, for if You do,
You'll surely kill him. Have patience with him, and have mercy
on him, O Lord! Let us pray."
That time I prayed myself. I looked into the sky just as straight
and as far as I could see, and if I had any influence at all,
I used it then. Right out loud, I just begged the Lord to get
after Mr. Pryor and make him behave like other people, and let
the Princess come to our house, and for him to come too; because
I liked him heaps when he was lion hunting, and I wanted to go
with him again the worst way. I had seen him sail right over the
fences on his big black horse, and when he did it in England,
wearing a red coat, and the dogs flew over thick around him, it
must have looked grand, but it was mighty hard on the fox. I do
hope it got away. Anyway, I prayed as hard as I could, and every
time I said the strongest thing I knew, I punched Bobby to crow,
and he never came out stronger. Then I was Sister Dover and started:
"Oh come let us gather at the fountain, the fountain that
never goes dry."
Just as I was going to pronounce the benediction like father,
I heard something, so I looked around, and there went he and Dr.
Fenner. They were going toward the house, and yet, they hadn't
passed me. I was not scared, because I knew no one was sick. Dr.
Fenner always stopped when he passed, if he had a minute, and
if he hadn't, mother sent some one to the gate with buttermilk
and slices of bread and butter, and jelly an inch thick. When
a meal was almost cooked she heaped some on a plate and he ate
as he drove and left the plate next time he passed. Often he was
so dead tired, he was asleep in his buggy, and his old gray horse
always stopped at our gate.
I ended with "Amen," because I wanted to know if they
had been listening; so I climbed the fence, ran down the lane
behind the bushes, and hid a minute. Sure enough they had! I suppose
I had been so in earnest I hadn't heard a sound, but it's a wonder
Hezekiah hadn't told me. He was always seeing something to make
danger signals about. He never let me run on a snake, or a hawk
get one of the chickens, or Paddy Ryan come too close. I only
wanted to know if they had gone and listened, and then I intended
to run straight back to Bobby and Hezekiah; but they stopped under
the greening apple tree, and what they said was so interesting
I waited longer than I should, because it's about the worst thing
you can do to listen when older people don't know. They were talking
about me.
"I can't account for her," said father.
"I can!" said Dr. Fenner. "She is the only child
I ever have had in my practice who managed to reach earth as all
children should. During the impressionable stage, no one expected
her, so there was no time spent in worrying, fretting, and discontent.
I don't mean that these things were customary with Ruth. No woman
ever accepted motherhood in a more beautiful spirit; but if she
would have protested at any time, it would have been then. Instead,
she lived happily, naturally, and enjoyed herself as she never
had before. She was in the fields, the woods, and the garden constantly,
which accounts for this child's outdoor tendencies. Then you must
remember that both of you were at top notch intellectually, and
physically, fully matured. She had the benefit of ripened minds,
and at a time when every faculty recently had been stirred by
the excitement and suffering of the war. Oh, you can account for
her easily enough, but I don't know what on earth you are going
to do with her. You'll have to go careful, Paul. I warn you she
will not be like the others."
"We realize that. Mother says she doubts if she can ever
teach her to sew and become a housewife."
"She isn't cut out for a seamstress or a housewife, Paul.
Tell Ruth not to try to force those things on her. Turn her loose
out of doors; give her good books, and leave her alone. You won't
be disappointed in the woman who evolves."
Right there I realized what I was doing, and I turned and ran
for the pulpit with all my might. I could always repeat things,
but I couldn't see much sense to the first part of that; the last
was as plain as the nose on your face. Dr. Fenner said they mustn't
force me to sew, and do housework; and mother didn't mind the
Almighty any better than she did the doctor. There was nothing
in this world I disliked so much as being kept indoors, and made
to hem cap and apron strings so particularly that I had to count
the number of threads between every stitch, and in each stitch,
so that I got all of them just exactly even. I liked carpet rags
a little better, because I didn't have to be so particular about
stitches, and I always picked out all the bright, pretty colours.
Mother said she could follow my work all over the floor by the
bright spots. Perhaps if I were not to be kept in the house I
wouldn't have to sew any more. That made me so happy I wondered
if I couldn't stretch out my arms and wave them and fly. I sat
on the pulpit wishing I had feathers. It made me pretty blue to
have to stay on the ground all the time, when I wanted to be sailing
up among the clouds with the turkey buzzards. It called to my
mind that place in McGuffey's Fifth where it says:
"Sweet bird, thy bower is ever green,
Thy sky is ever clear;
Thou hast no sorrow in thy song,
No winter in thy year."
Of course, I never heard a turkey buzzard sing. Laddie said they
couldn't; but that didn't prove it. He said half the members of
our church couldn't sing, but they DID; and when all of them were
going at the tops of their voices, it was just grand. So maybe
the turkey buzzard could sing if it wanted to; seemed as if it
should, if Isaac Thomas could; and anyway, it was the next verse
I was thinking most about:
"Oh, could I fly, I'd fly with thee!
We'd make with joyful wing,
Our annual visit o'er the globe,
Companions of the spring."
That was so exciting I thought I'd just try it, so I stood on
the top rail, spread my arms, waved them, and started. I was bumped
in fifty places when I rolled into the cowslip bed at the foot
of the steep hill, for stones stuck out all over the side of it,
and I felt pretty mean as I climbed back to the pulpit.
The only consolation I had was what Dr. Fenner had said. That
would be the greatest possible help in managing father or mother.
I was undecided about whether I would go to school, or not. Must
be perfectly dreadful to dress like for church, and sit still
in a stuffy little room, and do your "abs," and "bes,"
and "bis," and "bos," all day long. I could
spell quite well without looking at a schoolhouse, and read too.
I was wondering if I ever would go at all, when I thought of something
else. Dr. Fenner had said to give me plenty of good books. I was
wild for some that were already promised me. Well, what would
they amount to if I couldn't understand them when I got them?
THAT seemed to make it sure I would be compelled to go to school
until I learned enough to understand what the books contained
about birds, flowers, and moths, anyway; and perhaps there would
be some having Fairies in them. Of course those would be interesting.
I never hated doing anything so badly, in all my life, but I could
see, with no one to tell me, that I had put it off as long as
I dared. I would just have to start school when Leon and May went
in September. Tilly Baher, who lived across the swamp near Sarah
Hood, had gone two winters already, and she was only a year older,
and not half my size. I stood on the pulpit and looked a long
time in every direction, into the sky the longest of all. It was
settled. I must go; I might as well start and have it over. I
couldn't look anywhere, right there at home, and not see more
things I didn't know about than I did. When mother showed me in
the city, I wouldn't be snapped up like hot cakes; I'd be a blockhead
no one would have. It made me so vexed to think I had to go, I
set Hezekiah on my shoulder, took Bobby under my arm, and went
to the house. On the way, I made up my mind that I would ask again,
very politely, to hold the little baby, and if the rest of them
went and pigged it up straight along, I'd pinch it, if I got a
chance.
CHAPTER IV
The Last Day in Eden
"'Tis the sunset of life gives me mystical lore,
And coming events cast their shadows before."
Of course the baby was asleep and couldn't be touched; but there
was some excitement, anyway. Father had come from town with a
letter from the new school teacher, that said she would expect
him to meet her at the station next Saturday. Mother thought she
might as well get the room ready and let her stay at our house,
because we were most convenient, and it would be the best place
for her. She said that every time, and the teacher always stayed
with us. Really it was because father and mother wanted the teacher
where they could know as much as possible about what was going
on. Sally didn't like having her at all; she said with the wedding
coming, the teacher would be a nuisance. Shelley had finished
our school, and the Groveville high school, and instead of attending
college she was going to Chicago to study music. She was so anxious
over her dresses and getting started, she didn't seem to think
much about what was going to happen to us at home; so she didn't
care if Miss Amelia stayed at our house. May said it would be
best to have the teacher with us, because she could help us with
our lessons at home, and we could get ahead of the others. May
already had decided that she would be at the head of her class
when she finished school, and every time you wanted her and couldn't
find her, if you would look across the foot of mother's bed, May
would be there with a spelling book. Once she had spelled down
our school, when Laddie was not there.
Father had met Peter Dover in town, and he had said that he was
coming to see Sally, because he had something of especial importance
to tell her.
"Did he say what it was?" asked Sally.
"Only what I have told you," replied father.
Sally wanted to take the broom and sweep the parlour.
"It's clean as a ribbon," said mother.
"If you go in there, you'll wake the baby," said Lucy.
"Will it kill it if I do?" asked Sally.
"No, but it will make it cross as fire, so it will cry all
the time Peter is here," said Lucy.
"I'll be surprised if it doesn't scream every minute anyway,"
said Sally.
"I hope it will," said Lucy. "That will make Peter
think a while before he comes so often."
That made Sally so angry she couldn't speak, so she went out and
began killing chickens. I helped her catch them. They were so
used to me they would come right to my feet when I shelled corn.
"I'm going to kill three," said Sally. "I'm going
to be sure we have enough, but don't you tell until their heads
are off."
While she was working on them mother came out and asked how many
she had, so Sally said three. Mother counted us and said that
wasn't enough; there would have to be four at least.
After she was gone Sally looked at me and said: "Well, for
land's sake!"
It was so funny she had to laugh, and by the time I caught the
fourth one, and began helping pick them, she was over being provoked
and we had lots of fun.
The minute I saw Peter Dover he made me think of something. I
rode his horse to the barn with Leon leading it. There we saw
Laddie. "Guess what!" I cried.
"Never could!" laughed Laddie, giving Peter Dover's
horse a slap as it passed him on the way to a stall.
"Four chickens, ham, biscuit, and cake!" I announced.
"Is it a barbecue?" asked Laddie.
"No, the extra one is for the baby," said Leon. "Squally
little runt, I call it."
"It's a nice baby!" said Laddie.
"What do you know about it?" demanded Leon.
"Well, considering that I started with you, and have brought
up two others since, I am schooled in all there is to know,"
said Laddie.
"Guess what else!" I cried.
"More?" said Laddie. "Out with it! Don't kill me
with suspense."
"Father is going to town Saturday to meet the new teacher
and she will stay at our house as usual."
Leon yelled and fell back in a manger, while Laddie held harness
oil to his nose.
"More!" cried Leon, grabbing the bottle.
"Are you sure?" asked Laddie of me earnestly.
"It's decided. Mother said so," I told him.
"Name of a black cat, why?" demanded Laddie.
"Mother said we were most convenient for the teacher."
"Aren't there enough of us?" asked Leon, straightening
up sniffing harness oil as if his life depended on it.
"Any unprejudiced person would probably say so to look in,"
said Laddie.
"I'll bet she'll be sixty and a cat," said Leon. "Won't
I have fun with her?"
"Maybe so, maybe not!" said Laddie. "You can't
always tell, for sure. Remember your Alamo! You were going to
have fun with the teacher last year, but she had it with you."
Leon threw the oil bottle at him. Laddie caught it and set it
on the shelf.
"I don't understand," said Leon.
"I do," said Laddie dryly. "THIS is one reason."
He hit Peter Dover's horse another slap.
"Maybe yes," said Leon.
"Shelley to music school, two."
"Yes," said Leon. "Peter Dovers are the greatest
expense, and Peter won't happen but once. Shelley will have at
least two years in school before it is her turn, and you come
next, anyway."
"Shut up!" cried Laddie.
"Thanky! Your orders shall be obeyed gladly."
He laid down the pitchfork, went outside, closed the door, and
latched it. Laddie called to him, but he ran to the house. When
Laddie and I finished our work, and his, and wanted to go, we
had to climb the stairs and leave through the front door on the
embankment.
"The monkey!" said Laddie, but he didn't get mad; he
just laughed.
The minute I stepped into the house and saw the parlour door closed,
I thought of that "something" again. I walked past it,
but couldn't hear anything. Of course mother wanted to know; and
she would be very thankful to me if I could tell her. I went out
the front door, and thought deeply on the situation. The windows
were wide open, but I was far below them and I could only hear
a sort of murmur. Why can't people speak up loud and plain, anyway?
Of course they would sit on the big haircloth sofa. Didn't Leon
call it the "sparking bench"? The hemlock tree would
be best. I climbed quieter than a cat, for they break bark and
make an awful scratching with their claws sometimes; my bare feet
were soundless. Up and up I went, slowly, for it was dreadfully
rough. They were not on the sofa. I could see plainly through
the needles. Then I saw the spruce would have been better, for
they were standing in front of the parlour door and Peter had
one hand on the knob. His other arm was around my sister Sally.
Breathlessly I leaned as far as I could, and watched.
"Father said he'd give me the money to buy a half interest,
and furnish a house nicely, if you said `yes,' Sally," said
Peter.
Sally leaned back all pinksome and blushful, and while she laughed
at him she
"Carelessly tossed off a curl
That played on her delicate brow."
exactly like Mary Dow in McGuffey's Third.
"Well, what did I SAY?" she asked.
"Come to think of it, you didn't say anything."
Sally's face was all afire with dancing lights, and she laughed
the gayest little laugh.
"Are you so very sure of that, Peter?" she said.
"I'm not sure of anything," said Peter, "except
that I am so happy I could fly."
"Try it, fool!" I said to myself, deep in my throat.
Sally laughed again, and Peter took his other hand from the door
and put that arm around Sally too, and he drew her to him and
kissed her, the longest, hardest kiss I ever saw. I let go and
rolled, tumbled, slid, and scratched down the hemlock tree, dropped
from the last branch to the ground, and scampered around the house.
I reached the dining-room door when every one was gathering for
supper.
"Mother!" I cried. "Mother! Yes! They're engaged!
He's kissing her, mother! Yes, Lucy, they're engaged!"
I rushed in to tell all of them what they would be glad to know,
and if there didn't stand Peter and Sally! How they ever got through
that door, and across the sitting-room before me, I don't understand.
Sally made a dive at me, and I was so astonished I forgot to run,
so she caught me. She started for the wood house with me, and
mother followed. Sally turned at the door and she was the whitest
of anything you ever saw.
"This is my affair," she said. "I'll attend to
this young lady."
"Very well," said mother, and as I live she turned and
left me to my sad fate, as it says in a story book we have. I
wish when people are going to punish me, they'd take a switch
and strike respectably, like mother does. This thing of having
some one get all over me, and not having an idea where I'm going
to be hit, is the worst punishment that I ever had. I'd been down
the hill and up the hemlock that day, anyway. I'd always been
told Sally didn't want me. She PROVED it right then. Finally she
quit, because she was too tired to strike again, so I crept among
the shavings on the work bench and went to sleep. I THOUGHT they
would like to know, and that I was going to please them.
Anyway, they found out, for by the time Sally got back Peter had
told them about the store, and the furnished house, and asked
father for Sally right before all of them, which father said was
pretty brave; but Peter knew it was all right or he couldn't have
come like he'd been doing.
After that, you couldn't hear anything at our house but wedding.
Sally's share of linen and bedding was all finished long ago.
Father took her to Fort Wayne on the cars to buy her wedding,
travelling, and working dresses, and her hat, cloak, and linen,
like you have when you marry.
It was strange that Sally didn't want mother to go, but she said
the trip would tire her too much. Mother said it was because Sally
could coax more dresses from father. Anyway, mother told him to
set a limit and stick to it. She said she knew he hadn't done
it as she got the first glimpse of Sally's face when they came
back, but the child looked so beautiful and happy she hadn't the
heart to spoil her pleasure.
The next day a sewing woman came; and all of them were shut up
in the sitting-room, while the sewing machine just whizzed on
the working dresses. Sally said the wedding dress had to be made
by hand. She kept the room locked, and every new thing that they
made was laid away on the bed in the parlour bedroom, and none
of us had a peep until everything was finished. It was awfully
exciting, but I wouldn't pretend I cared, because I was huffy
at her. I told her I wouldn't kiss her goodbye, and I'd be GLAD
when she was gone.
Sally said the school-ma'am simply had to go to Winters', or some
place else, but mother said possibly a stranger would have some
ideas, and know some new styles, so Sally then thought maybe they
had better try it a few days, and she could have her place and
be company when she and Shelley left. Shelley was rather silent
and blue, and before long I found her crying, because mother had
told her she couldn't start for Chicago until after the wedding,
and that would make her miss six weeks at the start.
Next day word was sent around that school was to begin the coming
Monday; so Saturday afternoon the people who had children large
enough to go sent the biggest of them to clean the schoolhouse.
May, Leon, and I went to do our share. Just when there were about
a bushel of nut shells, and withered apple cores, and inky paper
on the floor, the blackboard half cleaned, and ashes trailed deep
between the stove and the window Billy Wilson was throwing them
from, some one shouted: "There comes Mr. Stanton with Her."
All of us dropped everything and ran to the south windows. I tell
you I was proud of our big white team as it came prancing down
the hill, and the gleaming patent leather trimmings, and the brass
side lamps shining in the sun. Father sat very straight, driving
rather fast, as if he would as lief get it over with, and instead
of riding on the back seat, where mother always sat, the teacher
was in front beside him, and she seemed to be talking constantly.
We looked at each other and groaned when father stopped at the
hitching post and got out. If we had tried to see what a dreadful
muss we could make, things could have looked no worse. I think
father told her to wait in the carriage, but we heard her cry:
"Oh Mr. Stanton, let me see the dear children I'm to teach,
and where I'm to work."
Hopped is the word. She hopped from the carriage and came hopping
after father. She was as tall as a clothes prop and scarcely as
fat. There were gray hairs coming on her temples. Her face was
sallow and wrinkled, and she had faded, pale-blue eyes. Her dress
was like my mother had worn several years before, in style, and
of stiff gray stuff. She made me feel that no one wanted her at
home, and probably that was the reason she had come so far away.
Every one stood dumb. Mother always went to meet people and May
was old enough to know it. She went, but she looked exactly as
she does when the wafer bursts and the quinine gets in her mouth,
and she doesn't dare spit it out, because it costs five dollars
a bottle, and it's going to do her good. Father introduced May
and some of the older children, and May helped him with the others,
and then he told us to "dig in and work like troopers,"
and he would take Miss Pollard on home.
"Oh do let me remain and help the dear children!" she
cried.
"We can finish!" we answered in full chorus.
"How lovely of you!" she chirped.
Chirp makes you think of a bird; and in speech and manner Miss
Amelia Pollard was the most birdlike of any human being I ever
have seen. She hopped from the step to the walk, turned to us,
her head on one side, playfulness in the air around her, and shook
her finger at us.
"Be extremely particular that you leave things immaculate
at the consummation of your labour," she said. "`Remember
that cleanliness is next to Godliness!'"
"Two terms of that!" gasped Leon, sinking on the stove
hearth. "Behold Job mourning as close the ashes as he can."
Billy Wilson had the top lid off, so he reached down and got a
big handful of ashes and sifted them over Leon. But it's no fun
to do anything like that to him; he only sank in a more dejected
heap, and moaned: "Send for Bildad and Zophar to comfort
me, and more ashes, please."
"Why does the little feathered dear touch earth at all? Why
doesn't she fly?" demanded Silas Shaw.
"I'm going to get a hundred wads ready for Monday,"
said Jimmy Hood. "We can shoot them when we please."
"Bet ten cents you can't hit her," said Billy Wilson.
"There ain't enough of her for a decent mark."
"Let's quit and go home," proposed Leon. "This
will look worse than it does now by Monday night."
Then every one began talking at once. Suddenly May seized the
poker and began pounding on the top of the stove for order.
"We must clean this up," she said. "We might as
well finish. Maybe you'll shoot wads and do what you please, and
maybe you won't. Her eyes went around like a cat that smells mice.
If she can spell the language she uses, she is the best we've
ever had."
That made us blink, and I never forgot it. Many times afterward
while listening to people talk, I wondered if they could spell
the words they used.
"Well, come on, then!" said Leon. He seized the broom
and handed it to Billy Wilson, quoting as he did so, "Work,
work, my boy, be not afraid"; and he told Silas Shaw as he
gave him the mop, to "Look labour boldly in the face!"
but he never did a thing himself, except to keep every one laughing.
So we cleaned up as well as we could, and Leon strutted like Bobby,
because he locked the door and carried the key. When we reached
home I was sorry I hadn't gone with father, so I could have seen
mother, Sally, Candace, and Laddie when first they met the new
teacher. The shock showed yet! Miss Amelia had taken off her smothery
woollen dress and put on a black calico, but it wasn't any more
cheerful. She didn't know what to do, and you could see plainly
that no one knew what to do with her, so they united in sending
me to show her the place. I asked her what she would like most
to see, and she said everything was so charming she couldn't decide.
I thought if she had no more choice than that, one place would
do as well as another, so I started for the orchard. Quick as
we got there, I knew what to do. I led her straight to our best
cling peach tree, told her to climb on the fence so she could
reach easily, and eat all she chose. We didn't dare shake the
tree, because the pigs ran on the other side of the fence, and
they chanked up every peach that fell there. Those peaches were
too good to feed even father's finest Berkshires.
By the time Miss Amelia had eaten nine or ten, she was so happy
to think she was there, she quit tilting her head and using big
words. Of course she couldn't know how I loved to hear them, and
maybe she thought I wouldn't know what they meant, and that they
would be wasted on me. If she had understood how much spelling
and defining I'd heard in my life, I guess she might have talked
up as big as she could, and still I'd have got most of it. When
she reached the place where she ate more slowly, she began to
talk. She must have asked me most a hundred questions. What all
our names were, how old we were, if our girls had lots of beaus,
and if there were many men in the neighbourhood, and dozens of
things my mother never asked any one. She always inquired if people
were well, if their crops were growing, how much fruit they had,
and how near their quilts were finished.
I told her all about Sally and the wedding, because no one cared
who knew it, after I had been pounded to mince-meat for telling.
She asked if Shelley had any beaus, and I said there wasn't any
one who came like Peter, but every man in the neighbourhood wanted
to be her beau. Then she asked about Laddie, and I was taking
no risks, so I said: "I only see him at home. I don't know
where he goes when he's away. You'll have to ask him."
"Oh, I never would dare," she said. "But he must.
He is so handsome! The girls would just compel him to go to see
them."
"Not if he didn't want to go," I said.
"You must never, never tell him I said so, but I do think
he is the handsomest man I ever saw."
"So do I," I said, "and it wouldn't make any difference
if I told him."
"Then do you mean you're going to tell him my foolish remark?"
she giggled.
"No use," I said. "He knows it now. Every time
he parts his hair he sees how good looking he is. He doesn't care.
He says the only thing that counts with a man is to be big, strong,
manly, and well educated."
"Is he well educated?"
"Yes, I think so, as far as he's gone," I answered.
"Of course he will go on being educated every day of his
life, same as father. He says it is all rot about `finishing'
your education. You never do. You learn more important things
each day, and by the time you are old enough to die, you have
almost enough sense to know how to live comfortably. Pity, isn't
it?"
"Yes," said Miss Amelia, "it's an awful pity, but
it's the truth.
Is your mother being educated too?"
"Whole family," I said. "We learn all the time,
mother most of any, because father always looks out for her. You
see, it takes so much of her time to manage the house, and sew,
and knit, and darn, that she can't study so much as the others;
so father reads all the books to her, and tells her about everything
he finds out, and so do all of us. Just ask her if you think she
doesn't know things."
"I wouldn't know what to ask," said Miss Amelia.
"Ask how long it took to make this world, who invented printing,
where English was first spoken, why Greeley changed his politics,
how to make bluebell perfumery, cut out a dress, or cure a baby
of worms. Just ask her!"
Miss Amelia threw a peach stone through a fence crack and hit
a pig. It was a pretty neat shot.
"I don't need ask any of that," she said scornfully.
"I know all of it now."
"All right! What is best for worms?" I asked.
"Jayne's vermifuge," said Miss Amelia.
"Wrong!" I cried. "That's a patent medicine. Tea
made from male fern root is best, because there's no morphine
in it!"
The supper bell rang and I was glad of it. Peaches are not very
filling after all, for I couldn't see but that Miss Amelia ate
as much as any of us. For a few minutes every one was slow in
speaking, then mother asked about cleaning the schoolhouse, Laddie
had something to explain to father about corn mould, Sally and
the dressmaker talked about pipings--not a bird--a new way to
fold goods to make trimmings, and soon everything was going on
the same as if the new teacher were not there. I noticed that
she kept her head straight, and was not nearly so glib-tongued
and birdlike before mother and Sally as she had been at the schoolhouse.
Maybe that was why father told mother that night that the new
teacher would bear acquaintance.
Sunday was like every other Sabbath, except that I felt so sad
all day I could have cried, but I was not going to do it. Seemed
as if I never could put on shoes, and so many clothes Monday morning,
quite like church, and be shut in a room for hours, to try to
learn what was in books, when the world was running over with
things to find out where you could have your feet in water, leaves
in your hair, and little living creatures in your hands. In the
afternoon Miss Amelia asked Laddie to take her for a walk to see
the creek, and the barn, and he couldn't escape.
I suppose our barn was exactly like hundreds of others. It was
built against an embankment so that on one side you could drive
right on the threshing floor with big loads of grain. On the sunny
side in the lower part were the sheep pens, cattle stalls, and
horse mangers. It was always half bursting with overflowing grain
bins and haylofts in the fall; the swallows twittered under the
roof until time to go south for winter, as they sailed from the
ventilators to their nests plastered against the rafters or eaves.
The big swinging doors front and back could be opened to let the
wind blow through in a strong draft. From the east doors you could
see for miles across the country.
I said our barn was like others, but it was not. There was not
another like it in the whole world. Father, the boys, and the
hired men always kept it cleaned and in proper shape every day.
The upper floor was as neat as some women's houses. It was swept,
the sun shone in, the winds drifted through, the odours of drying
hay and grain were heavy, and from the top of the natural little
hill against which it stood you could see for miles in all directions.
The barn was our great playhouse on Sundays. It was clean there,
we were where we could be called when wanted, and we liked to
climb the ladders to the top of the haymows, walk the beams to
the granaries, and jump to the hay. One day May came down on a
snake that had been brought in with a load. I can hear her yell
now, and it made her so frantic she's been killing them ever since.
It was only a harmless little garter snake, but she was so surprised.
Miss Amelia held her head very much on one side all the time she
walked with Laddie, and she was so birdlike Leon slipped him a
brick and told him to have her hold it to keep her down. Seemed
as if she might fly any minute. She thought our barn was the nicest
she ever had seen and the cleanest. When Laddie opened the doors
on the east side, and she could see the big, red, yellow, and
green apples thick as leaves on the trees in the orchard, the
lane, the woods pasture, and the meadow with scattering trees,
two running springs, and the meeting of the creeks, she said it
was the loveliest sight she ever saw--I mean beheld. Laddie liked
that, so he told her about the beautiful town, and the lake, and
the Wabash River, that our creek emptied into, and how people
came from other states and big cities and stayed all summer to
fish, row, swim, and have good times.
She asked him to take her to the meadow, but he excused himself,
because he had an engagement. So she stood in the door, and watched
him saddle Flos and start to the house to dress in his riding
clothes. After that she didn't care a thing about the meadow,
so we went back.
Our house looked as if we had a party. We were all dressed in
our best, and every one was out in the yard, garden, or orchard.
Peter and Sally were under the big pearmain apple tree at the
foot of the orchard, Shelley and a half dozen beaus were everywhere.
May had her spelling book in one hand and was in my big catalpa
talking to Billy Stevens, who was going to be her beau as soon
as mother said she was old enough. Father was reading a wonderful
new book to mother and some of the neighbours. Leon was perfectly
happy because no one wanted him, so he could tease all of them
by saying things they didn't like to hear. When Laddie came out
and mounted, Leon asked him where he was going, and Laddie said
he hadn't fully decided: he might ride to Elizabeth's, and not
come back until Monday morning.
"You think you're pretty slick," said Leon. "But
if we could see north to the cross road we could watch you turn
west, and go past Pryors to show yourself off, or try to find
the Princess on the road walking or riding. I know something I'm
saving to tell next time you get smart, Mr. Laddie."
Laddie seemed annoyed and no one was quicker to see it than Leon.
Instantly he jumped on the horse block, pulled down his face long
as he could, stretched his hands toward Laddie, and making his
voice all wavery and tremulous, he began reciting from "Lochiel's
Warning," in tones of agonizing pleading:
"Laddie, Laddie, beware of the day!
For, dark and despairing, my sight, I may seal,
But man cannot cover what God would reveal;
'Tis the sunset of life gives me mystical lore,
And coming events cast their shadows before."
That scared me. I begged Leon to tell, but he wouldn't say a word
more. He went and talked to Miss Amelia as friendly as you please,
and asked her to take a walk in the orchard and get some peaches,
and she went flying. He got her all she could carry and guided
her to Peter and Sally, introduced her to Peter, and then slipped
away and left her. Then he and Sally couldn't talk about their
wedding, and Peter couldn't squeeze her hand, and she couldn't
fix his tie, and it was awful. Shelley and her boys almost laughed
themselves sick over it, and then she cried, "To the rescue!"
and started, so they followed. They captured Miss Amelia and brought
her back, and left her with father and the wonderful book, but
I'm sure she liked the orchard better.
I took Grace Greenwood under my arm, Hezekiah on my shoulder,
and with Bobby at my heels went away. I didn't want my hair pulled,
or to be teased that day. There was such a hardness around my
heart, and such a lump in my throat, that I didn't care what happened
to me one minute, and the next I knew I'd slap any one who teased
me, if I were sent to bed for it. As I went down the lane Peter
called to me to come and see him, but I knew exactly how he looked,
and didn't propose to make up. There was not any sense in Sally
clawing me all over, when I only tried to help mother and Lucy
find out what they wanted to know so badly. I went down the hill,
crossed the creek on the stepping-stones, and followed the cowpath
into the woods pasture. It ran beside the creek bank through the
spice thicket and blackberry patches, under pawpaw groves, and
beneath giant oaks and elms. Just where the creek turned at the
open pasture, below the church and cemetery, right at the deep
bend, stood the biggest white oak father owned. It was about a
tree exactly like this that an Englishman wrote a beautiful poem
in McGuffey's Sixth, that begins:
"A song to the oak, the brave old oak,
Who hath ruled in the greenwood long;
Here's health and renown to his broad green crown,
And his fifty arms so strong."
I knew it was the same, because I counted the arms time and again,
and there were exactly fifty. There was a pawpaw and spice hedge
around three sides of this one, and water on the other. Wild grapes
climbed from the bushes to the lower branches and trailed back
to earth again. Here, I had two secrets I didn't propose to tell.
One was that in the crotch of some tiptop branches the biggest
chicken hawks you ever saw had their nest, and if they took too
many chickens father said they'd have to be frightened a little
with a gun. I can't begin to tell how I loved those hawks. They
did the one thing I wanted to most, and never could. When I saw
them serenely soar above the lowest of the soft fleecy September
clouds, I was wild with envy. I would have gone without chicken
myself rather than have seen one of those splendid big brown birds
dropped from the skies. I was so careful to shield them, that
I selected this for my especial retreat when I wanted most to
be alone, and I carefully gathered up any offal from the nest
that might point out their location, and threw it into the water
where it ran the swiftest.
I parted the vines and crept where the roots of the big oak stretched
like bony fingers over the water, that was slowly eating under
it and baring its roots. I sat on them above the water and thought.
I had decided the day before about my going to school, and the
day before that, and many, many times before that, and here I
was having to settle it all over again. Doubled on the sak roots,
a troubled little soul, I settled it once more.
No books or teachers were needed to tell me about flowing water
and fish, how hawks raised their broods and kept house, about
the softly cooing doves of the spice thickets, the cuckoos slipping
snakelike in and out of the wild crab-apple bushes, or the brown
thrush's weird call from the thorn bush. I knew what they said
and did, but their names, where they came from, where they went
when the wind blew and the snow fell--how was I going to find
out that? Worse yet were the flowers, butterflies, and moths;
they were mysteries past learning alone, and while the names I
made up for them were pretty and suitable, I knew in all reason
they wouldn't be the same in the books. I had to go, but no one
will ever know what it cost. When the supper bell rang, I sat
still. I'd have to wait until at least two tables had been served,
anyway, so I sat there and nursed my misery, looked and listened,
and by and by I felt better. I couldn't see or hear a thing that
was standing still. Father said even the rocks grew larger year
by year. The trees were getting bigger, the birds were busy, and
the creek was in a dreadful hurry to reach the river. It was like
that poetry piece that says:
"When a playful brook, you gambolled,"
(Mostly that gambolled word is said about lambs)
"And the sunshine o'er you smiled,
On your banks did children loiter,
Looking for the spring flowers wild?"
The creek was more in earnest and working harder at pushing steadily
ahead without ever stopping than anything else; and like the poetry
piece again, it really did "seem to smile upon us as it quickly
passed us by." I had to quit playing, and go to work some
time; it made me sorry to think how behind I was, because I had
not started two years before, when I should. But that couldn't
be helped now. All there was left was to go this time, for sure.
I got up heavily and slowly as an old person, and then slipped
out and ran down the path to the meadow, because I could hear
Leon whistle as he came to bring the cows.
By fast running I could start them home for him: Rose, Brindle,
Bess, and Pidy, Sukey and Muley; they had eaten all day, but they
still snatched bites as they went toward the gate. I wanted to
surprise Leon and I did.
"Getting good, ain't you?" he asked. "What do you
want?"
"Nothing!" I said. "I just heard you coming and
I thought I'd help you."
"Where were you?"
"Playing."
"You don't look as if you'd been having much fun."
"I don't expect ever to have any, after I begin school."
"Oh!" said Leon. "It is kind of tough the first
day or two, but you'll soon get over it. You should have behaved
yourself, and gone when they started you two years ago."
"Think I don't know it?"
Leon stopped and looked at me sharply.
"I'll help you nights, if you want me to," he offered.
"Can I ever learn?" I asked, almost ready to cry.
"Of course you can," said Leon. "You're smart as
the others, I suppose. The sevens and nines of the multiplication
table are the stickers, but you ought to do them if other girls
can. You needn't feel bad because you are behind a little to start
on; you are just that much better prepared to work, and you can
soon overtake them. You know a lot none of the rest of us do,
and some day it will come your turn to show off. Cheer up, you'll
be all right."
Men are such a comfort. I pressed closer for more.
"Do you suppose I will?" I asked.
"Of course," said Leon. "Any minute the woods,
or birds, or flowers are mentioned your time will come; and all
of us will hear you read and help nights. I'd just as soon as
not."
That was the most surprising thing. He never offered to help me
before. He never acted as if he cared what became of me. Maybe
it was because Laddie always had taken such good care of me, Leon
had no chance. He seemed willing enough now. I looked at him closely.
"You'll find out I'll learn things if I try," I boasted.
"And you will find out I don't tell secrets either."
"I've been waiting for you to pipe up about----"
"Well, I haven't piped, have I?"
"Not yet."
"I am not going to either."
"I almost believe you. A girl you could trust would be a
funny thing to see."
"Tell me what you know about Laddie, and see if I'm funny."
"You'd telltale sure as life!"
"Well, if you know it, he knows it anyway."
"He doesn't know WHAT I know."
"Well, be careful and don't worry mother. You know how she
is since the fever, and father says all of us must think of her.
If it's anything that would bother her, don't tell before her."
"Say, looky here," said Leon, turning on me sharply,
"is all this sudden consideration for mother or are you legging
for Laddie?"
"For both," I answered stoutly.
"Mostly for Laddie, just the same. You can't fool me, missy.
I won't tell you one word."
"You needn't!" I answered, "I don't care!"
"Yes you do," he said. "You'd give anything to
find out what I know, and then run to Laddie with it, but you
can't fool me. I'm too smart for you."
"All right," I said. "You go and tell anything
on Laddie, and I'll watch you, and first trick I catch you at,
I'll do some telling myself, Smarty."
"That's a game more than one can play at," said Leon.
"Go ahead!"
CHAPTER V
The First Day of School
"Birds in their little nests agree.
And why can't we?"
B-i-r-d-s, birds, i-n, in, t-h-e-i-r, their, l-i-t-t-l-e, little,
n-e-s-t-s, nests, a-g-r-e-e, agree."
My feet burned in my new shoes, but most of my body was chilling
as I stood beside Miss Amelia on the platform, before the whole
school, and followed the point of her pencil, while, a letter
at a time, I spelled aloud my first sentence. Nothing ever had
happened to me as bad as that. I was not used to so much clothing.
It was like taking a colt from the woods pasture and putting it
into harness for the first time. That lovely September morning
I followed Leon and May down the dusty road, my heart sick with
dread.
May was so much smaller that I could have picked her up and carried
her. She was a gentle, loving little thing, until some one went
too far, and then they got what they deserved, all at once and
right away.
Many of the pupils were waiting before the church. Leon climbed
the steps, made a deep bow, waved toward the school building across
the way, and what he intended to say was, "Still sits the
schoolhouse by the road," but he was a little excited and
the s's doubled his tongue, so that we heard: "Shill stits
the schoolhouse by the road." We just yelled and I forgot
a little about myself.
When Miss Amelia came to the door and rang the bell, May must
have remembered something of how her first day felt, for as we
reached the steps she waited for me, took me in with her, and
found me a seat. If she had not, I'm quite sure I'd have run away
and fought until they left me in freedom, as I had two years before.
All forenoon I had shivered in my seat, while classes were arranged,
and the elder pupils were started on their work; then Miss Amelia
called me to her on the platform and tried to find out how much
schooling I had. I was ashamed that I knew so little, but there
was no sense in her making me spell after a pencil, like a baby.
I'd never seen the book she picked up. I could read the line she
pointed to, and I told her so, but she said to spell the words;
so I thought she had to be obeyed, for one poetry piece I know
says:
"Quickly speed your steps to school
And there mind your teacher's rule."
I can see Miss Amelia to-day. Her pale face was lined deeper than
ever, her drab hair was dragged back tighter. She wore a black
calico dress with white huckleberries, and a white calico apron
figured in large black apples, each having a stem and two leaves.
In dress she was a fruitful person. She had been a surprise to
all of us. Chipper as a sparrow, she had hopped, and chattered,
and darted here and there, until the hour of opening. Then in
the stress of arranging classes and getting started, all her birdlike
ways slipped from her. Stern and bony she stood before us, and
with a cold light in her pale eyes, she began business in a manner
that made Johnny Hood forget all about his paper wads, and Leon
commenced studying like a good boy, and never even tried to have
fun with her. Every one was so surprised you could notice it,
except May, and she looked, "I told you so!" even in
the back. She had a way of doing that very thing as I never saw
any one else. From the set of her head, how she carried her shoulders,
the stiffness of her spine, and her manner of walking, if you
knew her well, you could tell what she thought, the same as if
you saw her face.
I followed that pencil point and in a husky voice repeated the
letters. I could see Tillie Baher laughing at me from behind her
geography, and every one else had stopped what they were doing
to watch and listen, so I forgot to be thankful that I even knew
my a b c's. I spelled through the sentence, pronounced the words
and repeated them without much thought as to the meaning; at that
moment it didn't occur to me that she had chosen the lesson because
father had told her how I made friends with the birds. The night
before he had been putting me through memory tests, and I had
recited poem after poem, even long ones in the Sixth Reader, and
never made one mistake when the piece was about birds. At our
house, we heard next day's lessons for all ages gone over every
night so often, that we couldn't help knowing them by heart, if
we had any brains at all, and I just loved to get the big folk's
readers and learn the bird pieces. Father had been telling her
about it, so for that reason she thought she would start me on
the birds, but I'm sure she made me spell after a pencil point,
like a baby, on purpose to shame me, because I was two years behind
the others who were near my age. As I repeated the line Miss Amelia
thought she saw her chance. She sprang to her feet, tripped a
few steps toward the centre of the platform, and cried: "Classes,
attention! Our Youngest Pupil has just completed her first sentence.
This sentence contains a Thought. It is a wonderfully beautiful
Thought. A Thought that suggests a great moral lesson for each
of us. `Birrrds--in their little nests--agreeee.'"
Never have I heard cooing sweetness to equal the melting tones
in which Miss Amelia drawled those words. Then she continued,
after a good long pause in order to give us time to allow the
"Thought" to sink in: "There is a lesson in this
for all of us. We are here in our schoolroom, like little birds
in their nest. Now how charming it would be if all of us would
follow the example of the birds, and at our work, and in our play,
agreeee--be kind, loving, and considerate of each other. Let us
all remember always this wonderful truth: `Birrrrds--in their
little nests-- agreeeee!'"
In three steps I laid hold of her apron. Only last night Leon
had said it would come, yet whoever would have thought that I'd
get a chance like this, so soon.
"Ho but they don't!" I cried. "They fight like
anything! Every day they make the feathers fly!"
In a backward stroke Miss Amelia's fingers, big and bony, struck
my cheek a blow that nearly upset me. A red wave crossed her face,
and her eyes snapped. I never had been so surprised in all my
life. I was only going to tell her the truth. What she had said
was altogether false. Ever since I could remember I had watched
courting male birds fight all over the farm. After a couple had
paired, and were nest building, the father always drove every
other bird from his location. In building I had seen him pecked
for trying to place a twig. I had seen that happen again for merely
offering food to the mother, if she didn't happen to be hungry,
or for trying to make love to her when she was brooding. If a
young bird failed to get the bite it wanted, it sometimes grabbed
one of its nestmates by the bill, or the eye even, and tried to
swallow it whole. Always the oldest and strongest climbed on top
of the youngest and fooled his mammy into feeding him most by
having his head highest, his mouth widest, and begging loudest.
There could be no mistake. I was so amazed I forgot the blow,
as I stared at the fool woman.
"I don't see why you slap me!" I cried. "It's the
truth! Lots of times old birds pull out bunches of feathers fighting,
and young ones in the nests bite each other until they squeal."
Miss Amelia caught my shoulders and shook me as hard as she could;
and she proved to be stronger than you ever would have thought
to look at her.
"Take your seat!" she cried. "You are a rude, untrained
child!"
"They do fight!" I insisted, as I held my head high
and walked to my desk.
Leon laughed out loud, and that made everyone else. Miss Amelia
had so much to do for a few minutes that she forgot me, and I
know now why Leon started it, at least partly. He said afterward
it was the funniest sight he ever saw. My cheek smarted and burned.
I could scarcely keep from feeling to learn whether it were swelling,
but I wouldn't have shed a tear or raised my hand for anything
you could offer.
Recess was coming and I didn't know what to do. If I went to the
playground, all of them would tease me; and if I sat at my desk
Miss Amelia would have another chance at me. That was too much
to risk, so I followed the others outdoors, and oh joy! there
came Laddie down the road. He set me on one of the posts of the
hitching rack before the church, and with my arms around his neck,
I sobbed out the whole story.
"She didn't understand," said Laddie quietly. "You
stay here until I come back. I'll go explain to her about the
birds. Perhaps she hasn't watched them as closely as you have."
Recess was over before he returned. He had wet his handkerchief
at the water bucket, and now he bathed my face and eyes, straightened
my hair with his pocket comb, and began unlacing my shoes.
"What are you going to do?" I asked. "I must wear
them. All the girls do. Only the boys are barefoot."
"You are excused," answered Laddie. "Three-fourths
of the day is enough to begin on. Miss Amelia says you may come
with me."
"Where are you going?"
Laddie was stripping off my stockings as he looked into my eyes,
and smiled a peculiar little smile.
"Oh Laddie!" I cried. "Will you take me? Honest!"
He laughed again and then he rubbed my feet.
"Poor abused feet," he said. "Sometimes I wish
shoes had never been invented."
"They feel pretty good when there's ice."
"So they do!" said Laddie.
He swung me to the ground, and we crossed the road, climbed the
fence, and in a minute our redbird swamp shut the schoolhouse
and cross old Miss Amelia from sight. Then we turned and started
straight toward our Big Woods. I could scarcely keep on the ground.
"How are the others getting along?" asked Laddie.
"She's cross as two sticks," I told him. "Johnny
Hood hasn't shot one paper wad, and Leon hadn't done a thing until
he laughed about the birds, and I guess he did that to make her
forget me."
"Good!" cried Laddie. "I didn't suppose the boy
thought that far."
"Oh, you never can tell by looking at him, how far Leon is
thinking," I said.
"That's so, too," said Laddie. "Are your feet comfortable
now?"
"Yes, but Laddie, isn't my face marked?"
"I'm afraid it is a little," said Laddie. "We'll
bathe it again at the creek. We must get it fixed so mother won't
notice."
"What will the Princess think?"
"That you fell, perhaps," said Laddie.
"Do the tears show?"
"Not at all. We washed them all away."
"Did I do wrong, Laddie?"
"Yes, I think you did."
"But it wasn't true, what she said."
"That's not the point."
We had reached the fence of the Big Woods. He lifted me to the
top rail and explained, while I combed his waving hair with my
fingers.
"She didn't strike you because what you said was not so,
for it was. She knew instantly you were right, if she knows anything
at all about outdoors. This is what made her angry: it is her
first day. She wanted to make a good impression on her pupils,
to arouse their interest, and awaken their respect. When you spoke,
all of them knew you were right, and she was wrong; that made
her ridiculous. Can't you see how it made her look and feel?"
"I didn't notice how she looked, but from the way she hit
me, you could tell she felt bad enough."
"She surely did," said Laddie, kissing my cheek softly.
"Poor little woman! What a world of things you have to learn!"
"Shouldn't I have told her how mistaken she was?"
"If you had gone to her alone, at recess or noon, or to-night,
probably she would have thanked you. Then she could have corrected
herself at some convenient time and kept her dignity."
"Must I ask her pardon?"
"What you should do, is to put yourself in Miss Amelia's
place and try to understand how she felt. Then if you think you
wouldn't have liked any one to do to you what you did to her,
you'll know."
I hugged Laddie tight and thought fast--there was no need to think
long to see how it was.
"I got to tell her I was wrong," I said. "Now let's
go to the Enchanted Wood and see if we can find the Queen's daughter."
"All right!" said Laddie.
He leaped the fence, swung me over, and started toward the pawpaw
thicket. He didn't do much going around. He crashed through and
over; and soon he began whistling the loveliest little dancy tune.
It made your head whirl, and your toes tingle, and you knew it
was singing that way in his heart, and he was just letting out
the music. That was why it made you want to dance and whirl; it
was so alive. But that wasn't the way in an Enchanted Wood. I
pulled his hand.
"Laddie!" I cautioned, "keep in the path! You'll
step on the Fairies and crush a whole band with one foot. No wonder
the Queen makes her daughter grow big when she sends her to you.
If you make so much noise, some one will hear you, then this won't
be a secret any more."
Laddie laughed, but he stepped carefully in the path after that,
and he said: "There are times, Little Sister, when I don't
care whether this secret is secret another minute or not. Secrets
don't agree with me. I'm too big, and broad, and too much of a
man, to go creeping through the woods with a secret. I prefer
to print it on a banner and ride up the road waving it."
"Like,--`A youth who bore mid snow and ice, A banner with
a strange device,'" I said.
"That would be `a banner with a strange device,'" laughest
Laddie. "But, yes--something like!"
"Have you told the Princess?"
"I have!" Laddie fairly shouted it.
"Docs SHE like secrets?"
"No more than I do!"
"Then why----?"
"There you go!" said Laddie. "Zeus, but the woman
is beginning to measle out all over you! You know as well as any
one that there's something wrong at her house. I don't know what
it is; I can't even make a sensible guess as yet, but it's worse
than the neighbours think. It's a thing that has driven a family
from their home country, under a name that I have doubts about
being theirs, and sent them across an ocean, `strangers in a strange
land,' as it says in the Bible. It's something that keeps a cultured
gentleman and scholar raging up and down the roads and over the
country like a madman. It shuts a white-faced, lovely, little
woman from her neighbours, but I have passed her walking the road
at night with both hands pressed against her heart. Sometimes
it tries the Princess past endurance and control; and it has her
so worn and tired struggling with it that she is willing to carry
another secret, rather than try to find strength to do anything
that would make more trouble for her father and mother."
"Would it trouble them for her to know you, Laddie?"
"So long as they don't and won't become acquainted with me,
or any one, of course it would."
"Can't you force them to know you?"
"That I can!" said Laddie. "But you see, I only
met the Princess a short time ago, and there would be no use in
raising trouble, unless she will make me her Knight!"
"But hasn't she, Laddie?"
"Not in the very littlest least," said Laddie. "For
all I know, she is merely using me to help pass a lonely hour.
You see, people reared in England have ideas of class, that two
or three generations spent here wash out. The Princess and her
family are of the unwashed British. Father's people have been
here long enough to judge a man on his own merits."
"You mean the Princess' family would think you're not good
enough to be her Knight?"
"Exactly!"
"And we know that our family thinks they are infidels, and
wicked people; and that if she would have you, mother would be
sick in bed over it. Oh Laddie!"
"Precisely!"
"What are you going to do?"
"That I must find out."
"When it will make so much trouble, why not forget her, and
go on like you did before she came? Then, all of us were happy.
Now, it makes me shiver to think what will happen."
"Me too," said Laddie. "But look here, Little Sister,
right in my face. Will you ever forget the Princess?"
"Never!"
"Then how can you ask me to?"
"I didn't mean forget her, exactly. I meant not come here
and do things that will make every one unhappy."
"One minute, Chick-a-Biddy," said Laddie. Sometimes
he called me that, when he loved me the very most of all. I don't
believe any one except me ever heard him do it. "Let me ask
you this: does our father love our mother?"
"Love her?" I cried. "Why he just loves her to
death! He turns so white, and he suffers so, when her pain is
the worst. Love her? And she him? Why, don't you remember the
other day when he tipped her head against him and kissed her throat
as he left the table; that he asked her if she `loved him yet,'
and she said right before all of us, `Why Paul, I love you, until
I scarcely can keep my fingers off you!' Laddie, is it like that
with you and the Princess?"
"It is with me," said Laddie. "Not with the Princess!
Now, can I forget her? Can I keep away from even the chance to
pass her on the road?"
"No," I said. "No, you can't, Laddie. But can you
ever make her love you?"
"It takes time to find that out," said Laddie. "I
have got to try; so you be a woman and keep my secret a little
while longer, until I find a way out, but don't bother your head
about it!"
"I can't help bothering my head, Laddie. Can't you make her
understand that God is not a myth?"
"I'm none too sure what I believe myself," said Laddie.
"Not that there is no God--I don't mean that--but I surely
don't believe all father's teachings."
"If you believe God, do other little things matter, Laddie?"
"I think not," said Laddie, "else Heaven would
be all Methodists.
As for the Princess, all she has heard in her life has been against
there being a God. Now, she is learning something on the other
side. After a while she can judge for herself. It is for us, who
profess to be a Christian family, to prove to her why we believe
in God, and what He does for us."
"Well, she would think He could do a good deal, if she knew
how mother hated asking her to come to our house; and yet she
did it, beautifully too, just to give her a chance to see that
very thing. But I almost made her do it. I don't believe she ever
would alone, Laddie, or at least not for a long time yet."
"I saw that, and understood it perfectly," said Laddie.
"Thank you, Little Sister." He picked me up and hugged
me tight. "If I could only make you see!"
"But Laddie, I do! I'm not a baby! I know how people love
and make homes for themselves, like Sally and Peter are going
to. If it is with you about the Princess as it is with father
and mother, why I do know."
"All right! Here we are!" said Laddie.
He parted the willows and we stepped on the Magic Carpet, and
that minute the Magic worked. I forgot every awful, solemn, troublous
thing we had been talking about, and looked around while Laddie
knelt and hunted for a letter, and there was none. That meant
the Princess was coming, so we sat on the throne to wait. We hadn't
remembered to bathe my cheek, we had been so busy when we passed
the water, and I doubt if we were thinking much then. We just
waited. The willow walls waved gently, the moss carpet was spotted
with little gold patches of sunlight, in the shade a few of the
red flowers still bloomed, and big, lazy bumblebees hummed around
them, or a hummingbird stood on air before them. A sort of golden
throbbing filled the woods, and my heart began to leap, why, I
don't know; but I'm sure Laddie's did too, for I looked at him
and his eyes were shining as I never had seen them before, while
his cheeks were a little red, and he was breathing like when you've
been running; then suddenly his body grew tense against mine,
and that meant she was coming.
Like that first day, she came slowly through the woods, stopping
here and there to touch the trunk of a tree, put back a branch,
or bend over a flower face. Brown as the wood floor was her dress,
and cardinal flowers blazed on her breast, and the same colour
showed on her cheeks and lips. Her eyes were like Laddie's for
brightness, and she was breathing the same way. I thought sure
there was going to be something to remember a lifetime--I was
so excited I couldn't stand still. Before it could happen Laddie
went and said it was a "beautiful day," and she said
"it didn't show in the woods, but the pastures needed rain."
Then she kissed me. Well if I ever! I sank on the throne and sat
there. They went on talking like that, until it was too dull to
bear, so I slipped out and wandered away to see what I could find.
When I grew tired and went back, Laddie was sitting on the Magic
Carpet with his back against the beech, and the Princess was on
the throne reading from a little book, reading such interesting
things that I decided to listen. After a while she came to this:
"Thou are mated with a clown, And the grossness of his nature,
will have weight to bear thee down."
Laddie threw back his head, and how he laughed! The Princess put
down the book and looked at him so surprised.
"Are you reading that to me because you think it appropriate?"
asked Laddie.
"I am reading it because it is conceded to be one of the
most beautiful poems ever written," said the Princess.
"You knew when you began that you would come to those lines."
"I never even thought of such a thing."
"But you knew that is how your father would regard any relationship,
friendly or deeper, with me!"
"I cannot possibly be held responsible for what my father
thinks."
"It is natural that you should think alike."
"Not necessarily! You told me recently that you didn't agree
with your father on many subjects."
"Kindly answer me this," said Laddie: "Do you feel
that I'm a `clown' because I'm not schooled to the point on all
questions of good manners? Do you find me gross because I plow
and sow?"
"You surprise me," said the Princess. "My consenting
to know and to spend a friendly hour with you here is sufficient
answer. I have not found the slightest fault with your manners.
I have seen no suspicion of `grossness' about you."
"Will you tell me, frankly, exactly what you do think of
me?"
"Surely! I think you are a clean, decent man, who occasionally
kindly consents to put a touch of human interest into an hour,
for a very lonely girl. What has happened, Laddie? This is not
like you."
Laddie sat straight and studied the beech branches. Father said
beech trees didn't amount to much; but I first learned all about
them from that one, and what it taught me made me almost worship
them always. There were the big trunk with great rough spreading
roots, the bark in little ridges in places, smooth purple gray
between, big lichens for ornament, the low flat branches, the
waxy, wavy-edged leaves, with clear veins, and the delicious nuts
in their little brown burrs. The Princess and I both stared at
the branches and waited while a little breath of air stirred the
leaves, the sunshine flickered, and a cricket sang a sort of lonesome
song. Laddie leaned against the tree again, and he was thinking
so hard, to look at him made me begin to repeat to myself the
beech part of that beautiful churchyard poem our big folks recite:
"There, at the foot of yonder nodding beech,
That wreathes its old fantastic roots so high,
His listless length at noontide he would stretch,
And pore upon the brook that babbles by."
Only he was studying so deeply you could almost feel what was
in his mind, and it was not about the brook at all, even if one
ran close. Soon he began talking.
"Not so bad!" he said. "You might think worse.
I admit the cleanliness, I strive for decency, I delight in being
humanely interesting, even for an hour; you might think worse,
much worse!
You might consider me a `clown.' `A country clod.' Rather a lowdown,
common thing, a `clod,' don't you think? And a `clown'!
And `gross' on top of that!"
"What can you mean?" asked the Princess.
"Since you don't seem to share the estimate of me, I believe
I'll tell you," said Laddie. "The other day I was driving
from the gravel pit with a very heavy load. The road was wide
and level on either side. A man came toward me on horseback. Now
the law of the road is to give half to a vehicle similar to the
one you are driving, but to keep all of it when you are heavily
loaded, if you are passing people afoot or horseback. The man
took half the road, and kept it until the nose of his horse touched
one of the team I was driving. I stopped and said: `Good morning,
sir!
Do you wish to speak with me?' He called angrily: `Get out of
my way, you clod!' `Sorry sir, but I can't,' I said. `The law
gives me this road when I am heavily loaded, and you are on foot
or horseback.'"
"What did he do?" asked the Princess.
And from the way she looked I just knew she guessed the man was
the same one I thought of.
"He raised his whip to strike my horse," said Laddie.
"Ah, surely!" said the Princess. "Always an arm
raised to strike. And you, Man? What did you do?" she cried
eagerly.
"I stood on my load, suddenly," said Laddie, "and
I called: `Hold one minute!'"
"And he?" breathed the Princess.
"Something made him pause with his arm still raised. I said
to him: `You must not strike my horse. It never has been struck,
and it can't defend itself. If you want to come a few steps farther
and tackle me, come ahead! I can take it or return it, as I choose.'"
"Go on!" said the Princess.
"That's all," said Laddie, "or at least almost
all."
"Did he strike?"
"He did not. He stared at me a second, and then he rode around
me; but he was making forceful remarks as he passed about `country
clods,' and there was an interesting one about a `gross clown.'
What you read made me think of it, that is all."
The Princess stared into the beech branches for a time and then
she said: "I will ask your pardon for him. He always had
a domineering temper, and trouble he had lately has almost driven
him mad; he is scarcely responsible at times. I hesitate about
making him angry."
"I think perhaps," said Laddie, "I would have done
myself credit if I had recognized that, and given him the road,
when he made a point of claiming it."
"Indeed no!" cried the Princess. "To be beaten
at the game he started was exactly what he needed. If you had
turned from his way, he would have considered you a clod all his
life. Since you made him go around, it may possibly dawn on him
that you are a man. You did the very best thing."
Then she began to laugh, and how she did laugh.
"I would give my allowance for a quarter to have seen it,"
she cried. "I must hurry home and tell mother."
"Does your mother know about me?" he demanded. "Does
she know that you come here?"
The Princess arose and stood very tall and straight.
"You may beg my pardon or cease to know me," she said.
"Whatever led you to suppose that I would know or meet you
without my mother's knowledge?"
Then she started toward the entrance.
"One minute!" cried Laddie.
A leap carried him to her side. He caught her hands and held them
tight, and looked straight into her eyes. Then he kissed her hands
over and over. I thought from the look on her face he might have
kissed her cheek if he had dared risk it; but he didn't seem to
notice. Then she stooped and kissed me, and turned toward home,
while Laddie and I crossed the woods to the west road, and went
back past the schoolhouse. I was so tired Laddie tied the strings
together and hung my shoes across his shoulders and took me by
the arm the last mile.
All of them were at home when we got there, and Miss Amelia came
to the gate to meet us. She was mealy-mouthed and good as pie,
not at all as I had supposed she would be. I wonder what Laddie
said to her. But then he always could manage things for every
one. That set me to wondering if by any possible means he could
fix them for himself. I climbed to the catalpa to think, and the
more I thought, the more I feared he couldn't; but still mother
always says one never can tell until they try, and I knew he would
try with every ounce of brain and muscle in him. I sat there until
the supper bell rang, and then I washed and reached the table
last. The very first thing, mother asked how I bruised my face,
and before I could think what to tell her, Leon said just as careless
like: "Oh she must have run against something hard, playing
tag at recess." Laddie began talking about Peter coming that
night, and every one forgot me, but pretty soon I slipped a glance
at Miss Amelia, and saw that her face was redder than mine.
CHAPTER VI
The Wedding Gown
"The gay belles of fashion may boast of excelling
In waltz or cotillon, at whist or quadrille;
And seek admiration by vauntingly telling
Of drawing and painting, and musical skill;
But give me the fair one, in country or city,
Whose home and its duties are dear to her heart,
Who cheerfully warbles some rustical ditty,
While plying the needle with exquisite art:
The bright little needle, the swift-flying needle,
The needle directed by beauty and art."
The next morning Miss Amelia finished the chapter--that made two
for our family. Father always read one before breakfast--no wonder
I knew the Bible quite well--then we sang a song, and she made
a stiff, little prayer. I had my doubts about her prayers; she
was on no such terms with the Lord as my father. He got right
at Him and talked like a doctor, and you felt he had some influence,
and there was at least a possibility that he might get what he
asked for; but Miss Amelia prayed as if the Lord were ten million
miles away, and she would be surprised to pieces if she got anything
she wanted. When she asked the Almighty to make us good, obedient
children, there was not a word she said that showed she trusted
either the Lord or us, or thought there was anything between us
and heaven that might make us good because we wanted to be. You
couldn't keep your eyes from the big gad and ruler on her desk;
she often fingered them as she prayed, and you knew from her stiff,
little, sawed-out petition that her faith was in implements, and
she'd hit you a crack the minute she was the least angry, same
as she had me the day before. I didn't feel any too good toward
her, but when the blood of the Crusaders was in the veins, right
must be done even if it took a struggle. I had to live up to those
little gold shells on the trinket. Father said they knew I was
coming down the line, so they put on a bird for me; but I told
him I would be worthy of the shells too. This took about as hard
a fight for me as any Crusade would for a big, trained soldier.
I had been wrong, Laddie had made me see that. So I held up my
hand, and Miss Amelia saw me as she picked up Ray's arithmetic.
"What is it?"
I held to the desk to brace myself, and tried twice before I could
raise my voice so that she heard.
"Please, Miss Amelia," I said, "I was wrong about
the birds yesterday. Not that they don't fight--they do! But I
was wrong to contradict you before every one, and on your first
day, and if you'll only excuse me, the next time you make a mistake,
I'll tell you after school or at recess."
The room was so still you could hear the others breathing. Miss
Amelia picked up the ruler and started toward me. Possibly I raised
my hands. That would be no Crusader way, but you might do it before
you had time to think, when the ruler was big and your head was
the only place that would be hit. The last glimpse I had of her
in the midst of all my trouble made me think of Sabethany Perkins.
Sabethany died, and they buried her at the foot of the hill in
our graveyard before I could remember. But her people thought
heaps of her, and spent much money on the biggest tombstone in
the cemetery, and planted pinies and purple phlox on her, and
went every Sunday to visit her. When they moved away, they missed
her so, they decided to come back and take her along. The men
were at work, and Leon and I went to see what was going on. They
told us, and said we had better go away, because possibly things
might happen that children would sleep better not to see. Strange
how a thing like that makes you bound you will see. We went and
sat on the fence and waited. Soon they reached Sabethany, but
they could not seem to get her out. They tried, and tried, and
at last they sent for more men. It took nine of them to bring
her to the surface. What little wood was left, they laid back
to see what made her so fearfully heavy, and there she was turned
to solid stone. They couldn't chip a piece off her with the shovel.
Mother always said, "For goodness sake, don't let your mouth
hang open," and as a rule we kept ours shut; but you should
have seen Leon's when he saw Sabethany wouldn't chip off, and
no doubt mine was as bad.
"When Gabriel blows his trumpet, and the dead arise and come
forth, what on earth will they do with Sabethany?" I gasped.
"Why, she couldn't fly to Heaven with wings a mile wide,
and what use could they make of her if she got there?"
"I can't see a thing she'd be good for except a hitching
post," said Leon, "and I guess they don't let horses
in. Let's go home."
He acted sick and I felt that way; so we went, but the last glimpse
of Sabethany remained with me.
As my head went down that day, I saw that Miss Amelia looked exactly
like her. You would have needed a pick-ax or a crowbar to flake
off even a tiny speck of her. When I had waited for my head to
be cracked, until I had time to remember that a Crusader didn't
dodge and hide, I looked up, and there she stood with the ruler
lifted; but now she had turned just the shade of the wattles on
our fightingest turkey gobbler.
"Won't you please forgive me?"
I never knew I had said it until I heard it, and then the only
way to be sure was because no one else would have been likely
to speak at that time.
Miss Amelia's arm dropped and she glared at me. I wondered whether
I ever would understand grown people; I doubted if they understood
themselves, for after turning to stone in a second-- father said
it had taken Sabethany seven years--and changing to gobbler red,
Miss Amelia suddenly began to laugh. To laugh, of all things!
And then, of course, every one else just yelled. I was so mortified
I dropped my head again and began to cry as I never would if she'd
hit me.
"Don't feel badly!" said Miss Amelia. "Certainly,
I'll forgive you. I see you had no intention of giving offense,
so none is taken. Get out your book and study hard on another
lesson." That was surprising. I supposed I'd have to do the
same one over, but I might take a new one. I was either getting
along fast, or Miss Amelia had her fill of birds. I wiped my eyes
as straight in front of me as I could slip up my handkerchief,
and began studying the first lesson in my reader: "Pretty
bee, pray tell me why, thus from flower to flower you fly, culling
sweets the livelong day, never leaving off to play?" That
was a poetry piece, and it was quite cheery, although it was all
strung together like prose, but you couldn't fool me on poetry;
I knew it every time. As I studied I felt better, and when Miss
Amelia came to hear me she was good as gold. She asked if I liked
honey, and I started to tell her about the queen bee, but she
had no time to listen, so she said I should wait until after school.
Then we both forgot it, for when we reached home, the Princess'
horse was hitched to our rack, and I fairly ran in, I was so anxious
to know what was happening.
I was just perfectly amazed at grown people! After all the things
our folks had said! You'd have supposed that Laddie would have
been locked in the barn; father reading the thirty second Psalm
to the Princess, and mother on her knees asking God to open her
eyes like Saul's when he tried to kick against the pricks, and
make her to see, as he did, that God was not a myth, Well, there
was no one in the sitting-room or the parlour, but there were
voices farther on; so I slipped in. I really had to slip, for
there was no other place they could be except the parlour bedroom,
and Sally's wedding things were locked up there, and we were not
to see until everything was finished, like I told you.
Well, this was what I saw: our bedroom had been a porch once,
and when we had been crowded on account of all of us coming, father
enclosed it and made a room. But he never had taken out the window
in the wall. So all I had to do when I wanted to know how fast
the dresses were being made, was to shove up the window above
my bed, push back the blind, and look in. I didn't care what she
had. I just wanted to get ahead of her and see before she was
ready, to pay her for beating me. I knew what she had, and I meant
to tell her, and walk away with my nose in the air when she offered
to show me; but this was different. I was wild to see what was
going on because the Princess was there. The room was small, and
the big cherry four-poster was very large, and all of them were
talking, so no one paid the slightest attention to me.
Mother sat in the big rocking chair, with Sally on one of its
arms, leaning against her shoulder. Shelley and May and the sewing
woman were crowded between the wall and the footboard, and the
others lined against the wall. The bed was heaped in a tumble
of everything a woman ever wore. Seemed to me there was more stuff
there than all the rest of us had, put together. The working dresses
and aprons had been made on the machine, but there were heaps
and stacks of hand-made underclothes. I could see the lovely chemise
mother embroidered lying on top of a pile of bedding, and over
and over Sally had said that every stitch in the wedding gown
must be taken by hand. The Princess stood beside the bed. A funny
little tight hat like a man's and a riding whip lay on a chair
close by. I couldn't see what she wore--her usual riding clothes
probably--for she had a nip in each shoulder of a dress she was
holding to her chin and looking down at. After all, I hadn't seen
everything! Never before or since have I seen a lovelier dress
than that. It was what always had been wrapped in the sheet on
the foot of the bed and I hadn't got a peep at it. The pale green
silk with tiny pink moss roses in it, that I had been thinking
was the wedding dress, looked about right to wash the dishes in,
compared with this.
This was a wedding dress. You didn't need any one to tell you.
The Princess had as much red as I ever had seen in her cheeks,
her eyes were bright, and she was half-laughing and half-crying.
"Oh you lucky, lucky girl!" she was saying. "What
a perfectly beautiful bride you will be! Never have I seen a more
wonderful dress! Where did you get the material?"
Now we had been trained always to wait for mother to answer a
visitor as she thought suitable, or at least to speak one at a
time and not interrupt; but about six of those grown people told
the Princess all at the same time how our oldest sister Elizabeth
was married to a merchant who had a store at Westchester and how
he got the dress in New York, and gave it to Sally for her wedding
present, or she never could have had it.
The Princess lifted it and set it down softly. "Oh look!"
she cried. "Look! It will stand alone!"
There it stood! Silk stiff enough to stand by itself, made into
a little round waist, cut with a round neck and sleeves elbow
length and flowing almost to where Sally's knees would come. It
was a pale pearl-gray silk crossed in bars four inches square,
made up of a dim yellow line almost as wide as a wheat straw,
with a thread of black on each side of it, and all over, very
wide apart, were little faint splashes of black as if they had
been lightly painted on. The skirt was so wide it almost filled
the room. Every inch of that dress was lined with soft, white
silk. There was exquisite lace made into a flat collar around
the neck, and ruffled from sight up the inside of the wide sleeves.
That was the beginning. The finish was something you never saw
anything like before. It was a trimming made of white and yellow
beads. There was a little heading of white beads sewed into a
pattern, then a lacy fringe that was pale yellow beads, white
inside, each an inch long, that dangled, and every bead ended
with three tiny white ones. That went around the neck, the outside
of the sleeves, and in a pattern like a big letter V all the way
around the skirt. And there it stood-- alone!
The Princess, graceful as a bird and glowing like fire, danced
around it, and touched it, and lifted the sleeves, and made the
bead fringe swing, and laughed, and talked every second. Sally,
and mother, and all of them had smiled such wide smiles for so
long, their faces looked almost as set as Sabethany's, but of
course far different. Being dead was one thing, getting ready
for a wedding another.
And it looked too as if God might be a myth, for all they cared,
so long as the Princess could make the wedding dress stand alone,
and talk a blue streak of things that pleased them. It was not
put on either, for there stood the dress, shimmering like the
inside of a pearl-lined shell, white as a lily, and the tinkly
gold fringe. No one COULD have said enough about it, so no matter
what the Princess said, it had to be all right. She kept straight
on showing all of them how lovely it was, exactly as if they hadn't
seen it before, and she had to make them understand about it,
as if she felt afraid they might have missed some elegant touch
she had seen.
"Do look how the lace falls when I raise this sleeve! Oh
how will you wear this and think of a man enough to say the right
words in the right place?"
Mother laughed, and so did all of them.
"Do please show me the rest," begged the Princess. "I
know there are slippers and a bonnet!"
Sally just oozed pride. She untied the strings and pushed the
prettiest striped bag from a lovely pink bandbox and took out
a dear little gray bonnet with white ribbons, and the yellow bead
fringe, and a bunch of white roses with a few green leaves. These
she touched softly, "I'm not quite sure about the leaves,"
she said.
The Princess had the bonnet, turning and tilting it.
"Perfect!" she cried. "Quite perfect! You need
that touch of colour, and it blends with everything. How I envy
you! Oh why doesn't some one ask me, so I can have things like
these? I think your brother is a genius. I'm going to ride to
Westchester tomorrow and give him an order to fill for me the
next time he goes to the city. No one shows me such fabrics when
I go, and Aunt Beatrice sends nothing from London I like nearly
so well. Oh! Oh!"
She was on her knees now, lifting the skirt to set under little
white satin slippers with gold buckles, and white bead buttons.
When she had them arranged to suit her, she sat on the floor and
kept straight on saying the things my mother and sisters seemed
crazy to hear. When Sally showed her the long white silk mitts
that went with the bonnet, the Princess cried: "Oh do ride
home with me and let me give you a handkerchief Aunt Beatrice
sent me, to carry in your hand!"
Then her face flushed and she added without giving Sally time
to say what she would do: "Or I can bring it the next time
I come past. It belongs with these things and I have no use for
it. May I?"
"Please do! I'll use it for the thing I borrow."
"But I mean it to be a gift," said the Princess. "It
was made to go with these lace mitts and satin slippers. You must
take it!"
"Thank you very much," said Sally. "If you really
want me to have it, of course I'd love to."
"I'll bring it to-morrow," promised the Princess. "And
I wish you'd let me try a way I know to dress hair for a wedding.
Yours is so beautiful."
"You're kind, I'm sure," said Sally. "I had intended
to wear it as I always do, so I would appear perfectly natural
to the folks; but if you know a more becoming way, I could begin
it now, and they would be familiar with it by that time."
"I shan't touch it," said the Princess, studying Sally's
face. "Your idea is right. You don't want to commence any
new, unfamiliar style that would make you seem different, just
at a time when every one should see how lovely you are, as you
always have been. But don't forget to wear something blue, and
something borrowed for luck, and oh do please put on one of my
garters!"
"Well for mercy sake!" cried my mother. "Why?"
"So some one will propose to me before the year is out,"
laughed the Princess. "I think it must be the most fun of
all, to make beautiful things for your very own home, and lovely
dresses, and be surrounded by friends all eager to help you, and
to arrange a house and live with a man you love well enough to
marry, and fix for little people who might come----"
"You know perfectly there isn't a single man in the county
who wouldn't propose to you, if you'd let him come within a mile
of you," said Shelley.
"When the right man comes I'll go half the mile to meet him?
you may be sure of that; won't I, Mrs. Stanton?" the Princess
turned to mother.
"I have known girls who went even farther," said my
mother rather dryly.
"I draw the line at half," laughed the Princess. "Now
I must go; I have been so long my people will be wondering what
I'm doing."
Standing in the middle of the room she put on her hat, picked
up her whip and gloves, and led the way to the hitching rack,
while all of us followed. At the gate stood Laddie as he had come
from the field. His old hat was on the back of his head, his face
flushed, his collar loosened so that his strong white neck showed,
and his sleeves were rolled to the elbow, as they had been all
summer, and his arms were burned almost to blisters. When he heard
us coming he opened the gate, went to the rack, untied the Princess'
horse and led it beside the mounting block. As she came toward
him, he took off his hat and pitched it over the fence on the
grass.
"Miss Pryor, allow me to make you acquainted with my son,"
said mother.
I felt as if I would blow up. I couldn't keep my eyes from turning
toward the Princess. Gee! I could have saved my feelings. She
made mother the prettiest little courtsey I ever set eyes on,
and then turned and made a deeper one to Laddie.
"I met your son in one of the village stores some time ago,"
she said. "Back her one step farther, please!"
Laddie backed the horse, and quicker than you could see how it
was done, she flashed up the steps and sat the saddle; but as
she leaned over the horse's neck to take the rein from Laddie,
he got one level look straight in the eyes that I was sure none
of the others saw, because they were not watching for it, and
I was. Laddie bowed from the waist, and put the reins in her fingers
all in one movement. He caught the glance she gave him too; I
could almost feel it like a band passing between them. Then she
called a laughing good-bye to all of us at once, and showed us
how to ride right, as she flashed toward the Little Hill. That
was riding, you may believe, and mother sighed as she watched
her.
"If I were a girl again," she said, "I would ride
as well as that, or I'd never mount a horse."
"She's been trained from her cradle, and her father deals
in horses. Half the battle in riding is a thoroughbred,"
said Laddie. "No such horse as that ever stepped these roads
before."
"And no such girl ever travelled them," said my mother,
folding her hands one over the other on top of a post of the hitching
rack. "I must say I don't know how this is coming out, and
it troubles me."
"Why, what's up?" asked Laddie, covering her hands with
his and looking her in the eyes.
"Just this," said my mother. "She's more beautiful
of face and form than God ought to allow any woman to be, in mercy
to the men who will be forced to meet her. Her speech is highly
cultured. Her manners are perfect, and that is a big and unusual
thing in a girl of her age. Every word she said, every move she
made to- day, was exactly as I would have been proud to hear,
and to see a daughter of mine speak and move. If I had only myself
to consider, I would make her my friend, because I'm seasoned
in the ways of the world, and she could influence me only as I
chose to allow her. With you youngsters it is different. You'll
find her captivating, and you may let her ways sway you without
even knowing it. All these outward things are not essential; they
are pleasing, I grant, but they have nothing to do with the one
big, elemental fact that a Godless life is not even half a life.
I never yet have known any man or woman who attempted it who did
not waste life's grandest opportunities, and then come crawling
and defeated to the foot of the cross in the end, asking God's
mercy where none was deserved or earned. It seems to me a craven
way. I know all about the forgiveness on the cross! I know God
is big enough and merciful enough to accept even death-bed repentance,
but what is that to compare with laying out your course and running
it a lifetime without swerving? I detest and distrust this infidel
business. I want no child of mine under its influence, or in contact
with it."
"But when your time comes, if you said just those things
to hers and won her, what a triumph, little mother!"
"`If!'" answered mother. "That's always the trouble!
One can't be sure! `If' I knew I could accomplish that, I would
get on my knees and wrestle with the Lord for the salvation of
the soul of a girl like that, not to mention her poor, housebound
mother, and that man with the unhappiest face I ever have seen,
her father. It's worth trying, but suppose I try and fail, and
at the same time find that in bringing her among us she has influenced
some of mine to the loss of their immortal souls then, what will
I have done?"
"Mother," said Laddie; "mother, have you such a
poor opinion of the things you and father have taught us, and
the lives you've lived before us, that you're really afraid of
a slip of a girl, almost a stranger?"
"The most attractive girl I ever have seen, and mighty willing
to be no longer a stranger, Lad."
"Well, I can't promise for the others," said Laddie,
"but for myself I will give you my word of honour that I
won't be influenced the breadth of one hair by her, in a doctrinal
way."
"Humph!" said my mother. "And it is for you I fear.
If a young man is given the slightest encouragement by a girl
like that, even his God can't always hold him; and you never have
made a confession of faith, Laddie. It is you she will be most
likely to captivate."
"If you think I have any chance, I'll go straight over and
ask her father for her this very evening," said Laddie, and
even mother laughed; then all of us started to the house, for
it was almost supper time. I got ready and thought I'd take one
more peep at the dress before Sally pinned it in the sheet again,
and when I went back, there all huddled in a bunch before it stood
Miss Amelia, the tears running down her cheeks.
"Did Sally say you might come here?" I asked.
"No," said Miss Amelia, "but I've been so crazy
to see I just slipped in to take a peep when I noticed the open
door. I'll go this minute. Please don't tell her."
I didn't say what I would do, but I didn't intend to.
"What are you crying about?" I inquired.
"Ah, I too have known love," sobbed Miss Amelia. "Once
I made a wedding dress, and expected to be a happy bride."
"Well, wasn't you?" I asked, and knew at once it was
a silly question, for of course she would not be a miss, if she
had not missed marrying.
"He died!" sobbed Miss Amelia.
If he could have seen her then, I believe he'd have been glad
of it; but maybe he looked as bony and dejected as she did before
he went; and he may have turned to stone afterward, as sometimes
happens. Right then I heard Sally coming, so I grabbed Miss Amelia
and dragged her under the fourposter, where I always hid when
caught doing something I shouldn't. But Sally had so much stuff
she couldn't keep all of it on the bed, and when she stooped and
lifted the ruffle to shove a box under, she pushed it right against
us, and knelt to look, and there we were.
"Well upon my soul!" she cried, and sat flat on the
floor, holding the ruffle, peering in. "Miss Amelia! And
in tears! Whatever is the trouble?"
Miss Amelia's face was redder than any crying ever made it, and
I saw she wanted to kill me for getting her into such a fix, and
if she became too angry probably she'd take it out on me in school
the next day, so I thought I'd better keep her at work shedding
tears.
"`HE DIED!'" I told Sally as pathetically as ever I
could.
Sally dropped the ruffle instantly, but I saw her knees shake
against the floor. After a while she lifted the curtain and offered
Miss Amelia her hand.
"I was leaving my dress to show you before putting it away,"
she said.
I didn't believe it; but that was what she said. Maybe it was
an impulse. Mother always said Sally was a creature of impulse.
When she took off her flannel petticoat and gave it to poor little
half-frozen Annie Hasty, that was a good impulse, but it sent
Sally to bed for a week. And when she threw a shovel of coals
on Bill Ramsdell's dog, because Bill was a shiftless lout, and
the dog was so starved it all the time came over and sucked our
eggs, that was a bad impulse, because it didn't do Bill a particle
of good, and it hurt the dog, which would have been glad to suck
eggs at home, no doubt, if Bill hadn't been too worthless to keep
hens.
That was a good impulse she had then, for she asked Miss Amelia
to help her straighten the room, and of course that meant to fold
and put away wedding things. Any woman would have been wild to
do that. Then she told Miss Amelia that she was going to ask father
to dismiss school for half a day, and allow her to see the wedding,
and she asked her if she would help serve the breakfast.
Miss Amelia wiped her eyes, and soon laughed and was just beaming.
I would have been willing to bet my three cents for lead pencils
the next time the huckster came, that Sally never thought of wanting
her until that minute; and then she arranged for her to wait on
table to keep her from trying to eat with the wedding party, because
Miss Amelia had no pretty clothes for one thing, and for another,
you shouldn't act as if you were hungry out in company, and she
ate every meal as if she were breaking a forty days' fast. I wondered
what her folks cooked at home.
After supper Peter came, and the instant I saw him I thought of
something, and it was such a teasing thought I followed around
and watched him harder every minute . At last he noticed me, and
put his arms around me.
"Well, what is it, Little Sister?" he asked.
I did wish he would quit that. No one really had a right to call
me that, except Laddie. Maybe I had to put up with Peter doing
it when I was his sister by law, but before, the old name the
preacher baptized on me was good enough for Peter. I was thinking
about that so hard, I didn't answer, and he asked again.
"I have seen Sally's wedding dress," I told him.
"But that's no reason why you should stare at me."
"That's just exactly the reason," I answered. "I
was trying to see what in the world there is about you to be worth
a dress like that."
Peter laughed and laughed. At last he said that he was not really
worth even a calico dress; and he was so little worthy of Sally
that he would button her shoes, if she would let him. He got that
mixed. The buttons were on her slippers: her shoes laced. But
it showed a humble spirit in Peter. Not that I care for humble
spirits. I am sure the Crusaders didn't have them. I don't believe
Laddie would lace even the Princess' shoes, at least not to make
a steady business of it. But maybe Peter and Sally had an agreement
to help each other. She was always fixing his tie, and straightening
his hair. Maybe that was an impulse, though, and mother said Sally
would get over being so impulsive when she cut her eye teeth.
CHAPTER VII
When Sally Married Peter
"Mid pleasures and palaces though we may roam,
Be it ever so humble there's no place like home!
A charm from the skies seems to hallow us there,
Which, seek through the world, is ne'er met with elsewhere."
When they began arranging the house for the wedding, it could
be seen that they had been expecting it, and getting ready for
a long time. From all the closets, shelves and chests poured heaps
of new things. First, the walls were cleaned and some of them
freshly papered, then the windows were all washed long before
regular housecleaning time, the floors were scrubbed and new carpet
put down. Mother had some window blinds that Winfield had brought
her from New York in the spring, and she had laid them away; no
one knew why, then. We all knew now. When mother was ready to
put them up, father had a busy day and couldn't help her, and
she was really provoked. She almost cried about it, when Leon
rode in bringing the mail, and said Hannah Dover had some exactly
like ours at her windows, that her son had sent from Illinois.
Father felt badly enough then, for he always did everything he
could to help mother to be first with everything; but so she wouldn't
blame him, he said crosslike that if she had let him put them
up when they came, as he wanted to, she'd have been six months
ahead.
When they finally got ready to hang the blinds no one knew how
they went. They were a beautiful shiny green, plain on one side,
and on the other there was a silver border across the bottom and
one pink rose as big as a pie plate. Mother had neglected to ask
Winfield on which side the rose belonged. Father said from the
way the roll ran, it went inside. Mother said they were rolled
that way to protect the roses, and that didn't prove anything.
Laddie said he would jump on a horse and ride round the section,
and see how Hannah Dover had hers, and exactly opposite would
be right. Everyone laughed, but no one thought he meant it. Mother
had father hold one against the window, and she stepped outside
to see if she could tell from there. When she came in she said
the flower looked mighty pretty, and she guessed that was the
way, so father started hanging them. He had only two up when Laddie
came racing down the Big Hill bareback, calling for him to stop.
"I tell you that's not right, mother!" he said as he
hurried in.
"But I went outside and father held one, and it looked real
pretty," said mother.
"One! Yes!" said Laddie. "But have you stopped
to consider how two rows across the house are going to look? Nine
big pink roses, with the sun shining on them! Anything funnier
than Dovers' front I never saw. And look here!"
Laddie picked up a blind. "See this plain back? It's double
coated like a glaze. That is so the sun shining through glass
won't fade it. The flowers would be gone in a week. They belong
inside, mother, sure as you live."
"Then when the blinds are rolled to the middle sash in the
daytime no one can see them," wailed mother, who was wild
about pink roses.
"But at night, when they are down, you can put the curtains
back enough to let the roses show, and think how pretty they will
look then."
"Laddie is right!" said father, climbing on the barrel
to take down the ones he had fixed.
"What do you think, girls?" asked mother.
"I think the Princess is coming down the Little Hill,"
said Shelley. "Hurry, father! Take them down before she sees!
I'm sure they're wrong."
Father got one all right, but tore the corner of the other. Mother
scolded him dreadfully cross, and he was so flustered he forgot
about being on the barrel, so he stepped back the same as on the
floor, and fell crashing. He might have broken some of his bones,
if Laddie hadn't seen and caught him.
"If you are SURE the flowers go inside, fix one before she
comes!" cried mother.
Father stepped too close the edge of the chair, and by that time
he didn't know how to hang anything, so Laddie climbed up and
had one nailed before the Princess stopped. She came to bring
Sally the handkerchief, and it was the loveliest one any of us
ever had seen. There was a little patch in the middle about four
inches square, and around it a wide ruffle of dainty lace. It
was made to carry in a hand covered with white lace mitts, when
you were wearing a wedding gown of silver silk, lined with white.
Of course it wouldn't have been the slightest use for a funeral
or with a cold in your head. And it had come from across the sea!
From the minute she took it by a pinch in the middle, Sally carried
her head so much higher than she ever had before, that you could
notice the difference.
Laddie went straight on nailing up the blinds, and every one he
fixed he let down full length so the Princess could see the roses
were inside; he was so sure he was right. After she had talked
a few minutes she noticed the blinds going up. Laddie, in a front
window, waved to her from the barrel. She laughed and answered
with her whip, and then she laughed again.
"Do you know," she said, "there is the funniest
thing at Dovers'. I rode past on the way to Groveville this morning
and they have some blinds like those you are putting up."
"Indeed?" inquired my mother. "Winfield sent us
these from New York in the spring, but I thought the hot summer
sun would fade them, so I saved them until the fall cleaning.
The wedding coming on makes us a little early but----"
"Well, they may not be exactly the same," said the Princess.
"I only saw from the highway." She meant road; there
were many things she said differently. "Have yours big pink
roses and silver scrolls inside?"
"Yes," said mother.
The Princess bubbled until it made you think one of those yellow
oriole birds had perched on her saddle. "That poor woman
has gone and put hers up wrong side out. The effect of all those
big pink roses on her white house front is most amusing. It looks
as if the house were covered with a particularly gaudy piece of
comfort calico. Only fancy!"
She laughed again and rode away. Mother came in just gasping.
"Well, for all His mercies, large and small, the Lord be
praised!" she cried piously, as she dropped into the big
rocking chair. "THAT is what I consider escaping by the skin
of your teeth!"
Then father and Laddie laughed, and said they thought so too.
When the blinds were up, the outside looked well, and you should
have seen the inside! The woodwork was enamelled white, and the
wall paper was striped in white and silver. Every so far on the
silver there was a little pink moss rose having green leaves.
The carpet was plum red and green in wide stripes, and the lace
curtains were freshly washed, snowy, and touched the floor. The
big rocker, the straight-backed chairs, and the sofa were beautiful
red mahogany wood, and the seats shining haircloth. If no one
happened to be looking, you could sit on a sofa arm, stick your
feet out and shoot off like riding down a haystack; the landing
was much better. On the sofa you bounced two feet high the first
time; one, the second; and a little way the third. On the haystack,
maybe you hit a soft spot, and maybe you struck a rock. Sometimes
if you got smart, and tried a new place, and your feet caught
in a tangle of weeds and stuck, you came up straight, pitched
over, and landed on your head. THEN if you struck a rock, you
were still, quite a while. I was once. But you never dared let
mother see you--on the sofa, I mean; she didn't care about the
haystack.
There were pictures in oval black frames having fancy edges, and
a whatnot where all our Christmas and birthday gifts, almost too
dainty to handle, were kept. You fairly held your breath when
you looked at the nest of spun green glass, with the white dove
in it, that George Washington Mitchell gave to Shelley. Of course
a dove's nest was never deep, and round, and green, and the bird
didn't have red eyes and a black bill. I thought whoever could
blow glass as beautifully as that, might just as easy have made
it right while he was at it; but anyway, it was pretty. There
were pitchers, mugs, and vases, almost too delicate to touch,
and the cloth-covered box with braids of hair coiled in wreaths
from the heads of the little fever and whooping cough sisters.
Laddie asked Sally if she and Peter were going to have the ceremony
performed while they sat on the sofa. Seemed the right place.
They had done all their courting there, even on hot summer days;
but I supposed that was because Sally didn't want to be seen fixing
Peter's tie until she was ready. She made no bones about it then.
She fixed it whenever she pleased; likewise he held her hand.
Shelley said that was disgusting, and you wouldn't catch her.
Leon said he bet a dollar he would; and I said if he knew he'd
get beaten as I did, I bet two dollars he wouldn't tell what he
saw. The mantel was white, with vases of the lovely grasses that
grew beside the stream at the foot of the Big Hill. Mother gathered
the fanciest every fall, dried them, and dipped them in melted
alum coloured with copperas, aniline, and indigo. Then she took
bunches of the colours that went together best and made bouquets
for the big vases. They were pretty in the daytime, but at night
you could watch them sparkle and shimmer forever.
I always thought the sitting-room was nicer than the parlour.
The woodwork was white enamel there too, but the bureau and chairs
were just cherry and not too precious to use. They were every
bit as pretty. The mantel was much larger. I could stand up in
the fireplace, and it took two men to put on an everyday log,
four the Christmas one. On each side were the book shelves above,
and the linen closets below. The mantel set between these, and
mother always used the biggest, most gorgeous bouquets there,
because she had so much room. The hearth was a slab of stone that
came far into the room. We could sit on it and crack nuts, roast
apples, chestnuts, and warm our cider, then sweep all the muss
we made into the fire. The wall paper was white and pale pink
in stripes, and on the pink were little handled baskets filled
with tiny flowers of different colours. We sewed the rags for
the carpet ourselves, and it was the prettiest thing. One stripe
was wide, all gray, brown, and dull colours, and the other was
pink. There were green blinds and lace curtains here also, and
nice braided rugs that all of us worked on of winter evenings.
Everything got spicker and spanner each day.
Mother said there was no use in putting down a carpet in a dining-room
where you constantly fed a host, and the boys didn't clean their
feet as carefully as they should in winter; but there were useful
rags where they belonged, and in our bedroom opening from it also.
The dining-room wall paper had a broad stripe of rich cream with
pink cabbage roses scattered over it and a narrow pink stripe,
while the woodwork was something perfectly marvellous. I didn't
know what kind of wood it was, but a man who could turn his hand
to anything, painted it. First, he put on a pale yellow coat and
let it dry. Then he added wood brown, and while it was wet, with
a coarse toothed comb, a rag, and his fingers, he imitated the
grain, the even wood, and knotholes of dressed lumber, until many
a time I found myself staring steadily at a knot to see if a worm
wouldn't really come working out. You have to see a thing like
that to understand how wonderful it is. You couldn't see why they
washed the bedding, and took the feathers from the pillows and
steamed them in mosquito netting bags and dried them in the shade,
when Sally's was to be a morning wedding, but they did. I even
had to take a bucket and gather from around the walls all the
little heaps of rocks and shells that Uncle Abraham had sent mother
from California, take them out and wash and wipe them, and stack
them back, with the fanciest ones on top. He sent her a ring made
of gold he dug himself. She always kept the ring in a bottle in
her bureau, and she meant to wear it at the wedding, with her
new silk dress. I had a new dress too. I don't know how they got
everything done. All of them worked, until the last few days they
were perfect cross patches.
When they couldn't find another thing indoors to scour, they began
on the yard, orchard, barn and road. Mother even had Leon stack
the wood pile straighter. She said when corded wood leaned at
an angle, it made people seem shiftless; and she never passed
a place where it looked that way that her fingers didn't just
itch to get at it. He had to pull every ragweed on each side of
the road as far as our land reached, and lay every rail straight
in the fences. Father had to take spikes and our biggest maul
and go to the bridges at the foot of the Big and the Little Hill,
and see that every plank was fast, so none of them would rattle
when important guests drove across. She said she just simply wouldn't
have them in such a condition that Judge Pettis couldn't hear
himself think when he crossed; for you could tell from his looks
that it was very important that none of the things he thought
should be lost. There wasn't a single spot about the place inside
or out that wasn't gone over; and to lots of it you never would
have known anything had been done if you hadn't seen, because
the place was always in proper shape anyway; but father said mother
acted just like that, even when her sons were married at other
people's houses; and if she kept on getting worse, every girl
she married off, by the time she reached me, we'd all be scoured
threadbare and she'd be on the verge of the grave. May and I weeded
the flowerbeds, picked all the ripe seed, and pulled up and burned
all the stalks that were done blooming. Father and Laddie went
over the garden carefully; they scraped the walks and even shook
the palings to see if one were going to come loose right at the
last minute, when every one would be so flustrated there would
be no time to fix it.
Then they began to talk about arrangements for the ceremony, whether
we should have our regular minister, or Presiding Elder Lemon,
and what people they were going to invite. Just when we had planned
to ask every one, have the wedding in the church, and the breakfast
at the house, and all drive in a joyous procession to Groveville
to give them a good send-off in walked Sally. She had been visiting
Peter's people, and we planned a lot while she was away.
"What's going on here?" she asked, standing in the doorway,
dangling her bonnet by the ties.
She never looked prettier. Her hair had blown out in little curls
around her face from riding, her cheeks were so pink, and her
eyes so bright.
"We were talking about having the ceremony in the church,
so every one can be comfortably seated, and see and hear well,"
answered mother.
Sally straightened up and began jerking the roses on her bonnet
far too roughly for artificial flowers. Perhaps I surprised you
with that artificial word, but I can spell and define it; it's
easy divided into syllables. Goodness knows, I have seen enough
flowers made from the hair of the dead, wax, and paper, where
you get the shape, but the colour never is right. These of Sally's
were much too bright, but they were better than the ones made
at our house. Hers were of cloth and bought at a store. You couldn't
tell why, but Sally jerked her roses; I wished she wouldn't, because
I very well knew they would be used to trim my hat the next summer,
and she said: "Well, people don't have to be comfortable
during a wedding ceremony; they can stand up if I can, and as
for seeing and hearing, I'm asking a good many that I don't intend
to have see or hear either one!"
"My soul!" cried mother, and she dropped her hands and
her mouth fell open, like she always told us we never should let
ours, while she stared at Sally.
"I don't care!" said Sally, straightening taller yet;
her eyes began to shine and her lips to quiver, as if she would
cry in a minute; "I don't care----!"
"Which means, my child, that you DO care, very much,"
said father. "Suppose you cease such reckless talk, and explain
to us exactly what it is that you do want."
Sally gave her bonnet an awful jerk. Those roses would look like
sin before my turn to wear them came, and she said: "Well
then, I do care! I care with all my might! The church is all right,
of course; but I want to be married in my very own home! Every
one can think whatever they please about their home, and so can
I, and what I think is, that this is the nicest and the prettiest
place in all the world, and I belong here----"
Father lifted his head, his face began to shine, and his eyes
to grow teary; while mother started toward Sally. She put out
her hand and held mother from her at arm's length, and she turned
and looked behind her through the sitting-room and parlour, and
then at us, and she talked so fast you never could have understood
what she said if you hadn't known all of it anyway, and thought
exactly the same thing yourself.
"I have just loved this house ever since it was built,"
she said, "and I've had as good times here as any girl ever
had. If any one thinks I'm so very anxious to leave it, and you,
and mother, and all the others, why it's a big mistake. Seems
as if a girl is expected to marry and go to a home of her own;
it's drummed into her and things fixed for her from the day of
her birth; and of course I do like Peter, but no home in the world,
not even the one he provides for me, will ever be any dearer to
me than my own home; and as I've always lived in it, I want to
be married in it, and I want to stay here until the very last
second----"
"You shall, my child, you shall!" sobbed mother.
"And as for having a crowd of men that father is planning
to ask, staring at me, because he changes harvest help and wood
chopping with them, or being criticised and clawed over by some
women simply because they'll be angry if they don't get the chance,
I just won't--so there! Not if I have to stand the minister against
the wall, and turn our backs to every one. I think----"
"That will do!" said father, wiping his eyes. "That
will do, Sally! Your mother and I have got a pretty clear understanding
of how you feel, now. Don't excite yourself! Your wedding shan't
be used to pay off our scores. You may ask exactly whom you please,
want, and feel quite comfortable to have around you----"
Then Sally fell on mother's neck and every one cried a while;
then we wiped up, Leon gave Sally his slate, and she came and
sat beside the table and began to make out a list of those she
really wanted to invite. First she put down all of our family,
even many away in Ohio, and all of Peter's, and then his friends,
and hers. Once in the list of girls she stopped and said: "If
I take that beautiful imported handkerchief from Pamela Pryor,
I have just got to invite her "
"And she will outdress and outshine you at your own wedding,"
put in Shelley.
"Let her, if she can!" said Sally calmly. "She'll
have to hump herself if she beats that dress of mine; and as for
looks, I know lots of people who think gray eyes, pink cheeks,
and brown curls far daintier and prettier than red cheeks and
black eyes and curls. If she really is better looking than I am,
it isn't her fault; God made her that way, and He wouldn't like
us to punish her for it; and it would, because any one can see
she wants to be friends; don't you think, mother?"--mother
nodded--"and besides, I think she's better looking than I
am, myself!"
Sally said that, and wrote down the Princess' name in big letters,
and no one cheeped.
Then she began on our neighbourhood, thinking out loud and writing
what she thought. So all of us were as still, and held our breath
in softly and waited, and Sally said slow and musing like, "Of
course we couldn't have anything at THIS house without Sarah Hood.
She dressed most of us when we were born, nursed us when we were
sick, helped with threshing, company, and parties, and she's just
splendid anyway; we better ask all the Hoods"; so she wrote
them down. "And it will be lonely for Widow Willis and the
girls to see every one else here--we must have them; and of course
Deams--Amanda is always such splendid help; and the Widow Fall
is so perfectly lovely, we want her for decorative purposes; and
we could scarcely leave out Shaws; they always have all of us
everything they do; and Dr. Fenner of course; and we'll want Flo
and Agnes Kuntz to wait on table, so their folks might as well
come too----"
So she went on taking up each family we knew, and telling what
they had done for us, or what we had done for them; and she found
some good reason for inviting them, and pretty soon father settled
back in his chair and never took his eyes from Sally's shining
head as she bent over the slate, and then he began pulling his
lower lip, like when it won't behave, and his eyes danced exactly
as I've seen Leon's. I never had noticed that before.
Sally went straight on and at last she came to Freshetts. "I
am going to have all of them, too," she said. "The children
are good children, and it will help them along to see how things
are done when they are right; and I don't care what any one says,
I LIKE Mrs. Freshett. I'll ask her to help work, and that will
keep her from talking, and give the other women a chance to see
that she's clean, and human, and would be a good neighbour if
they'd be friendly. If we ask her, then the others will."
When she finished--as you live--there wasn't a soul she had left
out except Bill Ramsdell, who starved his dog until it sucked
our eggs, and Isaac Thomas, who was so lazy he wouldn't work enough
to keep his wife and children dressed so they ever could go anywhere,
but he always went, even with rags flying, and got his stomach
full just by talking about how he loved the Lord. To save me I
couldn't see Isaac Thomas without beginning to myself:
"'Tis the voice of the sluggard; I hear him complain,
You have waked me too soon, I must slumber again.
I passed by his garden, I saw the wild brier,
The thorn, and the thistle, grow broader and higher;
The clothes that hang on him are turning to rags;
And his money he wastes, till he starves or he begs."
That described Isaac to the last tatter, only he couldn't waste
money; he never had any. Once I asked father what he thought Isaac
would do with it, if by some unforeseen working of Divine Providence,
he got ten dollars. Father said he could tell me exactly, because
Isaac once sold some timber and had a hundred all at once. He
went straight to town and bought Mandy a red silk dress and a
brass breastpin, when she had no shoes. He got the children an
organ, when they were hungry; and himself a plug hat. Mandy and
the children cried because he forgot candy and oranges until the
last cent was gone. Father said the only time Isaac ever worked
since he knew him was when he saw how the hat looked with his
rags. He actually helped the men fell the trees until he got enough
to buy a suit, the remains of which he still wore on Sunday. I
asked father why he didn't wear the hat too, and father said the
loss of that hat was a blow, from which Isaac never had recovered.
Once at camp-meeting he laid it aside to pray his longest, most
impressive prayer, and an affectionate cow strayed up and licked
the nap all off before Isaac finished, so he never could wear
it again.
Sally said: "I'll be switched if I'll have that disgusting
creature around stuffing himself on my wedding day; but if you're
not in bed, when it's all over, mother, I do wish you'd send Mandy
and the children a basket."
Mother promised, and father sat and looked on and pulled his lower
lip until his ears almost wiggled. Then Sally said she wanted
Laddie and Shelley to stand at the parlour door and keep it tight
shut, and seat every one in the sitting-room except a special
list she had made out to send in there. She wanted all our family
and Peter's, and only a few very close friends, but it was enough
to fill the room. She said when she and Peter came downstairs
every one could see how they looked when they crossed the sitting-room,
and for all the difference the door would make, it could be left
open then; she would be walled in by people she wanted around
her, and the others could have the fun of being there, seeing
what they could, and getting all they wanted to eat. Father and
mother said that was all right, only to say nothing about the
plan to shut the door; but when the time came just to close it
and everything would be satisfactory.
Then Sally took the slate upstairs to copy the list with ink,
so every one went about something, while mother crossed to father
and he took her on his lap, and they looked at each other the
longest and the hardest, and neither of them said a word. After
a while they cried and laughed, and cried some more, and it was
about as sensible as what a flock of geese say when they are let
out of the barn and start for the meadow in the morning. Then
father, all laughy and criey, said: "Thank God! Oh, thank
God, the girl loves the home we have made for her!"
Just said it over and over, and mother kept putting in: "It
pays, Paul! It pays!"
Next day Sally put on her riding habit and fixed herself as pretty
as ever she could, and went around to have a last little visit
with every one, and invited them herself, and then she wrote letters
to people away. Elizabeth and Lucy came home, and every one began
to work. Father and mother went to the village in the carriage
and brought home the bed full of things to eat, and all we had
was added, and mother began to pack butter, and save eggs for
cakes, and the day before, I thought there wouldn't be a chicken
left on the place. They killed and killed, and Sarah Hood, Amanda
Deam, and Mrs. Freshett picked and picked.
"I'll bet a dollar we get something this time besides ribs
and neck," said Leon. "How do you suppose thigh and
breast would taste?"
"I was always crazy to try the tail," I said.
"Much chance you got," sniggered Leon. "'Member
the time that father asked the Presiding Elder, `Brother Lemon,
what piece of the fowl do you prefer?' and he up and said: `I'm
partial to the rump, Brother Stanton.' There sat father bound
he wouldn't give him mother's piece, so he pretended he couldn't
find it, and forked all over the platter and then gave him the
ribs and the thigh. Gee, how mother scolded him after the preacher
had gone! You notice father hasn't asked that since. Now, he always
says: `Do you prefer light or dark meat?' Much chance you have
of ever tasting a tail, if father won't even give one to the Presiding
Elder!"
"But as many as they are killing----"
"Oh THIS time," said Leon with a flourish, "this
time we are going to have livers, and breast, and thighs, AND
tails, if you are beholden to tail."
"I'd like to know how we are?"
"Well, since you have proved that you can keep your mouth
shut, for a little while, anyway, I'm going to take you in on
this," said Leon. "You keep your eyes on me. When the
wedding gets going good, you watch me, and slip out. That's all!
I'll be fixed to do the rest. But mind this, get out when I do."
"All right," I promised.
They must have wakened about four o'clock on the wedding day;
it wasn't really light when I got up. I had some breakfast in
my night dress, and then I was all fixed up in my new clothes,
and made to sit on a chair, and never move for fear I would soil
my dress, for no one had time to do me over, and there was only
one dress anyway. There was so much to see you could keep interested
just watching, and I was as anxious to look nice before the boys
and girls, and the big people, as any one.
Every mantel and table and bureau was covered with flowers, and
you could have smelled the kitchen a mile away, I know. The dining
table was set for the wedding party, our father and mother, and
Peter's, and the others had to wait. You couldn't have laid the
flat of your hand on that table anywhere, it was so covered with
things to eat. Miss Amelia, in a dress none of us ever had seen
before, a real nice white dress, pranced around it and smirked
at every one, and waved the peacock feather brush to keep the
flies from the jelly, preserves, jam, butter, and things that
were not cooked.
For hours Mrs. Freshett had stood in the kitchen on one side of
the stove frying chicken and heaping it in baking pans in the
oven, and Amanda Deam on the other, frying ham, while Sarah Hood
cooked other things, and made a wash boiler of coffee. Everything
was ready by the time it should have been. I had watched them
until I was tired, when Sally came through the room where I was,
and she said I might come along upstairs and see her dressed.
When we reached the door I wondered where she would put me, but
she pushed clothing together on a bed, and helped me up, and that
was great fun.
She had been bathed and had on her beautiful new linen underclothing
that mother punched full of holes and embroidered in flowers and
vines, and Shelley was brushing her hair when some one called
out: "The Princess is coming!"
I jumped for the window, and all of them, even Sally, crowded
behind. Well, talk about carriages! No one ever had seen THAT
one before. It WAS a carriage. And such horses! The funny "'orse,
'ouse" man who made the Pryor garden was driving. He stopped
at the gate, got out and opened a door, and the Princess' father
stepped down, tall and straight, all in shiny black. He turned
around and held out his hand, bowing double, and the Princess
laid her hand in his and stepped out too. He walked with her to
the gate, made another bow, kissed her hand, and stepped back,
and she came down the walk alone. He got in the carriage, the
man closed the door, and they drove away.
Sally must have arranged before that the Princess was to come
early, for she came straight upstairs. She wore a soft white silk
dress with big faded pink roses in it, and her hair was fastened
at each ear with a bunch of little pink roses. She was lovely,
but she didn't "outdress or outshine" Sally one bit,
and she never even glanced at the mirror to see how she looked;
she began helping with Sally's hair, and to dress her. When Bess
Kuntz prinked so long she made every one disgusted, the Princess
said: "Oh save your trouble. No one will look at you when
there's a bride in the house."
There was a roll almost as thick as your arm of garters that all
the other girls wanted Sally to wear for them so they would get
a chance to marry that year, and Agnes Kuntz's was so large it
went twice around, and they just laughed about it. They put a
blue ribbon on Sally's stays for luck, and she borrowed Peter's
sister Mary's comb to hold her back hair. They had the most fun,
and when she was all ready except her dress they went away, and
Sally stood in the middle of the room trembling a little. Outside
you could hear carriage wheels rolling, the beat of horses' hoofs,
and voices crying greetings. "There was a sound of revelry,"
by day. Mother came in hurriedly. She wore her new brown silk,
with a lace collar pinned at the throat with the pin that had
a brown goldstone setting in it, and her precious ring was on
her finger. She was dainty and pretty enough to have been a bride
herself. She turned Sally around slowly, touching her hair a little
and her skirts; then she went to the closet, took out the wedding
dress, put the skirt over Sally's head, and she came up through
the whiteness, pink and glowing. She slipped her arms into the
sleeves, and mother fastened it, shook out the skirt, saw that
the bead fringe hung right, and the lace collar lay flat, then
she took Sally in her arms, held her tight and said: "God
bless you, dear, and keep you always. Amen."
Then she stepped to the door, and Peter, all shining and new,
came in. He hugged Sally and kissed her like it didn't make the
least difference whether she had on calico or a wedding dress,
and he just stared, and stared at her, and never said a word,
so at last she asked: "Well Peter, do you like my dress?"
And the idiot said: "Why Sally, I hadn't even seen it!"
Then both of them laughed, and the Presiding Elder came.
I never liked to look at him very well because something had happened,
and he had only one eye. I always wondered if he had "plucked
it out" because it had "offended" him; but if you
could forget his eye, and just listen to his voice, it was like
the sweetest music. He married those two people right there in
the bedroom, all but about three words at the end. I heard and
saw every bit of it. Then Sally said it was time for me to go
to mother, but she followed me into the boys' room and shut the
door. Then she knelt in her beautiful silver dress, and put her
arms around me and said: "Honest, Little Sister, aren't you
going to kiss me goodbye?"
"Oh I can if you want me to," I said, but I didn't look
at her; I looked out of the window.
She laughed a breathless little catchy sort of laugh and said:
"That's exactly what I do want."
"You didn't even want me, to begin with," I reminded
her.
"There isn't a doubt but whoever told you that, could have
been in better business," said Sally, angry-like. "I
was much younger then, and there were many things I didn't understand,
and it wasn't you I didn't want; it was just no baby at all. I
wouldn't have wanted a boy, or any other girl a bit more. I foolishly
thought we had children enough in this house. I see now very plainly
that we didn't, for this family never could get along without
you, and I'm sorry I ever thought so, and I'd give anything if
I hadn't struck you and----"
"Oh be still, and go on and get married!" I said. I
could just feel a regular beller coming in my throat. "I
was only fooling to pay you up. I meant all the time to kiss you
good-bye when the others did. I'll nearly die being lonesome when
you're gone----"
Then I ran for downstairs, and when I reached the door, where
the steps went into the sitting-room, I stopped, scared at all
the people. It was like camp-meeting. You could see the yard full
through the windows. Just as I was thinking I'd go back to the
boys' room, and from there into the garret, and down the back
stairway, Laddie went and saw me. He came over, led me to the
parlour door, put me inside, and there mother took my hand and
held me tight, and I couldn't see Leon anywhere.
I was caught, but they didn't have him. Mother never hung on as
she did that day. I tried and tried to pull away, and she held
tight. It was only a minute until the door opened, people crowded
back, and the Presiding Elder, followed by Sally and Peter, came
into the room, and they began being married all over again.
If it hadn't grown so solemn my mother sprung a tear, I never
would have made it. She just had to let me go to sop her face,
because tears are salty, and they would turn her new brown silk
front yellow. The minute my hand was free, I slipped between the
people and looked at the parlour door. It was wedged full and
more standing on chairs behind them. No one could get out there.
I thought I would fail Leon sure, and then I remembered the parlour
bedroom. I got through that door easy as anything, and it was
no trick at all to slip behind the blind, raise the window, and
drop into mother's room from the sill. From there I reached the
back dining-room door easy enough, went around to the kitchen,
and called Leon softly. He opened the door at once and I slipped
in. He had just got there. We looked all around and couldn't see
where to begin at first. There was enough cooked food there to
load two wagons.
An old pillow-case that had dried sage in it was lying across
a chair and Leon picked it up and poured the sage into the wood-
box, and handed the case to me. He went over and knelt before
the oven, while I followed and held open the case. Leon rolled
his eyes to the ceiling and said so exactly like father when he
is serving company that not one of us could have told the difference:
"Which part of the fowl do you prefer, Brother Lemon?"
It was so funny it made me snigger, but I straightened up and
answered as well as I could: "I'm especially fond of the
rump, Brother Stanton."
Leon stirred the heap and piled four or five tails in the case.
I thought that was all I could manage before they would spoil,
so I said: "Do you prefer light or dark meat, Sister Abigail?"
"I wish to choose breast," said Leon, simpering just
like that silly Abigail Webster. He put in six breasts. Then we
found them hidden away back in the oven in a pie pan, for the
bride's table, I bet, and we took two livers apiece; we didn't
dare take more for fear they had been counted. Then he threw in
whatever he came to that was a first choice big piece, until I
was really scared, and begged him to stop; but he repeated what
the fox said in the story of the "Quarrelsome Cocks"--"Poco
was very good, but I have not had enough yet," so he piled
in pieces until I ran away with the pillow-case; then he slid
in a whole plateful of bread, another of cake, and put the plates
in a tub of dishes under the table. Then we took some of everything
that wasn't too runny. Just then the silence broke in the front
part of the house, and we scooted from the back door, closing
it behind us, ran to the wood house and climbed the ladder to
the loft over the front part. There we were safe as could be,
we could see to the road, hear almost everything said in the kitchen,
and "eat our bites in peace," like Peter Justice told
the Presiding Elder at the church trial that he wanted his wife
to, the time he slapped her. Before very long, they began calling
us, and called, and called. We hadn't an idea what they wanted,
so we ate away. We heard them first while I was holding over a
back to let Leon taste kidney, and it made him blink when he got
it good.
"Well my soul!" he said. "No wonder father didn't
want to feed that to another man when mother isn't very well,
and likes it! No wonder!" Then he gave me a big bite of breast.
It was sort of dry and tasteless; I didn't like it.
"Why, I think neck or back beats that all to pieces!"
I said in surprise.
"Fact is, they do!" said Leon. "I guess the people
who `wish to choose breast,' do it to get the biggest piece."
I never had thought of it before, but of course that would be
the reason.
"Allow me, Sister Stanton," said Leon, holding out a
piece of thigh.
That was really chicken! Then we went over the backs and picked
out all the kidneys, and ate the little crusty places, and all
the cake we could swallow; then Leon fixed up the bag the best
he could, and set it inside an old cracked churn and put on the
lid.
He said that would do almost as well as the cellar, and the food
would keep until to-morrow. I wanted to slip down and put it in
the Underground Station; but Leon said father must be spending
a lot of money right now, and he might go there to get some, so
that wouldn't be safe. Then he cleaned my face, and I told him
when he got his right, and we slipped from the back door, crossed
the Lawton blackberry patch, and went to the house from the orchard.
Leon took an apple and broke it in two, and we went in eating
as if we were starving. When father asked us where in this world
we had been, Leon told him we thought it would be so awful long
before the fourth or fifth table, and we hadn't had much breakfast,
and we were so hungry we went and hunted something to eat.
"If you'd only held your horses a minute," said father;
"they were calling you to take places at the bride's table."
Well for land's sake! Our mouths dropped open until it's a wonder
the cake and chicken didn't show, and we never said a word. There
didn't seem to be anything to say, for Leon loved to be with grown
folks, and to have eaten at the bride's table would have been
the biggest thing that ever happened to me. At last, when I could
speak, I asked who had taken our places, and bless your heart
if it wasn't that mealy-faced little sister of Peter's, and one
of the aunts from Ohio. They had finished, and Sally was upstairs
putting on her travelling dress, while the guests were eating,
when I heard Laddie ask the Princess to ride with him and Sally's
other friends, who were going to escort her to the depot.
"You'll want all your horses. What could I ride?"
"If I find you a good horse and saddle will you go?"
"I will. I think it would be fine sport."
Laddie turned and went from sight that minute. The Princess laughed
and kept on making friends with every one, helping wait on people,
thinking of nice things to do, and just as the carriage was at
the gate for father and mother, and Sally and Peter, and every
one else was untying their horses to ride in the procession to
the village, from where I was standing on the mounting block I
saw something coming down the Little Hill. I took one look, ran
to the Princess, and almost dragged her.
Up raced Laddie, his face bright, his eyes snapping with fun.
He rode Flos, was leading the Princess' horse Maud, and carrying
a big bundle under his arm. He leaped from the saddle and fastened
both horses.
"Gracious Heaven! What have you done?" gasped the Princess.
"Brought your mount," said Laddie, quite as if he were
used to going to Pryors' after the sausage grinder or the grain
sacks. But the Princess was pale and trembling. She stepped so
close she touched him, and he immediately got a little closer.
You couldn't get ahead of Laddie, and he didn't seem to care who
saw, and neither did she.
"Tell me exactly what occurred," she said, just as father
does when he means to whale us completely.
"I rapped at the front door," said Laddie.
"And who opened it?" cried the Princess.
"Your father!"
"My father?"
"Yes, your father!" said Laddie. "And because I
was in such a hurry, I didn't wait for him to speak. I said: `Good
morning, Mr. Pryor. I'm one of the Stanton boys, and I came for
Miss Pryor's mount and habit. All the young people who are on
horseback are going to ride an escort to the village, around my
sister's bridal carriage, and Miss Pryor thinks she would enjoy
going. Please excuse such haste, but we only this minute made
the plan, and the train won't wait.'"
"And he?"
"He said: `Surely! Hold one minute.' I stood on the step
and waited, and I could hear him give the order to some one to
get your riding habit quickly, and then he blew a shrill whistle,
and your horse was at the gate the fastest of anything I ever
saw."
"Did he do or say----"
"Nothing about `clods, and clowns, and grossness!' Every
other word he spoke was when I said, `Thank you, and good morning,'
and was turning away. He asked: `Did Miss Pryor say whether she
preferred to ride home, or shall I escort her in the carriage?'"
"`She did not,' I answered. `The plan was so sudden she had
no time to think that far. But since she will have her horse and
habit, why not allow my father to escort her?' So you see, I'm
going to take you home," exulted Laddie.
"But you told him your FATHER," said the Princess.
"And thereby created the urgent necessity," said Laddie
with a flourish, "for speaking to him again, and telling
him that my father had visitors from Ohio, and couldn't leave
them. We will get all the fun from the day that we can; but before
dusk, too early for them to have any cause for cavil, `the gross
country clod' is going to take you home!"
One at a time, Laddie pounded those last words into the hitching
post, with his doubled fist.
"Suppose he sets the dogs on you! You know he keeps two dreadful
ones."
Laddie just roared. He leaned closer.
"Beaucheous Lady," he said, "I have fed those same
dogs and rubbed their ears so many nights lately, he'll get the
surprise of his life if he tries that."
The Princess drew away and stared at Laddie the funniest.
"On my life!" she said at last. "Well for a country
clod----!"
Then she turned with the habit bundle, and ran into the house.
Father and mother came from the front door arm in arm and walked
to the carriage, and Sally and Peter followed. My, but they looked
fine! The Princess had gone to the garden and gathered flowers
and lined all the children in rows down each side of the walk.
They were loaded with blooms to throw at Sally; but when she came
out, in her beautiful gray poplin travelling dress, trimmed in
brown ribbon, the same shade as her curls, her face all pink,
her eyes shining, and the ties of her little brown bonnet waving
to her waist, she was so perfectly beautiful, every single child
watched her open mouthed, gripped its flowers, and forgot to throw
them at all.
And this you scarcely will believe after what she had said the
day she made her list, and when all of us knew her heart was all
torn up, Sally just swept along smiling at every one and calling
"good-bye" to those who had no way to ride to the village,
as if leaving didn't amount to much. At the carriage, a little
white, but still smiling, she turned and took one long look at
everything, and then she got in and called for me, right out loud
before every one, so I got to hold up my head as high as it would
go, and step in too, and ride all the way to Groveville between
her and Peter, and instead of holding his hand, she held mine,
just gripped it tight. She gripped so hard she squeezed all the
soreness at her from my heart, and when she kissed me good-bye
the very last of all, I whispered in her ear that I wouldn't ever
be angry any more, and I wasn't, because after she had explained
I saw how it had been. It wasn't ME she didn't want; it was just
no baby.
After our carriage came Peter's people, then one father borrowed
for the Ohio relatives, then the other children, and all the neighbours
followed, and when we reached the high hill where you turn beside
the woods, I saw father gather up the lines and brace himself,
for Ned and Jo were what he called "mettlesome." "Then
came a burst of thunder sound," as it says in "Casablanca,"
and the horseback riders came sweeping around us, Laddie and the
Princess leading. These two rode ahead of us, and the others lined
three deep on either side, and the next carriage dropped back
and let them close in behind, so Sally and Peter were "in
the midst thereof." Instead of throwing old shoes, as always
had been done, the Princess coaxed them to throw rice and roses,
and every other flower pulled from the bouquets at home, and from
the gardens we had passed. Every one was out watching us go by,
and when William Justus rode beside the fences crying, "Flowers
for the bride! Give us flowers for the bride!" some of the
women were so excited they pulled things up by the roots and gave
him armloads, and he rode ahead and supplied Laddie and the Princess,
and they kept scattering them in the road until every foot of
the way to Groveville was covered with flowers, "the fair
young flowers that lately sprang and stood." He even made
side-cuts into swampy places and gathered armloads of those perfectly
lovely, fringy blue gentians, caught up, and filled the carriage
and scattered them in a wicked way, because you should only take
a few of those rare, late flowers that only grow from seed.
Sally looked just as if she had come into her own and was made
for it; I never did see her look so pretty, but Peter sweated
and acted awful silly. Father had a time with the team. Ned and
Jo became excited and just ranted. They simply danced. Laddie
had braided their manes and tails, and they waved like silken
floss in the sunshine, and the carriage was freshly washed and
the patent leather and brass shone, and we rode flower-covered.
Ahead, Laddie and the Princess fairly tried themselves. She hadn't
put on her hat or habit after all. When Laddie told her they were
going to lead, she said: "Very well! Then I shall go as I
am. The dress makes no difference. It's the first time I've had
a chance to spoil one since I left England."
When the other girls saw what she was going to do, nearly every
one of them left off their hats and riding skirts. Every family
had saddle horses those days, and when the riders came racing
up they looked like flying flowers, they were all laughing, bloom
ladened, singing and calling jokes. Ahead, Laddie and the Princess
just plain showed off. Her horse came from England with them,
and Laddie said it had Arab blood in it, like the one in the Fourth
Reader poem, "Fret not to roam the desert now, With all thy
winged speed," and the Princess loved her horse more than
that man did his. She said she'd starve before she'd sell it,
and if her family were starving, she'd go to work and earn food
for them, and keep her horse. Laddie's was a Kentucky thoroughbred
he'd saved money for years to buy; and he took a young one and
trained it himself, almost like a circus horse. Both of them COULD
ride; so that day they did. They ran those horses neck and neck,
right up the hill approaching Groveville, until they were almost
from sight, then they whirled and came sweeping back fast as the
wind. The Princess' eyes were like dead coals, and her black curls
streamed, the thin silk dress wrapped tight around her and waved
back like a gossamer web such as spiders spin in October. Laddie's
hair was blowing, his cheeks and eyes were bright, and with one
eye on the Princess-- she didn't need it--and one on the road,
he cut curves, turned, wheeled, and raced, and as he rode, so
did she.
"Will they break their foolish necks?" wailed mother.
"They are the handsomest couple I ever have seen in my life!"
said father.
"Yes, and you two watch out, or you'll strike trouble right
there," said Sally, leaning forward.
I gave her an awful nudge. It made me so happy I could have screamed
to see them flying away together like that.
"Well, if that girl represents trouble," said father,
"God knows it never before came in such charming guise."
"You can trust a man to forget his God and his immortal soul
if a sufficiently beautiful woman comes along," said my mother
dryly, and all of them laughed.
She didn't mean that to be funny, though. You could always tell
by the set of her lips and the light in her eyes.
Just this side of Groveville we passed a man on horseback. He
took off his hat and drew his horse to one side when Laddie and
the Princess rode toward him. He had a big roll of papers under
his arm, to show that he had been for his mail. But I knew, so
did Laddie and the Princess, that he had been compelled to saddle
and ride like mad, to reach town and come that far back in time
to watch us pass; for it was the Princess' father, and WATCH was
exactly what he was doing; he wanted to see for himself. Laddie
and the Princess rode straight at him, neck and neck, and then
both of them made their horses drop on their knees and they waved
a salute, and then they were up and away. Of course father and
mother saw, so mother bowed, and father waved his whip as we passed.
He sat there like he'd turned the same on horseback as Sabethany
had in her coffin; but he had to see almost a mile of us driving
our best horses and carriages, wearing our wedding garments and
fine raiment, and all that "cavalcade," father called
it, of young, reckless riders. You'd have thought if there were
a hint of a smile in his whole being it would have shown when
Sally leaned from the carriage to let him see that her face and
clothes were as good as need be and smiled a lovely smile on him,
and threw him a rose. He did leave his hat off and bow low, and
then Shelley, always the very dickens for daring, rode right up
to him and laughed in his face, and she leaned and thrust a flower
into his bony hands; you would have thought he would have been
simply forced to smile then, but he looked far more as if he would
tumble over and roll from the saddle. My heart ached for a man
in trouble like that. I asked the Lord to preserve us from secrets
we couldn't tell the neighbours!
At the station there wasn't a thing those young people didn't
do.
They tied flowers and ribbons all over Sally's satchel and trunk.
They sowed rice as if it were seeding time in a wheatfield. They
formed a circle around Sally and Peter and as mushy as ever they
could they sang, "As sure as the grass grows around the stump,
You are my darling sugar lump," while they danced. They just
smiled all the time no matter what was done to them. Some of it
made me angry, but I suppose to be pleasant was the right way.
Sally was strong on always doing the right thing, so she just
laughed, and so did all of us. Going home it was wilder yet, for
all of them raced and showed how they could ride.
At the house people were hungry again, so the table was set and
they ate up every scrap in sight, and Leon and I ate with them
that time and saved ours. Then one by one the carriages, spring
wagons, and horseback riders went away, all the people saying
Sally was the loveliest bride, and hers had been the prettiest
wedding they'd ever seen, and the most good things to eat, and
Laddie and the Princess went with them. When the last one was
gone, and only the relatives from Ohio were left, mother pitched
on the bed, gripped her hands and cried as if she'd go to pieces,
and father cried too, and all of us, even Mrs. Freshett, who stayed
to wash up the dishes. She was so tickled to be there, and see,
and help, that mother had hard work to keep her from washing the
linen that same night. She did finish the last dish, scrub the
kitchen floor, black the stove, and pack all the borrowed china
in tubs, ready to be taken home, and things like that. Mother
said it was a burning shame for any neighbourhood to let a woman
get so starved out and lonesome she'd act that way. She said enough
was enough, and when Mrs. Freshett had cooked all day, and washed
dishes until the last skillet was in place, she had done as much
as any neighbour ought to do, and the other things she went on
and did were a rebuke to us.
I felt sore, weepy, and tired out. It made me sick to think of
the sage bag in the cracked churn, so I climbed my very own catalpa
tree in the corner, watched up the road for Laddie, and thought
things over. If I ever get married I want a dress, and a wedding
exactly like that, but I would like a man quite different from
Peter; like Laddie would suit me better. When he rode under the
tree, I dropped from a limb into his arms, and went with him to
the barn. He asked me what was going on at the house, and I told
him about Mrs. Freshett being a rebuke to us; and Laddie said
she was, and he didn't believe one word against her. When I told
him mother was in bed crying like anything, he said: "I knew
that had to come when she kept up so bravely at the station.
Thank the Lord, she showed her breeding by holding in until she
got where she had a right to cry if she pleased."
Then I whispered for fear Leon might be around: "Did he set
the dogs on you?"
"He did not," said Laddie, laughing softly.
"Did he call you names again?"
"He did!" said Laddie, "but I started it. You see,
when we got there, Thomas was raking the grass and he came to
take the Princess' horse. Her father was reading on a bench under
a tree.
I helped her down, and walked with her to the door and said good-
bye, and thanked her for the pleasure she had added to the day
for us, loudly enough that he could hear; then I went over to
him and said: `Good evening, Mr. Pryor. If my father knew anything
about it, he would very much regret that company from Ohio detained
him and compelled me to escort your daughter home. He would greatly
have enjoyed the privilege, but I honestly believe that I appreciated
it far more than he could.'"
"Oh Laddie, what did he say?"
"He arose and glared at me, and choked on it, and he tried
several times, until I thought the clods were going to fly again,
but at last he just spluttered: `You blathering rascal, you!'
That was such a compliment compared with what I thought he was
going to say that I had to laugh. He tried, but he couldn't keep
from smiling himself, and then I said: `Please think it over,
Mr. Pryor, and if you find that Miss Pryor has had an agreeable,
entertaining day, won't you give your consent for her to come
among us again? Won't you allow me to come here, if it can be
arranged in such a way that I intrude on no one?'"
"Oh Laddie!"
"He exploded in a kind of a snarl that meant, I'll see you
in the Bad Place first. So I said to him: `Thank you very much
for to- day, anyway. I'm sure Miss Pryor has enjoyed this day,
and it has been the happiest of my life--one to be remembered
always. Of course I won't come here if I am unwelcome, but I am
in honour bound to tell you that I intend to meet your daughter
elsewhere, whenever I possibly can. I thought it would be a better
way for you to know and have us where you could see what was going
on, if you chose, than for us to meet without your knowledge."
"Oh Laddie," I wailed, "now you've gone and ruined
everything!"
"Not so bad as that, Little Sister," laughed Laddie.
"Not half so bad! He exploded in another growl, and he shook
his walking stick at me, and he said--guess what he said."
"That he would kill you," I panted, clinging to him.
"Right!" said Laddie. "You have it exactly. He
said: `Young man, I'll brain you with my walking stick if ever
I meet you anywhere with my daughter, when you have not come to
her home and taken her with my permission.'"
"What!" I stammered. "What! Oh Laddie, say it over!
Does it mean----?"
"It means," said Laddie, squeezing me until I was near
losing my breath, "it means, Little Sister, that I shall
march to his door and ask him squarely, and if it is anywhere
the Princess wants to go, I shall take her."
"Like, `See the conquering hero comes?'"
"Exactly!" laughed Laddie.
"What will mother say?"
"She hasn't made up her mind yet," answered Laddie.
"Do you mean----?" I gasped again.
"Of course!" said Laddie. "I wasn't going to let
a girl get far ahead of me. The minute I knew she had told her
mother, I told mine the very first chance."
"Mother knows that you feel about the Princess as father
does about her?"
"Mother knows," answered Laddie, "and so does father.
I told both of them."
Both of them knew! And it hadn't made enough difference that any
one living right with them every day could have told it. Time
and work will be needed to understand grown people.
CHAPTER VIII
The Shropshire and the Crusader
"For, among the rich and gay,
Fine, and grand, and decked in laces,
None appear more glad then they,
With happier hearts, or happier faces."
Every one told mother for a week before the wedding that she would
be sick when it was over, and sure enough she was. She had been
on her feet too much, and had so many things to think about, and
there had been such a dreadful amount of work for her and Candace,
even after all the neighbours helped, that she was sick in bed
and we couldn't find a thing she could eat, until she was almost
wild with hunger and father seemed as if he couldn't possibly
bear it a day longer.
After Candace had tried everything she could think of, I went
up and talked it over with Sarah Hood, and she came down, pretending
she happened in, and she tried thickened milk, toast and mulled
buttermilk; she kept trying for two days before she gave up. Candace
thought of new things, and Mrs. Freshett came and made all the
sick dishes she knew, but mother couldn't even taste them; so
we were pretty blue, and we nearly starved ourselves, for how
could we sit and eat everything you could mention, and mother
lying there, almost crying with hunger?
Saturday morning I was hanging around her room hoping maybe she
could think of some least little thing I could do for her, even
if no more than to bring a glass of water, or a late rose to lay
on her pillow; it would be better than not being able to do anything
at all. After a while she opened her eyes and looked at me, and
I scarcely knew her. She smiled the bravest she could and said:
"Sorry for mother, dear?"
I nodded. I couldn't say much, and she tried harder than ever
to be cheerful and asked: "What are you planning to do to-day?"
"If you can't think of one thing I can do for you, guess
I'll go fishing," I said.
Her eyes grew brighter and she seemed half interested.
"Why, Little Sister," she said, "if you can catch
some of those fish like you do sometimes, I believe I could eat
one of them."
I never had such a be-hanged time getting started. I slipped from
the room, and never told a soul even where I was going. I fell
over the shovel and couldn't find anything quick enough but my
pocket to put the worms in, and I forgot my stringer. At last,
when I raced down the hill to the creek and climbed over the water
of the deep place, on the roots of the Pete Billings yowling tree,
I had only six worms, my apple sucker pole, my cotton cord line,
and bent pin hook. I put the first worm on carefully, and if ever
I prayed! Sometimes it was hard to understand about this praying
business. My mother was the best and most beautiful woman who
ever lived. She was clean, and good, and always helped "the
poor and needy who cluster round your door," like it says
in the poetry piece, and there never could have been a reason
why God would want a woman to suffer herself, when she went flying
on horseback even dark nights through rain or snow, to doctor
other people's pain, and when she gave away things like she did--why,
I've seen her take a big piece of meat from the barrel, and a
sack of meal, and heaps of apples and potatoes to carry to Mandy
Thomas--when she gave away food by the wagonload at a time, God
couldn't have WANTED her to be hungry, and yet she WAS that very
minute almost crying for food; and I prayed, oh how I did pray!
and a sneaking old back- ended crayfish took my very first worm.
I just looked at the sky and said: "Well, when it's for a
sick woman, can't You do any better than that?"
I suppose I shouldn't have said it, but if it had been your mother,
how would you have felt? I pinched the next worm in two, so if
a crayfish took that, it wouldn't get but half. I lay down across
the roots and pulled my bonnet far over my face and tried to see
to the bottom. I read in school the other day:
"And by those little rings on the water I know The fishes
are merrily swimming below."
There were no rings on the water, but after a while I saw some
fish darting around, only they didn't seem to be hungry; for they
would come right up and nibble a tiny bit at my worm, but they
wouldn't swallow it. Then one did, so I jerked with all my might,
jerked so hard the fish and worm both flew off, and I had only
the hook left. I put on the other half and tried again. I prayed
straight along, but the tears would come that time, and the prayer
was no powerful effort like Brother Hastings would have made;
it was little torn up pieces mostly: "O Lord, please do make
only one fish bite!" At last one did bite good, so I swung
carefully that time, and landed it on the grass, but it was so
little and it hit a stone and was killed. I had no stringer to
put it back in the water to keep cool, and the sun was hot that
day, like times in the fall. Stretched on the roots, with it shining
on my back, and striking the water and coming up from below, I
dripped with heat and excitement.
I threw that one away, put on another worm, and a big turtle took
it, the hook, and broke my line, and almost pulled me in. I wouldn't
have let go if it had, for I just had to have a fish. There was
no help from the Lord in that, so I quit praying, only what I
said when I didn't know it. Father said man was born a praying
animal, and no matter how wicked he was, if he had an accident,
or saw he had just got to die, he cried aloud to the Lord for
help and mercy before he knew what he was doing.
I could hear the roosters in the barnyard, the turkey gobbler,
and the old ganders screamed once in a while, and sometimes a
bird sang a skimpy little fall song; nothing like spring, except
the killdeers and larks; they were always good to hear--and then
the dinner bell rang. I wished I had been where I couldn't have
heard that, because I didn't intend going home until I had a fish
that would do for mother if I stayed until night. If the best
one in the family had to starve, we might as well all go together;
but I wouldn't have known how hungry I was, if the bell hadn't
rung and told me the others were eating. So I bent another pin
and tried again. I lost the next worm without knowing how, and
then I turned baby and cried right out loud. I was so thirsty,
the salty tears running down my cheeks tasted good, and doing
something besides fishing sort of rested me; so I looked around
and up at the sky, wiped my face on the skirt of my sunbonnet,
and put on another worm. I had only one more left, and I began
to wonder if I could wade in and catch a fish by hand; I did teeny
ones sometimes, but I knew the water there was far above my head,
for I had measured it often with the pole; it wouldn't do to try
that; instead of helping mother any, a funeral would kill her,
too, so I fell back on the Crusaders, and tried again.
Strange how thinking about them helped. I pretended I was fighting
my way to the Holy City, and this was the Jordan just where it
met the sea, and I had to catch enough fish to last me during
the pilgrimage west or I'd never reach Jerusalem to bring home
a shell for the Stanton crest. I pretended so hard, that I got
braver and stronger, and asked the Lord more like there was some
chance of being heard. All at once there was a jerk that almost
pulled me in, so I jerked too, and a big fish flew over my head
and hit the bank behind me with a thump. Of course by a big fish
I don't mean a red horse so long as my arm, like the boys bring
from the river; I mean the biggest fish I ever caught with a pin
in our creek. It looked like the whale that swallowed Jonah, as
it went over my head. I laid the pole across the roots, jumped
up and turned, and I had to grab the stump to keep from falling
in the water and dying. There lay the fish, the biggest one I
ever had seen, but it was flopping wildly, and it wasn't a foot
from a hole in the grass where a muskrat had burrowed through.
If it gave one flop that way, it would slide down the hole straight
back into the water; and between me and the fish stood our cross
old Shropshire ram. I always looked to see if the sheep were in
the meadow before I went to the creek, but that morning I had
been so crazy to get something for mother to eat, I never once
thought of them--and there it stood!
That ram hadn't been cross at first, and father said it never
would be if treated right, and not teased, and if it were, there
would be trouble for all of us. I was having more than my share
that minute, and it bothered me a lot almost every day. I never
dared enter a field any more if it were there, and now it was
stamping up and down the bank, shaking its head, and trying to
get me; with one flop the fish went ALMOST in the hole, and the
next a little away from it. Everything put together, I thought
I couldn't stand it. I never wanted anything as I wanted that
fish, and I never hated anything as I hated that sheep. It wasn't
the sheep's fault either; Leon teased it on purpose, just to see
it chase Polly Martin; but that was more her doings than his.
She was a widow and she crossed our front meadow going to her
sister's. She had two boys big as Laddie, and three girls, and
father said they lived like "the lilies of the field; they
toiled not, neither did they spin." They never looked really
hungry or freezing, but they never plowed, or planted, they had
no cattle or pigs or chickens, only a little corn for meal, and
some cabbage, and wild things they shot for meat, and coons to
trade the skins for more powder and lead--bet they ate the coons--never
any new clothes, never clean, they or their house. Once when father
and mother were driving past, they saw Polly at the well and they
stopped for politeness sake to ask how she was, like they always
did with every one. Polly had a tin cup of water and was sopping
at her neck with a carpet rag, and when mother asked, "How
are you, Mrs. Martin?" she answered: "Oh I ain't very
well this spring; I gest I got the go-backs!"
Mother said Polly looked as if she'd been born with the "go-
backs," and had given them to all her children, her home,
garden, fields, and even the FENCES. We hadn't a particle of patience
with such people. When you are lazy like that it is very probable
that you'll live to see the day when your children will peep through
the fence cracks and cry for bread. I have seen those Martin children
come mighty near doing it when the rest of us opened our dinner
baskets at school; and if mother hadn't always put in enough so
that we could divide, I bet they would. If Polly Martin had walked
up as if she were alive, and had been washed and neat, and going
somewhere to do some one good, Leon never would have dreamed of
such a thing as training the Shropshire to bunt her. She was so
long and skinny, always wore a ragged shawl over her head, a floppy
old dress that the wind whipped out behind, and when she came
to the creek, she sat astride the foot log, and hunched along
with her hands; that tickled the boys so, Leon began teasing the
sheep on purpose to make it get her. But inasmuch as she saw fit
to go abroad looking so funny, that any one could see she'd be
a perfect circus if she were chased, I didn't feel that it was
Leon's fault. If, like the little busy bee, she had "improved
each shining hour," he never would have done it. Seems to
me, she brought the trouble on her own head.
First, Leon ran at the Shropshire and then jumped aside; but soon
it grew so strong and quick he couldn't manage that, so he put
his hat on a stick and poked it back and forth through a fence
crack, and that made the ram raving mad. At last it would butt
the fence until it would knock itself down, and if he dangled
the hat again, get right up and do it over. Father never caught
Leon, so he couldn't understand what made the sheep so dreadfully
cross, because he had thought it was quite peaceable when he bought
it. The first time it got after Polly, she threw her shawl over
its head, pulled up her skirts, and Leon said she hit just eleven
high places crossing an eighty-acre field; she came to the house
crying, and father had to go after her shawl, and mother gave
her a roll of butter and a cherry pie to comfort her.
The Shropshire never really got Polly, but any one could easily
see what it would do to me if I dared step around that stump,
and it was dancing and panting to begin. If whoever wrote that
"Gentle Sheep, pray tell me why," piece ever had seen
a sheep acting like that, it wouldn't have been in the books;
at least I think it wouldn't, but one can't be sure. He proved
that he didn't know much about anything outdoors or he wouldn't
have said that sheep were "eating grass and daisies white,
from the morning till the night," when daisies are bitter
as gall.
Flop! went the fish, and its tail touched the edge of the hole.
Then I turned around and picked up the pole. I put my sunbonnet
over the big end of it, and poked it at the ram, and drew it back
as Leon did his hat. One more jump and mother's fish would be
gone. I stood on the roots and waved my bonnet. The sheep lowered
its head and came at it with a rush. I drew back the pole, and
the sheep's forefeet slid over the edge, and it braced and began
to work to keep from going in. The fish gave a big flop and went
down the hole. Then I turned Crusader and began to fight, and
I didn't care if I were whipped black and blue, I meant to finish
that old black-faced Shropshire. I set the pole on the back of
its neck and pushed with all my might, and I got it in, too. My,
but it made a splash! It wasn't much good at swimming either,
and it had no chance, for I stood on the roots and pushed it down,
and hit it over the nose with all my might, and I didn't care
how far it came on the cars, or how much money it cost, it never
would chase me, and make me lose my fish again.
I didn't hear him until he splashed under the roots and then I
was so mad I didn't see that it was Laddie; I only knew that it
was someone who was going to help out that miserable ram, so I
struck with all my might, the sheep when I could hit it, if not,
the man.
"You little demon, stop!" cried Laddie.
I got in a good one right on the ram's nose. Then Laddie dropped
the sheep and twisted the fish pole from my fingers, and I pushed
him as hard as I could, but he was too strong. He lifted the sheep,
pulled it to the bank, and rolled it, worked its jaws, and squeezed
water from it, and worked and worked.
"I guess you've killed it!" he said at last.
"Goody!" I shouted. "Goody! Oh but I am glad it's
dead!"
"What on earth has turned you to a fiend?" asked Laddie,
beginning work on the sheep again.
"That ram!" I said. "Ever since Leon made it cross
so it would chase Polly Martin, it's got me oftener than her.
I can't go anywhere for it, and to-day it made me lose a big fish,
and mother is waiting. She thought maybe she could eat some."
Then I roared; bet I sounded like Bashan's bull.
"Dear Lord!" said Laddie dropping the sheep and taking
me in his wet arms. "Tell me, Biddy! Tell me how it is."
Then I forgot I was a Crusader, and told him all about it as well
as I could for choking, and when I finished he bathed my hot face,
and helped me from the roots. Then he went and looked down the
hole I showed him and he cried out quicklike, and threw himself
on the grass, and in a second up came the fish. Some one had rolled
a big stone in the hole, so the fish was all right, not even dead
yet, and Laddie said it was the biggest one he ever had seen taken
from the creek. Then he said if I'd forgive him and all our family,
for spoiling the kind of a life I had a perfect right to lead,
and if I'd run to the house and get a big bottle from the medicine
case quick, he would see to it that some place was fixed for that
sheep where it would never bother me again. So I took the fish
and ran as fast as I could, but I sent May back with the bottle,
and did the scaling myself. No one at our house could do it better,
for Laddie taught me the right way long ago, when I was small,
and I'd done it hundreds of times.
Then I went to Candace and she put a little bit of butter and
a speck of lard in a skillet, and cooked the fish brown. She made
a slice of toast and boiled a cup of water and carried it to the
door; then she went in and set the table beside the bed, and I
took in the tray, and didn't spill a drop. Mother never said a
word; she just reached out and broke off a tiny speck and nibbled
it, and it stayed; she tried a little bigger piece, and another,
and she said: "Take out the bones, Candace!" She ate
every scrap of that fish like the hungriest traveller who ever
came to our door, and the toast, and drank the hot water. Then
she went into a long sleep and all of us walked tiptoe, and when
she waked up she was better, and in a few days she could sit in
her chair again, and she began getting Shelley ready to go to
music school.
I have to tell you the rest, too. Laddie made the ram come alive,
and father sold it the next day for more than he paid for it.
He said he hoped I'd forgive him for not having seen how it had
been bothering me, and that he never would have had it on the
place a day if he'd known. The next time he went to town he bought
me a truly little cane rod, a real fishing line, several hooks,
and a red bobber too lovely to put into the water. I thought I
was a great person from the fuss all of them made over me, until
I noticed Laddie shrug his shoulders, and reach back and rub one,
and then I remembered.
I went flying, and thank goodness! he held out his arms.
"Oh Laddie! I never did it!" I cried. "I never,
never did! I couldn't! Laddie, I love you best of any one; you
know I do!"
"Of course you didn't!" said Laddie. "My Little
Sister wasn't anywhere around when that happened. That was a poor
little girl I never saw before, and she was in such trouble she
didn't know WHAT she was doing. And I hope I'll never see her
again," he ended, twisting his shoulder. But he kissed me
and made it all right, and really I didn't do that; I just simply
couldn't have struck Laddie.
Marrying off Sally was little worse than getting Shelley ready
for school. She had to have three suits of everything, and a new
dress of each kind, and three hats; her trunk wouldn't hold all
there was to put in it; and father said he never could pay the
bills. He had promised her to go, and he didn't know what in this
world to do; because he never had borrowed money in his life,
and he couldn't begin; for if he died suddenly, that would leave
mother in debt, and they might take the land from her. That meant
he'd spent what he had in the bank on Sally's wedding, and all
that was in the Underground Station, or maybe the Station money
wasn't his.
Just when he was awfully bothered, mother said to never mind,
she believed she could fix it. She sent all of us into the orchard
to pick the fine apples that didn't keep well, and father made
three trips to town to sell them. She had big jars of lard she
wouldn't need before butchering time came again, and she sold
dried apples, peaches, and raspberries from last year. She got
lots of money for barrels of feathers she'd saved to improve her
feather beds and pillows; she said she would see to that later.
Father was so tickled to get the money to help him out that he
said he'd get her a pair of those wonderful new blue geese like
Pryors had, that every one stopped to look at. When there was
not quite enough yet, from somewhere mother brought out money
that she'd saved for a long time, from butter and eggs, and chickens,
and turkeys, and fruit and lard, and things that belonged to her.
Father hated to use it the worst way, but she said she'd saved
it for an emergency, and now seemed to be the time.
She said if the child really had talent, she should be about developing
it, and while there would be many who would have far finer things
than Shelley, still she meant her to have enough that she wouldn't
be the worst looking one, and so ashamed she couldn't keep her
mind on her work. Father said, with her face it didn't make any
difference what she wore, and mother said that was just like a
man; it made all the difference in the world what a girl wore.
Father said maybe it did to the girl, and other women; what he
meant was that it made none to a man. Mother said the chief aim
and end of a girl's life was not wrapped up in a man; and father
said maybe not with some girls, but it would be with Shelley:
she was too pretty to escape. I do wonder if I'm going to be too
pretty to escape, when I put on long dresses. Sometimes I look
in the glass to see if it's coming, but I don't suppose it's any
use. Mother says you can't tell a thing at the growing age about
how a girl is going to look at eighteen.
When everything was almost ready, Leon came in one day and said:
"Shelley, what about improving your hair? Have you tried
your wild grape sap yet?"
Shelley said: "Why, goodness me! We've been so busy getting
Sally married, and my clothes made, I forgot all about that. Have
you noticed the crock in passing? Is there anything in it?"
"It was about half full, once when I went by," said
Leon. "I haven't seen it lately."
"Do please be a dear and look, when you go after the cows
this evening," said Shelley. "If there's anything in
it, bring it up."
"Do it yourself for want of me,
The boy replied quite manfully,"
quoted Leon from "The Little Lord and the Farmer." He
was always teasing.
"I think you're mean as dirt if you don t bring it,"
said Shelley.
Leon grinned and you should have heard the nasty, teasing way
he said more of that same piece:
"Anger and pride are both unwise,
Vinegar never catches flies----"
I wondered she didn't slap him. You could see she wanted to. "I
can get it myself," she said angrily.
"What will you give me to bring it?" asked Leon, who
never missed a chance to make a bargain.
"My grateful thanks. Are they not a proper reward?"
asked Shelley.
"Thanks your foot!" said Leon. "Will you bring
something pretty from Chicago for Susie Fall's Christmas present?"
Every one laughed, but Leon never cared. He liked Susie best of
any of the girls, and he wanted every one to know it. He went
straight to her whenever he had a chance, and he'd already told
her mother to keep all the other boys away, because he meant to
marry her when he grew up, and Widow Fall said that was fair enough,
and she'd save her for him. So Shelley said she would get him
something for Susie, and Leon brought the crock. Shelley looked
at it sort of dubious-like, tipped it, and stared at the dirt
settled in the bottom, and then stuck in her finger and tasted
it. She looked at Leon with a queer grin and said: "Smarty,
smarty, think you're smart!" She threw the creek water into
the swill bucket. No one said a word, but Leon looked much sillier
than she did. After he was gone I asked her if she would bring
him a Christmas present for Susie NOW, and she said she ought
to bring him a pretty glass bottle labelled perfume, with hartshorn
in it, and she would, if she thought he'd smell it first.
Shelley felt badly about leaving mother when she wasn't very well;
but mother said it was all right, she had Candace to keep house
and May and me, and father, and all of us to take care of her,
and it would be best for Shelley to go now and work hard as she
could, while she had the chance. So one afternoon father took
her trunk to the depot and bought the tickets and got the checks,
and the next day Laddie drove to Groveville with father and Shelley,
and she was gone. Right at the last, she didn't seem to want to
leave so badly, but all of them said she must. Peter's cousin,
who had gone last year, was to meet her, and have a room ready
where she boarded if she could, and if she couldn't right away,
then the first one who left, Shelley was to have the place, so
they'd be together.
There were eight of us left, counting Candace and Miss Amelia,
and you wouldn't think a house with eight people living in it
would be empty, but ours was. Everything seemed to wilt. The roses
on the window blinds didn't look so bright as they had; mother
said the only way she could get along was to keep right on working.
She helped Candace all she could, but she couldn't be on her feet
very much, so she sat all day long and peeled peaches to dry,
showed Candace how to jelly, preserve, and spice them, and peeled
apples for butter and to dry, quantities more than we could use,
but she said she always could sell such things, and with the bunch
of us to educate yet, we'd need the money.
When it grew cold enough to shut the doors, and have fire at night,
first thing after supper all of us helped clear the table, then
we took our slates and books and learned our lessons for the next
day, and then father lined us against the wall, all in a row from
Laddie down, and he pronounced words--easy ones that divided into
syllables nicely, for me, harder for May, and so up until I might
sit down. For Laddie, May and Leon he used the geography, the
Bible, Roland's history, the Christian Advocate, and the Agriculturist.
My, but he had them so they could spell! After that, as memory
tests, all of us recited our reading lesson for the next day,
especially the poetry pieces. I knew most of them, from hearing
the big folks repeat them so often and practise the proper way
to read them. I could do "Rienzi's Address to the Romans,"
"Casablanca," "Gray's Elegy," or "Mark
Antony's Speech," but best of all, I liked "Lines to
a Water-fowl." When he was tired, if it were not bedtime
yet, all of us, boys too, sewed rags for carpet and rugs. Laddie
braided corn husks for the kitchen and outside door mats, and
they were pretty, and "very useful too," like the dog
that got his head patted in McGuffey's Second.
Then they picked the apples. These had to be picked by hand, wrapped
in soft paper, packed in barrels, and shipped to Fort Wayne. Where
they couldn't reach by hand, they stood on barrels or ladders,
and used a long handled picker, so as not to bruise the fruit.
Laddie helped with everything through the day, worked at his books
at night, and whenever he stepped outside he looked in the direction
of Pryors'. He climbed to the topmost limbs of the trees with
a big basket, picked it full and let it down with a long piece
of clothesline. I loved to be in the orchard when they were working;
there were plenty of summer apples to eat yet; it was fun to watch
the men, and sometimes I could be useful by handing baskets or
heaping up apples to be buried for us.
One night father read about a man who had been hanged for killing
another man, and they cut him down too soon, so he came alive,
and they had to hang him over; and father got all worked up about
it. He said the man had suffered death the first time to "all
intents and purposes," so that fulfilled the requirements
of the law, and they were wrong when they hanged him again. Laddie
said it was a piece of bungling sure enough, but the law said
a man must be "hanged by his neck until he was dead,"
and if he weren't dead, why, it was plain he hadn't fulfilled
the requirements of the law, so they were forced to hang him again.
Father said that law was wrong; the man never should have been
hanged in the first place. They talked and argued until we were
all excited about it, and the next evening after school Leon and
I were helping pick apples, and when father and Laddie went to
the barn with a load we sat down to rest and we thought about
what they said.
"Gee, that was tough on the man!" said Leon, "but
I guess the law is all right. Of course he wouldn't want to die,
and twice over at that, but I don't suppose the man he killed
liked to die either. I think if you take a life, it's all right
to give your own to pay for it."
"Leon," I said, "some time when you are fighting
Absalom Saunders or Lou Wicks, just awful, if you hit them too
hard on some tender spot and kill them, would you want to die
to pay for it?"
"I wouldn't want to, but I guess I'd have to," said
Leon. "That's the law, and it's as good a way to make it
as any. But I'm not going to kill any one. I've studied my physiology
hard to find all the spots that will kill. I never hit them behind
the ear, or in the pit of the stomach; I just black their eyes,
bloody their snoots, and swat them on the chin to finish off with."
"Well, suppose they don't study their physiologies like you
do, and hit YOU in the wrong place, and kill you, would you want
THEM hanged by the neck until they were dead, to pay for it?"
"I don't think I'd want anything if I were dead," he
said. "I wonder how it feels to die. Now THAT man knew. I'd
like to be hanged enough to find out how it goes, and then come
back, and brag about it. I don't think it hurts much; I believe
I'll try it."
So Leon took the rope Laddie lowered the baskets with, and threw
it over a big limb. Then he rolled up a barrel and stood on it
and put my sunbonnet on with the crown over his face, for a black
cap, and made the rope into a slip noose over his head, and told
me to stand back by the apple tree and hold the rope tight, until
he said he was hanged enough. Then he stepped from the barrel.
It jerked me toward him about a yard, as he came down smash! on
his feet. I held with all my might, but he was too heavy--and
falling that way. So he went to trying to fix some other plan,
and I told him the sensible thing to do would be for him to hang
me, because he'd be strong enough to hold me and I could tell
him how it felt just as well. So we fixed me up like we had him,
and when Leon got the rope stretched, he wrapped it twice around
the apple tree so it wouldn't jerk him as it had me, and when
he said "Ready," I stepped from the barrel. The last
thing I heard was Leon telling me to say when I was hanged enough.
I was so heavy, the rope stretched, and I went down until it almost
tore off my head, and I couldn't get a single breath, so of course
I didn't tell him, and I couldn't get on the barrel, and my tongue
went out, and my chest swelled up, and my ears roared, and I kicked
and struggled, and all the time I could hear Leon laughing, and
shouting to keep it up, that I was dying fine; only he didn't
know that I really was, and at last I didn't feel or know anything
more.
When I came to, I was lying on the grass, while father was pumping
my arms, and Laddie was pouring creek water on my face from his
hat, and Leon was running around in circles, clear crazy. I heard
father tell him he'd give him a scutching he'd remember to the
day of his death; but inasmuch as I had told Leon to do it, I
had to grab father and hold to him tight as I could, until I got
breath enough to explain how it happened. Even then I wasn't sure
what he was going to do.
After all that, when I tried to tell Leon how it felt, he just
cried like a baby, and he wouldn't listen to a word, even when
he'd wanted to know so badly. He said if I hadn't come back, he'd
have gone to the barn and used the swing rope on himself, so it
was a good thing I did, for one funeral would have cost enough,
when we needed money so badly, not to mention how mother would
have felt to have two of us go at once, like she had before. And
anyway, it didn't amount to so awful much. It was pretty bad at
first, but it didn't last long, and the next day my neck was only
a little blue and stiff, and in three days it was all over, only
a rough place where the rope grained the skin as I went down;
but I never got to tell Leon how it felt; I just couldn't talk
him into hearing, and it was quite interesting too; but still
I easily saw why the man in the paper would object to dying twice,
to pay for killing another man once.
When the apples were picked and the cabbage, beets, turnips, and
potatoes were buried, some corn dried in the garret for new meal,
pumpkins put in the cellar, the field corn all husked, and the
butchering done, father said the work was in such fine shape,
with Laddie to help, and there was so much more corn than he needed
for us, and the price was so high, and the turkeys did so well,
and everything, that he could pay back what mother helped him,
and have quite a sum over.
It was Thanksgiving by that time, and all of Winfield's, Lucy's,
Sally and Peter, and our boys came home. We had a big time, all
but Shelley; it was too expensive for her to come so far for one
day, but mother sent her a box with a whole turkey for herself
and her friends; and cake, popcorn, nuts, and just everything
that wasn't too drippy. Shelley wrote such lovely letters that
mother saved them and after we had eaten as much dinner as we
could, she read them before we left the table.
I had heard most of them, but I liked to listen again, because
they sounded so happy. You could hear Shelley laugh on every page.
She told about how Peter's cousin was waiting when the train stopped.
They couldn't room together right away, but they were going to
the first chance they had. Shelley felt badly because they were
so far apart, but she was in a nice place, where she could go
with other girls of the school until she learned the way. She
told about her room and the woman she boarded with and what she
had to eat; she wrote mother not to worry about clothes, because
most of the others were from the country, or small towns, and
getting ready to teach, and lots of them didn't have NEARLY as
many or as pretty dresses as she did. She told about the big building,
the classes, the professors, and of going to public recitals where
some of the pupils who knew enough played; and she was working
her fingers almost to the bone, so she could next year. She told
of people she met, and how one of the teachers took a number of
girls in his class to see a great picture gallery. She wrote pages
about a young Chicago lawyer she met there, and only a few lines
about the pictures, so father said as that was the best collection
of art work in Chicago, it was easy enough to see that Shelley
had been far more impressed with the man than she had been with
the pictures. Mother said she didn't see how he could say a thing
like that about the child. Of course she couldn't tell in a letter
about hundreds of pictures, but it was easy enough to tell all
about a man.
Father got sort of spunky at that, and he said it was mighty little
that mattered most, that could be told about a Chicago lawyer;
and mother had better caution Shelley to think more about her
work, and write less of the man. Mother said that would stop the
child's confidences completely and she'd think all the time about
the man, and never mention him again, so she wouldn't know what
WAS going on. She said she was glad Shelley had found pleasing,
refined friends, and she'd encourage her all she could in cultivating
them; but of course she'd caution her to be careful, and she'd
tell her what the danger was, and after that Shelley wrote and
wrote. Mother didn't always read the letters to us, but she answered
every one she got that same night. Sometimes she pushed the pen
so she jabbed the paper, and often she smiled or laughed softly.
I liked Thanksgiving. We always had a house full of company, and
they didn't stay until we were tired of them, as they did at Christmas,
and there was as much to eat; the only difference was that there
were no presents. It wasn't nearly so much work to fix for one
day as it was for a week; so it wasn't so hard on mother and Candace,
and father didn't have to spend much money. We were wearing all
our clothes from last fall that we could, and our coats from last
winter to help out, but we didn't care. We had a lot of fun, and
we wanted Sally and Shelley to have fine dresses, because they
were in big cities where they needed them, and in due season,
no doubt, we would have much more than they, because, as May figured
it, there would be only a few of us by that time, so we could
have more to spend. That looked sensible, and I thought it would
be that way, too. We were talking it over coming from school one
evening, and when we had settled it, we began to play "Dip
and Fade." That was a game we made up from being at church,
and fall and spring were the only times we could play it, because
then the rains filled all the ditches beside the road where the
dirt was plowed up to make the bed higher, and we had to have
the water to dip in and fade over.
We played it like that, because it was as near as we could come
to working out a song Isaac Thomas sang every time he got happy.
He had a lot of children at home, and more who had died, from
being half-fed and frozen, mother thought; and he was always talking
about meeting the "pore innocents" in Heaven, and singing
that one song. Every time he made exactly the same speech in meeting.
It began like reciting poetry, only it didn't rhyme, but it sort
of cut off in lines, and Isaac waved back and forth on his feet,
and half sung it, and the rags waved too, but you just couldn't
feel any thrills of earnestness about what he said, because he
needed washing, and to go to work and get him some clothes and
food to fill out his frame. He only looked funny, and made you
want to laugh. It took Emanuel Ripley to raise your hair. I don't
know why men like my father, and the minister, and John Dover
stood it; they talked over asking Isaac to keep quiet numbers
of times, but the minister said there were people like that in
every church, they always came among the Lord's anointed, and
it was better to pluck out your right eye than to offend one of
them, and he was doubtful about doing it. So we children all knew
that the grown people scarcely could stand Isaac's speech, and
prayer, and song, and that they were afraid to tell him plain
out that he did more harm than good. Every meeting about the third
man up was Isaac, and we had to watch him wave, and rant, and
go sing-songy:
"Oh brethering and sistering--ah,
It delights my heart--ah to gather with you,
In this holy house of worship--ah.
In his sacred word--ah,
The Lord--ah tells us,
That we are all his childring--ah.
And now, lemme exhort you to-night--ah,
As one that loves you--ah,
To choose that good part, that Mary chose--ah,
That the worrrr-uld kin neither give ner take away--ah."
That went on until he was hoarse, then he prayed, and arose and
sang his song. Other men spoke where they stood. Isaac always
walked to the altar, faced the people, and he was tired out when
he finished, but so proud of himself, so happy, and he felt so
sure that his efforts were worth a warm bed, sausage, pancakes,
maple syrup, and coffee for breakfast, that it was mighty seldom
he failed to fool some one else into thinking so too, and if he
could, he wouldn't have to walk four miles home on cold nights,
with no overcoat. In summer, mostly, they let him go. Isaac always
was fattest in winter, especially during revivals, but at any
time mother said he looked like a sheep's carcass after the buzzards
had picked it. It could be seen that he was perfectly strong,
and could have fed and clothed himself, and Mandy and the children,
quite as well as our father did us, if he had wanted to work,
for we had the biggest family of the neighbourhood. So we children
made fun of him and we had to hold our mouths shut when he got
up all tired and teary-like, and began to quaver:
"Many dear childurn we know dew stan'
Un toon ther harps in the better lan',
Ther little hans frum each soundin' string,
Bring music sweet, wile the Anguls sing,
Bring music sweet, wile the Anguls sing,--
We shell meet them agin on that shore,
We shell meet them agin on that shore,
With fairer face, un angel grace,
Each loved un ull welcome us ther.
"They uster mourn when the childurn died,
Un said goo-bye at the river side,
They dipped ther feet in the glidin' stream,
Un faded away, like a loveli dream,
Un faded away like a loveli dream."
Then the chorus again, and then Isaac dropped on the front seat
exhausted, and stayed there until some good-hearted woman, mostly
my mother, felt so sorry about his shiftlessness she asked him
to go home with us and warmed and fed him, and put him in the
traveller's bed to sleep. The way we played it was this: we stood
together at the edge of a roadside puddle and sang the first verse
and the chorus exactly as Isaac did. Then I sang the second verse,
and May was one of the "many dear childurn," and as
I came to the lines she dipped her feet in the "glidin' stream,"
and for "fading away," she jumped across.
Now May was a careful little soul, and always watched what she
was doing, so she walked up a short way, chose a good place, and
when I sang the line, she was almost birdlike, she dipped and
faded so gracefully. Then we laughed like dunces, and then May
began to sway and swing, and drone through her nose for me, and
I was so excited I never looked. I just dipped and faded on the
spot. I faded all right too, for I couldn't jump nearly across,
and when I landed in pure clay that had been covered with water
for three weeks, I went down to my knees in mud, to my waist in
water, and lost my balance and fell backward.
A man passing on horseback pried me out with a rail and helped
me home. Of course he didn't know how I happened to fall in, and
I was too chilled to talk. I noticed May only said I fell, so
I went to bed scorched inside with red pepper tea, and never told
a word about dipping and fading. Leon whispered and said he bet
it was the last time I would play that, so as soon as my coat
and dress were washed and dried, and I could go back to school,
I did it again, just to show him I was no cowardy-calf; but I
had learned from May to choose a puddle I could manage before
I faded.
CHAPTER IX
"Even So"
"All things whatsoever ye would
That men should do to you,
Do ye even so to them."
Our big girls and boys always made a dreadful fuss and said we
would catch every disease you could mention, but mother and father
were set about it, just like the big rocks in the hills. They
said they, themselves, once had been at the mercy of the people,
and they knew how it felt. Mother said when they were coming here
in a wagon, and she had ridden until she had to walk to rest her
feet, and held a big baby until her arms became so tired she drove
while father took it, and when at last they saw a house and stopped,
she said if the woman hadn't invited her in, and let her cook
on the stove, given her milk and eggs, and furnished her a bed
to sleep in once in a while, she couldn't have reached here at
all; and she never had been refused once. Then she always quoted:
"All things whatsoever ye would that men should do to you,
do ye EVEN SO to them."
Father said there were men who made a business of splitting hairs,
and of finding different meanings in almost everything in the
Bible. I would like to have seen any one split hairs about that,
or it made to mean something else. Of all the things in the Bible
that you had to do because it said to, whether you liked it or
not, that was the one you struck oftenest in life and it took
the hardest pull to obey. It was just the hatefulest text of any,
and made you squirm most. There was no possible way to get around
it. It meant, that if you liked a splinter new slate, and a sharp
pencil all covered with gold paper, to make pictures and write
your lessons, when Clarissa Polk sat next you and sang so low
the teacher couldn't hear until she put herself to sleep on it,
"I WISHT I had a slate! I wisht I HAD a slate! I wisht I
had a SLATE! Oh I WISHT I HAD A SLATE!"--it meant that you
just had to wash up yours and stop making pictures yourself, and
pass it over; you even had to smile when you offered it, if you
did it right. I seldom got through it as the Lord would, for any
one who loaned Clarissa a slate knew that it would come back with
greasy, sweaty finger marks on it you almost had to dig a hole
to wash off, and your pencil would be wet. And if there were the
least flaw of crystal in the pencil, she found it, and bore down
so hard that what she wrote never would come off.
The Lord always seemed bigger and more majestic to me, than at
any other time, when I remembered that He could have known all
that, and yet smiled as He loaned Clarissa His slate. And that
old Bible thing meant, too, that if you would like it if you were
travelling a long way, say to California to hunt gold, or even
just to Indiana, to find a farm fit to live on--it meant that
if you were tired, hungry, and sore, and would want to be taken
in and fed and rested, you had to let in other people when they
reached your house. Father and mother had been through it themselves,
and they must have been tired as could be, before they reached
Sarah Hood's and she took them in, and rested and fed them, even
when they were only a short way from the top of the Little Hill,
where next morning they looked down and stopped the wagon, until
they chose the place to build their house. Sarah Hood came along,
and helped mother all day, so by night she was settled in the
old cabin that was on the land, and ready to go to work making
money to build a new one, and then a big house, and fix the farm
all beautiful like it was then. They knew so well how it felt,
that they kept one bed in the boys' room, and any man who came
at dusk got his supper, to sleep there, and his breakfast, and
there never was anything to pay. The girls always scolded dreadfully
about the extra washing, but mother said she slept on sheets when
she came out, and some one washed them.
One time Sally said: "Mother, have you ever figured out how
many hundred sheets you've washed since, to pay for that?"
Mother said: "No, but I just hope it will make a stack high
enough for me to climb from into Heaven."
Sally said: "The talk at the church always led me to think
that you flew to Heaven."
Mother answered: "So I get there, I don't mind if I creep."
Then Sally knew it was time to stop. We always knew. And we stopped,
too!
We had heard that "All things" quotation, until the
first two words were as much as mother ever needed repeat of it
any more, and we had cooked, washed for, and waited on people
travelling, until Leon got so when he saw any one coming--of course
we knew all the neighbours, and their horses and wagons and carriages--he
always said: "Here comes another `Even So!'" He said
we had done "even so" to people until it was about our
share, but mother said our share was going to last until the Lord
said, "Well done, good and faithful servant," and took
us home. She had much more about the stranger at the gate and
entertaining angels unawares; why, she knew every single thing
in the Bible that meant it was her duty to feed and give a bed
to any one, no matter how dirty or miserable looking he was! So
when Leon came in one evening at dusk and said, "There's
another `Even So' coming down the Little Hill!" all of us
knew that we'd have company for the night, and we had.
I didn't like that man, but some of the others seemed to find
him amusing. Maybe it was because I had nothing to do but sit
and watch him, and so I saw more of him than the ones who came
and went all the time. As long as there was any one in the room,
he complained dreadfully about his sore foot, and then cheered
up and talked, and he could tell interesting things. He was young,
but he must have been most everywhere and seen everything. He
was very brave and could stand off three men who were going to
take from him the money he was carrying to buy a piece of land
in Illinois. The minute the grown folks left the room to milk,
do the night feeding, and begin supper, he twisted in his chair
and looked at every door, and went and stood at the back dining-room
window, where he could see the barn and what was out there, and
coming back he took a peep into father's and mother's room, and
although he limped dreadfully when he came, he walked like any
one when he went over and picked up father's gun and looked to
see if it were loaded, and seemed mighty glad when he found it
wasn't. Father said he could load in a flash when it was necessary,
but he was dubious about a loaded gun in a house full of children.
Not one of us ever touched it, until the boys were big enough
to have permission, like Laddie and Leon had. He said a gun was
such a great "moral persuader," that the sight of one
was mostly all that was needed, and nobody could tell by looking
at it whether it was loaded or not. This man could, for he examined
the lock and smiled in a pleased way over it, and he never limped
a step going back to his chair. He kept on complaining, until
father told him before bedtime that he had better rest a day or
two, and mother said that would be a good idea.
He talked so much we couldn't do our lessons or spell very well,
but it was Friday and we'd have another chance Saturday, so it
didn't make so much difference. Father said the traveller must
be tired and sleepy and Leon should take a light and show him
to bed. He stayed so long father went to the foot of the stairway,
and asked him why he didn't come down and he said he was in bed
too. The next morning he was sleepy at breakfast and Laddie said
it was no wonder, because Leon and the traveller were talking
when he went upstairs. The man turned to father and said: "That's
a mighty smart boy, Mr. Stanton." Father frowned and said:
"Praise to the face is open disgrace. I hope he will be smart
enough not to disgrace us, anyway."
The traveller said he was sure he would be, and we could see that
he had taken a liking to Leon, for he went with him to the barn
to help do the morning feeding. They stayed so long mother sent
me to call them, and when I got there, the man was telling Leon
how foolish it was for boys to live on a farm; how they never
would amount to anything unless they went to cities, and about
all the fun there was there, and how nice it was to travel, even
along the roads, because every one fed you, and gave you a good
bed. He forgot that walking had made his foot lame, and I couldn't
see, to save me, why he was going to spend his money to buy a
farm, if he thought a town the only place where it was fit to
live.
He stayed all Saturday, and father said Sunday was no suitable
time to start on a journey again, and the man's foot was bad when
father was around, so it would be better to wait until Monday.
The traveller tagged Leon and told him what a fine fellow he was,
how smart he was, and to prove it, Leon boasted about everything
he knew, and showed the man all over the farm.
I even saw them pass the Station in the orchard, and heard Leon
brag how father had been an agent for the Governor; but of course
he didn't really show him the place, and probably it would have
made no difference if he had, for all the money must have been
spent on Sally's wedding. Of course father might have put some
there he had got since, or that money might never have been his
at all, but it seemed as if it would be, because it was on his
land.
Sunday evening all of us attended church, but the traveller was
too tired, so when Leon said he'd stay with him, father thought
it was all right. I could see no one wanted to leave the man alone
in the house. He said they'd go to bed early, and we came in quite
late. The lamp was turned low, the door unlocked, and everything
in place. Laddie went to bed without a candle, and said he'd undress
and slip in easy so as not to waken them.
In the morning when he got up the traveller's bed hadn't been
slept in, and neither had Leon's. The gun was gone, and father
stared at mother, and mother stared at Laddie, and he turned and
ran straight toward the Station, and in a minute he was back,
whiter than a plate. He just said: "All gone!" Father
and mother both sat down suddenly and hard. Then Laddie ran to
the barn and came back and said none of the horses had been taken.
Soon they went into the parlour and shut the door, and when they
came out father staggered and mother looked exactly like Sabethany.
Laddie ran to the barn, saddled Flos and rode away. Father wanted
to ring an alarm on the dinner bell, like he had a call arranged
to get all the neighbours there quickly if we had sickness or
trouble, and mother said: "Paul, you shall not! He's so young!
We've got to keep this as long as we can, and maybe the Lord will
help us find him, and we can give him another chance."
Father started to say something, and mother held up her hand and
just said, "Paul!" and he sank back in the chair and
kept still. Mother always had spoken of him as "the Head
of the Family," and here he wasn't at all! He minded her
quickly as I would.
When Miss Amelia came downstairs they let her start to school
and never told her a word, but mother said May and I were not
to go. So I slipped out and ran through the orchard to look at
the Station, and sure enough! the stone was rolled back, the door
open and the can lying on the floor. I slid down and picked it
up, and there was one sheet of paper money left in it stuck to
the sides. It was all plain as a pikestaff. Leon must have thought
the money had been spent, and showed the traveller the Station,
just to brag, and he guessed there might be something there, and
had gone while we were at church and taken it. He had all night
the start of us, and he might have a horse waiting somewhere,
and be almost to Illinois by this time, and if the money belonged
to father, there would be no Christmas; and if it happened to
be the money the county gave him to pay the men who worked the
roads every fall, and Miss Amelia, or collections from the church,
he'd have to pay it back, even if it put him in debt; and if he
died, they might take the land, like he said; and where on earth
was Leon? Knew what he'd done and hiding, I bet! He needed the
thrashing he would get that time, and I started out to hunt him
and have it over with, so mother wouldn't be uneasy about him
yet; and then I remembered Laddie had said Leon hadn't been in
bed all night. He was gone too!
Maybe he wanted to try life in a city, where the traveller had
said everything was so grand; but he must have known that he'd
kill his mother if he went, and while he didn't kiss her so often,
and talk so much as some of us, I never could see that he didn't
run quite as fast to get her a chair or save her a step. He was
so slim and light he could race for the doctor faster than Laddie
or father, either one. Of course he loved his mother, just as
all of us did; he never, never could go away and not let her know
about it. If he had gone, that watchful-eyed man, who was lame
only part of the time, had taken the gun and made him go. I thought
I might as well save the money he'd overlooked, so I gripped it
tight in my hand, and put it in my apron pocket, the same as I
had Laddie's note to the Princess, and started to the barn, on
the chance that Leon might be hiding. I knew precious well I would,
if I were in his place. So I hunted the granaries, the haymow,
the stalls, then I stood on the threshing floor and cried: "Leon!
If you're hiding come quick! Mother will be sick with worrying
and father will be so glad to see you, he won't do anything much.
Do please hurry!"
Then I listened, and all I could hear was a rat gnawing at a corner
of the granary under the hay. Might as well have saved its teeth,
it would strike a strip of tin when it got through, but of course
it couldn't know that. Then I went to every hole around the haystack,
where the cattle had eaten; none were deep yet, like they would
be later in the season, and all the way I begged of Leon to come
out. Once a rooster screamed, flew in my face and scared me good,
but no Leon; so I tried the corn crib, the implement shed, and
the wood house, climbing the ladder with the money still gripped
in one hand. Then I slipped in the front door, up the stairs,
and searched the garret, even away back where I didn't like to
very well. At last I went to the dining- room, and I don't think
either father or mother had moved, while Sabethany turned to stone
looked good compared with them. Seemed as if it would have been
better if they'd cried, or scolded, or anything but just sit there
as they did, when you could see by their moving once in a while
that they were alive. In the kitchen Candace and May finished
the morning work, and both of them cried steadily. I slipped to
May, "Whose money was it?" I whispered. "Father's,
or the county's, or the church's?"
"All three," said May.
"The traveller took it."
"How would he find it? None of us knew there was such a place
before."
"Laddie seemed to know!"
"Oh Laddie! Father trusts him about everything."
"They don't think HE told?"
"Of course not, silly. It's Leon who is gone!"
"Leon may have told about the Station!" I cried. "He
didn't touch the money. He never touched it!"
Then I went straight to father. Keeping a secret was one thing;
seeing the only father you had look like that, was another. I
held out the money.
"There's one piece old Even So didn't get, anyway,"
I said. "Found it on the floor of the Station, where it was
stuck to the can. And I thought Leon must be hiding for fear he'd
be whipped for telling, but I've hunted where we usually hide,
and promised him everything under the sun if he'd come out; but
he didn't, so I guess that traveller man must have used the gun
to make him go along."
Father sat and stared at me. He never offered to touch the money,
not even when I held it against his hand. So I saw that money
wasn't the trouble, else he'd have looked quick enough to see
how much I had. They were thinking about Leon being gone, at least
father was. Mother called me to her and asked: "You knew
about the Station?"
I nodded.
"When?"
"On the way back from taking Amanda Deam her ducks this summer."
"Leon was with you?"
"He found it."
"What were you doing?"
"Sitting on the fence eating apples. We were wondering why
that ravine place wasn't cleaned up, when everywhere else was,
and then Leon said there might be a reason. He told about having
seen a black man, and that he was hidden some place, and we hunted
there and found it. We rolled back the stone, and opened the door,
and Leon went in, and both of us saw a can full of money."
"Go on."
"We didn't touch it, mother! Truly we didn't! Leon said we'd
found something not intended for children, and we'd be whipped
sick if we ever went near or told, and we never did, not even
once, unless Leon wanted to boast to the traveller man, but if
he showed him the place, he thought sure the money had all been
spent on the wedding and sending Shelley away."
Father's arms shot out, and his head pitched on the table. Mother
got up and began to walk the floor, and never went near or even
touched him. I couldn't bear it. I went and pulled his arm and
put the bill under his hand.
"Leon didn't take your money! He didn't! He didn't! I just
know he didn't! He does tricks because they are so funny, or he
thinks they'll be, but he doesn't steal! He doesn't touch a single
thing that is not his, only melons, or chicken out of the skillet,
or bread from the cellar; but not money and things. I take gizzards
and bread myself, but I don't steal, and Leon or none of us do!
Oh father, we don't! Not one of us do! Don't you remember about
`Thou shalt not,' and the Crusaders? Leon's the best fighter of
any of us. I'm not sure that he couldn't even whip Laddie, if
he got mad enough! Maybe he can't whip the traveller if he has
the gun, but, father, Leon simply couldn't take the money. Laddie
will stay home and work, and all of us. We can help get it back.
We can sell a lot of things. Laddie will sell Flos before he'll
see you suffer so; and all of us will give up Christmas, and we'll
work! We'll work as hard as ever we can, and maybe you could spare
the little piece Joe Risdell wants to build his cabin on. We can
manage about the money, father, indeed we can. But you don't dare
think Leon took it! He never did! Why, he's yours! Yours and mother's!"
Father lifted his head and reached out his arms.
"You blessing!" he said. "You blessing from the
Lord!"
Then he gave me a cold, stiff kiss on the forehead, went to mother,
took her arm, and said: "Come, mommy, let's go and tell the
Lord about it, and then we'll try to make some plan. Perhaps Laddie
will be back with word soon."
But he almost had to carry her. Then we could hear him praying,
and he was so anxious, and he made it so earnest it sounded exactly
like the Lord was in our room and father was talking right to
His face. I tried to think, and this is what I thought: as father
left the room, he looked exactly as I had seen Mr. Pryor more
than once, and my mother had both hands gripped over her heart,
and she said we must not let any one know. Now if something could
happen to us to make my father look like the Princess' and my
mother hold her heart with both hands, and if no one were to know
about it like they had said, how were we any different from Pryors?
We might be of the Lord's anointed, but we could get into the
same kind of trouble the infidels could, and have secrets ourselves,
or at least it seemed as if it might be very nearly the same,
when it made father and mother look and act the way they did.
I wondered if we'd have to leave our lovely, lovely home, cross
a sea and be strangers in a strange land, as Laddie said; and
if people would talk about us, and make us feel that being a stranger
was the loneliest, hardest thing in all the world. Well, if mysteries
are like this, and we have to live with one days and years, the
Lord have mercy on us! Then I saw the money lying on the table,
so I took it and put it in the Bible. Then I went out and climbed
the catalpa tree to watch for Laddie.
Soon I saw a funny thing, such as I never before had seen. Coming
across the fields, straight toward our house, sailing over the
fences like a bird, came the Princess on one of her horses. Its
legs stretched out so far its body almost touched the ground,
and it lifted up and swept over the rails. She took our meadow
fence lengthwiselike, and at the hitching rack she threw the bridle
over the post, dismounted, and then I saw she had been riding
astride, like a man. I ran before her and opened the sitting-room
door, but no one was there, so I went on to the dining-room. Father
had come in, and mother was sitting in her chair. Both of them
looked at the Princess and never said a word.
She stopped inside the dining-room door and spoke breathlessly,
as if she as well as the horse had raced.
"I hope I'm not intruding," she said, "but a man
north of us told our Thomas in the village that robbers had taken
quite a large sum of hidden money you held for the county, and
church, and of your own, and your gun, and got away while you
were at church last night. Is it true?"
"Practically," said my father.
Then my mother motioned toward a chair.
"You are kind to come," she said. "Won't you be
seated?"
The Princess stepped to the chair, but she gripped the back in
both hands and stood straight, breathing fast, her eyes shining
with excitement, her lips and cheeks red, so lovely you just had
to look, and look.
"No," she said. "I'll tell you why I came, and
then if there is nothing I can do here, and no errand I can ride
for you, I'll go.
Mother has heart trouble, the worst in all the world, the kind
no doctor can ever hope to cure, and sometimes, mostly at night,
she is driven to have outside air. Last night she was unusually
ill, and I heard her leave the house, after I'd gone to my room.
I watched from my window and saw her take a seat on a bench under
the nearest tree. I was moving around and often I looked to see
if she were still there. Then the dogs began to rave, and I hurried
down. They used to run free, but lately, on account of her going
out, father has been forced to tie them at night. They were straining
at their chains, and barking dreadfully. I met her at the door,
but she would only say some one passed and gave her a fright.
When Thomas came in and told what he had heard, she said instantly
that she had seen the man.
"She said he was about the size of Thomas, that he came from
your direction, that he ran when our dogs barked, but he kept
beside the fences, and climbed over where there were trees. He
crossed our barnyard and went toward the northwest. Mother saw
him distinctly as he reached the road, and she said he was not
a large man, he stooped when he ran, and she thought he moved
like a slinking, city thief. She is sure he's the man who took
your money; she says he acted exactly as if he were trying to
escape pursuit; but I was to be SURE to tell you that he didn't
carry a gun. If your gun is gone, there must have been two, and
the other man took that and went a different way. Did two men
stop here?"
"No," said father. "Only one."
The Princess looked at him thoughtfully.
"Do you think, Mr. Stanton," she said, "that the
man who took the money would burden himself with a gun? Isn't
a rifle heavy for one in flight to carry?"
"It is," said father. "Your mother saw nothing
of two men?"
"Only one, and she knows he didn't carry a gun. Except the
man you took in, no stranger has been noticed around here lately?"
"No one. We are quite careful. Even the gun was not loaded
as it stood; whoever took it carried the ammunition also, but
he couldn't fire until he loaded."
Father turned to the corner where the gun always stood and then
he stooped and picked up two little white squares from the floor.
They were bits of unbleached muslin in which he wrapped the bullets
he made.
"The rifle was loaded before starting, and in a hurry,"
he said, as he held up the squares of muslin. Then he scratched
a match, bent, and ran it back and forth over the floor, and at
one place there was a flash, and the flame went around in funny
little fizzes as it caught a grain of powder here and there. "You
see the measure was overrun."
"Wouldn't the man naturally think the gun was loaded, and
take it as it stood?"
"That would be a reasonable conclusion," said father.
"But he looked!" I cried. "That first night when
you and the boys went to the barn, and the girls were getting
supper, he looked at the gun, and he LIKED it when he saw it wasn't
loaded. He smiled. And he didn't limp a mite when I was the only
one in the room. He and Leon knew it wasn't loaded, and I guess
he didn't load it, for he liked having it empty so well."
"Ummmm!" said father. "What it would save in this
world if a child only knew when to talk and when to keep still.
Little Sister, the next time you see a stranger examine my gun
when I'm not in the room, suppose you take father out alone and
whisper to him about it."
"Yes, sir," I said.
The way I wished I had told that at the right time made me dizzy,
but then there were several good switchings I'd had for telling
things, besides what Sally did to me about her and Peter. I would
have enjoyed knowing how one could be sure. Hereafter, it will
be all right about the gun, anyway.
"Could I take my horse and carry a message anywhere for you?
Are both your sons riding to tell the neighbours?"
Father hesitated, but it seemed as if he stopped to think, so
I just told her: "Laddie is riding. Leon didn't take a horse."
Father said there was nothing she could do, so she took my hand
and we started for the gate.
"I do hope they will find him, and get back the money, and
give him what he deserves!" she cried.
"Yes, father and mother are praying that they'll find him,"
I said. "It doesn't seem to make the least difference to
them about the money. Father didn't even look at a big paper piece
I found where it was hidden. But they are anxious about the man.
Mother says he is so young, we just must find him, and keep this
a secret, and give him another chance. You won't tell, will you?"
The Princess stood still on our walk, and then of all things!
if she didn't begin to go Sabethany-like. The colour left her
cheeks and lips and she shivered and shook and never said one
word. I caught her arm. "Say, what ails you?" I cried.
"You haven't gone and got heart trouble too, have you?"
She stood there trembling, and then, wheeling suddenly, ran back
into the house, and went to my mother. On her knees, the Princess
buried her face in mother's breast and said: "Oh Mrs. Stanton!
Oh, if I only could help you!"
She began to cry as if something inside her had broken, and she'd
shake to pieces.
Mother stared above her head at father, with her eyebrows raised
high, and he waved his hand toward me. Mother turned to me, but
already she had put her arms around the Princess, and was trying
to hold her together.
"What did you tell her that made her come back?" she
asked sternlike.
"You forgot to explain that the man was so young, and you
wanted to keep it a secret and give him another chance,"
I said. "I just asked her not to tell."
Mother looked at father and all the colour went from her face,
and she began to shake. He stared at her, then he opened her door
and lifted the Princess with one arm, and mother with the other,
and helped them into mother's room, stepped back and closed the
door. After a while it opened and they came out together, with
both mother's arms around the Princess, and she had cried until
she staggered. Mother lifted her face and kissed her, when they
reached the door and said: "Tell your mother I understand
enough to sympathize. Carry her my love. I do wish she would give
herself the comfort of asking God to help her."
"She does! Oh, I'm sure she does!" said the Princess.
"It's father who has lost all judgment and reason."
Father went with her to the gate, and this time she needed help
to mount her horse, and she left it to choose its way and go where
it pleased on the road. When father came in he looked at mother,
and she said: "I haven't the details, but she understands
too well. The Pryor mystery isn't much of a mystery any more.
God help their poor souls, and save us from suffering like that!"
She said so little and meant so much, I couldn't figure out exactly
what she did mean, but father seemed to understand.
"I've often wondered," he said, but he didn't say what
he wondered, and he hurried to the barn and saddled our best horse
and came in and began getting ready to ride, and we knew he would
go northwest. I went back to the catalpa tree and wondered myself;
but it was too much for me to straighten out: just why my mother
wanting to give the traveller man another chance would make the
Princess feel like that. If she had known my mother as I did,
she'd have known that she ALWAYS wanted to give every man a second
chance, no matter whether he was young or old.
Then I saw Laddie coming down the Big Hill beside the church,
but he was riding so fast I thought he wouldn't want to bother
with me, so I slid from the tree, and ran to tell mother. She
went to the door and watched as he rode up, but you could see
by his face he had not heard of them.
"Nothing, but I have some men out. I am going east now,"
he said. "I wish, father, you would rub Flos down, blanket
her, and if you can, walk her slowly an hour while she cools off.
I am afraid I've ruined her. How much had you there?"
"I haven't stopped to figure," said father. "I
think I'd better take the horse I have ready and go on one of
the northwest roads.
The Pryor girl was here a few moments ago, and her mother saw
a man cross their place about the right time last evening. He
ran and acted suspiciously when the dogs barked. But he was alone
and he didn't have a gun."
"Was she sure?"
"Positive."
"Then it couldn't have been our man, but I'll ride in that
direction and start a search. They would keep to the woods, I
think! You'd better stay with mother. I'll ask Jacob Hood to take
your place."
So Laddie rode away again without even going into the house, and
mother said to father: "What can he be saying to people,
that the neighbours don't come?"
Father answered: "I don't know, but if any one can save the
situation, Laddie will."
Mother went to bed, while father sat beside her reading aloud
little scraps from the Bible, and they took turns praying. From
the way they talked to the Lord, you could plainly see that they
were reminding Him of all the promises He had made to take care
of people, comfort those in trouble, and heal the broken-hearted.
One thing was so curious, I asked May if she noticed, and she
had. When they had made such a fuss about money only a short while
before, and worked so hard to get our share together, and when
they would have to pay back all that belonged to the county and
church, neither of them ever even mentioned money then. Every
minute I expected father to ask where I'd put the piece I found,
and when he opened right at it, in the Bible, he turned on past,
exactly as if it were an obituary, or a piece of Sally's wedding
dress, or baby hair from some of our heads. He went on hunting
places where the Lord said sure and strong that He'd help people
who loved Him. When either of them prayed, they asked the Lord
to help those near them who were in trouble, as often and earnestly
as they begged Him to help them. There were no people near us
who were in trouble that we knew of, excepting Pryors. Hard as
father and mother worked, you'd have thought the Lord wouldn't
have minded if they asked only once to get the money back, or
if they forgot the neighbours, but they did neither one.
May said because they were big like that was why all of us loved
them so.
I would almost freeze in the catalpa, but as I could see far in
all directions there, I went back, and watched the roads, and
when I remembered what Laddie had said, I kept an eye on the fields
too. At almost dusk, and frozen so stiff I could scarcely hang
to the limb, I heard the bulldogs at Pryors' begin to rave. They
kept on steadily, and I thought Gypsies must be passing. Then
from the woods came a queer party that started across the cornfield
toward the Big Meadow in front of the house, and I thought they
were hunters. I stood in the tree and watched until they climbed
the meadow fence, and by that time I could see plainly.
The traveller man got over first, then Leon and the dogs, and
then Mr. Pryor handed Leon the gun, leaped over, and took it.
I looked again, and then fell from the tree and almost bursted.
As soon as I could get up, and breathe, I ran to the front door,
screaming: "Father! Father! Come open the Big Gate. Leon's
got him, but he's so tired Mr. Pryor is carrying the gun, and
helping him walk!"
Just like one, all of us ran; father crossed the road, and opened
the gate. The traveller man wouldn't look up, he just slouched
along. But Leon's chin was up and his head high. He was scratched,
torn, and dirty. He was wheezing every breath most from his knees,
and Mr. Pryor half carried him and the gun. When they met us,
Leon reached in his trousers pocket and drew out a big roll of
money that he held toward father. "My fault!" he gasped.
"But I got it back for you."
Then he fell over and father caught him in his arms and carried
him into the house, and laid him on the couch in the dining-room.
Mr. Pryor got down and gathered up the money from the road. He
followed into the house and set the gun in the corner.
"Don't be frightened," he said to mother. "The
boy has walked all night, and all day, with no sleep or food,
and the gun was a heavy load for him. I gathered from what he
said, when the dogs let us know they were coming, that this hound
took your money. Your dog barked and awakened the boy and he loaded
the gun and followed. The fellow had a good start and he didn't
get him until near daybreak. It's been a stiff pull for the youngster
and he seems to feel it was his fault that this cowardly cur you
sheltered learned where you kept your money. If that is true,
I hope you won't be hard on him!"
Father was unfastening Leon's neckband, mother was rubbing his
hands, Candace was taking off his shoes, and May was spilling
water father had called for, all over the carpet, she shook so.
When Leon drew a deep breath and his head rolled on the pillow,
father looked at Mr. Pryor. I don't think he heard all of it,
but he caught the last words.
"`Hard on him! Hard on him!'" he said, the tears rolling
down his cheeks. "`This my son, who was lost, is found!'"
"Oh!" shouted Mr. Pryor, slamming the money on the table.
"Poor drivel to fit the circumstances. If I stood in your
boots, sir, I would rise up in the mighty strength of my pride
and pull out foundation stones until I shook the nation! I never
envied mortal man as I envy you to-day!"
Candace cried out: "Oh look, his poor feet! They are blistered
and bleeding!"
Mother moved down a little, gathered them in her arms, and began
kissing them. Father wet Leon's lips and arose. He held out his
hand, and Mr. Pryor took it.
"I will pray God," he said, "that it may happen
`even so' to you."
Leon opened his eyes and caught only the last words.
"You had better look out for the `Even So's,' father,"
he said.
And father had to laugh, but Mr. Pryor went out, and slammed the
door, until I looked to see if it had cracked from top to bottom;
but we didn't care if it had, we were so happy over having Leon
back.
I went and picked up the money and carried it to father to put
away, and that time he took it. But even then he didn't stop to
see if he had all of it.
"You see!" I said, "I told you----"
"You did indeed!" said father. "And you almost
saved our reason. There are times when things we have come to
feel we can't live without, so press us, that money seems of the
greatest importance. This is our lesson. Hereafter, I and all
my family, who have been through this, will know that money is
not even worth thinking about when the life and honour of one
you love hangs in the balance. When he can understand, your brother
shall know of the wondrous faith his Little Sister had in him."
"Maybe he won't like what you and mother thought. Maybe we
better not tell him. I can keep secrets real well. I have several
big ones I've never told, and I didn't say a word about the Station
when Leon said I shouldn't."
"After this there will be no money kept on the place,"
said father. "It's saving time at too great cost. All we
have goes into the bank, and some of us will cheerfully ride for
what we want, when we need it. As for not telling Leon, that is
as your mother decides. For myself, I believe I'd feel better
to make a clean breast of it."
Mother heard, for she sobbed as she bathed Leon's feet, and when
his eyes came open so they'd stay a little while, he kept looking
at her so funny, between sips of hot milk.
"Don't CRY, mammy!" he said. "I'M all right. Sorry
such a rumpus! Let him fool me. Be smart as the next fellow, after
this! Know how glad you are to get the money!"
Mother sat back on her heels and roared as I do when I step in
a bumblebee's nest, and they get me. Leon was growing better every
minute, and he stared at her, and then his dealish, funny old
grin began to twist his lips and he cried: "Oh golly! You
thought _I_ helped take it and went with him, didn't you?"
"Oh my son, my son!" wailed mother until she made me
think of Absalom under the oak.
"Well, I be ding-busted!" said Leon, sort of slow and
wondering- like, and father never opened his head to tell him
that was no way to talk.
Mother cried more than ever, and between sobs she tried to explain
that I heard what the traveller man had said about how bad it
was to live in the country; and how Leon was now at an age where
she'd known boys to get wrong ideas, and how things looked, and
in the middle of it he raised on his elbow and took her in his
arms and said: "Well of all the geese! And I 'spose father
was in it too! But since it's the first time, and since it is
you----! Go to bed now, and let me sleep----But see that you don't
ever let this happen again."
Then he kissed her over and over and clung to her tight and at
last dropped back and groaned:
"My reputation, O my reputation!
I've lost my reputation!"
She had to laugh while the tears were still running, and father
and Laddie looked at each other and shouted. I guess they thought
Leon was about right after that. Laddie went and bent over him
and took his hand.
"Don't be in quite such a hurry, old man," he said.
"Before you wink out I have got to tell you how proud I am
of having a brother who is a real Crusader. The Lord knows this
took nerve! You're great, boy, simply great!"
Leon grabbed Laddie's hand with both of his and held tight and
laughed. You could see the big tears squeeze out, although he
fought to wink them back. He held to Laddie and said low-like,
only for him to hear: "It's all right if you stay by a while,
old man."
He began to talk slowly.
"It was a long time before I caught up, and then I had to
hide, and follow until day, and he wasn't so very easy to handle.
Once I thought he had me sure! It was an awful load, but if it
hadn't been for the good old gun, I'd never have got him. When
we mixed up, I had fine luck getting that chin punch on him; good
thing I worked it out so slick on Absalom Saunders, and while
old Even So was groggy I got the money away from him, took the
gun, and stood back some distance, before he came out of it. Once
we had it settled who walked ahead, and who carried the money
and gun, we got along better, but I had to keep an eye on him
every minute. To come through the woods was the shortest, but
I'm tired out, and so is he. Getting close I most felt sorry for
him, he was so forlorn, and so scared about what would be done
to him. He stopped and pulled out another roll, and offered me
all of it, if I'd let him go. I didn't know whether it was really
his, or part of father's, so I told him he could just drop it
until I found out. Made him sweat blood, but I had the gun, and
he had to mind. I was master then. So there may be more in the
roll I gave father than Even So took. Father can figure up and
keep what belongs to him. Even So had gone away past Flannigans'
before I tackled him, and I was sleepy, cold, and hungry; you'd
have thought there'd have been a man out hunting, or passing on
the road, but not a soul did we see 'til Pryors'! Say, the old
man was bully! He helped me so, I almost thought I belonged to
him! My! he's fine, when you know him! After he came on the job,
you bet old Even So walked up. Say, where is he? Have you fed
him?"
Laddie looked at father, who was listening, and we all rushed
to the door, but it must have been an hour, and Even So hadn't
waited. Father said it was a great pity, because a man like that
shouldn't be left to prey on the community; but mother said she
didn't want to be mixed up with a trial, or to be responsible
for taking the liberty of a fellow creature, and father said that
was exactly like a woman. Leon went to sleep, but none of us thought
of going to bed; we just stood around and looked at him, and smiled
over him, and cried about him, until you would have thought he
had been shipped to us in a glass case, and cost, maybe, a hundred
dollars.
Father got out his books and figured up his own and the road money,
and Miss Amelia's, and the church's. Laddie didn't want her around,
so he stopped at the schoolhouse and told her to stay at Justices'
that night, we'd need all our rooms; but she didn't like being
sent away when there was such excitement, but every one minded
Laddie when he said so for sure.
When father had everything counted there was more than his, quite
a lot of it, stolen from other people who sheltered the traveller
no doubt, father said. We thought he wouldn't be likely to come
back for it, and father said he was at loss what to do with it,
but Laddie said he wasn't--it was Leon's--he had earned it; so
father said he would try to find out if anything else had been
stolen, and he'd keep it a year, and then if no one claimed it,
he would put it on interest until Leon decided what he wanted
to do with it.
When you watched Leon sleep you could tell a lot more about what
had happened to him than he could. He moaned, and muttered constantly,
and panted, and felt around for the gun, and breathed like he
was running again, and fought until Laddie had to hold him on
the couch, and finally awakened him. But it did no good; he went
right off to sleep again, and it happened all over. Then father
began getting his Crusader blood up, although he always said he
was a man of peace. But it was a lucky thing Even So got away;
for after father had watched Leon a while, he said if that man
had been on the premises, his fingers itched so to get at him,
he was positive he'd have vented a little righteous indignation
on him that would have cost him within an inch of his life. And
he'd have done it too! He was like that. It took a lot, and it
was slow coming, but when he became angry enough, and felt justified
in it, why you'd be much safer to be some one else than the man
who provoked him.
After ten o'clock the dog barked, some one tapped, and father
went; he always would open the door; you couldn't make him pretend
he was asleep, or not at home when he was, and there stood Mr.
Pryor. He said they could see the lights and they were afraid
the boy was ill, and could any of them help. Father said there
was nothing they could do; Leon was asleep. Then Mr. Pryor said:
"If he is off sound, so it won't disturb him, I would like
to see him again."
Father told him Leon was restless, but so exhausted a railroad
train wouldn't waken him, so Mr. Pryor came in and went to the
couch. He took off his hat, like you do beside a grave, while
his face slowly grew whiter than his hair, and that would be snow-white;
then he turned at last and stumbled toward the door. Laddie held
it for him, but he didn't seem to remember he was there. He muttered
over and over: "Why? Why? In the name of God, why?"
Laddie followed to the gate to help him on his horse, because
he thought he was almost out of his head, but he had walked across
the fields, so Laddie kept far behind and watched until he saw
him go safely inside his own door.
I think father and Laddie sat beside Leon all night. The others
went to sleep. A little after daybreak, just as Laddie was starting
to feed, there was an awful clamour, and here came a lot of neighbours
with Even So. Mr. Freshett had found him asleep in a cattle hole
in the straw stack, and searched him, and he had more money, and
that made Mr. Freshett sure; and as he was very strong, and had
been for years a soldier, and really loved to fight, he marched
poor Even So back to our house. Every few rods they met more men
out searching who came with them, until there were so many, our
front yard and the road were crowded. Of all the sights you ever
saw, Even So looked the worst. You could see that he'd drop over
at much more. Those men kept crying they were going to hang him;
but mother went out and talked to them, and said they mustn't
kill a man for taking only money. She told them how little it
was worth compared with other things; she had Candace bring Even
So a cup of hot coffee, lots of bread, and sausage from the skillet,
and she said it was our money, and our lad, and we wanted nothing
done about it. The men didn't like it, but the traveller did.
He grabbed and gobbled like a beast at the hot food and cried,
and mother said she forgave him, and to let him go.
Then Mr. Freshett looked awful disappointed, and he came up to
father, with his back toward mother, and asked: "That's your
say too, Mr. Stanton?" Father grinned sort of rueful-like,
but he said to give Even So his money and let him go. He told
all about getting ours back, and having had him at the house once
before. He brought the money Leon took from him, but the men said
no doubt he had stolen that, and Leon had earned it bringing him
back, so the traveller shouldn't have it. They took him away on
a horse and said they'd let him go, but that they'd escort him
from the county. Father told Mr. Freshett that he was a little
suspicious of them, and he would hold him responsible for the
man's life. Mr. Freshett said that he'd give his word that the
man would be safe; they only wanted to make sure he wouldn't come
back, and that he'd be careful in the future how he abused hospitality,
so they went, and all of us were glad of it.
I don't know what Mr. Freshett calls safe, for they took Even
So to Groveville and locked him up until night. Then they led
him to the railroad, and made him crawl back and forth through
an old engine beside the track, until he was blacker than any
negro ever born; and then they had him swallow a big dose of croton
oil for his health. That was the only KIND thing they did, for
afterward they started him down the track and told him to run,
and all of them shot at his feet as he went. Hannah Freshett told
me at school the next day. Her father said Even So just howled,
and flew up in the air, and ducked, and dodged and ran like he'd
never walked a step, or was a bit tired. We made a game of it,
and after that one of the boys was Even So, and the others were
the mob, and the one who could howl nicest, jump highest, and
go fastest, could be "It" oftenest.
Leon grew all right faster than you would think. He went to school
day after next, and the boys were sick with envy. They asked and
asked, but Leon wouldn't tell much. He didn't seem to like to
talk about it, and he wouldn't play the game or even watch us.
He talked a blue streak about the money. Father was going to write
to every sheriff of the counties along the way the man said he
had come, and if he could find no one before spring who had been
robbed, he said Leon might do what he liked with the money. I
used to pretend it was coming to me, and each day I thought of
a new way to spend it. Leon was so sure he'd get it he marched
right over and asked Mr. Pryor about a nice young thoroughbred
horse, from his stables, and when he came back he could get a
coltlike one so very cheap that father and Laddie looked at each
other and gasped, and never said a word. They figured up, and
if Leon got the money, he could have the horse, and save some
for college, and from the start he never changed a mite about
those two things he wanted to do with it. He had the horse picked
out and went to the field to feed and pet it and make it gentle,
so he could ride bareback, and mother said he would be almost
sick if the owner of the money turned up.
Pulling his boots one night, father said so too, and that the
thoughts of it worried him. He said Mr. Pryor had shaded his price
so that if the money had to go, he would be tempted to see if
we couldn't manage it ourselves. I don't know how shading the
price of a horse would make her feel better, but it did, and maybe
Leon is going to get it.
CHAPTER X
Laddie Takes the Plunge
"This is the state of man: to-day he puts forth
The tender leaves of hopes; to-morrow blossoms,
And bears his blushing honors thick upon him;
The third day comes a frost, a killing frost,
And, when he thinks, good, easy man, full surely
His greatness is a-ripening, nips his root,
And then he falls, as I do."
Watch me take the plunge!" said Laddie.
"`Mad frenzy fires him now,'" quoted Leon.
It was Sunday after dinner. We had been to church and Sunday-
school in the forenoon, and we had a houseful of company for dinner.
All of them remained to spend the afternoon, because in our home
it was perfectly lovely. We had a big dinner with everything good
to start on, and then we talked and visited and told all the news.
The women exchanged new recipes for cooking, advised each other
about how to get more work done with less worry, to doctor their
sick folks, and to make their dresses. At last, when every thing
was talked over, and there began to be a quiet time, father would
reach across the table, pick up a paper and read all the interesting
things that had happened in the country during the past week;
the jokes too, and they made people think of funny stories to
tell, and we just laughed. In the Agriculturist there were new
ways to farm easier, to make land bear more crops; so he divided
that with the neighbours, also how to make gardens, and prune
trees. Before he finished, he always managed to work in a lot
about being honest, kind, and loving God.
He and mother felt so good over Leon, and by this time they were
beginning to see that they were mighty glad about the money too.
It wouldn't have been so easy to work, and earn, and pay back
all that for our school, roads, and the church; and every day
you could see plainer how happy they felt that they didn't have
to do it. Because they were so glad about these things, they invited
every one they met that day; but we knew Saturday mother felt
that probably she would ask a crowd, from the chickens, pie, and
cake she got ready. When the reading part was over, and the women
were beginning to look at the clock, and you knew they felt they
should go home, and didn't want to, Laddie arose and said that,
and Leon piped up like he always does and made every one laugh.
Of course they looked at Laddie, and no one knew what he meant,
so all the women and a few of the men asked him.
"Watch me, I said," laughed Laddie as he left the room.
Soon Mrs. Dover, sitting beside the front window, cried: "Here
he is at the gate!"
He was on his horse, but he hitched it and went around the house
and up the back way. Before long the stair door of the sitting-
room opened, and there he stood. We stared at him. Of course he
was bathed, and in clean clothing to start with, but he had washed
and brushed some more, until he shone. His cheeks were as smooth
and as clear pink as any girl's, his eyes blue-gray and big, with
long lashes and heavy brows. His hair was bright brown and wavy,
and he was so big and broad. He never had been sick a day in his
life, and he didn't look as if he ever would be.
And clothes DO make a difference. He would have had exactly the
same hair, face, and body, wearing a hickory shirt and denim trousers;
but he wouldn't have looked as he did in the clothes he wore at
college, when it was Sunday there, or he was invited to a party
at the President's. I don't see how any man could possibly be
handsomer or look finer. His shirt, collar, and cuffs were snow-white,
like everything had to be before mother got through with it; his
big loose tie almost reached his shoulders; and our men could
do a thing no other man in the neighbourhood did: they could appear
easier in the finest suit they could put on than in their working
clothes.
Mother used to say one thing she dreaded about Sunday was the
evident tortures of the poor men squirming in boots she knew pinched
them, coats too tight, and collars too high. She said they acted
like half-broken colts fretting over restriction. Always she said
to father and the boys when they went to buy their new clothes:
"Now, DON'T join the harness fighters! Get your clothing
big enough to set your bodies with comfort and ease."
I suppose those other men would have looked like ours if their
mothers had told them. You can always see that a man needs a woman
to help him out awful bad.
Of course Laddie knew he was handsome; he had to know all of them
were looking at him curiously, but he stood there buttoning his
glove and laughing to himself until Sarah Hood asked: "Now
what are you up to?"
He took a step toward her, ran one hand under her lanternjawed
chin, pulled her head against his side and turned up her face.
"Sarah," he said, "'member the day we spoiled the
washing?"
Every one laughed. They had made jokes about it until our friends
knew what they meant.
"What are you going to spoil now?" asked Sarah.
"The Egyptians! The `furriners.' I'm going right after them!"
"Well, you could be in better business," said Sarah
Hood sharply.
Laddie laughed and squeezed her chin, and hugged her head against
him.
"Listen to that, now!" he cried. "My best friend
going back on me. Sarah, I thought you, of all people, would wish
me luck."
"I do !" she said instantly. "And that's the very
reason I don't want you mixed up with that mysterious, offish,
stuck-up mess."
"Bless your dear heart!" said Laddie, giving her a harder
squeeze than ever. "You got that all wrong, Sarah. You'll
live to see the day, very shortly, when you'll change every word
of it."
"I haven't done anything but get surer about it every day
for two years, anyway," said Sarah Hood.
"Exactly!" said Laddie, "but wait until I have
taken the plunge! Let me tell you how the Pryor family strikes
me. I think he is a high-tempered, domineering man, proud as Lucifer!
For some cause, just or not, he is ruining his life and that of
his family because he so firmly believes it just; he is hiding
here from his home country, his relatives, and friends. I think
she is, barring you and mother, the handsomest woman of her age
I ever saw----"
All of them laughed, because Sarah Hood was nearly as homely as
a woman could grow, and maybe other people didn't find our mother
so lovely as we thought her. I once heard one of her best friends
say she was "distinctly plain." I didn't see how she
could; but she said that.
"--and the most pitiful," Laddie went on. "Sarah,
what do you suppose sends a frail little woman pacing the yard,
and up and down the road, sometimes in storm and rain, gripping
both hands over her heart?"
"I suppose it's some shameful thing I don't want you mixed
up with!" said Sarah Hood promptly, and people just shouted.
"Sarah," said Laddie, "I've seen her closely, watched
her move, and studied her expression. There's not one grain of
possibility that you, or mother, or Mrs. Fall, or any woman here,
could be any closer connected with SHAME. Shame there is,"
said Laddie, "and what a word! How it stings, burns, withers,
and causes heart trouble and hiding; but shame in connection with
that woman, more than shame thrust upon her, which might come
to any of us, at any time, shame that is her error, in the life
of a woman having a face like hers, Sarah, I am ashamed of you!
Your only excuse is that you haven't persisted as I have until
you got to see for yourself."
"I am not much on persistence in the face of a locked door,
a cast-iron man with a big cane, and two raving bulldogs,"
said Mrs. Hood. "Wait, young man! Just wait until he sets
them on you."
Laddie's head went back and how he laughed.
"Hist! A word with you, Sarah!" he said. "'Member
I have a sort of knack with animals. I never yet have failed with
one I undertook to win. Now those bulldogs of Pryors' are as mild
as kittens with a man who knows the right word. Reason I know,
Sarah, I've said the word to them, separately and collectively,
and it worked. There is a contrast, Sarah, between what I say
and do to those dogs, and the kicks and curses they get from their
owner. I'll wager you two to one that if you can get Mr. Pryor
to go into a `sic-ing' contest with me, I can have his own dogs
at his throat, when he can't make them do more than to lick my
hands."
They laughed as if that were funny.
"Well, I didn't know about this," said Sarah. "How
long have you lived at Pryors'?"
You couldn't have heard what Laddie said if he'd spoken; so he
waited until he could be heard, and it never worried him a speck.
He only stood and laughed too; then, "Long enough,"
he said, "to know that all of us are making a big and cruel
mistake in taking them at their word, and leaving them penned
up there weltering in misery. What we should do, is to go over
there, one at a time, or in a body, and batter at the door of
their hearts, until we break down the wall of pride they have
built around them, ease their pain, and bring them with us socially,
if they are going to live among us. You people who talk loudly
and often about loving God, and `doing unto others,' should have
gone long ago, for Jesus' sake; I'm going for the sake of a girl,
with a face as sweet, and a heart as pure, as any accepted angel
at the foot of the throne. Mother, I want a cup of peach jelly,
and some of that exceptionally fine cake you served at dinner,
to take to our sick neighbour."
Mother left the room.
"Father, I want permission to cut and carry a generous chestnut
branch, burred, and full fruited, to the young woman. There is
none save ours in this part of the country, and she may never
have seen any, and be interested. And I want that article about
foot disease in horses, for Mr. Pryor. I'll bring it back when
he finishes."
Father folded the paper and handed it to Laddie, who slipped it
in his pocket.
"Take the finest branch you can select," father said,
and I almost fell over.
He had carried those trees from Ohio, before I had been born,
and mother said for years he wrapped them in her shawl in winter
and held an umbrella over them in summer, and father always went
red and grinned when she told it. He was wild about trees, and
bushes, so he made up his mind he'd have chestnuts. He planted
them one place, and if they didn't like it, he dug them up and
set them another where he thought they could have what they needed
and hadn't got the last place. Finally, he put them, on the fourth
move, on a little sandy ridge across the road from the wood yard,
and that was the spot. They shot up, branched, spread, and one
was a male and two were females, so the pollen flew, the burrs
filled right, and we had a bag of chestnuts to send each child
away from home, every Christmas. The brown leaves and burrs were
so lovely, mother cut one of the finest branches she could select
and hung it above the steel engraving of "Lincoln Freeing
the Slaves," in the boys' room, and nothing in the house
was looked at oftener, or thought prettier. That must have been
what was in the back of Laddie's head when he wanted a branch
for the Princess.
Mother came in with the cake and jelly in a little fancy basket,
and Laddie said: "Thank you! Now every one wish me luck!
I'm going to ride to Pryors', knock at the door, and present these
offerings with my compliments. If I'm invited in, I'm going to
make the effort of my life at driving the entering wedge toward
social intercourse between Pryors and their neighbours. If I'm
not, I'll be back in thirty minutes and tell you what happened
to me. If they refuse my gifts, you shall have the jelly, Sarah;
I'll give Mrs. Fall the olive branch, bring back the paper, and
eat the cake to console my wounded spirits."
Of course every one laughed; they couldn't help it. I watched
father and he laughed hardest of the men, but mother was more
stiff-lipped about it; she couldn't help a little, though. And
I noticed some of those women acted as if they had lost something.
Maybe it was a chance to gossip about Laddie, for he hadn't left
them a thing to guess at, and mother says the reason gossip is
so dreadful is because it is always GUESSWORK. Well, that was
all fair and plain. He had told those people, our very best friends,
what he thought about everything, the way they acted included.
He was carrying something to each member of the Pryor family,
and he'd left a way to return joking and unashamed, if they wouldn't
let him in. He had fixed things so no one had anything to guess
at, and it would look much worse for the Pryors than it would
for him, if he did come back.
I wondered if he had been born that smart, or if he learned it
in college. If he did, no wonder Leon was bound to go. Come to
think of it, though, mother said Laddie was always like that.
She said he never bit her when he nursed; he never mauled her
as if she couldn't be hurt when he was little, he never tore his
clothes and made extra work as he grew, and never in his life
gave her an hour's uneasiness. But I guess she couldn't have said
that about uneasiness lately, for she couldn't keep from looking
troubled as all of us followed to the gate to see him start.
How they joked, and tried to tease him! But they couldn't get
a breath ahead. He shot back answers as fast as they could ask
questions, while he cut the branch and untied the horse. He gave
the limb and basket to mother to hold, kissed her good-bye, and
me too, before he mounted. With my arms around his neck--I never
missed a chance to try to squeeze into him how I loved him--I
whispered: "Laddie, is it a secret any more?"
He threw back his head and laughed the happiest.
"Not the ghost of a secret!" he said. "But you
let me do the talking, until I tell you." Then he went on
right out loud: "I'm riding up the road waving the banner
of peace. If I suffer repulse, the same thing has happened to
better men before, so I'll get a different banner and try again."
Laddie mounted, swept a circle in the road, dropped Flos on her
knees in a bow, and waved the branch. Leon began to sing at the
top of his voice, "Nothing but leaves, nothing but leaves,"
while Laddie went flashing up the road.
The women went back to the house; the men stood around the gate,
watched him from sight, talked about his horse, how he rode, and
made wagers that he'd get shut out, like every one did, but they
said if that happened he wouldn't come back. Father was annoyed.
"You heard Laddie say he'd return immediately if they wouldn't
let him in," he said. "He's a man of his word. He will
either enter or come home at once."
It was pitch dark and we had supper before some of them left;
they never stayed so late. After we came from church, father read
the chapter and we were ready for bed; still Laddie hadn't come
back. And father liked it! He just plain liked it! He chuckled
behind the Advocate until you could see it shake; but mother had
very little to say, and her lips closed tight.
At bedtime he said to mother: "Well, they don't seem in a
hurry about sending the boy back."
"Did you really think he WOULD be sent back?" asked
mother.
"Not ordinarily," said father, "no! If he had no
brain, no wit, no culture, on an animal basis, a woman would look
twice before she'd send him away; but with such fanatics as Pryors,
one can't always tell what will happen."
"In a case like this, one can be reasonably certain,"
said mother.
"You don't know what social position they occupied at home.
Their earmarks are all good. We've no such notions here as they
have."
"Thank God for so much, at any rate," said mother. "How
old England would rise up and exult if she had a man in line with
Laddie's body, blood and brain, to set on her throne. This talk
about class and social position makes me sick. Men are men, and
Laddie is as much above the customary timber found in kings and
princes, physically and mentally, as the sky is above the earth.
Talk me no talk about class! If I catch it coming from any of
mine, save you, I will beat it out of them. He has admitted he's
in love with the girl; the real question is, whether she's fit
to be his wife."
"I should say she appears so," said father.
"Drat appearances!" cried mother. "When it's a
question of lifetime misery, and the soul's salvation of my son,
if things go wrong, I've no time for appearances. I want to know!"
He might have known he would make her angry when he laughed. She
punched the pillow, and wouldn't say another word; so I went to
sleep, and didn't miss anything that time.
Next morning at breakfast Laddie was beaming, and father hardly
waited to ask the blessing before he inquired: "Well, how
did you make it, son?"
Laddie laughed and answered: "Altogether, it might have been
much worse."
That was all he would say until Miss Amelia started to school,
then he took me on his lap and talked as he buttoned my coat.
"Thomas met me at the gate," he said, "and held
my horse while I went to the door. One of their women opened it,
and I inquired for Mr. Pryor. She said he was in the field looking
at the horses, so I asked for Miss Pryor. She came in a minute,
so I gave her the branch, told her about it, and offered the jelly
and cake for her mother. The Princess invited me to enter. I told
her I couldn't without her father's permission, so I went to the
field to see him. The dogs were with him and he had the surprise
of his life when his man-eaters rolled at my feet, and licked
my hands."
"What did he say?" chuckled father.
"Told Thomas they'd been overfed and didn't amount to a brass
farthing; to take them to the woods and shoot them. Thomas said
he'd see to it the very first thing in the morning, and then Mr.
Pryor told him he would shoot him if he did."
"Charming man to work for," said mother.
"Then I told him I'd been at the house to carry a little
gift to his wife and daughter, and to inquire if I might visit
an hour, and as he was not there, I had come to the field to ask
him. Then I looked him in the eye and said: `May I?'
"`I'll warrant the women asked you to come in,' he said.
"`Miss Pryor was so kind,' I answered, `but I enter no man's
house without his permission. May I talk with your daughter an
hour, and your wife, if she cares to see me?'
"`It makes no earthly difference to me,' he said, which was
not gracious, but might have been worse, so I thanked him, and
went back to the house. When I knocked the second time, the Princess
came, and I told her the word was that it made `no difference
to her father' if I came in, so she opened the door widely, took
my hat and offered me a seat. Then she went to the next room and
said: `Mother, father has given Mr. Stanton permission to pay
us a call. Do you feel able to meet him?' She came at once, offering
her hand and saying: `I have already met Mr. Stanton so often,
really, we should have the privilege of speaking.'"
"What did she mean by that?" asked mother.
"She meant that I have haunted the road passing their place
for two years, and she'd seen me so frequently that she came to
recognize me."
"Umph!" said mother.
"Laddie tell on!" I begged.
"Well, I sharpened all the wits I had and went to work. I
never tried so hard in my life to be entertaining. Of course I
had to feel my way. I'd no idea what would interest a delicate,
high- bred lady"--mother sniffed again--"so I had to
search and probe, and go by guess until I saw a shade of interest,
then I worked in more of the same. It was easy enough to talk
to the Princess-- all young folks have a lot in common, we could
get along on fifty topics; it was different with the housebound
mother. I did my best, and after a while Mr. Pryor came in. I
asked him if any of his horses had been attacked with the trouble
some of the neighbours were having, and told him what it was.
He had the grace to thank me. He said he would tell Thomas not
to tie his horse at the public hitching rack when he went to town,
and once he got started, he was wild to talk with a man, and I'd
no chance to say a word to the women. He was interested in our
colleges, state, and national laws, in land development, and everything
that all live men are. When a maid announced dinner I apologized
for having stayed so long, and excused myself, because I had been
so interested, but Mrs. Pryor merely said: `I'm waiting to be
offered your arm.'
"Well, you should have seen me drop my hat and step up. I
did my best, and while I talked to him a little, I made it most
to the women. Any one could see they were starved for company,
so I took the job of entertaining them. I told some college jokes,
funny things that had happened in the neighbourhood, and everything
of interest I could think up. I know we were at the table for
two hours with things coming and going on silver platters."
Mother sat straight suddenly.
"Just what did they have to eat, and how did they serve it?"
she asked.
"Couldn't tell if I were to be shot for it, mummy,"
said Laddie. "Forgive me! Next time I'll take notes for you.
This first plunge, I had to use all my brains, not to be a bore
to them; and to handle food and cutlery as the women did. It's
quite a process, but as they were served first, I could do right
by waiting. I never was where things were done quite so elaborately
before."
"And they didn't know they would have company until you went
to the table?"
"Well, they must have thought likely, there was a place for
me."
"Umph!" said mother. "Fine idea! Then any one who
drops in can be served, and see that they are not a mite of trouble.
Candace, always an extra place after this!"
Father just shouted.
"I thought you'd get something out of it!" he said.
"Happy to have justified your faith!" replied mother
calmly. "Go on, son!"
"That's all!" said Laddie. "We left the table and
talked an hour more. The women asked me to come again; he didn't
say anything on that subject; but when he ordered my horse, he
asked the Princess if she would enjoy a little exercise, and she
said she would, so he told Thomas to bring their horses, and we
rode around the section, the Princess and I ahead, Mr. Pryor following.
Where the road was good and the light fine enough that there was
no danger of laming a horse, we dropped back, one on either side
of him, so we could talk. Mrs. Pryor ate the cake and said it
was fine; and the `conserve,' she called it, delicious as she
ever had tasted. She said all our fruits here had much more flavour
than at home; she thought it was the dryer climate and more sunshine.
She sent her grateful thanks, and she wants your recipe before
next preserving time."
Mother just beamed. My! but she did love to have the things she
cooked, bragged on.
"Possibly she'd like my strawberries?" she said.
"There isn't a doubt about it," said Laddie. "I've
yet to see the first person who doesn't."
"Is that all?" asked mother.
"I can think of nothing more at this minute," answered
Laddie. "If anything comes to my mind later, I won't forget
to tell you. Oh yes, there was one thing: You couldn't keep Mr.
Pryor from talking about Leon. He must have taken a great fancy
to him. He talked until he worried the Princess, and she tried
to keep him away from the subject, but his mind seemed to run
on it constantly. When we were riding she talked quite as much
as he, and it will hustle us to think what the little scamp did,
any bigger than they do. Of course, father, you understood the
price Mr. Pryor made on one of his very finest colts was a joke.
There's a strain of Arab in the father--he showed me the record--
and the mother is bluegrass. There you get gentleness and endurance
combined with speed and nerve. I'd trade Flos for that colt as
it stands to-day. There's nothing better on earth in the way of
horse. His offer is practically giving it away. I know, with the
records to prove its pedigree, what that colt would bring him
in any city market."
"I don't like it," said mother. "I want Leon to
have a horse, but a boy in a first experience, and reckless as
he is, doesn't need a horse like that, for one thing, and what
is more important, I refuse to be put under any obligations to
Pryors."
"That's the reason Mr. Pryor asked anything at all for the
horse.
It is my opinion that he would be greatly pleased to give it to
Leon, if he could do what he liked."
"Well, that's precisely the thing he can't do in this family,"
said mother sternly.
"What do you think, father?" asked Laddie.
"I think Amen! to that proposition," said father; "but
I would have to take time to thresh it out completely. It appeals
to me that Leon is old enough to recognize the value of the animal;
and that the care of it would develop and strengthen his character.
It would be a responsibility that would steady him. You could
teach him to tend and break it."
"Break it!" cried Laddie. "Break it! Why father,
he's riding it bareback all over the Pryor meadow now, and jumping
it over logs. Whenever he leaves, it follows him to the fence,
and the Princess says almost any hour of the day you look out
you can see it pacing up and down watching this way and whinnying
for him to come."
"And your best judgment is----?"
Laddie laughed as he tied my hood strings. "Well I don't
feel about the Pryors as the rest of you do," he said. "If
the money isn't claimed inside the time you specified, I would
let Leon and Mr. Pryor make their own bargain. The boy won't know
for years that it is practically a gift, and it would please Mr.
Pryor immensely. Now run, or you'll be late!"
I had to go, so I didn't know how they settled it, but if they
wouldn't let Leon have that horse, it was downright mean. What
if we were under obligations to Mr. Pryor? We were to Sarah Hood,
and half the people we knew, and what was more, we LIKED to be.
When I came from school that night father had been to town. He
had an ax and was opening a big crate, containing two of the largest,
bluest geese you ever saw. Laddie said being boxed that way and
seeing them so close made them look so big; really, they were
no finer than Pryors', where he had got the address of the place
that sold them. Mother was so pleased. She said she had needed
a new strain, for a long time, to improve her feathers; now she
would have pillows worth while, in a few years. They put them
in the barn where our geese stayed over night, and how they did
scream. That is, one of them did; the other acted queerly and
father said to Laddie that he was afraid the trip was hard on
it. Laddie said it might have been hurt, and mother was worried
too. Before she had them an hour, she had sold all our ganders;
spring had come, she had saved the blue goose eggs, set them under
a hen, raised the goslings with the little chickens, never lost
one, picked them and made a new pair of pillows too fine for any
one less important than a bishop, or a judge, or Dr. Fenner to
sleep on. Then she began saving for a featherbed. And still the
goose didn't act as spry or feel as good as the gander. He stuck
up his head, screamed, spread his wings and waved them, and the
butts looked so big and hard, I was not right certain whether
it would be safe to tease him or not.
The first person who came to see them was Sarah Hood, and she
left with the promise of a pair as soon as mother could raise
them. Father said the only reason mother didn't divide her hair
with Sarah Hood was because it was fast, and she couldn't. Mother
said gracious goodness! she'd be glad to get rid of some of it
if she could, and of course Sarah should have first chance at
it. Hadn't she kept her over night so she could see her new home
when she was rested, and didn't she come with her, and help her
get settled, and had she ever failed when we had a baby, or sickness,
or trouble, or thrashers, or a party? Of course she'd gladly divide,
even the hair of her head, with Sarah Hood. And father said, "Yes,
he guessed she would, and come to think of it, he'd just as soon
spare Sarah part of his," and then they both laughed, when
it was nothing so very funny that I could see.
The next caller the geese had was Mrs. Freshett. My! she thought
they were big and fine. Mother promised her a couple of eggs to
set under a hen. Father said she was gradually coming down the
scale of her feelings, and before two weeks she'd give Isaac Thomas,
at least, a quill for a pen. Almost no one wrote with them any
more, but often father made a few, and showed us how to use them.
He said they were gone with candles, sand boxes, and snuff. Mother
said she had no use for snuff, but candles were not gone, she'd
make and use them to the day of her death, as they were the nicest
light ever invented to carry from room to room, or when you only
wanted to sit and think. Father said there was really no good
pen except the quill you sharpened yourself; and while he often
used steel ones like we children had at school to write to the
brothers and sisters away, and his family, he always kept a few
choice quills in the till of his chest, and when he wrote a deed,
or any valuable paper, where there was a deal with money, he used
them. He said it lent the dignity of a past day to an important
occasion.
After mother and Mrs. Freshett had talked over every single thing
about the geese, and that they were like Pryors' had been settled,
Mrs. Freshett said: "Since he told about it before all of
us, and started out the way he did, would it be amiss to ask how
Laddie got on at Pryors'?"
"Just the way I thought he would," said mother. "He
stayed until all of us were in bed, and I'd never have known when
he came in, if it were not a habit of his always to come to my
door to see if I'm sleeping. Sometimes I'm wakeful, and if he
pommels my pillow good, brings me a drink, and rubs my head a
few strokes with his strong, cool hands, I can settle down and
have a good night's rest. I was awake when he came, or I'd never
have known. It was almost midnight; but they sat two hours at
the table, and then all of them rode." "Not the Missus?"
"Oh no! She's not strong enough. She really has incurable
heart trouble, the worst kind there is; her daughter told me so."
"Then they better look out," said Mrs. Freshett. "She
is likely to keel over at a breath."
"They must know it. That's why she keeps so quiet."
"And they had him to supper?"
"It was a dinner served at night. Yes. He took Mrs. Pryor
in on his arm, and it was like a grand party, just as they fixed
for themselves, alone. Waiters, and silver trays, and things carried
in and out in courses."
"My land! Well, I s'pose he had enough schoolin' to get him
through it all right!"
My mother's face grew red. She never left any one in doubt as
to what she meant. Father said that "was the Dutch of it."
And mother always answered that if any one living could put things
plainer than the English, she would like to hear them do it.
"He certainly had," said mother, "or they wouldn't
have invited him to come again. And all mine, Mrs. Freshett, knew
how to sit properly at the table, and manage a knife, fork and
napkin, before they ever took a meal away from home."
"No 'fence," laughed Mrs. Freshett. "I meant that
maybe his years of college schoolin' had give him ways more like
theirs than most of us have. For all the money it takes to send
a boy to college, he ought to get somethin' out of it more than
jest fillin' his head with figgers, an' stars, an' oratin'; an'
most always you can see that he does."
"It is contact with cultivated people," said mother.
"You are always influenced by it, without knowing it often."
"Maybe you are, bein' so fine yourself," said Mrs. Freshett.
"An' me too, I never get among my betters that I don't carry
home a lot I put right into daily use, an' nobody knows it plainer.
I come here expectin' to learn things that help me, an' when I
go home I know I have."
"Why, thank you," said mother. "I'm sure that is
a very nice compliment, and I wish I really could feel that it
is well deserved."
"Oh I guess you do!" said Mrs. Freshett laughing. "I
often noticed you makin' a special effort to teach puddin' heads
like me somethin', an' I always thank you for it. There's a world
in right teachin'. I never had any. So all I can pick up an' hammer
into mine is a gain for me an' them. If my Henry had lived, an'
come out anything like that boy o' yourn an' the show he made
last Sunday, I'd do well if I didn't swell up an' bust with pride.
An' the little tow-haired strip, takin' the gun an' startin' out
alone after a robber, even if he wa'n't much of a man, that was
downright spunky. If my boys will come out anywhere near like
yourn, I'll be glad."
"I don't know how my boys will come out," said mother.
"But I work, pray, hope, and hang to them; that's all I know
to do."
"Well, if they don't come out right, they ought to be bumped!"
said Mrs. Freshett. "After all the chances they've had! I
don' know jest how Freshett was brung up, but I'd no chance at
all. My folks--well, I guess the less said--little pitchers, you
know! I can't see as I was to blame. I was the youngest, an' I
knew things was wrong. I fought to go to school, an' pap let me
enough that I saw how other people lived. Come night I'd go to
the garret, an' bar the trapdoor; but there would be times when
I couldn't help seein' what was goin' on. How'd you like chances
such as that for a girl of yourn?"
"Dreadful!" said mother. "Mrs. Freshett, please
do be careful!"
"Sure!" laughed Mrs. Freshett. "I was jest goin'
to tell you about me an' Josiah. He come to our house one night,
a stranger off the road. He said he was sick, an' tired, an' could
he have a bed. Mother said, `No, for him to move on.' He tried
an' he couldn't. They was somethin' about him--well, you know
how them things go! I wa'n't only sixteen, but I felt so sorry
for him, all fever burned and mumblin', I helped pap put him to
bed, an' doctored him all I could. Come mornin' he was a sick
man. Pap went for the county doctor, an' he took jest one look
an' says: `Small pox! All of ye git!'
"I was bound I wouldn't go, but pap made me, an' the doctor
said he'd send a man who'd had it; so I started, but I felt so
bad, come a chanct when they got to Groveville, I slipped out
an' went back. The man hadn't come, so I set to work the best
I knowed. 'Fore long Josiah was a little better an' he asked who
I was, an' where my folks went, an' I told him, an' he asked WHY
I came back an' I didn't know what to say, so I jest hung my head
an' couldn't face him. After a while he says, `All right! I guess
I got this sized up. If you'll stay an' nuss me through, I'll
be well enough to pull you out, by the time you get it, an' soon
as you're able we'll splice, if you say so.'
"`Marry me, you mean?' says I. They wa'n't ever any talk
about marryin' at our house. `Sure!' says he. `You're a mighty
likely lookin' girl! I'll do fair by ye.' An' he always has, too!
But I didn't feel right to let him go it blind, so I jest up and
says. `You wouldn't if you knowed my folks!' `You look as decent
as I do,' says he; `I'll chance it!' Then I tole him I was as
good as I was born, an' he believed me, an' he always has, an'
I was too! So I nussed him, but I didn't make the job of it he
did. You 'member he is pitted considerable. He was so strong I
jest couldn't keep him from disfigerin' himself, but he tied me.
I begged to be loose, an' he wouldn't listen, so I got a clean
face, only three little scars, an' they ain't deep to speak of.
He says he looks like a piece of side meat, but say! they ain't
nothin' the matter with his looks to me!
"The nuss man never did come, but the county doctor passed
things in the winder, till I was over the worst, an' Josiah sent
for a preacher an' he married us through the winder--I got the
writin's to show, all framed an' proper. Josiah said he'd see
I got all they was in it long that line, anyway. When I was well,
hanged if he didn't perdooce a wad from his clothes before they
burnt 'em, an' he got us new things to wear, an' a horse, an'
wagon, an' we driv away here where we thought we could start right,
an' after we had the land, an' built the cabin, an' jest as happy
as heart could wish, long come a man I'd made mad once, an' he
tole everythin' up and down. Josiah was good about it. He offered
to sell the land, an' pull up an' go furder. `What's the use?'
says I. `Hundreds know it. We can't go so far it won't be like
to follow us; le's stay here an' fight it.' `All right,' says
Josiah, but time an' ag'in he has offered to go, if I couldn't
make it. `Hang on a little longer,' says I, every time he knew
I was snubbed an' slighted. I never tole what he didn't notice.
I tried church, when my children began to git a size I wanted
'em to have right teachin', an' you come an' welcomed me an' you
been my friend, an' now the others is comin' over at last, an'
visitin' me, an' they ain't a thing more I want in life."
"I am so glad!" said mother. "Oh my dear, I am
so glad!"
"Goin' right home an' tell that to Josiah," said Mrs.
Freshett, jumping up laughing and crying like, "an' mebby
I'll jest spread wings and fly! I never was so happy in all my
life as I was Sunday, when you ast me before all of them, so cordial
like, an' says I to Josiah, `We'll go an' try it once,' an' we
come an' nobody turned a cold shoulder on us, an' I wa'n't wearin'
specks to see if they did, for I never knowed him so happy in
all his days. Orter heard him whistle goin' home, an' he's tryin'
all them things he learned, on our place, an' you can see it looks
a heap better a'ready, an' now he's talkin' about buildin' in
the spring. I knowed he had money, but he never mentioned buildin'
before, an' I always thought it was bekase he 'sposed likely we'd
have to move on, some time. 'Pears now as if we can settle, an'
live like other folks, after all these years. I knowed ye didn't
want me to talk, but I had to tell you! When you ast us to the
weddin', and others began comin' round, says I to Josiah, `Won't
she be glad to know that my skirts is clear, an' I did as well
as I could?' An' he says, `That she will! An' more am I,' says
he.
`I mighty proud of you,' says he. Proud! Think of that! Miss Stanton,
I'd jest wade fire and blood for you!"
"Oh my dear !" said mother. "What a dreadful thing
to say!"
"Gimme the chanct, an' watch if I don't," said Mrs.
Freshett. "Now, Josiah is proud I stuck it out! Now, I can
have a house! Now, my children can have all the show we can raise
to give 'em! I'm done cringin' an' dodgin'! I've always done my
best; henceforth I mean to hold up my head an' say so. I sure
can't be held for what was done 'fore I was on earth, or since
neither. You've given me my show, I'm goin' to take it, but if
you want to know what's in my heart about you, gimme any kind
of a chanct to prove, an' see if I don't pony right up to it!"
Mother laughed until the tears rolled, she couldn't help it. She
took Mrs. Freshett in her arms and hugged her tight, and kissed
her mighty near like she does Sarah Hood. Mrs. Freshett threw
her arms around mother, and looked over her shoulder, and said
to me, "Sis, when you grow up, always take a chanct on welcomin'
the stranger, like your maw does, an' heaven's bound to be your
home! My, but your maw is a woman to be proud of!" she said,
hugging mother and patting her on the back.
"All of us are proud of her!" I boasted.
"I doubt if you are proud enough!" cried Mrs. Freshett.
"I have my doubts! I don't see how people livin' with her,
an' seein' her every day, are in a shape to know jest what she
can do for a person in the place I was in. I have my doubts!"
That night when I went home from school mother was worrying over
the blue goose. When we went to feed, she told Leon that she was
afraid it was weak, and not getting enough to eat when it fed
with the others. She said after the work was finished, to take
it out alone, and give it all it would eat; so when the horses
were tended, the cows milked, everything watered, and the barn
ready to close for the night, Laddie took the milk to the house,
while Leon and I caught the blue goose, carried her to the well,
and began to shell corn. She was starved to death, almost. She
ate a whole ear in no time and looked for more, so Leon sent me
after another. By the time that was most gone she began to eat
slower, and stick her bill in the air to help the grains slip
down, so I told Leon I thought she had enough.
"No such thing!" said Leon. "You distinctly heard
mother tell me to give her `all she would eat.' She's eating,
isn't she? Go bring another ear!"
So she was, but I was doubtful about more.
Leon said I better mind or he would tell mother, so I got it.
She didn't begin on it with any enthusiasm. She stuck her bill
higher, stretched her neck longer, and she looked so funny when
she did it, that we just shrieked. Then Leon reached over, took
her by the bill, and stripped her neck to help her swallow, and
as soon as he let go, she began to eat again.
"You see!" said Leon, "she's been starved. She
can't get enough. I must help her!"
So he did help her every little bit. By that time we were interested
in seeing how much she could hold; and she looked so funny that
Leon sent me for more corn; but I told him I thought what she
needed now was water, so we held her to the trough, and she tried
to drink, but she couldn't swallow much. We set her down beside
the corn, and she went to eating again.
"Go it, old mill-hopper!" cried Leon.
Right then there was an awful commotion in the barn, and from
the squealing we knew one of the horses was loose, and fighting
the others. We ran to fix them, and had a time to get Jo back
into his stall, and tied. Before we had everything safe, the supper
bell rang, and I bet Leon a penny I could reach the house while
he shut the door and got there. We forgot every single thing about
the goose.
At supper mother asked Leon if he fed the goose all she would
eat, and I looked at him guilty-like, for I remembered we hadn't
put her back. He frowned at me cross as a bear, and I knew that
meant he had remembered, and would slip back and put her inside
when he finished his supper, so I didn't say anything.
"I didn't feed her ALL she would eat!" said Leon. "If
I had, she'd be at it yet. She was starved sure enough! You never
saw anything like the corn she downed."
"Well I declare!" said mother. "Now after this,
take her out alone, for a few days, and give her as much as she
wants."
"All right!" chuckled Leon, because it was a lot of
fun to see her run her bill around, and gobble up the corn, and
stick up her head.
The next day was Saturday, so after breakfast I went with Leon
to drive the sheep and geese to the creek to water; the trough
was so high it was only for the horses and cattle; when we let
out the geese, the blue one wasn't there.
"Oh Leon, did you forget to come back and put her in?"
"Yes I did!" he said. "I meant to when I looked
at you to keep still, and I started to do it, but Sammy Deam whistled,
so I went down in the orchard to see what he wanted, and we got
to planning how to get up a fox chase, and I stayed until father
called for night, and then I ran and forgot all about the blame
old goose."
"Oh Leon! Where is she? What will mother say? 'Spose a fox
got her!"
"It wouldn't help me any if it had, after I was to blame
for leaving her outside. Blast a girl! If you ever amounted to
anything, you could have put her in while I fixed the horses.
At least you could have told me to."
I stood there dumblike and stared at him. He has got the awfulest
way of telling the truth when he is scared or provoked. Of course
I should have thought of the goose when he was having such a hard
fight with the horses. If I'd been like he was, I'd have told
him that he was older, mother told HIM to do it, and it wasn't
my fault; but in my heart I knew he did have his hands full, and
if you're your brother's keeper, you ought to HELP your brother
remember. So I stood gawking, while Leon slowly turned whiter
and whiter.
"We might as well see if we can find her," he said at
last, so slow and hopeless like it made my heart ache. So he started
around the straw stack one way, and I the other, looking into
all the holes, and before I had gone far I had a glimpse of her,
and it scared me so I screamed, for her head was down, and she
didn't look right. Leon came running and pulled her out. The swelled
corn rolled in a little trail after her, and the pigs ran up and
began to eat it. Pigs are named righter than anything else I know.
"Busted!" cried Leon in tones of awe; about the worst
awe you ever heard, and the worst bust you ever saw.
From bill to breast she was wide open, and the hominy spilling.
We just stood staring at her, and then Leon began to kick the
pigs; because it would be no use to kick the goose; she would
never know. Then he took her up, carried her into the barn, and
put her on the floor where the other geese had stayed all night.
We stood and looked at her some more, as if looking and hoping
would make her get up and be alive again. But there's nothing
in all this world so useless as wishing dead things would come
alive; we had to do something.
"What are you going to tell mother?"
"Shut up!" said Leon. "I'm trying to think."
"I'll say it was as much my fault as yours. I'll go with
you. I'll take half whatever they do to you."
"Little fool!" said Leon. "What good would that
do me?"
"Do you know what they cost? Could you get another with some
of your horse money?"
I saw it coming and dodged again, before I remembered the Crusaders.
"All right!" I said. "If that's the way you are
going to act, Smarty, I'll lay all the blame on you; I won't help
you a bit, and I don't care if you are whipped until the blood
runs."
Then I went out of the barn and slammed the door. For a minute
I felt better; but it was a short time. I SAID that to be mean,
but I did care. I cared dreadfully; I was partly to blame, and
I knew it. Coming around the barn, I met Laddie, and he saw in
a flash I was in trouble, so he stopped and asked: "What
now, Chicken?"
"Come into the barn where no one will hear us," I said.
So we went around the outside, entered at the door on the embankment,
and he sat in the wheelbarrow on the threshing floor while I told
him. I thought I felt badly enough, but after I saw Laddie, it
grew worse, for I remembered we were short of money that fall,
that the goose was a fine, expensive one, and how proud mother
was of her, and how she'd be grieved, and that was trouble for
sure.
"Run along and play!" said Laddie, "and don't tell
any one else if you can help it. I'll hide the goose, and see
if I can get another in time to take the place of this one, so
mother won't be worried."
I walked to the house slowly, but I was afraid to enter. When
you are all choked up, people are sure to see it, and ask fool
questions. So I went around to the gate and stood there looking
up and down the road, and over the meadow toward the Big Woods;
and all at once, in one of those high, regular bugle calls, like
they mostly scream in spring, one of Pryors' ganders split the
echoes for a mile; maybe farther.
I was across the road and slinking down inside the meadow fence
before I knew it. There was no thought or plan. I started for
Pryors' and went straight ahead, only I kept out of line with
our kitchen windows. I tramped through the slush, ice, and crossed
fields where I was afraid of horses; but when I got to the top
of the Pryor backyard fence, I stuck there, for the bulldogs were
loose, and came raving at me. I was going to be eaten alive, for
I didn't know the word Laddie did; and those dogs climbed a fence
like a person; I saw them the time Leon brought back Even So.
I was thinking what a pity it was, after every one had grown accustomed
to me, and had begun loving me, that I should be wasted for dog
feed, when Mr. Pryor came to the door, and called them; they didn't
mind, so he came to the fence, and crossest you ever heard, every
bit as bad as the dogs, he cried: "Whose brat are you, and
what are you doing here?"
I meant to tell him; but you must have a minute after a thing
like that.
"God of my life!" he fairly frothed. "What did
anybody send a dumb child here for?"
"Dumb child!" I didn't care if Mr. Pryor did wear a
Crown of Glory. It wasn't going to do him one particle of good,
unless he was found in the way of the Lord. "Dumb child!"
I was no more dumb than he was, until his bulldogs scared me so
my heart got all tangled up with my stomach, my lungs, and my
liver. That made me mad, and there was nothing that would help
me to loosen up and talk fast, like losing my temper. I wondered
what kind of a father he had. If he'd been stood against the wall
and made to recite, "Speak gently," as often as all
of us, perhaps he'd have remembered the verse that says:
"Speak gently to the little child;
Its love be sure to gain;
Teach it in accents soft and mild;
It may not long remain."
I should think not, if it had any chance at all to get away! I
was so angry by that time I meant to tell him what I thought.
Polite or not polite, I'd take a switching if I had to, but I
wasn't going to stand that.
"You haven't got any God in your life," I reminded him,
"and no one sent me here. I came to see the Princess, because
I'm in awful trouble and I hoped maybe she could fix up a way
to help me."
"Ye Gods!" he cried. He would stick to calling on God,
whether he believed in Him or not. "If it isn't Nimrod! I
didn't recognize you in all that bundling."
Probably he didn't know it, but Nimrod was from the Bible too!
By bundling, he meant my hood and coat. He helped me from the
fence, sent the bulldogs rolling--sure enough he did kick them,
and they didn't like it either--took my hand and led me straight
into the house, and the Princess was there, and a woman who was
her mother no doubt, and he said: "Pamela, here is our little
neighbour, and she says she's in trouble, and she thinks you may
be of some assistance to her. Of course you will be glad if you
can."
"Surely!" said the Princess, and she introduced me to
her mother, so I bowed the best I knew, and took off my wet mitten,
dirty with climbing fences, to shake hands with her. She was so
gracious and lovely I forgot what I went after. The Princess brought
a cloth and wiped the wet from my shoes and stockings, and asked
me if I wouldn't like a cup of hot tea to keep me from taking
a chill.
"I've been much wetter than this," I told her, "and
I never have taken a chill, and anyway my throat's too full of
trouble to drink."
"Why, you poor child!" said the Princess. "Tell
me quickly! Is your mother ill again?"
"Not now, but she's going to be as soon as she finds out,"
I said, and then I told them.
They all listened without a sound until I got where Leon helped
the goose eat, and from that on Mr. Pryor laughed until you could
easily see that he had very little feeling for suffering humanity.
It was funny enough when we fed her, but now that she was bursted
wide open there was nothing amusing about it; and to roar when
a visitor plainly told you she was in awful trouble, didn't seem
very good manners to me. The Princess and her mother never even
smiled; and before I had told nearly all of it, Thomas was called
to hitch the Princess' driving cart, and she took me to their
barnyard to choose the goose that looked most like mother's, and
all of them seemed like hers, so we took the first one Thomas
could catch, put it into a bag in the back of the cart, and then
we got in and started for our barn. As we reached the road, I
said to her: "You'd better go past Dovers', for if we come
down our Little Hill they will see us sure; it's baking day."
"All right!" said the Princess, so we went the long
way round the section, but goodness me! when she drove no way
was far.
When we were opposite our barn she stopped, hitched her horse
to the fence, and we climbed over, and slipping behind the barn,
carried the goose around to the pen and put it in with ours. She
said she wanted the broken one, because her father would enjoy
seeing it. I didn't see how he could! We were ready to slip out,
when our geese began to run at the new one, hiss and scream, and
make such a racket that Laddie and Leon both caught us. They looked
at the goose, at me, the Princess, and each other, and neither
said a word. She looked back a little bit, and then she laughed
as hard as she could. Leon grew red, and he grinned ashamed-like,
so she laughed worse than ever. Laddie spoke to me: "You
went to Mr. Pryor's and asked for that goose?"
"She did not!" said the Princess before I could answer.
"She never asked for anything. She was making a friendly
morning call and in the course of her visit she told about the
pathetic end of the goose that was expected to lay the golden
egg--I mean stuff the Bishop's pillow--and as we have a large
flock of blue geese, father gave her one, and he had the best
time he's had in years doing it. I wouldn't have had him miss
the fun he got from it for any money. He laughed like home again.
Now I must slip away before any one sees me, and spoils our secret.
Leon, lad, you can go to the house and tell your little mother
that the feeding stopped every pain her goose had, and hereafter
it looks to you as if she'd be all right."
"Miss Pryor," said Leon, "did you care about what
I said at you in church that day?"
"`Thou art all fair, my love. There is no spot in thee.'
Well, it was a little pointed, but since you ask a plain question,
I have survived it."
"I'm awfully sorry," said Leon. "Of course I never
would, if I'd known you could be this nice."
The Princess looked at Laddie and almost gasped, and then both
of them laughed. Leon saw that he had told her he was sorry he
said she was "fair, and no spot in her."
"Oh I don't mean that!" he said. "What I do mean
is that I thank you awful much for the goose, and helping me out
like such a brick of a good fellow, and what I wish is, that I
was as old as Laddie, and he'd hump himself if he got to be your
beau."
The Princess almost ran. Laddie and I followed to the road, where
he unhitched the horse and helped her in. Then he stood stroking
its neck, as he held the bridle.
"I don't know what to say!" said Laddie.
"In such case, I would counsel silence," advised the
Princess.
"I hope you understand how I thank you."
"I fail to see what for. Father gave the goose to Little
Sister. Her thanks and Leon's are more than enough for him. We
had great sport."
"I insist on adding mine. Deep and fervent!"
"You take everything so serious. Can't you see the fun of
this?"
"No," said Laddie. "But if you can, I am glad,
and I'm thankful for anything that gives me a glimpse of you."
"Bye, Little Sister," said the Princess, and when she
loosened the lines the mud flew a rod high.
CHAPTER XI
Keeping Christmas Our Way
"I remember, I remember
How my childhood fleeted by,--
The mirth of its December,
And the warmth of its July."
When dusk closed in it would be Christmas eve. All day I had three
points--a chair beside the kitchen table, a lookout melted through
the frost on the front window, and the big sitting-room fireplace.
All the perfumes of Araby floated from our kitchen that day. There
was that delicious smell of baking flour from big snowy loaves
of bread, light biscuit, golden coffee cake, and cinnamon rolls
dripping a waxy mixture of sugar, butter, and spice, much better
than the finest butterscotch ever brought from the city. There
was the tempting odour of boiling ham and baking pies. The air
was filled with the smell of more herbs and spices than I knew
the names of, that went into mincemeat, fruit cake, plum pudding,
and pies. There was a teasing fragrance in the spiced vinegar
heating for pickles, a reminder of winesap and rambo in the boiling
cider, while the newly opened bottles of grape juice filled the
house with the tang of Concord and muscadine. It seemed to me
I never got nicely fixed where I could take a sly dip in the cake
dough or snipe a fat raisin from the mincemeat but Candace would
say: "Don't you suppose the backlog is halfway down the lane?"
Then I hurried to the front window, where I could see through
my melted outlook on the frosted pane, across the west eighty
to the woods, where father and Laddie were getting out the Christmas
backlog. It was too bitterly cold to keep me there while they
worked, but Laddie said that if I would watch, and come to meet
them, he would take me up, and I might ride home among the Christmas
greens on the log.
So I flattened my nose against the pane and danced and fidgeted
until those odours teased me back to the kitchen; and no more
did I get nicely located beside a jar of pudding sauce than Candace
would object to the place I had hung her stocking. It was my task,
my delightful all-day task, to hang the stockings. Father had
made me a peg for each one, and I had ten feet of mantel front
along which to arrange them. But it was no small job to do this
to every one's satisfaction. No matter what happened to any one
else, Candace had to be pleased: for did not she so manage that
most fowls served on mother's table went gizzardless to the carving?
She knew and acknowledged the great importance of trying cookies,
pies, and cake while they were hot. She was forever overworked
and tired, yet she always found time to make gingerbread women
with currant buttons on their frocks, and pudgy doughnut men with
clove eyes and cigars of cinnamon. If my own stocking lay on the
hearth, Candace's had to go in a place that satisfied her--that
was one sure thing. Besides, I had to make up to her for what
Leon did, because she was crying into the corner of her apron
about that.
He slipped in and stole her stocking, hung it over the broomstick,
and marched around the breakfast table singing to the tune of--
"Ha, ha, ha, who wouldn't go—
Up on the housetop click, click, click?
Down through the chimney,
With good Saint Nick----"
words he made up himself. He walked just fast enough that she
couldn't catch him, and sang as he went:
"Ha, ha, ha, good Saint Nick,
Come and look at this stocking, quick!
If you undertake its length to fill,
You'll have to bust a ten-dollar bill.
Who does it belong to? Candace Swartz.
Bring extra candy,--seven quarts----"
She got so angry she just roared, so father made Leon stop it,
but I couldn't help laughing myself. Then we had to pet her all
day, so she'd cheer up, and not salt the Christmas dinner with
her tears. I never saw such a monkey as Leon! I trotted out to
comfort her, and snipped bites, until I wore a triangle on the
carpet between the kitchen and the mantel, the mantel and the
window, and the window and the kitchen, while every hour things
grew more exciting.
There never had been such a flurry at our house since I could
remember; for to-morrow would be Christmas and bring home all
the children, and a house full of guests. My big brother, Jerry,
who was a lawyer in the city, was coming with his family, and
so were Frank, Elizabeth, and Lucy with theirs, and of course
Sally and Peter--I wondered if she would still be fixing his tie--and
Shelley came yesterday, blushing like a rose, and she laughed
if you pointed your finger at her.
Something had happened to her in Chicago. I wasn't so sure as
I had been about a city being such a dreadful place of noise,
bad air, and wicked people. Nothing had hurt Shelley. She had
grown so much that you could see she was larger. Her hair and
face-- all of Shelley just shone. Her eyes danced, she talked
and laughed all the time, and she hugged every one who passed
her. She never loved us so before. Leon said she must have been
homesick and coming back had given her a spell. I did hope it
would be a bad one, and last forever. I would have liked for all
our family to have had a spell if it would have made them act
and look like Shelley. The Princess was not a speck lovelier,
and she didn't act any nicer.
If I could have painted, I'd have made a picture of Shelley with
a circle of light above her head like the one of the boy Jesus
where He talked with the wise men in the temple. I asked father
if he noticed how much prettier and nicer she was, and he said
he did. Then I asked him if he thought now, that a city was such
a bad place to live in, and he said where she was had nothing
to do with it, the same thing would happen here, or anywhere,
when life's greatest experience came to a girl. That was all he
would say, but figuring it out was easy. The greatest experience
that happened to our girls was when they married, like Sally,
so it meant that Shelley had gone and fallen in love with that
lawyer man, and she liked sitting on the sofa with him, and no
doubt she fixed his ties. But if any one thought I would tell
anything I saw when he came they were badly mistaken.
All of us rushed around like we were crazy. If father and mother
hadn't held steady and kept us down, we might have raised the
roof. We were all so glad about getting Leon and the money back;
mother hadn't been sick since the fish cured her; the new blue
goose was so like the one that had burst, even father never noticed
any difference; all the children were either home or coming, and
after we had our gifts and the biggest dinner we ever had, Christmas
night all of us would go to the schoolhouse to see our school
try to spell down three others to whom they had sent saucy invitations
to come and be beaten.
Mother sat in the dining-room beside the kitchen door, so that
she could watch the baking, brewing, pickling, and spicing. It
took four men to handle the backlog, which I noticed father pronounced
every year "just a little the finest we ever had," and
Laddie strung the house with bittersweet, evergreens, and the
most beautiful sprays of myrtle that he raked from under the snow.
Father drove to town in the sleigh, and the list of things to
be purchased mother gave him as a reminder was almost a yard long.
The minute they finished the outdoor work Laddie and Leon began
bringing in baskets of apples, golden bellflowers, green pippins,
white winter pearmains, Rhode Island greenings, and striped rambos
all covered with hoarfrost, yet not frozen, and so full of juice
you had to bite into them carefully or they dripped and offended
mother. These they washed and carried to the cellar ready for
use.
Then they cracked big dishes of nuts; and popped corn that popped
with the most resounding pops in all my experience--popped a tubful,
and Laddie melted maple sugar and poured over it and made big
balls of fluff and sweetness. He took a pan and filled it with
grains, selected one at a time, the very largest and whitest,
and made an especial ball, in the middle of which he put a lovely
pink candy heart on which was printed in red letters: "How
can this heart be mine, yet yours, unless our hearts are one?"
He wouldn't let any of them see it except me, and he only let
me because he knew I'd be delighted.
It was almost dusk when father came through the kitchen loaded
with bundles and found Candace and the girls still cooking.
We were so excited we could scarcely be gathered around the supper
table, and mother said we chattered until she couldn't hear herself
think. After a while Laddie laid down his fork and looked at our
father.
"Have you any objection to my using the sleigh to-morrow
night?" he asked.
Father looked at mother.
"Had you planned to use it, mother?"
Mother said: "No. If I go, I'll ride in the big sled with
all of us. It is such a little way, and the roads are like glass."
So father said politely, as he always spoke to us: "Then
it will give me great pleasure for you to take it, my son."
That made Leon bang his fork loudly as he dared and squirm in
his chair, for well he knew that if he had asked, the answer would
have been different. If Laddie took the sleigh he would harness
carefully, drive fast, but reasonably, blanket his horse, come
home at the right time, and put everything exactly where he found
it. But Leon would pitch the harness on some way, race every step,
never think of his steaming horse, come home when there was no
one so wild as he left to play pranks with, and scatter the harness
everywhere. He knew our father would love to trust him the same
as he did Laddie. He wouldn't always prove himself trustworthy,
but he envied Laddie.
"You think you'll take the Princess to the spelling bee,
don't you?" he sneered.
"I mean to ask her," replied Laddie.
"Maybe you think she'll ride in our old homemade, hickory
cheesebox, when she can sail all over the country like a bird
in a velvet-lined cutter with a real buffalo robe."
There was a quick catch in mother's breath and I felt her hand
on my chair tremble. Father's lips tightened and a frown settled
on his face, while Laddie fairly jumped. He went white to the
lips, and one hand dropped on the table, palm up, the fingers
closing and unclosing, while his eyes turned first to mother,
and then to father, in dumb appeal. We all knew that he was suffering.
No one spoke, and Leon having shot his arrow straight home, saw
as people so often do in this world that the damage of unkind
words could not easily be repaired; so he grew red in the face
and squirmed uncomfortably.
At last Laddie drew a deep, quivering breath. "I never thought
of that," he said. "She has seemed happy to go with
me several times when I asked her, but of course she might not
care to ride in ours, when she has such a fine sleigh of her own."
Father's voice fairly boomed down the length of the table.
"Your mother always has found our sleigh suitable,"
he said.
The fact was, father was rarely proud of it. He had selected the
hickory in our woods, cut it and hauled it to the mill, cured
the lumber, and used all his spare time for two winters making
it. With the exception of having the runners turned at a factory
and iron-bound at a smithy, he had completed it alone with great
care, even to staining it a beautiful cherry colour, and fitting
white sheepskins into the bed. We had all watched him and been
so proud of it, and now Leon was sneering at it. He might just
as well have undertaken to laugh at father's wedding suit or to
make fun of "Clark's Commentaries."
Laddie appealed to mother: "Do you think I'd better not ask
her?"
He spoke with an effort.
"Laddie, that is the first time I ever heard you propose
to do any one an injustice," she said.
"I don't see how," said Laddie.
"It isn't giving the Princess any chance at all," replied
mother "You've just said that she has seemed pleased to accompany
you before, now you are proposing to cut her out of what promises
to be the most delightful evening of the winter, without even
giving her the chance to say whether she'd go with you or not.
Has she ever made you feel that anything you offered her or wanted
to do for her was not good enough?"
"Never!" exclaimed Laddie fervently.
"Until she does, then, do you think it would be quite manly
and honourable to make decisions for her? You say you never thought
of anything except a pleasant time with her; possibly she feels
the same. Unless she changes, I would scarcely let a boy's foolish
tongue disturb her pleasure. Moreover, as to the matter of wealth,
your father may be as rich as hers; but they have one, we have
many. If what we spend on all our brood could be confined to one
child, we could easily duplicate all her luxuries, and I think
she has the good sense to realize the fact as quickly as any one.
I've no doubt she would gladly exchange half she has for the companionship
of a sister or a brother in her lonely life."
Laddie turned to father, and father's smile was happy again. Mother
was little but she was mighty. With only a few words she had made
Leon feel how unkind and foolish he had been, quieted Laddie's
alarm, and soothed the hurt father's pride had felt in that he
had not been able to furnish her with so fine a turnout as Pryors
had.
Next morning when the excitement of gifts and greetings was over,
and Laddie's morning work was all finished, he took a beautiful
volume of poems and his popcorn ball and started across the fields
due west; all of us knew that he was going to call on and offer
them to the Princess, and ask to take her to the spelling bee.
I suppose Laddie thought he was taking that trip alone, but really
he was surrounded. I watched him from the window, and my heart
went with him. Presently father went and sat beside mother's chair,
and stroking her hand, whispered softly: "Please don't worry,
little mother. It will be all right. Your boy will come home happy."
"I hope so," she answered, "but I can't help feeling
dreadfully nervous. If things go wrong with Laddie, it will spoil
the day."
"I have much faith in the Princess' good common sense,"
replied father, "and considering what it means to Laddie,
it would hurt me sore to lose it."
Mother sat still, but her lips moved so that I knew she was making
soft little whispered prayers for her best loved son. But Laddie,
plowing through the drift, never dreamed that all of us were with
him. He was always better looking than any other man I ever had
seen, but when, two hours later, he stamped into the kitchen he
was so much handsomer than usual, that I knew from the flush on
his cheek and the light in his eye, that the Princess had been
kind, and by the package in his hand, that she had made him a
present. He really had two, a beautiful book and a necktie. I
wondered to my soul if she gave him that, so she could fix it!
I didn't believe she had begun on his ties at that time; but of
course when he loved her as he did, he wished she would.
It was the very jolliest Christmas we ever had, but the day seemed
long. When night came we were in a precious bustle. The wagon
bed on bobs, filled with hay and covers, drawn by Ned and Jo,
was brought up for the family, and the sleigh made spick-and-
span and drawn by Laddie's thoroughbred, stood beside it. Laddie
had filled the kitchen oven with bricks and hung up a comfort
at four o'clock to keep the Princess warm.
Because he had to drive out of the way to bring her, Laddie wanted
to start early; and when he came down dressed in his college clothes,
and looking the manliest of men, some of the folks thought it
funny to see him carefully rake his hot bricks from the oven,
and pin them in an old red breakfast shawl. I thought it was fine,
and I whispered to mother: "Do you suppose that if Laddie
ever marries the Princess he will be good to her as he is to you?"
Mother nodded with tear-dimmed eyes, but Shelley said: "I'll
wager a strong young girl like the Princess will laugh at you
for babying over her."
"Why?" inquired Laddie. "It is a long drive and
a bitter night, and if you fancy the Princess will laugh at anything
I do, when I am doing the best I know for her comfort, you are
mistaken. At least, that is the impression she gave me this morning."
I saw the swift glance mother shot at father, and father laid
down his paper and said, while he pretended his glasses needed
polishing: "Now there is the right sort of a girl for you.
No foolishness about her, when she has every chance. Hurrah for
the Princess!"
It was easy to see that she wasn't going to have nearly so hard
a time changing father's opinion as she would mother's. It was
not nearly a year yet, and here he was changed already. Laddie
said good-bye to mother--he never forgot--gathered up his comfort
and bricks, and started for Pryors' downright happy. We went to
the schoolhouse a little later, all of us scoured, curled, starched,
and wearing our very best clothes. My! but it was fine. There
were many lights in the room and it was hung with greens. There
was a crowd even though it was early. On Miss Amelia's table was
a volume of history that was the prize, and every one was looking
and acting the very best he knew how, although there were cases
where they didn't know so very much.
Our Shelley was the handsomest girl there, until the Princess
came, and then they both were. Shelley wore one of her city frocks
and a quilted red silk hood that was one of her Christmas gifts,
and she looked just like a handsome doll. She made every male
creature in that room feel that she was pining for him alone.
May had a gay plaid frock and curls nearly a yard long, and so
had I, but both our frocks and curls were homemade; mother would
have them once in a while; father and I couldn't stop her.
But there was not a soul there who didn't have some sort of gift
to rejoice over, and laughter and shouts of "Merry Christmas!"
filled the room. It was growing late and there was some talk of
choosers, when the door opened and in a rush of frosty air the
Princess and Laddie entered. Every one stopped short and stared.
There was good reason. The Princess looked as if she had accidentally
stepped from a frame. She was always lovely and beautifully dressed,
but to-night she was prettier and finer than ever before. You
could fairly hear their teeth click as some of the most envious
of those girls caught sight of her, for she was wearing a new
hat!--a black velvet store hat, fitting closely over her crown,
with a rim of twisted velvet, a scarlet bird's wing, and a big
silver buckle. Her dress was of scarlet cloth cut in forms, and
it fitted as if she had been melted and poured into it. It was
edged around the throat, wrists, and skirt with narrow bands of
fur, and she wore a loose, long, silk-lined coat of the same material,
and worst of all, furs--furs such as we had heard wealthy and
stylish city ladies were wearing. A golden brown cape that reached
to her elbows, with ends falling to the knees, finished in the
tails of some animal, and for her hands a muff as big as a nail
keg.
Now, there was not a girl in that room, except the Princess, an
she had those clothes, who wouldn't have flirted like a peacock,
almost bursting with pride; but because the Princess had them,
and they didn't, they sat stolid and sullen, and cast glances
at each other as if they were saying: "The stuck-up thing!"
"Thinks she's smart, don't she?"
Many of them should have gone to meet her and made her welcome,
for she was not of our district and really their guest. Shelley
did go, but I noticed she didn't hurry. The choosers began at
once, and Laddie was the first person called for our side, and
the Princess for the visitors'. Every one in the room was chosen
on one side or the other; even my name was called, but I only
sat still and shook my head, for I very well knew that no one
except father would remember to pronounce easy ones for me, and
besides I was so bitterly disappointed I could scarcely have stood
up. They had put me in a seat near the fire; the spellers lined
either wall, and a goodly number that refused to spell occupied
the middle seats. I couldn't get a glimpse of Laddie or the home
folks, or worst of all, of my idolized Princess.
I never could bear to find a fault with Laddie, but I sadly reflected
that he might as well have left me at home, if I were to be buried
where I could neither hear nor see a thing. I was just wishing
it was summer so I could steal out to the cemetery, and have a
good visit with the butterflies that always swarmed around Georgiana
Jane Titcomb's grave at the corner of the church. I never knew
Georgiana Jane, but her people must have been very fond of her,
for her grave was scarlet with geraniums, and pink with roses
from earliest spring until frost, and the bright colours attracted
swarms of butterflies. I had learned that if I stuck a few blossoms
in my hair, rubbed some sweet smelling ones over my hands, and
knelt and kept so quiet that I fitted into the landscape, the
butterflies would think me a flower too, and alight on my hair,
dress, and my hands, even. God never made anything more beautiful
than those butterflies, with their wings of brightly painted velvet
down, their bright eyes, their curious antennae, and their queer,
tickly feet. Laddie had promised me a book telling all about every
kind there was, the first time he went to a city, so I was wishing
I had it, and was among my pet beauties with it, when I discovered
him bending over me.
He took my arm, and marching back to his place, helped me to the
deep window seat beside him, where with my head on a level, and
within a foot of his, I could see everything in the whole room.
I don't know why I ever spent any time pining for the beauties
of Georgiana Jane Titcomb's grave, even with its handsome headstone
on which was carved a lamb standing on three feet and holding
a banner over its shoulder with the fourth, and the geraniums,
roses, and the weeping willow that grew over it, thrown in. I
might have trusted Laddie. He never had forgotten me; until he
did, I should have kept unwavering faith.
Now, I had the best place of any one in the room, and I smoothed
my new plaid frock and shook my handmade curls just as near like
Shelley as ever I could. But it seems that most of the ointment
in this world has a fly in it, like in the Bible, for fine as
my location was, I soon knew that I should ask Laddie to put me
down, because the window behind me didn't fit its frame, and the
night was bitter. Before half an hour I was stiff with cold; but
I doubt if I would have given up that location if I had known
I would freeze, because this was the most fun I had ever seen.
Miss Amelia began with McGuffey's spelling book, and whenever
some poor unfortunate made a bad break the crowd roared with laughter.
Peter Justice stood up to spell and before three rounds he was
nodding on his feet, so she pronounced "sleepy" to him.
Some one nudged Pete and he waked up and spelled it, s-l-e, sle,
p-e, pe, and because he really was so sleepy it made every one
laugh. James Whittaker spelled compromise with a k, and Isaac
Thomas spelled soap, s-o-a-p-e, and it was all the funnier that
he couldn't spell it, for from his looks you could tell that he
had no acquaintance with it in any shape. Then Miss Amelia gave
out "marriage" to the spooniest young man in the district,
and "stepfather" to a man who was courting a widow with
nine children; and "coquette" to our Shelley, who had
been making sheep's eyes at Johnny Myers, so it took her by surprise
and she joined the majority, which by that time occupied seats.
There was much laughing and clapping of hands for a time, but
when Miss Amelia had let them have their fun and thinned the lines
to half a dozen on each side who could really spell, she began
business, and pronounced the hardest words she could find in the
book, and the spellers caught them up and rattled them off like
machines.
"Incompatibility," she gave out, and before the sound
of her voice died away the Princess was spelling: "I-n, in,
c-o-m, com, in com, p-a-t, pat, incompat, i, incompati, b-i-l,
bil, incompatibil, i, incompatibili, t-y, ty, incompatibility."
Then Laddie spelled "incomprehensibility," and they
finished up the "bilities" and the "alities"
with a rush and changed McGuffey's for Webster, with five on Laddie's
side and three on the Princess', and when they quit with it, the
Princess was alone, and Laddie and our little May facing her.
From that on you could call it real spelling. They spelled from
the grammars, hyperbole, synecdoche, and epizeuxis. They spelled
from the physiology, chlorophyll, coccyx, arytenoid, and the names
of the bones and nerves, and all the hard words inside you.
They tried the diseases and spelled jaundice, neurasthenia, and
tongue-tied. They tried all the occupations and professions, and
went through the stores and spelled all sorts of hardware, china
and dry goods. Each side kept cheering its own and urging them
to do their best, and every few minutes some man in the back of
the house said something that was too funny. When Miss Amelia
pronounced "bombazine" to Laddie our side cried, "Careful,
Laddie, careful! you're out of your element!"
And when she gave "swivel-tree" to the Princess, her
side whispered, "Go easy! Do you know what it is? Make her
define it."
They branched over the country. May met her Jonah on the mountains.
Katahdin was too much for her, and Laddie and the Princess were
left to fight it out alone. I didn't think Laddie liked it. I'm
sure he never expected it to turn out that way. He must have been
certain he could beat her, for after he finished English there
were two or three other languages he knew, and every one in the
district felt that he could win, and expected him to do it. It
was an awful place to put him in, I could see that. He stood a
little more erect than usual, with his eyes toward the Princess,
and when his side kept crying, "Keep the prize, Laddie! Hold
up the glory of the district!" he ground out the words as
if he had a spite at them for not being so hard that he would
have an excuse for going down.
The Princess was poised lightly on her feet, her thick curls,
just touching her shoulders, shining in the light; her eyes like
stars, her perfect, dark oval face flushed a rich red, and her
deep bosom rising and falling with excitement. Many times in later
years I have tried to remember when the Princess was loveliest
of all, and that night always stands first.
I was thinking fast. Laddie was a big man. Men were strong on
purpose so they could bear things. He loved the Princess so, and
he didn't know whether she loved him or not; and every marriageable
man in three counties was just aching for the chance to court
her, and I didn't feel that he dared risk hurting her feelings.
Laddie said, to be the man who conquered the Princess and to whom
she lifted her lips for a first kiss was worth life itself. I
made up my mind that night that he knew just exactly what he was
talking about. I thought so too. And I seemed to understand why
Laddie--Laddie in his youth, strength, and manly beauty, Laddie,
who boasted that there was not a nerve in his body--trembled before
the Princess.
It looked as if she had set herself against him and was working
for the honours, and if she wanted them, I didn't feel that he
should chance beating her, and then, too, it was beginning to
be plain that it was none too sure he could. Laddie didn't seem
to be the only one who had been well drilled in spelling.
I held my jaws set a minute, so that I could speak without Laddie
knowing how I was shivering, and then I whispered: "Except
her eyes are softer, she looks just like a cardinal."
Laddie nodded emphatically and moving a step nearer laid his elbow
across my knees. Heavens, how they spelled! They finished all
the words I ever heard and spelled like lightning through a lot
of others the meaning of which I couldn't imagine. Father never
gave them out at home. They spelled epiphany, gaberdine, ichthyology,
gewgaw, kaleidoscope, and troubadour. Then Laddie spelled one
word two different ways; and the Princess went him one better,
for she spelled another three.
They spelled from the Bible, Nebuchadnezzar, Potiphar, Peleg,
Belshazzar, Abimelech, and a host of others I never heard the
minister preach about. Then they did the most dreadful thing of
all. "Broom," pronounced the teacher, and I began mentally,
b-r- o-o-m, but Laddie spelled "b-r-o-u-g-h-a-m," and
I stared at him in a daze. A second later Miss Amelia gave out
"Beecham" to the Princess, and again I tried it, b-e-e-c-h,
but the Princess was spelling "B-e-a-u-c-h-a-m-p," and
I almost fell from the window.
They kept that up until I was nearly crazy with nervousness; I
forgot I was half frozen. I pulled Laddie's sleeve and whispered
in his ear: "Do you think she'll cry if you beat her?"
I was half crying myself, the strain had been awful. I was torn
between these dearest loves of mine.
"Seen me have any chance to beat her?" retorted Laddie.
Miss Amelia seemed to have used most of her books, and at last
picked up an old geography and began giving out points around
the coast, while Laddie and the Princess took turns snatching
the words from her mouth and spelling them. Father often did that,
so Laddie was safe there. They were just going it when Miss Amelia
pronounced, "Terra del Fuego," to the Princess. "T-e-r-r-
a, Terra, d-e-l, del, F-i-e-u-g-o," spelled the Princess,
and sat down suddenly in the midst of a mighty groan from her
side, swelled by a wail from one little home district deserter.
"Next!" called Miss Amelia.
"T-e-r-r-a, Terra, d-e-l, del, F-e-u-g-o," spelled Laddie.
"Wrong!" wailed Miss Amelia, and our side breathed one
big groan in concert, and I lifted up my voice in that also. Then
every one laughed and pretended they didn't care, and the Princess
came over and shook hands with Laddie, and Laddie said to Miss
Amelia:
"Just let me take that book a minute until I see how the
thing really does go." It was well done and satisfied the
crowd, which clapped and cheered; but as I had heard him spell
it many, many times for father, he didn't fool me.
Laddie and the Princess drew slips for the book and it fell to
her. He was so pleased he kissed me as he lifted me down and never
noticed I was so stiff I could scarcely stand--and I did fall
twice going to the sleigh. My bed was warm and my room was warm,
but I chilled the night through and until the next afternoon,
when I grew so faint and sleepy I crept to Miss Amelia's desk,
half dead with fright--it was my first trip to ask an excuse--and
begged: "Oh teacher, I'm so sick. Please let me go home."
I think one glance must have satisfied her that it was true, for
she said very kindly that I might, and she would send Leon along
to take care of me. But my troubles were only half over when I
had her consent. It was very probable I would be called a baby
and sent back when I reached home, so I refused company and started
alone. It seemed a mile past the cemetery. I was so tired I stopped,
and leaning against the fence, peeped through at the white stones
and the whiter mounds they covered, and wondered how my mother
would feel if she were compelled to lay me beside the two little
whooping cough and fever sisters already sleeping there. I decided
that it would be so very dreadful, that the tears began to roll
down my cheeks and freeze before they fell.
Down the Big Hill slowly I went. How bare it looked then! Only
leafless trees and dried seed pods rattling on the bushes, the
sand frozen, and not a rush to be seen for the thick blanket of
snow. A few rods above the bridge was a footpath, smooth and well
worn, that led down to the creek, beaten by the feet of children
who raced it every day and took a running slide across the ice.
I struck into the path as always; but I was too stiff to run,
for I tried. I walked on the ice, and being almost worn out, sat
on the bridge and fell to watching the water bubbling under the
glassy crust. I was so dull a horse's feet struck the bridge before
I heard the bells--for I had bells in my ears that day--and when
I looked up it was the Princess--the Princess in her red dress
and furs, with a silk hood instead of her hat, her sleigh like
a picture, with a buffalo robe, that it was whispered about the
country, cost over a hundred dollars, and her thoroughbred mare
Maud dancing and prancing. "Bless me! Is it you, Little Sister?"
she asked. "Shall I give you a ride home?"
Before I could scarcely realize she was there, I was beside her
and she was tucking the fine warm robe over me. I lifted a pair
of dull eyes to her face.
"Oh Princess, I am so glad you came," I said. "I
don't think I could have gone another step if I had frozen on
the bridge."
The Princess bent to look in my face. "Why, you poor child!"
She exclaimed, "you're white as death! Where are you ill?"
I leaned on her shoulder, though ordinarily I would not have offered
to touch her first, and murmured: "I am not ill, outdoors,
only dull, sleepy, and freezing with the cold."
"It was that window!" she exclaimed. "I thought
of it, but I trusted Laddie."
That roused me a little.
"Oh Princess," I cried, "you mustn't blame Laddie!
I knew it was too cold, but I wouldn't tell him, because if he
put me down I couldn't see you, and we thought, but for your eyes
being softer, you looked just like a cardinal."
The Princess hugged me close and laughed merrily. "You darling!"
she cried.
Then she shook me up sharply: "Don't you dare go to sleep!"
she said. "I must take you home first."
Once there she quieted my mother's alarm, put me to bed, drove
three miles for Dr. Fenner and had me started nicely on the road
to a month of lung fever, before she left. In my delirium I spelled
volumes; and the miracle of it was I never missed a word until
I came to "Terra del Fuego," and there I covered my
lips and stoutly insisted that it was the Princess' secret.
To keep me from that danger sleep on the road, she shook me up
and asked about the spelling bee. I thought it was the grandest
thing I had ever seen in my life, and I told her so. She gathered
me close and whispered: "Tell me something, Little Sister,
please."
The minx! She knew I thought that a far finer title than hers.
"Would Laddie care?" I questioned.
"Not in the least!"
"Well then, I will."
"Can Laddie spell `Terra del Fuego?'" she whispered.
I nodded.
"Are you sure?"
"I have heard him do it over and over for father."
The Princess forgot I was so sick, forgot her horse, forgot everything.
She threw her head back and her hands up, until her horse stopped
in answer to the loosened line, and she laughed and laughed. She
laughed until peal on peal re-echoed from our Big Woods clear
across the west eighty. She laughed until her ringing notes set
my slow pulses on fire, and started my numbed brain in one last
effort. I stood up and took her lovely face between my palms,
turning it until I could see whether the thought that had come
to me showed in her eyes, and it did.
"Oh you darling, splendid Princess!" I cried. "You
missed it on purpose to let Laddie beat! You can spell it too!"
CHAPTER XII
The Horn of the Hunter
"The dusky night rides down the sky,
And ushers in the morn:
The hounds all join in glorious cry,
The huntsman winds his horn."
Leon said our house reminded him of the mourners' bench before
any one had "come through." He said it was so deadly
with Sally and Shelley away, that he had a big notion to marry
Susie Fall and bring her over to liven things up a little. Mother
said she thought that would be a good idea, and Leon started in
the direction of Falls', but he only went as far as Deams'. When
he came back he had a great story to tell about dogs chasing their
sheep, and foxes taking their geese. Father said sheep were only
safe behind securely closed doors, especially in winter, and geese
also. Leon said every one hadn't as big a barn as ours, and father
said there was nothing to prevent any man from building the sized
barn he needed to shelter his creatures in safety and comfort,
if he wanted to dig in and earn the money to put it up. There
was no answer to that, and Mr. Leon didn't try to make any. Mostly,
he said something to keep on talking, but sometimes he saw when
he had better quit.
I was having a good time, myself. Of course when the fever was
the worst, and when I never had been sick before, it was pretty
bad, but as soon as I could breathe all right, there was no pain
to speak of, and every one was so good to me. I could have Bobby
on the footboard of my bed as long as I wanted him, and he would
crow whenever I told him to. I kept Grace Greenwood beside me,
and spoiled her dress making her take some of each dose of medicine
I did, but Shelley wrote that she was saving goods and she would
make her another as soon as she came home. I made mother put red
flannel on Grace's chest and around her neck, until I could hardly
find her mouth when she had to take her medicine, but she swallowed
it down all right, or she got her nose held, until she did. She
was not nearly so sick as I was, though. We both grew better together,
and, when Dr. Fenner brought me candy, she had her share.
When I began to get well it was lovely. Such toast, chicken broth,
and squirrels, as mother always had. I even got the chicken liver,
oranges, and all of them gave me everything they had that I wanted--I
must almost have died to make them act like that!
Laddie and father would take me up wrapped in blankets and hold
me to rest my back. Father would rock me and sing about "Young
Johnny," just as he had when I was little. We always laughed
at it, we knew it was a fool song, but we liked it. The tune was
smooth and sleepy-like and the words went:
"One day young Johnny, he did go,
Way down in the meadow for to mow.
Li-tu-di-nan-incty, tu-di-nan-incty, noddy O!
He scarce had mowed twice round the field,
When a pesky sarpent bit him on the heel,
Li-tu-di-nan-incty, tu-di-nan-incty, noddy O!
He threw the scythe upon the ground,
An' shut his eyes, and looked all round,
Li-tu-di-nan-incty, tu-di-nan-incty, noddy O!
He took the sarpent in his hand,
And then ran home to Molly Bland,
Li-tu-di-nan-incty, tu-di-nan-incty, noddy O!
O Molly dear, and don't you see,
This pesky sarpent that bit me?
Li-tu-di-nan-incty, tu-di-nan-incty, noddy O!
O Johnny dear, why did you go,
Way down in the meadow fot to mow?
Li-tu-di-nan-incty, tu-di-nan-incty, noddy O!
O Molly dear, I thought you knowed
'Twas daddy's grass, and it must be mowed,
Li-tu-di-nan-incty, tu-di-n an-incty, noddy O!
Now all young men a warning take,
And don't get bit by a rattlesnake.
Li-tu-di-nan-incty, tu-di-nan-incty, noddy O!"
All of them told me stories, read to me, and Frank, one of my
big gone-away brothers, sent me the prettiest little book. It
had a green cover with gold on the back, and it was full of stories
and poems, not so very hard, because I could read every one of
them, with help on a few words. The piece I liked best was poetry.
If it hadn't been for that, I'm afraid, I was having such a good
time, I'd have lain there until I forgot how to walk, with all
of them trying to see who could be nicest to me. The ones who
really could, were Laddie and the Princess, except mother. Laddie
lifted me most carefully, the Princess told the best stories,
but after all, if the burning and choking grew so bad I could
scarcely stand it, mother could lay her hand on my head and say,
"Poor child," in a way that made me work to keep on
breathing. Maybe I only THOUGHT I loved Laddie best. I guess if
I had been forced to take my choice when I had the fever, I'd
have stuck pretty tight to mother. Even Dr. Fenner said if I pulled
through she'd have to make me. I might have been lying there yet,
if it hadn't been for the book Frank sent me, with the poetry
piece in it. It began:
"Somewhere on a sunny bank, buttercups are bright,
Somewhere 'mid the frozen grass, peeps the daisy white."
I read that so often I could repeat it quite as well with the
book shut as open, and every time I read it, I wanted outdoors
worse. In one place it ran:
"Welcome, yellow buttercups, welcome daisies white,
Ye are in my spirit visioned a delight.
Coming in the springtime of sunny hours to tell,
Speaking to our hearts of Him who doeth all things well."
That piece helped me out of bed, and the blue gander screaming
opened the door. It was funny about it too. I don't know WHY it
worked on me that way; it just kept singing in my heart all day,
and I could shut my eyes and go to sleep seeing buttercups in
a gold sheet all over our Big Hill, although there never was a
single one there; and meadows full of daisies, which were things
father said were a pest he couldn't tolerate, because they spread
so, and he grubbed up every one he found. Yet that piece filled
our meadow until I imagined I could roll on daisies. They might
be a pest to farmers, but sheets of them were pretty good if you
were burning with fever. Between the buttercups and the daisies
I left the bed with a light head and wobbly legs.
Of course I wasn't an idiot. I knew when I looked from our south
window exactly what was to be seen. The person who wrote that
piece was the idiot. It sang and sounded pretty, and it pulled
you up and pushed you out, but really it was a fool thing, as
I very well knew. I couldn't imagine daisies peeping through frozen
grass. Any baby should have known they bloomed in July. Skunk
cabbage always came first, and hepatica. If I had looked from
any of our windows and seen daisies and buttercups in March, I'd
have fallen over with the shock. I knew there would be frozen
brown earth, last year's dead leaves, caved-in apple and potato
holes, the cabbage row almost gone, puddles of water and mud everywhere,
and I would hear geese scream and hens sing. And yet that poem
kept pulling and pulling, and I was happy as a queen--I wondered
if they were for sure; mother had doubts--the day I was wrapped
in shawls and might sit an hour in the sun on the top board of
the back fence, where I could see the barn, orchard, the creek
and the meadow, as you never could in summer because of the leaves.
I wasn't looking for buttercups and daisies either. I mighty well
knew there wouldn't be any.
But the sun was there. A little taste of willow, oak and maple
was in the air. You could see the buds growing fat too, and you
could smell them. If you opened your eyes and looked in any direction
you could see blue sky, big, ragged white clouds, bare trees,
muddy earth with grassy patches, and white spots on the shady
sides where unmelted snow made the icy feel in the air, even when
the sun shone. You couldn't hear yourself think for the clatter
of the turkeys, ganders, roosters, hens, and everything that had
a voice. I was so crazy with it I could scarcely hang to the fence;
I wanted to get down and scrape my wings like the gobbler, and
scream louder than the gander, and crow oftener than the rooster.
There was everything all ice and mud. They would have frozen,
if they hadn't been put in a house at night, and starved, if they
hadn't been fed; they were not at the place where they could hunt
and scratch, and not pay any attention to feeding time, because
of being so bursting full. They had no nests and babies to rejoice
over. But there they were! And so was I! Buttercups and daisies
be-hanged! Ice and mud really! But if you breathed that air, and
shut your eyes, north, you could see blue flags, scarlet lilies,
buttercups, cattails and redbirds sailing over them; east, there
would be apple bloom and soft grass, cowslips, and bubbling water,
robins, thrushes, and bluebirds; and south, waving corn with wild
rose and alder borders, and sparrows, and larks on every fence
rider.
Right there I got that daisy thing figured out. It wasn't that
there were or ever would be daisies and buttercups among the frozen
grass; but it was forever and always that when this FEEL came
into the air, you knew they were COMING. THAT was what ailed the
gander and the gobbler. They hadn't a thing to be thankful for
yet, but something inside them was swelling and pushing because
of what was coming. I felt exactly as they did, because I wanted
to act the same way, but I'd been sick enough to know that I'd
better be thankful for the chance to sit on the fence, and think
about buttercups and daisies. Really, one old brown and purple
skunk cabbage with a half-frozen bee buzzing over it, or a few
forlorn little spring beauties, would have set me wild, and when
a lark really did go over, away up high, and a dove began to coo
in the orchard, if Laddie hadn't come for me, I would have fallen
from the fence.
I simply had to get well and quickly too, for the wonderful time
was beginning. It was all very well to lie in bed when there was
nothing else to do, and every one would pet me and give me things;
but here was maple syrup time right at the door, and the sugar
camp most fun alive; here was all the neighbourhood crazy mad
at the foxes, and planning a great chase covering a circuit of
miles before the ground thawed; here was Easter and all the children
coming, except Shelley--again, it would cost too much for only
one day--and with everything beginning to hum, I found out there
would be more amusement outdoors than inside. That was how I came
to study out the daisy piece. There was nothing in the silly,
untrue lines: the pull and tug was in what they made you think
of.
I was still so weak I had to take a nap every day, so I wasn't
sleepy as early at night, and I heard father and mother talk over
a lot of things before they went to bed. After they mentioned
it, I remembered that we hadn't received nearly so many letters
from Shelley lately, and mother seldom found time to read them
aloud during the day and forgot, or her eyes were tired, at night.
"Are you worrying about Shelley?" asked father one night.
"Yes, I am," answered mother.
"What do you think is the trouble?"
"I'm afraid things are not coming out with Mr. Paget as she
hoped."
"If they don't, she is going to be unhappy?"
"That's putting it mildly."
"Well, I was doubtful in the beginning."
"Now hold on," said mother. "So was I; but what
are you going to do? I can't go through the world with my girls,
and meet men for them. I trained them just as carefully as possible
before I started them out; that was all I could do. Shelley knows
when a man appears clean, decent and likable. She knows when his
calling is respectable. She knows when his speech is proper, his
manners correct, and his ways attractive. She found this man all
of these things, and she liked him accordingly. At Christmas she
told me about it freely."
"Have you any idea how far the thing has gone?"
"She said then that she had seen him twice a week for two
months.
He seemed very fond of her. He had told her he cared more for
her than any girl he ever had met, and he had asked her to come
here this summer and pay us a visit, so she wanted to know if
he might."
"Of course you told her yes."
"Certainly I told her yes. I wish now we'd saved money and
you'd gone to visit her and met him when she first wrote of him.
You could have found out who and what he was, and with your experience
you might have pointed out signs that would have helped her to
see, before it was too late."
"What do you think is the trouble?"
"I wish I knew! She simply is failing to mention him in her
letters; all the joy of living has dropped from them, she merely
writes about her work; and now she is beginning to complain of
homesickness and to say that she doesn't know how to endure the
city any longer. There's something wrong."
"Had I better go now?"
"Too late!" said mother, and I could hear her throat
go wrong and the choke come into her voice. "She is deeply
in love with him; he hasn't found in her what he desires; probably
he is not coming any more; what could you do?"
"I could go and see if there is anything I could do?"
"She may not want you. I'll write her to-morrow and suggest
that you or Laddie pay her a visit and learn what she thinks."
"All right," said father.
He kissed her and went to sleep, but mother was awake yet, and
she got up and stood looking down at the church and the two little
white gravestones she could see from her window, until I thought
she would freeze, and she did nearly, for her hands were cold
and the tears falling when she examined my covers, and felt my
face and hands before she went to bed. My, but the mother of a
family like ours is never short of a lot of things to think of!
I had a new one myself. Now what do you suppose there was about
that man?
Of course after having lived all her life with father and Laddie,
Shelley would know how a man should look, and act to be right;
and this one must have been right to make her bloom out in winter
the way other things do in spring; and now what could be wrong?
Maybe city girls were prettier than Shelley. But all women were
made alike on the outside, and that was as far as you could see.
You couldn't find out whether they had pure blood, true hearts,
or clean souls. No girl could be so very much prettier than Shelley;
they simply were not made that way. She knew how to behave; she
had it beaten into her, like all of us. And she knew her books,
what our schools could teach her, and Groveville, and Lucy, who
had city chances for years, and there never was a day at our house
when books and papers were not read and discussed, and your spelling
was hammered into you standing in rows against the wall, and memory
tests--what on earth could be the matter with Shelley that a man
who could make her look and act as she did at Christmas, would
now make her unhappy? Sometimes I wanted to be grown up dreadfully,
and again, times like that, I wished my bed could stay in mother's
room, and I could creep behind father's paper and go to sleep
between his coat and vest, and have him warm my feet in his hands
forever.
This world was too much for me. I never worked and worried in
all my life as I had over Laddie and the Princess, and Laddie
said I, myself, never would know how I had helped him. Of course
nothing was settled; he had to try to make her love him by teaching
her how lovable he was. We knew, because we always had known him,
but she was a stranger and had to learn. It was mighty fine for
him that he could force his way past the dogs, Thomas, the other
men, her half-crazy father, and through the locked door, and go
there to try to make her see, on Sunday nights, and week days,
every single chance he could invent, and he could think up more
reasons for going to Pryors' than mother could for putting out
an extra wash.
Now just as I got settled a little about him, and we could see
they really wanted him there, at least the Princess and her mother
did, and Mr. Pryor must have been fairly decent or Laddie never
would have gone; and the Princess came to our house to bring me
things to eat, and ask how mother was, and once to learn how she
embroidered Sally's wedding chemise, and social things like that;
and when father acted as if he liked her so much he hadn't a word
to say, and mother seemed to begin to feel as if Laddie and the
Princess could be trusted to fix it up about God; and the old
mystery didn't matter after all; why, here Shelley popped up with
another mystery, and it belonged to us. But whatever ailed that
man I couldn't possibly think. It had got to be him, for Shelley
was so all right at Christmas, it made her look that pretty we
hardly knew her.
I was thinking about her until I scarcely could study my lessons,
so I could recite to Laddie at night, and not fall so far behind
at school. Miss Amelia offered to hear me, but I just begged Laddie,
and father could see that he taught me fifty things in a lesson
that you could tell to look at Miss Amelia, she never knew. Why,
he couldn't hear me read:
"We charged upon a flock of geese,
And put them all to flight
Except one sturdy gander
That thought to show us fight,"--
without teaching me that the oldest picture in all the world was
made of a row of geese, some of which were kinds we then had--the
earth didn't seem so old when you thought of that--and how a flock
of geese once wakened an army and saved a city, and how far wild
geese could fly without alighting in migration, and everything
you could think of about geese, only he didn't know why eating
the same grass made feathers on geese and wool on sheep. Anyway,
Miss Amelia never told you a word but what was in the book, and
how to read and spell it. May said that father was very much disappointed
in her, and he was never going to hire another teacher until he
met and talked with her, no matter what kind of letters she could
send. He was not going to help her get a summer school, and O
my soul! I hope no one does, for if they do, I have to go, and
I'd rather die than go to school in the summer.
Leon came in about that time with more fox stories. Been in Jacob
Hood's chicken house and taken his best Dorking rooster, and father
said it was time to do something. He never said a word so long
as they took Deams', except they should have barn room for their
geese, but when anything was the matter at Hoods' father and mother
started doing something the instant they heard of it. So father
and Laddie rode around the neighbourhood and talked it over, and
the next night they had a meeting at our schoolhouse; men for
miles came, and they planned a regular old- fashioned foxchase,
and every one was wild about it.
Laddie told it at Pryors' and the Princess wanted to go; she asked
to go with him, and if you please, Mr. Pryor wanted to go too,
and their Thomas. They attended the meeting to tell how people
chase foxes in England, where they seem to hunt them most of the
time. Father said: "Thank God for even a foxchase, if it
will bring Mr. Pryor among his neighbours and help him to act
sensibly." They are going away fifteen miles or farther,
and form a big circle of men from all directions, some walking
in a line, and others riding to bring back any foxes that escape,
and with dogs, and guns, they are going to rout out every one
they can find, and kill them so they won't take the geese, little
pigs, lambs, and Hoods' Dorking rooster. Laddie had a horn that
Mr. Pryor gave him when he told him this country was showing signs
of becoming civilized at last; but Leon grinned and said he'd
beat that.
Then when you wanted him, he was in the wood house loft at work,
but father said he couldn't get into mischief there. He should
have seen that churn when it was full of wedding breakfast! We
ate for a week afterward, until things were all moulded, and we
didn't dare anymore. One night I begged so hard and promised so
faithfully he trusted me; he did often, after I didn't tell about
the Station; and I went to the loft with him, and watched him
work an hour. He had a hollow limb about six inches through and
fourteen long. He had cut and burned it to a mere shell, and then
he had scraped it with glass inside and out, until it shone like
polished horn. He had shaved the wool from a piece of sheepskin,
soaked, stretched, and dried it, and then fitted it over one end
of the drumlike thing he had made, and tacked and bound it in
a little groove at the edge. He put the skin on damp so he could
stretch it tight. Then he punched a tiny hole in the middle, and
pulled through it, down inside the drum, a sheepskin thong rolled
in resin, with a knot big enough to hold it, and not tear the
head. Then he took it under his arm and we slipped across the
orchard below the Station, and went into the hollow and tried
it.
It worked! I almost fell dead with the first frightful sound.
It just bellowed and roared. In only a little while he found different
ways to make it sound by his manner of working the tongue. A long,
steady, even pull got that kind of a roar. A short, quick one
made it bark. A pull half the length of the thong, a pause, and
another pull, made it sound like a bark and a yelp. To pull hard
and quick, made it go louder, and soft and easy made it whine.
Before he had tried it ten minutes he could do fifty things with
it that would almost scare the livers out of those nasty old foxes
that were taking every one's geese, Dorking roosters, and even
baby lambs and pigs. Of course people couldn't stand that; something
had to be done!
Even in the Bible it says, "Beware of the little foxes that
spoil the vines," and geese, especially blue ones, Dorking
roosters, lambs, and pigs were much more valuable than mere vines;
so Leon made that awful thing to scare the foxes from their holes
that's in the Bible too, about the holes I mean, not the scaring.
I wanted Leon to slip to the back door and make the dumb-bell--
that's what he called it; if I had been naming it I would have
called it the thunder-bell--go; but he wouldn't. He said he didn't
propose to work as he had, and then have some one find out, and
fix one like it. He said he wouldn't let it make a sound until
the night before the chase, and then he'd raise the dead. I don't
know about the dead; but it was true of the living. Father went
a foot above his chair and cried: "Whoo- pee!" All of
us, even I, when I was waiting for it, screamed as if Paddy Ryan
raved at the door. Then Leon came in and showed us, and every
one wanted to work the dumb-bell, even mother. Leon marched around
and showed off; he looked "See the conquering hero comes,"
all over. I never felt worse about being made into a girl than
I did that night.
I couldn't sleep for excitement, and mother said I might as well,
for it would be at least one o'clock before they would round-up
in our meadow below the barn. All the neighbours were to shut
up their stock, tie their dogs, or lead them with chains, if they
took them, so when the foxes were surrounded, they could catch
them alive, and save their skins. I wondered how some of those
chasing people, even Laddie, Leon, and father--think of that!
father was going too--I wondered how they would have liked to
have had something as much bigger than they were, as they were
bigger than the foxes, chase them with awful noises, guns and
dogs, and catch them alive--to save their skins. No wonder I couldn't
sleep! I guess the foxes wouldn't either, if they had known what
was coming. Maybe hereafter the mean old things would eat rabbits
and weasels, and leave the Dorking roosters alone.
May, Candace, and Miss Amelia were going to Deams' to wait, and
when the round-up formed a solid line, they planned to stand outside,
and see the sport. If they had been the foxes, maybe they wouldn't
have thought it was so funny; but of course, people just couldn't
have even their pigs and lambs taken. We had to have wool to spin
yarn for our stockings, weave our blankets and coverlids, and
our Sunday winter dresses of white flannel with narrow black crossbars
were from the backs of our own sheep, and we had to have ham to
fry with eggs, and boil for Sunday night suppers, and bacon to
cook the greens with--of course it was all right.
Before it was near daylight I heard Laddie making the kitchen
fire, so father got right up, Leon came down, and all of them
went to the barn to do the feeding. I wanted to get up too, but
mother said I should stay in bed until the house was warm, because
if I took more cold I'd be sick again. At breakfast May asked
father about when they should start for Deams' to be ahead of
the chase, and he said by ten o'clock at least; because a fox
driven mad by pursuit, dogs, and noise, was a very dangerous thing,
and a bite might make hy----the same thing as a mad dog. He said
our back barn door opening from the threshing floor would afford
a fine view of the meet, but Candace, May, and Miss Amelia wanted
to be closer. I might go with them if they would take good care
of me, and they promised to; but when the time came to start,
there was such a queer feeling inside me, I thought maybe it was
more fever, and with mother would be the best place for me, so
I said I wanted to watch from the barn. Father thought that was
a capital idea, because I would be on the east side, where there
would be no sun and wind, and it would be perfectly safe; also,
I really could see what was going on better from that height than
on the ground.
The sun was going to shine, but it hadn't peeped above Deams'
strawstack when father on his best saddle horse, and Laddie on
Flos, rode away, their eyes shining, their faces red, their blood
pounding so it made their voices sound excited and different.
Leon was to go on foot. Father said he would ride a horse to death.
He just grinned and never made a word of complaint. Seemed funny
for him.
"I was over having a little confidential chat with my horse,
last night," he said, "and next year we'll be in the
chase, and we'll show you how to take fences, and cut curves;
just you wait!"
"Leon, DON'T build so on that horse," wailed mother.
"I'm sure that money was stolen like ours, and the owner
will claim it! I feel it in my bones!"
"Aw, shucks!" said Leon. "That money is mine. He
won't either!"
When they started, father took Leon behind him to ride as far
as the county line. He said he would go slowly, and it wouldn't
hurt the horse, but Leon slipped off at Hoods', and said he'd
go with their boys, so father let him, because light as Leon was,
both of them were quite a load for one horse. Laddie went to ride
with the Princess. We could see people moving around in Pryors'
barnyard when our men started. Candace washed, Miss Amelia wiped
the dishes, May swept, and all of them made the beds, and then
they went to Deams', while I stayed with mother. When she thought
it was time, she bundled me up warmly, and I went to the barn.
Father had the east doors standing open for me, so I could sit
in the sun, hang my feet against the warm boards, and see every
inch of our meadow where the meet was to be. I was really too
warm there, and had to take off the scarf, untie my hood, and
unbutton my coat.
It was a trifle muddy, but the frost had not left the ground yet,
the sparrows were singing fit to burst, so were the hens. I didn't
care much for the music of the hen, but I could see she meant
well. She liked her nest quite as much as the red velvet bird
with black wings, or the bubbly yellow one, and as for baby chickens,
from the first peep they beat a little naked, blind, wobbly tree
bird, so any hen had a right to sing for joy because she was going
to be the mother of a large family of them. A hen had something
was going to be the mother of a large family of them. A hen had
something to sing about all right, and so had we, when we thought
of poached eggs and fried chicken. When I remembered them, I saw
that it was no wonder the useful hen warbled so proudlike; but
that was all nonsense, for I don't suppose a hen ever tasted poached
eggs, and surely she wouldn't be happy over the prospect of being
fried. Maybe one reason she sang was because she didn't know what
was coming; I hardly think she'd be so tuneful if she did.
Sometimes the geese, shut in the barn, raised an awful clatter,
and the horses and cattle complained about being kept from the
sunshine and fresh air. You couldn't blame them. It was a lovely
day, and the big upper door the pleasantest place. I didn't care
if the fox hunters never came, there was so much to see, hear,
and smell. Everything was busy making signs of spring, and one
could become tired of ice and snow after a while, and so hungry
for summer that those first days which were just hints of what
was coming were almost better than the real thing when it arrived.
Bud perfume was stronger than last week, many doves and bluebirds
were calling, and three days more of such sunshine would make
cross-country riding too muddy to be pleasant. I sat there thinking;
grown people never know how much children do think, they have
so much time, and so many bothersome things to study out. I heard
it behind me, a long, wailing, bellowing roar, and my hood raised
right up with my hair. I was in the middle of the threshing floor
in a second, in another at the little west door, cut into the
big one, opening it a tiny crack to take a peep, and see how close
they were.
I could see nothing, but I heard a roar of dreadful sound steadily
closing in a circle around me. No doubt the mean old foxes wished
then they had let the Dorking roosters alone. Closer it came and
more dreadful. Never again did I want to hear such sounds coming
at me; even when I knew what was making them. And then away off,
beyond Pryors', and Hoods', and Dovers', I could see a line of
tiny specks coming toward me, and racing flying things that must
have been people on horses riding back and forth to give the foxes
no chance to find a hiding place. No chance! Laddie and the Princess,
Mr. Pryor and father, and all of them were after the bad old foxes;
and they were going to get them; because they'd have no chance--Not
with a solid line of men with raving dogs surrounding them, and
people on horseback racing after them, no! the foxes would wish
now that they had left the pigs and lambs alone. In that awful
roaring din, they would wish, Oh how they would wish, they were
birds and could fly! Fly back to their holes like the Bible said
they had, where maybe they LIKED to live, and no doubt they had
little foxes there, that would starve when their mammies were
caught alive, to save their skins.
To save their skins! I could hear myself breathe, and feel my
teeth click, and my knees knock together. And then! Oh dear! There
they came across our cornfield. Two of them! And they could fly,
almost. At least you could scarcely see that they touched the
ground. The mean old things were paying up for the pigs and lambs
now. Through the fence, across the road, straight toward me they
came. Almost red backs, nearly white beneath, long flying tails,
beautiful pointed ears, and long tongues, fire red, hanging from
their open mouths; their sleek sides pulsing, and that awful din
coming through the woods behind them. One second, the first paused
to glance toward either side, and threw back its head to listen.
What it saw, and heard, showed it. I guess then it was sorry it
ever took people's ham, and their greens, and their blankets;
and it could see and hear that it had no chance--to save its skin.
"Oh Lord! Dear Lord! Help me!" I prayed.
It had to be me, there was no one else. I never had opened the
big doors; I thought it took a man, but when I pushed with all
my might--and maybe if the hairs of our heads were numbered, and
the sparrows counted, there would be a little mercy for the foxes--I
asked for help; maybe I got it. The doors went back, and I climbed
up the ladder to the haymow a few steps and clung there, praying
with all my might: "Make them come in! Dear Lord, make them
come in! Give them a chance! Help them to save their skins, O
Lord!"
With a whizz and a flash one went past me, skimmed the cider press,
and rushed across the hay; then the other. I fell to the floor
and the next thing I knew the doors were shut, and I was back
at my place. I just went down in a heap and leaned against the
wall and shook, and then I laughed and said: "Thank you,
Lord! Thank you for helping with the door! And the foxes! The
beautiful little red and white foxes! They've got their chance!
They'll save their skins! They'll get back to their holes and
their babies! Praise the Lord!"
I knew when I heard that come out, that it was exactly like my
father said it when Amos Hurd was redeemed. I never knew father
to say it so impressively before, because Amos had been so bad,
people really were afraid of him, and father said if once he got
started right, he would go at it just as hard as he had gone at
wrongdoing. I suppose I shouldn't have said it about a fox, when
there were the Dorkings, and ham, and white wool dresses, and
all that, but honestly, I couldn't remember that I cared particularly
whether Amos Hurd was redeemed or not; he was always lovely to
children; while I never in all my life had wanted anything worse
than I wanted those foxes to save their skins. I could hear them
pant like run out dogs; and I could hear myself, and I hadn't
been driven from my home and babies, maybe--and chased miles and
miles, either.
Then I just shook. They came pounding, roaring and braying right
around the barn, and down the lane. The little door flew open
and a strange man stuck in his head.
"Shut that door!" I screamed. "You'll let them
in on me, and they bite! They're poison! They'll kill me!"
I hadn't even thought of it before.
"See any foxes?" cried the man.
"Two crossed our barnyard headed that way!" I cried
back, pointing east. "Shut the door!"
The man closed it and ran calling as he went: "It's all right!
They crossed the barnyard. We've got them!"
I began to dance and beat my hands, and then I stopped and held
my breath. They were passing, and the noise was dreadful. They
struck the sides of the barn, poked around the strawstack, and
something made me look up, and at the edge of the hay stood a
fox ready to spring. If it did, it would go from the door, right
into the midst thereof. Nothing but my red hood sailing straight
at it, and a yell I have, drove it back. No one hit the barn again,
the line closed up, and went on at a run now, they were so anxious
to meet and see what they had. Then came the beat of hoofs and
I saw that all the riders had dropped back, and were behind the
line of people on foot. I watched Laddie as he flew past waving
to me, and I grabbed my scarf to wave at him. The Princess flashed
by so swiftly I couldn't see how she looked, and then I heard
a voice I knew cry: "Ep! Ep! Over Lad!" And I almost
fell dead where I stood. Mr. Pryor sailed right over the barnyard
fence into the cornfield, ripping that dumb-bell as he went, and
neck and neck, even with him, on one of his finest horses, was
our Leon. His feet were in the stirrups, he had the reins tight,
he almost stood as he arose, his face was crimson, his head bare,
his white hair flying, the grandest sight you ever saw. At the
top of my voice I screamed after them, "Ep! Ep! Over lad!"
and then remembered and looked to see if I had to chase back the
foxes, but they didn't mind only me, after what they had been
through. Then I sat down suddenly again.
Well! What would father think of that! Leon kill a horse of ours
indeed! There he was on one of Mr. Pryor's, worth as much as six
of father's no doubt, flying over fences, and the creek was coming,
and the bank was steep behind the barn. I was up again straining
to see.
"Ep! Ep! Over!" rang the cry.
There they went! Laddie and the Princess too. I'll never spend
another cent on paper dolls, candy, raisins, or oranges. I'll
give all I have to help Leon buy his horse; then I'm going to
begin saving for mine.
The line closed up, a solid wall of men with sticks, clubs and
guns; the dogs ranged outside, and those on horseback stopped
where they could see best; and inside, raced back and forth, and
round and round, living creatures. I couldn't count they moved
so, but even at that distance I could see that some were poor
little cotton tails. The scared things! A whack over the head,
a backward toss, and the dogs were mouthing them. The long tailed,
sleek, gracefully moving ones, they were foxes, the foxes driven
from their holes, and nothing on earth could save their skins
for them now; those men meant to have them.
I pulled the doors shut suddenly. I was so sick I could scarcely
stand. I had to work, but at last I pushed the west doors open
again. I don't think the Lord helped me any that time, for I knew
what it took--before, they just went. Or maybe He did help me
quite as much, but I had harder work to do my share, because I
felt so dizzy and ill. Anyway, they opened. Then I climbed the
upright ladder to the top beam, walked it to the granary, and
there I danced, pounded and yelled so that the foxes jumped from
the hay, leaped lightly to the threshing floor, and stood looking
and listening. I gave them time to hear where the dreadful racket
was, and then I jumped to the hay and threw the pitchfork at them.
It came down smash! and both of them sprang from the door. When
I got down the ladder and where I could see, they were so rested
they were hiking across the cornfield like they never had raced
a step before; and as the clamour went up behind me, that probably
meant the first fox had lost its beautiful red and white skin,
they reached our woods in safety. The doors went shut easier,
and I started to the house crying like any blubbering baby; but
when mother turned from the east window, and I noticed her face,
I forgot the foxes.
"You saw Leon!" I cried.
"That I did!" she exulted, rocking on her toes the same
as she does at the Meeting House when she is going to cry, "Glory!"
any minute. "That I did! Ah! the brave little chap! Ah! the
fine fellow!"
Her cheeks were the loveliest pink, and her eyes blazed. I scarcely
knew her.
"What will father say?"
"If his father isn't every particle as proud of him as I
am this day, I've a big disappointment coming," she answered.
"If Mr. Pryor chose to let him take that fine horse, and
taught him how to ride it, father should be glad."
"If he'd gone into the creek, you wouldn't feel so fine."
"Ah! but he didn't! He didn't! He stuck to the saddle and
sailed over in one grand, long sweep! It was fine! I hope--to
my soul, I hope his father saw it!"
"He did!" I said. "He did! He was about halfway
down the lane. He was where he could see fine."
"You didn't notice----?"
"I was watching if Leon went under. What if he had, mother?"
"They'd have taken him out, and brought him to me, and I'd
have worked with all the strength and skill God has given me,
and if it were possible to us, he would be saved, and if it were
not, it would be a proud moment for a woman to offer a boy like
that to the God who gave him. One would have nothing to be ashamed
of!"
"Could you do it, like you are now, and not cry, mother?"
I asked wonderingly.
"Patience no!" said she. "Before long you will
find out, child, that the fountain head of tears and laughter
lies in the same spot, deep in a woman's heart. Men were made
for big things! They must brave the wild animals, the Indians,
fight the battles, ride the races, till the fields, build the
homes. In the making of a new country men must have the thing
in their souls that carried Leon across the creek. If he had checked
that horse and gone to the ford, I would have fallen where I stood!"
"Father crossed the ford!"
"True! But that's different. He never had a chance at a horse
like that! He never had time for fancy practice, and his nose
would have been between the pages of a book if he had. But remember
this! Your father's hand has never faltered, and his aim has never
failed. All of us are here, safe and comfortable, through him.
It was your father who led us across the wilderness, and fended
from us the wildcat, wolf, and Indian. He built this house, cleared
this land, and gave to all of us the thing we love. Get this in
your head straight. Your father rode a plow horse; he never tried
flourishes in riding; but no man can stick in the saddle longer,
ride harder, and face any danger with calmer front. If you think
this is anything, you should have seen his face the day he stood
between me and a band of Indians, we had every reason to think,
I had angered to the fighting point."
"Tell me! Please tell me!" I begged.
All of us had been brought up on that story, but we were crazy
to hear it, and mother loved to tell it, so she dropped on a chair
and began:
"We were alone in a cabin in the backwoods of Ohio. Elizabeth
was only nine months old, and father always said a mite the prettiest
of any baby we ever had. Many of the others have looked quite
as well to me, but she was the first, and he was so proud of her
he always wanted me to wait in the wagon until he hitched the
horses, so he would get to take and to carry her himself. Well,
she was in the cradle, cooing and laughing, and I had my work
all done, and cabin shining. I was heating a big poker red-hot,
and burning holes into the four corners of a board so father could
put legs in it to make me a bench. A greasy old squaw came to
the door with her papoose on her back. She wanted to trade berries
for bread. There were berries everywhere for the picking; I had
more dried than I could use in two years. We planted only a little
patch of wheat and father had to ride three days to carry to mill
what he could take on a horse. I baked in an outoven and when
it was done, a loaf of white bread was by far the most precious
thing we had to eat. Sometimes I was caught, and forced to let
it go. Often I baked during the night and hid the bread in the
wheat at the barn. There was none in the cabin that day and I
said so. She didn't believe me. She set her papoose on the floor
beside the fireplace, and went to the cupboard. There wasn't a
crumb there except cornbread, and she didn't want that. She said:
`Brod! Brod!'
"She learned that from the Germans in the settlement. I shook
my head. Then she pulled out a big steel hunting knife, such as
the whites traded to the Indians so they would have no trouble
in scalping us neatly, and walked to the cradle. She took that
knife loosely between her thumb and second finger and holding
it directly above my baby's face, she swung it lightly back and
forth and demanded: `Brod! Brod!'
"If the knife fell, it would go straight through my baby's
head, and Elizabeth was reaching her little hands and laughing.
There was only one thing to do, and I did it. I caught that red-hot
poker from the fire, and stuck it so close her baby's face, that
the papoose drew back and whimpered. I scarcely saw how she snatched
it up and left. When your father came, I told him, and we didn't
know what to do. We knew she would come back and bring her band.
If we were not there, they would burn the cabin, ruin our crops,
kill our stock, take everything we had, and we couldn't travel
so far, or so fast, that on their ponies they couldn't overtake
us. We endangered any one with whom we sought refuge, so we gripped
hands, knelt down and told the Lord all about it, and we felt
the answer was to stay. Father cleaned the gun, and hours and
hours we waited.
"About ten o'clock the next day they came, forty braves in
war paint and feathers. I counted until I was too sick to see,
then I took the baby in my arms and climbed to the loft, with
our big steel knife in one hand. If your father fell, I was to
use it, first on Elizabeth, then on myself. The Indians stopped
at the woodyard, and the chief of the band came to the door, alone.
Your father met him with his gun in reach, and for a whole eternity
they stood searching each other's eyes. I was at the trapdoor
where I could see both of them.
"To the depths of my soul I enjoyed seeing Leon take the
fence and creek: but what was that, child, to compare with the
timber that stood your father like a stone wall between me and
forty half-naked, paint besmeared, maddened Indians? Don't let
any showing the men of to-day can make set you to thinking that
father isn't a king among men. Not once, but again and again in
earlier days, he fended danger from me like that. I can shut my
eyes and see his waving hair, his white brow, his steel blue eyes,
his unfaltering hand. I don't remember that I had time or even
thought to pray. I gripped the baby, and the knife, and waited
for the thing I must do if an arrow or a shot sailed past the
chief and felled father. They stood second after second, like
two wooden men, and then slowly and deliberately the chief lighted
his big pipe, drew a few puffs and handed it to father. He set
down his gun, took the pipe and quite as slowly and deliberately
he looked at the waiting band, at the chief, and then raised it
to his lips.
"`White squaw brave! Heap much brave!' said the chief.
"`In the strength of the Lord. Amen!' said father.
"Then he reached his hand and the chief took it, so I came
down the ladder and stood beside father, as the Indians began
to file in the front door and out the back. As they passed, every
man of them made the peace sign and piled in a heap, venison,
fish, and game, while each squaw played with the baby and gave
me a gift of beads, a metal trinket, or a blanket she had woven.
After that they came often, and brought gifts, and if prowling
Gypsies were pilfering, I could look to see a big Indian loom
up and seat himself at my fireside until any danger was past.
I really got so I liked and depended on them, and father left
me in their care when he went to mill, and I was safe as with
him. You have heard the story over and over, but to-day is the
time to impress on you that an exhibition like THIS is the veriest
child's play compared with what I have seen your father do repeatedly!"
"But it was you, the chief said was brave!"
Mother laughed.
"I had to be, baby," she said. "Mother had no choice.
There's only one way to deal with an Indian. I had lived among
them all my life, and I knew what must be done."
"I think both of you were brave," I said, "you,
the bravest!"
"Quite the contrary," laughed mother. "I shall
have to confess that what I did happened so quickly I'd no time
to think. I only realized the coal red iron was menacing the papoose
when it drew back and whimpered. Father had all night to face
what was coming to him, and it was not one to one, but one to
forty, with as many more squaws, as good fighters as the braves,
to back them. It was a terror but I never have been sorry we went
through it together. I have rested so securely in your father
ever since."
"And he is as safe in you," I insisted.
"As you will," said mother. "This world must have
her women quite as much as her men. It is shoulder to shoulder,
heart to heart, business."
The clamour in the meadow arose above our voices and brought us
back to the foxes.
"There goes another!" I said, the tears beginning to
roll again.
"It is heathenish business," said mother. "I don't
blame you! If people were not too shiftless to care for their
stuff, the foxes wouldn't take their chickens and geese. They
never get ours!"
"Hoods aren't shiftless!" I sobbed.
"There are always exceptions," said mother, "and
they are the exception in this case."
The door flew open and Leon ran in. He was white with excitement,
and trembling.
"Mother, come and see me take a fence on Pryor's Rocket!"
he cried.
Mother had him in her arms.
"You little whiffet!" she said. "You little tow-haired
whiffet!"
Both of them were laughing and crying at the same time, and so
was I.
"I saw you take one fence and the creek, Weiscope!"
she said, holding him tight, and stroking his hair. "That
will do for to- day. Ride the horse home slowly, rub it down if
they will allow you, and be sure to remember your manners when
you leave. To trust such a child as you with so valuable a horse,
and for Mr. Pryor to personally ride with you and help you, I
think that was a big thing for a man like him to do."
"But, mother, he's been showing me for weeks, or I couldn't
have done it to-day. It was our secret to surprise you. When I
get my horse, I'll be able to ride a little, as well as Mr. Laddie."
"Leon, don't," said mother, gripping him tighter.
"You must bear in mind, word about that money may come any
day."
"Aw, it won't either," said Leon, pulling away. "And
say, mother, that dumb-bell was like country boys make in England.
He helped me hunt the wood and showed me, and I couldn't ride
and manage it, so he had it all day, and you should have heard
him make it rip. Say, mother, take my word, he was some pumpkins
in England. I bet he ordered the Queen around, when he was there!"
"No doubt!" laughed mother, kissing him and pushing
him from the door.
Some people are never satisfied. After that splendid riding and
the perfect day, father, Leon, and Laddie came home blaming every
one, and finding fault, and trying to explain how it happened,
that the people from the east side claimed two foxes, and there
was only one left for the west side, when they had seen and knew
they had driven three for miles. They said they lost them in our
Big Woods.
I didn't care one speck. I would as lief wear a calico dress,
and let the little foxes have their mammies to feed them; and
I was willing to bet all my money that we would have as much ham,
and as many greens next summer as we ever had. And if the foxes
took Hoods' Dorkings again, let them build a coop with safe foundations.
The way was to use stone and heap up dirt around it in the fall,
to be perfectly sure, and make it warmer.
We took care of our chickens because we had to have them. All
the year we needed them, but most especially for Easter. Mother
said that was ordained chicken time. Turkeys for Thanksgiving,
sucking pigs for Christmas, chickens for Easter, goose, she couldn't
abide. She thought it was too strong. She said the egg was a symbol
of life; of awakening, of birth, and the chickens came from the
eggs, first ones about Easter, so that proved it was chicken time.
I am going to quit praying about little things I can manage myself.
Father said no prayer would bring an answer unless you took hold
and pulled with all your being for what you wanted. I had been
intending for days to ask the Lord to help me find where Leon
hid his Easter eggs. It had been the law at our house from the
very first, that for the last month before Easter, aside from
what mother had to have for the house, all of us might gather
every egg we could find and keep them until Easter. If we could
locate the hiding place of any one else, we might take all theirs.
The day before Easter they were brought in, mother put aside what
she required, and the one who had the most got to sell all of
them and take the money. Sometimes there were two washtubs full,
and what they brought was worth having, for sure. So we watched
all year for safe places, and when the time came we almost ran
after the hens with a basket. Because Laddie and Leon were bigger
they could outrun us, and lots of hens laid in the barn, so there
the boys always had first chance. Often during the month we would
find and take each other's eggs a dozen times.
We divided them, and hid part in different places, so that if
either were found there would still be some left.
Laddie had his in the hopper of the cider press right on the threshing
floor, and as he was sure to get more than I had anyway, I usually
put mine with his. May had hers some place, and where Leon had
his, none of us could find or imagine. I almost lay awake of nights
trying to think, and every time I thought of a new place, the
next day I would look, and they wouldn't be there. Three days
before Easter, mother began to cook and get the big dinner ready,
and she ran short of eggs. She told me to go to the barn and tell
the boys that each of them must send her a dozen as quickly as
they could. Of course that was fair, if she made both give up
the same number. So I went to the barn.
The lane was muddy, and as I had been sick, I wore my rubbers
that spring. I thought to keep out of the deep mud, where horses
and cattle trampled, I'd go up the front embankment, and enter
the little door. My feet made no sound, and it so happened that
the door didn't either, and as I started to open it. I saw Leon
disappearing down the stairway, with a big sack on his back. I
thought it was corn for the horses, and followed him, but he went
to the cow stable door and started toward the lane, and then I
thought it was for the pigs, so I called Laddie and told him about
the eggs. He said he'd give me two dozen of his, and Leon could
pay him back. We went together to get them, and there was only
one there.
Wasn't that exactly like Leon? Leave ONE for the nest egg! If
he were dying and saw a joke or a trick, he'd stop to play it
before he finished, if he possibly could. If he had no time at
all, then he'd go with his eyes twinkling over the thoughts of
the fun it would have been if he possibly could have managed it.
Of course when we saw that one lonely egg in the cider hopper,
just exactly like the "Last Rose of Summer, left to pine
on the stem," I thought of the sack Leon carried, and knew
what had been in it. We hurried out and tried to find him, but
he was swallowed up. You couldn't see him or hear a sound of him
anywhere.
Mother was as cross as she ever gets. Right there she made a new
rule, and it was that two dozen eggs must be brought to the house
each day, whether any were hidden or not. She had to stop baking
until she got eggs. She said a few times she had used a goose
egg in custard. I could fix that. I knew where one of our gray
geese had a nest, and if she'd cook any goose egg, it would be
a gray one. Of course I had sense enough not to take a blue one.
So I slipped from the east door, crossed the yard and orchard
corner, climbed the fence and went down the lane. There was the
creek up and tearing. It was half over the meadow, and the floodgate
between the pasture and the lane rocked with the rush of water;
still, I believed I could make it. So I got on the fence and with
my feet on the third rail, and holding by the top one, I walked
sidewise, and so going reached the floodgate. It was pretty wobbly,
but I thought I could cross on the run. I knew I could if I dared
jump at the other end; but there the water was over the third
rail, and that meant above my head.
It was right at that time of spring when you felt so good you
thought you could do most anything, except fly--I tried that once--so
I went on. The air was cold for all the sun shone, the smell of
catkin pollen, bursting buds, and the odour of earth steaming
in the sun, was in every breath; the blackbirds were calling,
and the doves; the ganders looked longingly at the sky and screamed
a call to every passing wild flock, and Deams' rooster wanted
to fight all creation, if you judged by the boasting he was doing
from their barnyard gate. He made me think of eggs, so I set my
jaws, looked straight ahead, and scooted across the floodgate
to the post that held it and the rails of the meadow fence. I
made it too, and then the fence was easy, only I had to double
quite short, because the water was over the third rail there,
but at last it was all gone, and I went to the fence corner and
there was the goose on the nest, laying an egg. She had built
on a little high place, among puddles, wild rose bushes, and thorns,
and the old thing wouldn't get off. She just sat there and stuck
out her head and hissed and hissed. I never noticed before that
geese were so big and so aggravating. I wasn't going to give up,
after that floodgate, so I hunted a big stick, set it against
her wing, pushed her off and grabbed three eggs and ran. When
I got to the fence, I was in a pickle for sure. I didn't know
what in the world to do with the eggs.
At last I unbuttoned my coat, put them in my apron front, gathered
it up, and holding it between my teeth, started back. I had to
double more than ever on account of the eggs, and when I reached
the floodgate it rocked like a branch in the wind; but I had to
get back, so I rested and listened to the larks a while. That
was a good plan. They were calling for mates, and what they said
was so perfectly lovely, you couldn't think of anything else;
and the less you thought about how that gate rocked, and how deep
and swift the water ran, the better for you. At last one lark
went almost from sight and he rang, twisted and trilled his call,
until my heart swelled so big it hurt. I crossed on the jump with
no time to think at all. That was a fine plan, for I made it,
but I hit the post so hard I broke the middle egg. I was going
to throw it away, but there was so much starch in my apron it
held like a dish, and it had been clean that morning, now the
egg soiled it anyway, so I ran and got home all right.
Mother was so pleased about the eggs she changed the apron and
never said a word, except to brag on me. She said she couldn't
keep house without me, and I guess that was a fact. I came in
handy a lot of times. But at dinner when she scolded the boys
about the eggs, and told them I brought the goose eggs for her
custard, else there would have been no pie, father broke loose,
and I thought he was going to whip me sure. He told mother all
about the water and the gate, and how I had to cross, and he said,
`it was a dispensation of Providence that we didn't have a funeral
instead of celebrating Easter,' so I said:
"Well, if you think I came so near drowning myself, when
you rejoice because Christ is risen from the dead, you can be
glad I am too, and that will make it all the better."
The boys laughed, but father said it was no laughing matter. I
think that speech saved me from going on the threshing floor,
for he took me on his lap when I thought I'd have to go, and told
me never, never to do anything like that again, and then he hugged
me until I almost broke. Gracious! He should have seen us going
to school some days. Why, we even walked the top rail when it
was the only one above water, and we could cross the bridge if
we wanted to. At least when Laddie or Miss Amelia was not around,
we did.
Leon was so bursting full he scarcely could eat, and Laddie looked
pretty glum when he had to admit he had no eggs; so Laddie had
to hand over the whole two dozen. Leon didn't mind that, but he
said if he must, then all of us should stay in the dining-room
until he brought them, because of course he couldn't walk straight
and get them in broad daylight with us watching, and not show
where they were. Father said that was fair, so Leon went out and
before so very long he came back with the eggs.
I thought until my skull almost cracked, about where he COULD
have gone, and I was almost to the place where the thing seemed
serious enough that I'd ask the Lord to help me find Laddie's
eggs, when mother sent me to the garret for red onion skins. She
had an hour to rest, and she was going to spend it fixing decorations
for our eggs. Of course there were always red and black aniline
ones, and yellow and blue, but none of us ever like them half
so well as those mother coloured, herself.
She took the dark red skins and cut boys, girls, dogs, cats, stars,
flowers, butterflies, fish, and everything imaginable, and wet
the skins a little and laid them on very white eggs that had been
soaked in alum water to cut the grease, and then wrapped light
yellow skins over, and then darker ones, and at last layer after
layer of cloth, and wet that, and roasted them an hour in hot
ashes and then let them cool and dry, before unwrapping. When
she took them out, rubbed on a little grease and polished them--there
they were! They would have our names, flowers, birds, animals,
all in pale yellow, deep rich brown, almost red, and perfectly
beautiful colours, while you could hunt and hunt before you found
everything on one egg. And sometimes the onion skins slipped,
and made things of themselves that she never put on.
I was coming from the bin with an apron full of skins and I almost
fell over. I couldn't breathe for a long time. I danced on my
toes, and held my mouth to keep from screaming. On the garret
floor before me lay a little piece of wet mud, and the faintest
outline of a boot, a boot about Leon's size. That was all I needed
to know. As soon as I could hold steady, I took the skins to mother,
slipped back and hunted good; and of course I had to find them--grainsacks
half full of them--carried in the front door in the evening, and
up the front stairs, where no one went until bedtime, unless there
were company. Away back under the eaves, across the joists, behind
the old clothing waiting to be ripped, coloured and torn for carpet
rangs and rugs, Mr. Leon had almost every egg that had been laid
on the place for a month.
NOW he'd see what he'd get for taking Laddie's!
Then I stopped short. What I thought most made me sick, but I
didn't propose to lie in bed again for a year at least, for it
had its bad parts as well as its good; so I went straight and
whispered to Laddie. He never looked pleased at all, so I knew
I had been right. He kissed me, and thanked me, and then said
slowly: "It's mighty good of you, Little Sister, but you
see it wouldn't be FAIR. He found mine himself, so he had a right
to take them. But I don't dare touch his, when you tell me where
they are. I never in a month of Sundays would have looked for
them in the house. I was going to search the wood house and smoke
house this afternoon. I can't take them. But thank you just as
much."
Then I went to father and he laughed. How he did laugh!
"Laddie is right!" he said at last. "He didn't
find them, and he mustn't take them. But you may! They're yours!
That front door scheme of Leon's was fairly well, but it wasn't
quite good enough. If he'd cleaned his feet as he should, before
he crossed mother's carpet and climbed the stairs, he'd have made
it all right. `His tracks betrayed him,' as tracks do all of us,
if we are careless enough to leave any. The eggs are yours, and
to- night is the time to produce them. Where do you want to hide
them?"
Well of all things! and after I had stumbled on them without pestering
the Lord, either! Just as slick as anything! Mine! I never ever
thought of it. But when I did think, I liked it. The more I thought,
the funnier it grew.
"Under mother's bed," I whispered. "But I never
can get them. They're in wheat sacks, and full so high, and they'll
have to be handled like eggs."
"I'll do the carrying," laughed father. "Come show
me!"
So we took all those eggs, and put them under mother's bed.
Of course she and Candace saw us, but they didn't hunt eggs and
they'd never tell. If ever I thought I'd burst wide open! About
dusk I saw Leon coming from the barn carrying his hat at his side--more
eggs--so I ran like a streak and locked the front door, and then
slipped back in the dining-room and almost screamed, when I could
hear him trying it, and he couldn't get in. After a while he came
in, fussed around, and finally went into the sitting-room, and
the key turned and he went upstairs. I knew I wouldn't dare look
at him when he came down, so I got a reader and began on a piece
I just love:
"A nightingale made a mistake;
She sang a few notes out of tune:
Her heart was ready to break,
And she hid away from the moon."
When I did get a peep, gracious but he was black! Maybe it wasn't
going to be so much fun after all. But he had the money last year,
and the year before, and if he'd cleaned his feet well--I was
not hunting his eggs, when I found them. "His tracks betrayed
him," as father said. I was thankful supper was ready just
then, and while it was going on mother said: "As soon as
you finish, all bring in your eggs. I want to wrap the ones to
colour to-night, and bury them in the fireplace so they will colour,
dry, and be ready to open in the morning."
No one said a word, but neither Laddie nor Leon looked very happy,
and I took awful bites to keep my face straight. When all of us
finished May brought a lot from the bran barrel in the smoke house,
but Laddie and Leon only sat there and looked silly; it really
was funny.
"I must have more eggs than this?" said mother. "Where
are they to come from?"
Father nodded to me and I said: "From under your bed!"
"Oh, it was you! And I never once caught you snooping!"
cried Leon.
"Easy son!" said father. "That will do. You lost
through your own carelessness. You left wet mud on the garret
floor, and she saw it when mother sent her for the onion skins.
You robbed Laddie of his last egg this morning; be a good loser
yourself!"
"Well, anyway, you didn't get 'em," said Leon to Laddie.
"And she only found them by accident!"
Then we had a big time counting all those eggs, and such another
heap as there was to sell, after mother filled baskets to cook
with and colour. When the table was cleared, Laddie and Leon made
tallow pencils from a candle and wrote all sorts of things over
eggs that had been prepared to colour. Then mother boiled them
in copperas water, and aniline, and all the dyes she had, and
the boys polished them, and they stood in shining black, red,
blue and yellow heaps. The onion ones would be done in the morning.
Leon had a goose egg and mother let him keep it, so he wrote and
wrote on it, until Laddie said it would be all writing, and no
colour, and he boiled it in red, after mother finished, and polished
it himself. It came out real pretty with roses on it and lots
of words he wouldn't let any of us read; but of course it was
for Susie Fall.
Next morning he slipped it to her at church. When we got home,
all of us were there except Shelley, and we had a big dinner and
a fine time and Laddie stayed until after supper, before he went
to Pryors'.
"How is he making it?" asked Sally.
You could see she was making it all right; she never looked lovelier,
and mother said Peter was letting her spend away too much money
on her clothes. She told him so, but Peter just laughed and said
business was good, and he could afford it, and she was a fine
advertisement for his store when she was dressed well."
"All I know is," said mother, "that he goes there
every whipstitch, and the women, at least, seem glad to have him.
He says Mr. Pryor treats him decently, and that is more than he
does his own family and servants. He and the girl and her mother
are divided about something. She treats her father respectfully,
but she's in sympathy with mother."
"Laddie can't find out what the trouble is?"
"I don't think that he tries."
"Maybe he'd feel better not to know," said Peter.
"Possibly!" said mother.
"Nonsense!" said father.
"You seem to be reconciled," said Elizabeth.
"That girl would reconcile a man to anything," said
father.
"Not to the loss of his soul, I hope," said mother stiffly.
"Souls are not so easy to lose," said father. "Besides,
I am counting on Laddie saving hers."
CHAPTER XIII
The Garden of the Lord
"With what content and merriment,
Their days are spent, whose minds are bent
To follow the useful plow."
That spring I decided if school didn't stop pretty soon, I'd run
away again, and I didn't in the least care what they did to me.
A country road was all right and it was good enough, if it had
been heaped up, leveled and plenty of gravel put on; and of course
our road would be fine, because father was one of the commissioners,
and as long as he filled that office, every road in the county
would be just as fine as the law would allow him to make it. I
have even heard him tell mother that he "stretched it a leetle
mite," when he was forced to by people who couldn't seem
to be made to understand what was required to upbuild a nation.
He said our language was founded on the alphabet, and to master
it you had to begin with "a". And he said the nation
was like that; it was based on townships, and when a township
was clean, had good roads, bridges, schoolhouses, and churches,
a county was in fine shape, and when each county was in order,
the state was right, and when the state was prosperous, the nation
could rejoice in its strength.
He said Atlas in the geography book, carrying the world on his
back, was only a symbol, but it was a good one. He said when the
county elected him to fill an important office, it used his shoulder
as a prop for the nation, so it became his business to stand firmly,
and use every ounce of strength and brains he had, first of all
to make his own possessions a model, then his township, his county,
and his state, and if every one worked together doing that, no
nation on earth had our amount of territory and such fine weather,
so none of them could beat us.
Our road was like the barn floor, where you drove: on each side
was a wide grassy strip, and not a weed the length of our land.
All the rails in the fences were laid straight, the gates were
solid, sound, and swung firmly on their beams, our fence corners
were full of alders, wild roses, sumac, blackberry vines, masses
of wild flowers beneath them, and a bird for every bush. Some
of the neighbours thought that to drive two rails every so often,
lay up the fences straight, and grub out the shrubs was the way,
but father said they were vastly mistaken. He said that was such
a shortsighted proceeding, he would be ashamed to indulge in it.
You did get more land, but if you left no place for the birds,
the worms and insects devoured your crops, and you didn't raise
half so much as if you furnished the birds shelter and food. So
he left mulberries in the fields and fence corners and wild cherries,
raspberries, grapes, and every little scrub apple tree from seeds
sown by Johnny Appleseed when he crossed our land.
Mother said those apples were so hard a crane couldn't dent them,
but she never watched the birds in winter when the snow was beginning
to come and other things were covered up. They swarmed over those
trees until spring, for the tiny sour apples stuck just like oak
leaves waiting for next year's crop to push them off. She never
noticed us, either. After a few frosts, we could almost get tipsy
on those apples; there was not a tree in our orchard that had
the spicy, teasing tang of Johnny Appleseed's apples. Then too,
the limbs could be sawed off and rambo and maiden's-blush grafted
on, if you wanted to; father did on some of them, so there would
be good apples lying beside the road for passers-by, and they
needn't steal to get them. You could graft red haws on them too,
and grow great big, little haw-apples, that were the prettiest
things you ever saw, and the best to eat. Father said if it didn't
spoil the looks of the road, he wouldn't care how many of his
neighbours straightened their fences. If they did, the birds would
come to him, and the more he had, the fewer bugs and worms he
would be troubled with, so he would be sure of big crops, and
sound fruit. He said he would much rather have a few good apples
picked by robins or jays, than untouched trees, loaded with wormy
falling ones he could neither use nor sell. He always patted my
head and liked every line of it when I recited, sort of tearful-like
and pathetic:
"Don't kill the birds! the happy birds,
That bless the field and grove;
So innocent to look upon,
They claim our warmest love."
The roads crossing our land were all right, and most of the others
near us; and a road is wonderful, if it is taking you to the woods
or a creek or meadow; but when it is walking you straight to a
stuffy little schoolhouse where you must stand up to see from
a window, where a teacher is cross as fire, like Miss Amelia,
and where you eternally HEAR things you can't see, there comes
a time about the middle of April when you had quite as soon die
as to go to school any longer; and what you learn there doesn't
amount to a hill of beans compared with what you can find out
for yourself outdoors.
Schoolhouses are made wrong. If they must be, they should be built
in a woods pasture beside a stream, where you could wade, swim,
and be comfortable in summer, and slide and skate in winter. The
windows should be cut to the floor, and stand wide open, so the
birds and butterflies could pass through. You ought to learn your
geography by climbing a hill, walking through a valley, wading
creeks, making islands in them, and promontories, capes, and peninsulas
along the bank. You should do your arithmetic sitting under trees
adding hickory-nuts, subtracting walnuts, multiplying butternuts,
and dividing hazelnuts. You could use apples for fractions, and
tin cups for liquid measure. You could spell everything in sight
and this would teach you the words that are really used in the
world. Every single one of us could spell incompatibility, but
I never heard father, or the judge, or even the Bishop, put it
in a speech.
If you simply can't have school THAT way, then you should be shut
in black cells, deep under the ground, where you couldn't see,
or hear a sound, and then if they'd give you a book and candle
and Miss Amelia, and her right-hand man, Mister Ruler, why you
might learn something. This way, if you sat and watched the windows
you could see a bird cross our woods pasture to the redbird swamp
every few minutes; once in a while one of my big hawks took your
breath as he swept, soared, sailed, and circled, watching the
ground below for rabbits, snakes, or chickens. The skinny old
blue herons crossing from the Wabash to hunt frogs in the cowslip
swale in our meadow, sailed so slow and so low, that you could
see their sharp bills stuck out in front, their uneven, ragged
looking feathers, and their long legs trailing out behind. I bet
if Polly Martin wore a blue calico dress so short her spindle-
shanks showed, and flew across our farm, you couldn't tell her
from a heron.
There were so many songs you couldn't decide which was which to
save you; it was just a pouring jumble of robins, larks, doves,
blackbirds, sparrows, everything that came that early; the red
and the yellow birds had not come yet, or the catbirds or thrushes.
You could hear the thumping wings of the roosters in Sills' barnyard
nearest the schoolhouse, and couldn't tell which was whipping,
so you had to sit there and wonder; and worst of all you must
stand Miss Amelia calmly telling you to pay attention to your
books or you would be kept in, and all the time you were forced
to bear torments, while you watched her walk from window to window
to see every speck of the fight. One day they had thumped and
fought for half an hour; she had looked from every window in the
room, and at last there was an awful whacking, and then silence.
It grew so exciting I raised my hand, and almost before she nodded
permission, "Which whipped?" I asked.
Miss Amelia turned red as a beet. Gee, but she was mad!
"I did!" she said. "Or at least I will. You may
remain for it after school is dismissed."
Now if you are going to be switched, they never do it until they
are just so angry anyway, and then they always make it as hard
as they dare not to stripe you, so it isn't much difference HOW
provoked they are, it will be the same old thrashing, and it's
sure to sting for an hour at least, so you might as well be beaten
for a little more as hardly anything at all. At that instant from
the fence not far from my window came a triumphant crow that fairly
ripped across the room.
"Oh, it was the Dorking!" I said. "No wonder you
followed clear around the room to see him thrash a Shanghai three
times his size! I bet a dollar it was great!"
Usually, I wouldn't have put up more than five cents, but at that
time I had over six dollars from my Easter eggs, and no girl of
my age at our school ever had half that much. Miss Amelia started
toward me, and I braced my feet so she'd get a good jolt herself,
when she went to shake me; she never struck us over the head since
Laddie talked to her that first day; but John Hood's foot was
in the aisle. I thought maybe I'd have him for my beau when we
grew up, because I bet he knew she was coming, and stuck out his
foot on purpose; anyway, she pitched, and had to catch a desk
to keep off the floor, and that made her so mad at him, that she
forgot me, while he got his scolding; so when my turn came at
last, she had cooled down enough that she only marched past to
her desk, saying I was to remain after school. I had to be careful
after that to be mighty good to May and Leon.
When school was out they sat on the steps before the door and
waited. Miss Amelia fussed around and there they sat. Then her
face grew more gobblerish than usual, and she went out and told
them to go home. Plain as anything I heard May say It: "She's
been awful sick, you know, and mother wouldn't allow it."
And then Leon piped up: "You DID watch the roosters, all
the time they fought, and of course all of us wanted to see just
as badly as you did."
She told them if they didn't go right home she'd bring them back
and whip them too; so they had to start, and leave me to my sad
fate. I was afraid they had made it sadder, instead of helping
me; she was so provoked when she came in she was crying, and over
nothing but the plain truth too; if we had storied on her, she'd
have had some cause to beller. She arranged her table, cleaned
the board, emptied the water bucket, and closed the windows. Then
she told me I was a rude, untrained child. I was rude, I suppose,
but goodness knows, I wasn't untrained; that was hard on father
and mother; I had a big notion to tell them; and then, she never
whipped me at all. She said if I wanted her to love me, I mustn't
be a saucy, impudent girl, and I should go straight home and think
it over.
I went, but I was so dazed at her thinking I wanted her to love
me, that I hardly heard May and Leon calling; when I did I went
to the cemetery fence and there they lay in the long grass waiting.
"If you cried, we were coming back and pitch into her,"
said Leon.
There was a pointer. Next time, first cut she gave me, I decided
to scream bloody murder. But that would be no Crusader way. There
was one thing though. No Crusader ever sat and heard a perfectly
lovely fight going on, and never even wondered which whipped.
May and Leon stepped one on each side, took a hand, and we ran
like Indians, and slid down the hill between the bushes, climbed
the fence, crossed the pasture back of the church, and went to
the creek. There we sat on a log, I told them, and we just laughed.
I didn't know what I could do to pay them, for they saved me sure
as fate that time.
I wished we lived in the woods the way it was when father and
mother were married and moved to Ohio. The nearest neighbours
were nine miles, and there wasn't a dollar for school funds, so
of course the children didn't have to go, and what their fathers
and mothers taught them was all they knew. That would not have
helped me much though, for we never had one single teacher who
knew anything to compare with what father and mother did, and
we never had one who was forever reading books, papers, and learning
more things that help, to teach other people. I wished father
had time to take our school. It would have been some fun to go
to him, because I just knew he would use the woods for the room,
and teach us things it would do some good to know about.
I began debating whether it was a big enough thing to bother the
Lord with: this being penned up in the schoolhouse droning over
spelling and numbers, when you could smell tree bloom, flower
bloom, dozens of birds were nesting, and everything was beginning
to hum with life. I couldn't think for that piece about "Spring"
going over in my head:
"I am coming, I am coming:
Hark! the little bee is humming:
See! the lark is soaring high,
In the bright and sunny sky;
All the birds are on the wing:
Little maiden, now is spring."
I made up my mind that it was of enough importance to call for
the biggest prayer I could think of and that I would go up in
the barn to the top window, stand on a beam, and turn my face
to the east, where Jesus used to be, and I'd wrestle with the
Lord for freedom, as Jacob wrestled with the Angel on the banks
of the Jabbok in the land of Ammon. I was just getting up steam
to pray as hard as ever I could; for days I'd been thinking of
it, and I was nearly to the point where one more killdeer crying
across the sky would have sent me headlong from the schoolhouse
anywhere that my feet were on earth, and the air didn't smell
of fried potatoes, kraut, sweat, and dogs, like it did whenever
you sat beside Clarissa Polk. When I went to supper one night;
father had been to Groveville, and he was busy over his papers.
After he finished the blessing, he seemed worried, at last he
said the funds were all out, and the county would make no appropriation
so school would have to close next week.
Well that beats me! I had faith in that prayer I was going to
make, and here the very thing I intended to ask for happened before
I prayed. I decided I would save the prayer until the next time
I couldn't stand anything another minute, and then I would try
it with all my might, and see if it really did any good. After
supper I went out the back door, spread my arms wide, and ran
down the orchard to the fence in great bounds, the fastest I ever
went in my life. I climbed my pulpit in the corner and tried to
see how much air my lungs would hold without bursting, while I
waved my arms and shouted at the top of my voice: "Praise
ye the Lord! Praised be His holy name!"
"Ker-awk!" cried an old blue heron among the cowslips
below me. I had almost scared it to death, and it arose on flapping
wings and paid me back by frightening me so I screamed as I dodged
its shadow.
"What is all this?" asked father behind me.
"Come up and take a seat, and I'll try to tell you,"
I said.
So he stepped on my pulpit and sat on the top rail, while I stood
between his knees, put my arms around his neck, took off his hat
and loosened his hair so the wind could wave it, and make his
head feel cool and good. His hair curled a little and it was black
and fine. His cheeks were pink and his eyes the brightest blue,
with long lashes, and heavier brows than any other man I ever
have seen. He was the best looking--always so clean and fresh,
and you never had to be afraid of him, unless you had been a bad,
sinful child. If you were all right, you would walk into his arms,
play with his hair, kiss him all you pleased, and there wasn't
a thing on earth you couldn't tell him, excepting a secret you
had promised to keep.
So I explained all this, and more too. About how I wanted to hunt
for the flowers, to see which bloomed first, and watch in what
order the birds came, and now it was a splendid time to locate
nests, because there were no leaves, so I could see easily, and
how glad mother would be to know where the blue goose nested,
and her white turkey hen; because she wanted her geese all blue,
and the turkeys all white, as fast as she could manage.
Every little thing that troubled me or that I wanted, I told him.
He sat there and he couldn't have listened with more interest
or been quieter if I had been a bishop, which is the biggest thing
that ever happened at our house; his name was Ninde and he came
from Chicago to dedicate our church when it was new. So father
listened and thought and held his arms around me, and--
"And you think the Lord was at the bottom of the thing that
makes you happy?"
"Well, you always go to Him about what concerns you, and
you say, `Praise the Lord,' when things go to please you."
"I do indeed!" said father. "But I had thought
of this running short of school funds as a calamity. If I had
been praying about it, I would have asked Him to show me a way
to raise money to continue until middle May at least."
"Oh father!"
I just crumpled up in his arms and began to cry; to save me I
couldn't help it. He held me tight. At last he said: "I think
you are a little overstrained this spring. Maybe you were sicker
than we knew, or are growing too fast. Don't worry any more about
school. Possibly father can fix it."
Next morning when I wakened, my everyday clothes lay across the
foot of the bed, so I called mother and asked if I should put
them on; she took me in her arms, and said father thought I had
better be in the open, and I needn't go to school any more that
spring. I told her I thought I could bear it a few more days,
now it was going to be over so soon; but she said I might stay
at home, father and Laddie would hear me at night, and I could
take my books anywhere I pleased and study when I chose, if I
had my spelling and reading learned at evening. NOW, say the Lord
doesn't help those who call on Him in faith believing!
Think of being allowed to learn your lessons on the top of the
granary, where you could look out of a window above the treetops,
lie in the cool wind, and watch swallows and martins. Think of
studying in the pulpit when the creek ran high, and the wild birds
sang so sweetly you seemed to hear them for the first time in
all your life, and hens, guineas, and turkeys made prime music
in the orchard. You could see the buds swell, and the little blue
flags push through the grass, where Mrs. Mayer had her flowerbed,
and the cowslips greening under the water of the swale at the
foot of the hill, while there might be a Fairy under any leaf.
I was so full, so swelled up and excited, that when I got ready
to pick up a book, I could learn a lesson in a few minutes, tell
all about it, spell every word, and read it back, front, and sideways.
I never learned lessons so quick and so easy in all my life; father,
Laddie, and every one of them had to say so. One night, father
said to Laddie: "This child is furnishing evidence that our
school system is wrong, and our methods of teaching far from right."
"Or is it merely proof that she is different," said
Laddie, "and you can't run her through the same groove you
could the rest of us?"
"A little of both," said father, "but most that
the system is wrong. We are not going at children in a way to
gain and hold their interest, and make them love their work. There
must be a better way of teaching, and we should find different
teachers. You'll have to try the school next year yourself, Laddie."
"I have a little plan about a piece of land I am hoping to
take before then," answered Laddie. "It's time for me
to try my wings at making a living, and land is my choice. I have
fully decided. I stick to the soil!"
"Amen!" cried father. "You please me mightily.
I hate to see sons of mine thriving on law, literally making their
living out of the fruit of other men's discord. I dislike seeing
them sharpen their wits in trade, buying at the lowest limit,
extorting the highest. I don't want their horizons limited by
city blocks, their feet on pavements, everything under the sun
in their heads that concerns a scheme to make money; not room
for an hour's thought or study in a whole day, about the really
vital things of life. After all, land and its products are the
basis of everything; the city couldn't exist a day unless we feed
and clothe it. In the things that I consider important, you are
a king among men, with your feet on soil you own."
"So I figure it," said Laddie.
"And you are the best educated man I have reared," said
father. "Take this other thought with you: on land, the failure
of the bank does not break you. The fire another man's carelessness
starts, does not wipe out your business or home. You are not in
easy reach of contagion. Any time you want to branch out, your
mother and I will stand back of you."
"Thank you!" said Laddie. "You backed none of the
others. They would resent it. I'll make the best start I can myself,
and as they did, stand alone."
Father looked at him and smiled slowly.
"You are right, as always," he said. "I hadn't
thought so far. It would make trouble. At any rate, let me inspect
and help you select your land."
"That of course!" said Laddie.
I suspect it's not a very nice thing for me to tell, but all of
us were tickled silly the day Miss Amelia packed her trunk and
left for sure. Mother said she never tried harder in all her days,
but Miss Amelia was the most distinctly unlovable person she ever
had met. She sympathized with us so, she never said a word when
Leon sang:
"Believe me, if all those endearing young charms,
Which I gaze on so fondly to-day,
Were to change by to-morrow, and fleet in my arms,
Like fairy-gifts fading away,
Thou wouldst still be adored, as this moment thou art,
Let thy loveliness fade as it will,
And around the dear ruin each wish of my heart
Would entwine itself verdantly still--"
while Miss Amelia drove from sight up the Groveville road.
As he sang Leon stretched out his arms after her vanishing form.
"I hope," he said, "that you caught that touching
reference to `the dear ruin,' and could anything be expressed
more beautifully and poetically than that `verdantly still?'"
I feel sorry for a snake. I like hoptoads, owls, and shitepokes.
I envy a buzzard the way it can fly, and polecats are beautiful;
but I never could get up any sort of feeling at all for Miss Amelia,
whether she was birdlike or her true self. So no one was any gladder
than I when she was gone.
After that, spring came pushing until you felt shoved. Our family
needed me then. If they never had known it before, they found
out there was none too many of us. Every day I had to watch the
blue goose, and bring in her egg before it was chilled, carrying
it carefully so it would not be jarred. I had to hunt the turkey
nests and gather their eggs so they would be right for setting.
There had to be straw carried from the stack for new nests, eggs
marked, and hens set by the dozen. Garden time came, so leaves
had to be raked from the beds and from the dooryard. No one was
busier than I; but every little while I ran away, and spent some
time all by myself in the pulpit, under the hawk oak, or on the
roof.
Coming from church that Sunday, when we reached the top of the
Big Hill, mother touched father's arm. "Stop a minute,"
she said, and he checked the horses, while we sat there and wondered
why, as she looked and looked all over the farm, then, "Now
drive to the top of the Little Hill and turn, and stop exactly
on the place from which we first viewed this land together,"
she said. "You know the spot, don't you?"
"You may well believe I know it," said father. "I
can hit it to the inch. You see, children," he went on, "your
mother and I arranged before the words were said over us"--he
always put it that way--I never in my life heard him say, "when
we were married"; he read so many books he talked exactly
like a book-- "that we would be partners in everything, as
long as we lived. When we decided the Ohio land was not quite
what we wanted, she sent me farther west to prospect, while she
stayed at home and kept the baby. When I reached this land, found
it for sale, and within my means, I bought it, and started home
happy. Before I'd gone a mile, I turned to look back, and saw
that it was hilly, mostly woods, and there was no computing the
amount of work it would require to make it what I could see in
it; so I began to think maybe she wouldn't like it, and to wish
I had brought her, before I closed the deal. By the time I returned
home, packed up, and travelled this far on the way back with her,
there was considerable tension in my feelings--considerable tension,"
repeated father as he turned the horses and began driving carefully,
measuring the distance from Hoods' and the bridge. At last he
stopped, backed a step, and said: "There, mommy, did I hit
the spot?"
"You did!" said mother, stepping from the carriage and
walking up beside him. She raised one hand and laid it on the
lamp near him. He shifted the lines, picked up her hand, and held
it tight. Mother stood there looking, just silently looking. May
jabbed me in the side, leaned over and whispered:
"Could we but stand where Moses stood,
And view the landscape o'er,
Not our Little Creek, nor dinner getting cold,
Could fright us from that shore."
I couldn't help giggling, but I knew that was no proper time,
so I hid my head in her lap and smothered the sound the best I
could; but they were so busy soft-soddering each other they didn't
pay a bit of attention to us.
It was May now, all the leaves were fresh and dustless, everything
that flowered at that time was weighted with bloom, bees hummed
past, butterflies sailed through the carriage, while birds at
the tops of their voices, all of them, every kind there was, sang
fit to split; friendly, unafraid bluebirds darted around us, and
talked a blue streak from every fence rider. Made you almost crazy
to know what they said. The Little Creek flowed at our feet across
the road, through the blue-flag swamp, where the red and the yellow
birds lived. You could see the sun flash on the water where it
emptied into the stream that crossed Deams', and flowed through
our pasture; and away beyond the Big Hill arose, with the new
church on top, the graveyard around it, the Big Creek flashing
at its base. In the valley between lay our fields, meadows, the
big red barn, the white house with the yard filled with trees
and flowering shrubs, beyond it the garden, all made up, neat
and growing; and back of it the orchard in full bloom.
Mother looked and looked. Suddenly she raised her face to father.
"Paul," she said, "that first day, did you ever
dream it could be made to look like this?"
"No!" said father. "I never did! I saw houses,
barns, and cleared fields; I hoped for comfort and prosperity,
but I didn't know any place could grow to be so beautiful, and
there is something about it, even on a rainy November day, there
is something that catches me in the breast, on the top of either
of these hills, until it almost stifles me. What is it, Ruth?"
"The Home Feeling!" said mother. "It is in my heart
so big this morning I am filled with worship. Just filled with
the spirit of worship."
She was rocking on her toes like she does when she becomes too
happy at the Meeting House to be quiet any longer, and cries,
"Glory!" right out loud. She pointed to the orchard,
an immense orchard of big apple trees in full bloom, with two
rows of peach trees around the sides. It looked like a great,
soft, pinkish white blanket, with a deep pink border, spread lightly
on the green earth.
"We planted that way because we thought it was best; how
could we know how it would look in bloom time? It seems as if
you came to these hilltops and figured on the picture you would
make before you cleared, or fenced a field."
"That's exactly what I did," said father. "Many's
the hour, all told, that I have stopped my horse on one of these
hilltops and studied how to make the place beautiful, as well
as productive. That was a task you set me, my girl. You always
considered BEAUTY as well as USE about the house and garden, and
wherever you worked. I had to hold my part in line."
"You have made it all a garden," said mother. "You
have made it a garden growing under the smile of the Master; a
very garden of the Lord, father."
Father drew up her hand and held it tight against his heart.
"Your praise is sweet, my girl, sweet!" he said. "I
have tried, God knows I have tried, to make it first comfortable,
then beautiful, for all of us. To the depths of my soul I thank
Him for this hour. I am glad, Oh I am so glad you like your home,
Ruth! I couldn't endure it if you complained, found fault and
wished you lived elsewhere."
"Why, father!" said my mother in the most surprised
voice. "Why, father, it would kill me to leave here. This
is ours. We have made it by and through the strength of the Lord
and our love for each other. All my days I want to live here,
and when I die, I want to lie beside my blessed babies and you,
Paul, down by the church we gave the land for, and worked so hard
to build. I love it, Oh I love it! See how clean and white the
dark evergreens make the house look! See how the big chestnuts
fit in and point out the yellow road. I wish we had a row the
length of it!"
"They wouldn't grow," said father. "You mind the
time I had finding the place those wanted to set their feet?"
"I do indeed!" said mother, drawing her hand and his
with it where she could rub her cheek against it. "Now we'll
go home and have our dinner and a good rest. I'm a happy woman
this day, father, a happy, happy woman. If only one thing didn't
worry me----"
"Must there always be a `fly in the ointment,' mother?"
She looked at him with a smile that was like a hug and kiss, and
she said: "I have found it so, father, and I have been happy
in spite of it. Where one has such wide interests, at some point
there is always a pull, but in His own day, in His own way, the
Lord is going to make everything right."
"`Thy faith hath made thee whole,'" quoted father.
Then she stepped into the carriage, and he waited a second, quite
long enough to let her see that he was perfectly willing to sit
there all day if she wanted him to, and then he slowly and carefully
drove home, as he always did when she was in the carriage. Times
when he had us children out alone, he went until you couldn't
see the spokes in the wheels. He just loved to "speed up"
once in a while on a piece of fine road to let us know how going
fast felt.
Mother sat there trembling a little, smiling, misty-eyed. I was
thinking, for I knew what the "fly in the ointment"
was. She had a letter from Shelley yesterday, and she said there
wasn't a reason on earth why father or Laddie should spend money
to come to Chicago, she would soon be home, she was counting the
hours, and she never wanted to leave again. In the start she didn't
want to go at all, unless she could stay three years, at the very
least. Of course it was that dreadful man, who had made her so
beautiful and happy, and then taken away all the joy; how COULD
a man do it? It was the hardest thing to understand.
Next morning mother was feeling fine, the world was lovely, Miss
Amelia was gone, May was home to help, so she began housecleaning
by washing all the curtains. She had been in the kitchen to show
Candace how. I had all my work done, and was making friends with
a robin brooding in my very own catalpa tree, when Mr. Pryor rode
up, tied his horse, and started toward the gate. I knew he and
father had quarrelled; that is, father had told him he couldn't
say "God was a myth" in this house, and he'd gone home
mad as hops; so I knew it would be something mighty important
that was bringing him back. I slid from the tree, ran and opened
the gate, and led the way up the walk. I opened the front door
and asked him in, and then I did the wrong thing. I should have
taken his hat, told him to be seated, and said I would see if
I could find father; I knew what to do, and how to do it, but
because of that about God, I was so excited I made a mistake.
I never took his hat, or offered him a chair; I just bolted into
the dining-room, looking for father or mother, and left the door
wide open, so he thought that wasn't the place to sit, because
I didn't give him a chair, and he followed me. The instant I saw
mother's face, I knew what I had done. The dining-room was no
place for particular company like him, and bringing him in that
way didn't give her time to smooth her hair, pull shut her dress
band at the neck, put on her collar, and shiny goldstone pin,
her white apron, and rub her little flannel rag, with rice flour
on it, on her nose to take away the shine. I had made a mess of
it.
There she came right in the door, just as she was from the tub.
Her hair was damp and crinkled around her face, her neckband had
been close in stooping, so she had unfastened it, and tucked it
back in a little V-shaped place to give her room and air. Her
cheeks were pink, her eyes bright, her lips red as a girl's, and
her neck was soft and white. The V-shaped place showed a little
spot like baby skin, right where her neck went into her chest.
Sure as father kissed her lips, he always tipped back her head,
bent lower and kissed that spot too. I had seen hundreds of them
go there, and I had tried it myself, lots of times, and it WAS
the sweetest place. Seeing what I had done, I stopped breathless.
You have to beat most everything you teach a child right into
it properly to keep it from making such a botch of things as that.
I hardly dared to peep at mother, but when I did, she took my
breath worse than the mistake I had made.
Caught, she stood her ground. She never paused a second. Straight
to him she went, holding out her hand, and I could see that it
was red and warm from pressing the lace in the hot suds. A something
flashed over her, that made her more beautiful than she was in
her silk dress going to town to help Lucy give a party, and her
voice was sweet as the bubbling warbler on the garden fence when
he was trying to coax a mate into the privet bush to nest.
Mother asked him to be seated, so he took one of the chairs nearest
him, and sat holding his hat in one hand, his whip in the other.
Mother drew a chair beside the dining table, dropped her hands
on each other, and looking in his eyes, she smiled at him. I tell
the same thing over about people's looks, but I haven't told of
this smile of mother's; because I never saw exactly how it was,
or what it would do to people, until that morning. Then as I watched
her--for how she felt decided what would happen to me, after Mr.
Pryor was gone I saw something I never had noticed until that
minute. She could laugh all over her face, before her lips parted
until her teeth showed. She was doing it now. With a wide smile
running from cheek to cheek, pushing up a big dimple at each end,
her lips barely touching, her eyes dancing, she sat looking at
him.
"This IS the most blessed season for warming up the heart,"
she said. "If you want the half of my kingdom, ask quickly.
I'm in the mood to bestow it."
How she laughed! He just had to loosen up a little, and smile
back, even though it looked pretty stiff.
"Well, I'll not tax you so far," he said. "I only
want Mr. Stanton."
"But he is the whole of the kingdom, and the King to boot!"
she laughed, dimpled, and flamed redder.
Mr. Pryor stared at her wonderingly. You could even see the wonder,
like it was something you could take hold of. I suppose he wondered
what could make a woman so happy, like that.
"Lucky man!" he said. "All of us are not so fortunate."
"Then it must be you don't covet the place or the title,"
said mother more soberly. "Any woman will crown the man she
marries, if he will allow her. Paul went farther. He compelled
it."
"I wonder how!" said Mr. Pryor, his eyes steadily watching
mother's face.
"By never failing in a million little things, that taken
as a whole, make up one mighty big thing, on which he stands like
the Rock of Ages."
"Yet they tell me that you are the mother of twelve children,"
he said, as if he marvelled at something.
"Yes!" cried mother, and the word broke right through
a bubbling laugh. "Am I not fortunate above most women? We
had the grief to lose two little daughters at the ages of eight
and nine, all the others I have, and I rejoice in them."
She reached out, laid a hand on me, drew me to her, and lightly
touched my arm, sending my spirits sky-high. She wasn't going
to do a thing to me, not even scold! Mr. Pryor stared at her like
Jacob Hood does at Laddie when he begins rolling Greek before
him, so I guess what mother said must have been Greek to Mr. Pryor.
"I came to see Mr. Stanton," he said suddenly, and crosslike
as if he didn't believe a word she said, and had decided she was
too foolish to bother with any longer; but he kept on staring.
He couldn't quit that, no matter how cross he was. The funniest
thing came into my mind. I wondered what on earth he'd have done
if she'd gone over, sat on his lap, put her arms around his neck,
took his face between her hands and kissed his forehead, eyes,
lips, and tousled his hair, like she does father and our boys.
I'll bet all I got, he'd have turned to stonier stone than Sabethany.
You could see that no one ever served HIM like that in all his
old, cold, hard, cross, mysterious, shut-in life. I was crazy
to ask, "Say, did anybody ever kiss you?" but I had
such a close escape bringing him in wrong, I thought it would
be wise not to take any risks so soon after. It was enough to
stand beside mother, and hear every word they said. What was more,
she wanted me, because she kept her hand on mine, or touched my
apron every little while.
"I'm so sorry!" she said. "He was called to town
on business. The County Commissioners are sitting to-day."
"They are deciding about the Groveville bridge, and pike?"
"Yes. He is working so hard for them."
"The devil you say! I beg pardon! But it was about that I
came.
I'm three miles from there, and I'm taxed over sixty pounds for
it."
"But you cross the bridge every time you go to town, and
travel the road. Groveville is quite a resort on account of the
water and lovely country. Paul is very anxious to have the work
completed before the summer boarders come from surrounding cities.
We are even farther from it than you; but it will cost us as much."
"Are you insane?" cried Mr. Pryor, not at all politely;
but you could see that mother was bound she wouldn't become provoked
about anything, for she never stopped a steady beam on him. "Spend
all that money for strangers to lazy around on a few weeks and
then go!"
"But a good bridge and fine road will add to their pleasure,
and when they leave, the improvements remain. They will benefit
us and our children through all the years to come."
"Talk about `the land of the free'!" cried Mr. Pryor.
"This is a tax-ridden nation. It's a beastly outrage! Ever
since I came, it's been nothing but notice of one assessment after
another. I won't pay it! I won't endure it. I'll move!"
Mother let go of me, gripped her hands pretty tight together on
the table, and she began to talk.
"As for freedom--no man ever was, or is, or will be free,"
she said, quite as forcibly as he could speak. "You probably
knew when you came here that you would find a land tax-ridden
from a great civil war of years' duration, and from newness of
vast territory to be opened up and improved. You certainly studied
the situation."
"`Studied the situation'!" His whip beat across his
knee. "`Studied the situation'! My leaving England was--er--the
result of intolerable conditions there--in the nature of flight
from things not to be endured. I had only a vague idea of the
States."
"If England is intolerable, and the United States an outrage,
I don't know where in this world you'll go," said mother
softly.
Mr. Pryor stared at her sharply.
"Madame is pleased to be facetious," he said sneeringly.
Mother's hands parted, and one of them stretched across the table
toward him.
"Forgive me!" she cried. "That was unkind. I know
you are in dreadful trouble. I'd give--I'd almost give this right
hand to comfort you. I'd do nearly anything to make you feel that
you need bear no burden alone; that we'd love to help support
you."
"I believe you would," he said slowly, his eyes watching
her again. "I believe you would. I wonder why!"
"All men are brothers, in the broader sense," said mother,
"and if you'll forgive me, your face bears marks of suffering
almost amounting to torture."
She stretched out the other hand.
"You couldn't possibly let us help you?"
Slowly he shook his head.
"Think again!" urged mother. "A trouble shared
is half over to start with. You lay a part of it on your neighbours,
and your neighbours in this case would be glad, glad indeed, to
see you care-free and happy as all men should be."
"We'll not discuss it," he said. "You can't possibly
imagine the root of my trouble."
"I shan't try!" said mother. "But let me tell you
this: I don't care if you have betrayed your country, blasphemed
your God, or killed your own child! So long, as you're a living
man, daily a picture of suffering before me, you're a burden on
my heart. You're a load on my shoulders, without your consent.
I have implored God, I shall never cease to implore Him, until
your brow clears, your head is lifted, and your heart is at rest.
You can't prevent me! This hour I shall go to my closet and beg
Him to have mercy on your poor soul, and when His time comes,
He will. You can't help yourself, or you would have done so, long
ago. You must accept aid! This must end, or there will be tragedy
in your house."
"Madame, there has been!" said Mr. Pryor, shaking as
he sat.
"I recognize that," said mother. "The question
is whether what has passed is not enough."
"You simply cannot understand!" he said.
"Mr. Pryor," she said, "you're in the position
of a man doubly bereft. You are without a country, and without
a God. Your face tells every passer-by how you are enjoying that
kind of life. Forgive me, if I speak plainly. I admire some things
about you so much, I am venturing positive unkindness to try to
make you see that in shutting out your neighbours you will surely
make them think more, and worse things, than are true. I haven't
a doubt in my mind but that your trouble is not one half so dreadful
as you imagine while brooding over it. We will pass that. Let
me tell you how we feel about this road matter. You see we did
our courting in Pennsylvania, married and tried Ohio, and then
came on here. We took this land when it was mostly woods. I could
point you to the exact spot where we stopped; we visited it yesterday,
looked down the hill and selected the place where we would set
this house, when we could afford to build it. We moved into the
cabin that was on the land first, later built a larger one, and
finally this home as we had planned it. Every fruit tree, bush,
vine, and flower we planted. Here our children have been born,
lived, loved, and left us; some for the graveyard down yonder,
some for homes of their own. Always we have planned and striven
to transform this into the dearest, the most beautiful spot on
earth. In making our home the best we can, in improving our township,
county, and state, we are doing our share toward upbuilding this
nation."
She began at the a b c's, and gave it to him straight: the whole
thing, just as we saw it; and he listened, as if he were a prisoner,
and she a judge telling him what he must do to gain his freedom.
She put in the birds to keep away the worms, the trees to break
the wind, the creeks to save the moisture. She whanged him, and
she banged him, up one side, and down the other. She didn't stop
to be mincy. She shot things at him like a man talking to another
man who had plenty of sense but not a particle of reason. She
gave him the reason. She told him exactly why, and how, and where,
and also just WHAT he must do to feel RIGHT toward his neighbours,
his family, and his God. No preacher ever talked half so well.
Yea verily, she was as interesting as the Bishop himself, and
far pleasanter to look at. When she ran short of breath, and out
of words, she reached both hands toward him again.
"OH DO PLEASE THINK OF THESE THINGS!" she begged. "Do
try to believe that I am a sensible person, and know what I am
talking about."
"Madame," said Mr. Pryor, "there's no doubt in
my mind but you are the most wonderful woman I ever have met.
Surely I believe you! Surely I know your plan of life is the true,
the only right way. It is one degree added to my humiliation that
the ban I am under keeps me from friendly intercourse with so
great a lady."
"`Lady'?" said my mother, her eyes widening. "`Lady'?
Now it is you who are amused."
"I don't understand!" he said. "Certainly you are
a lady, a very great lady."
"Goodness, gracious me!" cried my mother, laughing until
her dimples would have held water. "That's the first time
in all my life I was ever accused of such a thing."
"Again, I do not comprehend," said Mr. Pryor, as if
vexed about all he would endure.
Mother laughed on, and as she did so she drew back her hands and
studied them. Then she looked at him again, one pink dimple flashing
here and there, all over her face.
"Well, to begin at the root of the matter," she said,
"that is an enormous big word that you are using lightly.
Any one in petticoats is not a lady--by no means! A lady must
be born of unsullied blood for at least three generations, on
each side of her house. Think for a minute about where you are
going to fulfil that condition. Then she must be gentle by nature,
and rearing. She must know all there is to learn from books, have
wide experience to cover all emergencies, she must be steeped
in social graces, and diplomatic by nature. She must rise unruffled
to any emergency, never wound, never offend, always help and heal,
she must be perfect in deportment, virtue, wifehood and motherhood.
She must be graceful, pleasing and beautiful. She must have much
leisure to perfect herself in learning, graces and arts----"
"Madame, you draw an impossible picture!" cried Mr.
Pryor.
"I draw the picture of the only woman on earth truly entitled
to be called a lady. You use a good word lightly. I have told
you what it takes to make a lady--now look at me!"
How she laughed! Mr. Pryor looked, but he didn't laugh.
"More than ever you convince me that you are a lady, indeed,"
he said.
Mother wiped her eyes.
"My dear man!" she cried, "I'm the daughter of
a Dutch miller, who lived on a Pennsylvania mountain stream. There
never was a school anywhere near us, and father and mother only
taught us to work. Paul Stanton took a grist there, and saw me.
He married me, and brought me here. He taught me to read and write.
I learned my lessons with my elder children. He has always kept
school in our house, every night of his life. Our children supposed
it was for them; I knew it was quite as much for me. While I sat
at knitting or sewing, I spelled over the words he gave out. I
know nothing of my ancestors, save that they came from the lowlands
of Holland, down where there were cities, schools, and business.
They were well educated, but they would not take the trouble to
teach their children. As I have spoken to you, my husband taught
me. All I know I learn from him, from what he reads aloud, and
places he takes me. I exist in a twenty-mile radius, but through
him, I know all lands, principalities and kingdoms, peoples and
customs. I need never be ashamed to go, or afraid to speak, anywhere."
"Indeed not!" cried Mr. Pryor.
"But when you think on the essentials of a real lady--and
then picture me patching, with a First Reader propped before me;
facing Indians, Gypsies, wild animals--and they used to be bad
enough--why, I mind one time in Ohio when our first baby was only
able to stand beside a chair, and through the rough puncheon floor
a copperhead stuck up its gleam of bronzy gold, and shot its darting
tongue within a foot of her bare leg. By all accounts, a lady
would have reached for her smelling salts and gracefully fainted
away; in fact, a lady never would have been in such a place at
all. It was my job to throw the first thing I could lay my hands
on so straight and true that I would break that snake's neck,
and send its deadly fangs away from my baby. I did it with Paul's
plane, and neatly too! Then I had to put the baby on the bed and
tear up every piece of the floor to see that the snake had not
a mate in hiding there, for copperheads at that season were going
pairs. Once I was driven to face a big squaw, and threatened the
life of her baby with a red-hot poker while she menaced mine with
a hunting knife. There is not one cold, rough, hard experience
of pioneer life that I have not endured. Shoulder to shoulder,
and heart to heart, I've stood beside my man, and done what had
to be done, to build this home, rear our children, save our property.
Many's the night I have shivered in a barn doctoring sick cattle
and horses we could ill afford to lose. Time and again I have
hung on and brought things out alive, after the men gave up and
quit. A lady? How funny!"
"The amusement is all on your part, Madame."
"So it seems!" said mother. "But you see, I know
so well how ridiculous it is. When I think of the life a woman
must lead in order to be truly a lady, when I review the life
I have been forced to live to do my share in making this home,
and rearing these children, the contrast is too great. I thank
God for any part I have been able to take. Had I life to live
over, I see now where I could do more; but neighbour, believe
me, my highest aspiration is to be a clean, thrifty housekeeper,
a bountiful cook, a faithful wife, a sympathetic mother. That
is life work for any woman, and to be a good woman is the greatest
thing on earth. Never mind about the ladies; if you can honestly
say of me, she is a good woman, you have paid me the highest possible
tribute."
"I have nothing to change, in the face of your argument,"
said Mr. Pryor. "Our loved Queen on her throne is no finer
lady."
That time mother didn't laugh. She looked straight at him a minute
and then she said: "Well, for an Englishman, as I know them,
you have said the last word. Higher praise there is none. But
believe me, I make no such claim. To be a good wife and mother
is the end toward which I aspire. To hold the respect and love
of my husband is the greatest object of my life."
"Then you have succeeded. You stand a monument to wifehood;
your children prove your idea of motherhood," said Mr. Pryor.
"How in this world have you managed it? The members of your
family whom I have seen are fine, interesting men and women, educated
above the average. It is not idle curiosity. I am deeply interested
in knowing how such an end came to be accomplished here on this
farm. I wish you would tell me just how you have gone about schooling
your children."
"By educating ourselves before their coming, and with them
afterward. Self-control, study, work, joy of life, satisfaction
with what we have had, never-ending strife to go higher, and to
do better--Dr. Fenner laughs when I talk of these things. He says
he can take a little naked Hottentot from the jungle, and educate
it to the same degree that I can one of mine. I don't know; but
if these things do not help before birth, at least they do not
hinder; and afterward, you are in the groove in which you want
your children to run. With all our twelve there never has been
one who at nine months of age did not stop crying if its father
lifted his finger, or tapped his foot and told it to. From the
start we have rigorously guarded our speech and actions before
them. From the first tiny baby my husband has taught all of them
to read, write and cipher some, before they went to school at
all. He is always watching, observing, studying: the earth, the
stars, growing things; he never comes to a meal but he has seen
something that he has or will study out for all of us. There never
has been one day in our home on which he did not read a new interesting
article from book or paper; work out a big problem, or discuss
some phase of politics, religion, or war. Sometimes there has
been a little of all of it in one day, always reading, spelling,
and memory exercises at night. He has a sister who twice in her
life has repeated the Bible as a test before a committee. He,
himself, can go through the New Testament and all of the Old save
the books of the generations. He always says he considers it a
waste of gray matter to learn them. He has been a schoolmaster,
his home his schoolroom, his children, wife and helpers his pupils;
the common things of life as he meets them every day, the books
from which we learn.
"I was ignorant at first of bookish subjects, but in his
atmosphere, if one were no student, and didn't even try to keep
up, or forge ahead, they would absorb much through association.
Almost always he has been on the school board and selected the
teachers; we have made a point of keeping them here, at great
inconvenience to ourselves, in order to know as much of them as
possible, and to help and guide them in their work. When the children
could learn no more here, for most of them we have managed the
high school of Groveville, especially after our daughter moved
there, and for each of them we have added at least two years of
college, music school, or whatever the peculiar bent of the child
seemed to demand.
"Before any daughter has left our home for one of her own,
she has been taught all I know of cleanliness about a house, cookery,
sewing, tending the sick, bathing and dressing the new born. She
has to bake bread, pie, cake, and cook any meat or vegetable we
have. She has had her bolt of muslin to make as she chose for
her bedding, and linen for her underclothing. The quilts she pieced
and the blankets she wove have been hers. All of them have been
as well provided for as we could afford. They can knit, darn,
patch, tuck, hem, and embroider, set a hen and plant a garden.
I go on a vacation and leave each of them to keep house for her
father a month, before she enters a home of her own. They are
strong, healthy girls; I hope all of them are making a good showing
at being useful women, and I know they are happy, so far at least."
"Wonderful!" said Mr. Pryor.
"Father takes the boys in hand and they must graduate in
a straight furrow, an even fence, planting and tending crops,
trimming and grafting trees, caring for stock, and handling plane,
auger and chisel. Each one must select his wood, cure, fashion,
and fit his own ax with a handle, grind and swing it properly,
as well as cradle, scythe and sickle. They must be able to select
good seed grain, boil sap, and cure meat. They must know animals,
their diseases and treatment, and when they have mastered all
he can teach them, and done each thing properly, they may go for
their term at college, and make their choice of a profession.
As yet I'm sorry to say but one of them has come back to the land."
"You mean Laddie?"
"Yes."
"He has decided to be a farmer?"
"He is determined to make the soil yield his living."
"I am sorry--sorry indeed to hear it," said Mr. Pryor.
"He has brain and education to make a brilliant figure at
law or statesmanship; he would do well in trade."
"What makes you think he would not do well on land?"
"Wasted!" cried Mr. Pryor. "He would be wasted!"
"Hold a bit!" said mother, her face flushing as it did
when she was very provoked. "My husband is, and always has
been, on land. He is far from being wasted. He is a power in this
community. He has sons in cities in law and in trade. Not one
of them has the friends, and the influence on his time, that his
father has. Any day he says the word, he can stand in legislative
halls, and take any part he chooses in politics. He prefers his
home and family, and the work he does here, but let me tell you,
no son of his ever had his influence or opportunity, or ever will
have."
"All this is news to me," said Mr. Pryor.
"You didn't expect us to come over, force our way in and
tell you?"
It was his turn to blush and he did.
"Laddie has been at our house often," he said. "He
might have mentioned----"
Mother laughed. She was the gayest that morning.
"He `might,' but he never would. Neither would I if you hadn't
seemed to think that the men who do the things Mr. Stanton REFUSES
to do are the ones worth while."
"He could accomplish much in legislative halls."
"He figures in the large. He thinks that to be a commissioner,
travel his county and make all of it the best possible, to stand
in primaries and choose only worthy men for all offices, is doing
a much bigger work than to take one place for himself, and strive
only for that. Besides, he really loves his land, his house, and
family. He says no man has a right to bring twelve children into
the world and not see personally to rearing and educating them.
He thinks the farm and the children too much for me, and he's
sure he is doing the biggest thing for the community at large,
to go on as he does."
"Perhaps so," said Mr. Pryor slowly. "He should
know best. Perhaps he is."
"I make no doubt!" said mother, lifting her head proudly.
"And as Laddie feels and has fitted himself, I look to see
him go head and shoulders above any other son I have. Trade is
not the only way to accumulate. Law is not the only path to the
legislature. Comfort, independence, and freedom, such as we know
here, is not found in any city I ever have visited. We think we
have the best of life, and we are content on land. We have not
accumulated much money; we have spent thousands; we have had a
big family for which to provide, and on account of the newness
of the country, taxes always have been heavy. But we make no complaint.
We are satisfied. We could have branched off into fifty different
things after we had a fair start here. We didn't, because we preferred
life as we worked it out for ourselves. Paul says when he leaves
the city, and his horses' hoofs strike the road between our fields,
he always lifts his head higher, squares his shoulders, and feels
a man among men. To own land, and to love it, is a wonderful thing,
Mr. Pryor."
She made me think of something. Ever since I had added to my quill
and arrow money, the great big lot at Easter, father had shared
his chest till with me. The chest stood in our room, and in it
lay his wedding suit, his every Sunday clothes, his best hat with
a red silk handkerchief in the crown, a bundle of precious newspapers
he was saving on account of rare things in them he wanted for
reference, and in the till was the wallet of ready money he kept
in the house for unexpected expense, his deeds, insurance papers,
all his particular private papers, the bunches of lead pencils,
slate pencils, and the box of pens from which he supplied us for
school. Since I had grown so rich, he had gone partners with me,
and I might lift the lid, open the till and take out my little
purse that May bought from the huckster for my last birthday.
I wasn't to touch a thing, save my own, and I never did; but I
knew precious well what was there.
If Mr. Pryor thought my father didn't amount to much because he
lived on land; if it made him think more of him, to know that
he could be in the legislature if he chose, maybe he'd think still
more----
I lifted the papers, picked it up carefully, and slipping back
quietly, I laid it on Mr. Pryor's knee. He picked it up and held
it a minute, until he finished what he was saying to mother, and
then he looked at it. Then he looked long and hard. Then he straightened
up and looked again.
"God bless my soul!" he cried.
You see when he was so astonished he didn't know what he was saying,
he called on God, just as father says every one does. I took a
side look at mother. Her face was a little extra flushed, but
she was still smiling; so I knew she wasn't angry with me, though
of course she wouldn't have shown the thing herself. She and father
never did, except as each of us grew big enough to be taught about
the Crusaders. Father said he didn't care the snap of his finger
about it, except as it stood for hardihood and bravery. But Mr.
Pryor cared! He cared more than he could say. He stared, and stared,
and over and over he wonderingly repeated:
"God bless my soul!"
"Where did you get the crest of the Earl of Eastbrooke, the
master of Stanton house?" he demanded. "Stanton house!"
he repeated. "Why--why, the name! It's scarcely possible,
but----"
"But there it is!" laughed mother. "A mere bauble
for show and amounting to nothing on earth save as it stands a
mark for brave men who have striven to conquer."
"Surgere tento!" read Mr. Pryor, from the little shield.
"Four shells! Madame, I know men who would give their lives
to own this, and to have been born with the right to wear it.
It came to your husband in straight line?"
"Yes," said mother, "but generations back. He never
wore it. He never would. He only saves it for the children."
"It goes to your eldest son?"
"By rights, I suppose it should," said mother. "But
father mentioned it the other night. He said none of his boys
had gone as he tried to influence them, unless Laddie does now
in choosing land for his future, and if he does, his father is
inclined to leave it to him, and I agree. At our death it goes
to Laddie I am quite sure."
"Well, I hope--I hope," said Mr. Pryor, "that the
young man has the wit to understand what this would mean to him
in England."
"His wit is just about level with his father's," said
mother. "He never has been in England, and most probably
he never will be. I don't think it means a rap more to Laddie
than it does to my husband. Laddie is so busy developing the manhood
born in him, he has no time to chase the rainbow of reflected
glory, and no belief in its stability if he walked in its light.
The child of my family to whom that trinket really means something
is Little Sister, here. When Leon came in with the thief, I thought
he should have it; but after all, she is the staunchest little
Crusader I have."
Mr. Pryor looked me over with much interest.
"Yes, yes! No doubt!" he said. "But the male line!
This priceless treasure should descend to one of the male line!
To one whose name will remain Stanton! To Laddie would be best,
no doubt! No doubt at all!"
"We will think about it," said mother serenely as Mr.
Pryor arose to go.
He apologized for staying so long, and mother said it hadn't been
long, and asked him the nicest ever to come again. She walked
in the sunlight with him and pointed out the chestnuts. She asked
what he thought of a line of trees to shade the road, and they
discussed whether the pleasure they would give in summer would
pay for the dampness they would hold in winter. They wandered
around the yard and into the garden. She sent me to bring a knife,
trowel, and paper, so when he started for home, he was carrying
a load of cuttings, and roots to plant.
When father came from town that evening, at the first sight of
him, she went straight into his arms, her face beaming; she had
been like a sun all that day. Some of it must have been joy carried
over from yesterday.
"Praise God, the wedge is in!" she cried.
Father held her tight, stroked her hair, and began smiling without
having the least idea why, but he very well knew that whatever
pleased her like that was going to be good news for him also.
"What has happened, mother?" he asked.
"Mr. Pryor came over about the road and bridge tax, and oh
Paul! I've said every word to him I've been bursting to say from
the very start. Every single word, Paul!"
"How did he take it?"
"Time will tell. Anyway, he heard it, all of it, and he went
back carrying a load of things to plant. Only think of that! Once
he begins planting, and watching things grow, the home feeling
is bound to come. I tell you, Paul, the wedge is in! Oh I'm so
happy!"
CHAPTER XIV
The Crest of Eastbrooke
"Sow;--and look onward, upward,
Where the starry light appears,--
Where, in spite of coward's doubting,
Or your own heart's trembling fears,
You shall reap in joy the harvest
You have sown to-day in tears."
Any objections to my beginning to break ground on the west eighty
to-day?" asked Laddie of father at breakfast Monday morning.
"I had thought we would commence on the east forty, when
planning the work."
"So had I," said Laddie. "But since I thought that,
a very particular reason has developed for my beginning to plow
the west eighty at once, and there is a charming little ditty
I feel strongly impelled to whistle every step of the way."
Father looked at him sharply, and so, I think, did all of us.
And because we loved him deeply, we saw that his face was a trifle
pale for him; his clear eyes troubled, in spite of his laughing
way. He knew we were studying him too, but he wouldn't have said
anything that would make us look and question if he had minded
our doing it. That was exactly like Laddie. He meant it when he
said he hated a secret. He said there was no place on earth for
a man to look for sympathy and love if he couldn't find it in
his own family; and he never had been so happy since I had been
big enough to notice his moods as he had been since all of us
knew about the Princess. He didn't wait for father to ask why
he'd changed his mind about the place to begin.
"You see," he said, "a very charming friend of
mine expressed herself strongly last night about the degrading
influence of farming, especially that branch of agriculture which
evolves itself in a furrow; hence it is my none too happy work
to plow the west eighty where she can't look our way without seeing
me; and I have got to whistle my favourite `toon' where she must
stop her ears if she doesn't hear; and then it will be my painful
task, I fear, to endeavour to convince her that I am still clean,
decent, and not degraded."
"Oh Laddie!" cried mother.
"Abominable foolishness!" roared father like he does
roar once in about two years.
"Isn't it now?" asked Laddie sweetly. "I don't
know what has got into her head. She has seen me plowing fifty
times since their land has joined ours, and she never objected
before."
"I can tell you blessed well!" said mother. "She
didn't care two hoots how much my son plowed, but it makes a difference
when it comes to her lover."
"Maw, you speak amazing reckless," said Laddie, "if
I thought there was anything in THAT feature of the case, I'd
attempt a Highland fling on the ridgepole of our barn."
"Be serious!" said father sternly. "This is no
laughing matter."
"That's precisely why I am laughing," said Laddie. "Would
it help me any to sit down and weep? I trow not! I have thought
most of the silent watches--by the way they are far from silent
in May--and as I read my title clear, it's my job to plow the
west eighty immejit."
Father tried to look stern, but he just had to laugh.
"All right then, plow it!" he said.
"What did she say?" asked mother.
"Phew!" Laddie threw up both hands. "She must have
been bottled some time on the subject. The ferment was a spill
of considerable magnitude. The flood rather overwhelmed me, because
it was so unexpected. I had been taking for granted that she accepted
my circumstances and surroundings as she did me. But no, kind
friends, far otherwise! She said last night, in the clearest English
I ever heard spoken impromptu, that I was a man suitable for her
friend, but I would have to change my occupation before I could
be received on more than a friendly footing."
"`On more than a friendly footing'?" repeated mother.
"You have her exact words," said Laddie. "Kindly
pass the ham."
"What did you say?"
"Nothing! I am going to plow the answer. Please don't object
to my beginning this morning."
"You try yourself all winter to get as far as you have, and
then upset the bowl like this?" cried mother.
"Softly, mummy, softly!" said Laddie. "What am
I to do? I've definitely decided on my work. I see land and life,
as you and father taught me, in range and in perspective far more
than you've got from it. You had a first hand wrestle. The land
I covet has been greatly improved already. I can do what I choose
with it, making no more strenuous effort than plowing; and I am
proud to say that I LOVE to plow. I like my feet in the soil.
I want my head in the spring air. I can become almost tipsy on
the odours that fill my nostrils. Music evolved by the Almighty
is plenty good enough for me. I'm proud of a spanking big team,
under the control of a touch or a word. I enjoy farming, and I
am going to be a farmer. Plowing is one of the most pleasing parts
of the job. Sowing the seed beats it a little, from an artistic
standpoint, either is preferable to haying, threshing, or corn
cutting: all are parts of my work, so I'm going to begin.
Mother, I hope you don't mind if I take your grays. I'll be very
careful; but the picture I present to my girl to-day is going
to go hard with her at best, so I'd like to make it level best."
He arose, went around and knelt beside mother. He took her, chair
and all, in his arms:
"Best of mothers! on my breast
Lean thy head, and sink to rest."
She quoted. Mother laughed.
"Mammy," he asked bending toward her, "am I clean?"
"You goose!" she said, putting her arms around him and
holding him tight.
"Gander love," said Laddie, turning up his face for
a kiss. "Honest mother, you have been through nigh unto forty
years of it, tell me, can a man be a farmer and keep neat enough
not to be repulsive to a refined woman?"
"Your father is the answer," said mother. "All
of you know how perfectly repulsive he is and always has been
to me."
"`Repulsive,"' said father. "That's an ugly word!"
"There are a whole lot of unpleasant things that peep around
corners occasionally," said Laddie. "But whoever of
you dear people it was that showed Mr. Pryor the Crest of Eastbrooke,
brought out this particular dragon for me to slay."
"Tut, tut! Now what does that mean?" said father. "Have
we had a little exhibition of that especial brand of pride that
goes before a fall?"
"We have! and I take the tumble," said Laddie. "Watch
me start! `Jack fell down and broke his crown.' Question--will
`Jill come tumbling after?'"
My heart stopped and I was shaking in my bare feet, because I
wore no shoes to shake in. Oh my soul! No matter how Laddie jested
I knew he was almost killed; the harder he made fun, the worse
he was hurt. I opened my mouth to say I did it, I had to, but
Leon began to talk.
"Well, I think she's smart!" he cried. "If she
was going to give you the mitten, why didn't she do it long ago?"
"She had to find out first whether there were a possibility
of her wanting to keep it," said Laddie.
"You're sure you are all signed, sealed, and delivered on
this plowing business, are you?" asked Leon.
"Dead sure!" said Laddie.
"All right, if you like it!" said Leon. "None for
me after college! But say, you can be a farmer and not plow, you
know. You go trim the trees, and work at cleaner, more gentlemanly
jobs. I'll plow that field. I'd just as soon as not. I plowed
last year and you said I did well, didn't you, father?"
"Yes, on the potato patch," said father. "A cornfield
is a different thing. I fear you are too light."
"Oh but that was a year ago!" cried Leon.
He pushed back his chair and went to father.
"Just feel my biceps now! Most like steel!" he boasted.
"A fellow can grow a lot in a year, and all the riding I've
been doing, and all the exercise I've had. Cert' I can plow that
meadow."
"You're all right, shaver," said Laddie. "I'll
not forget your offer; but in this case it wouldn't help. Either
the Princess takes her medicine or I take mine. I'm going to live
on land: I'm going to plow in plain sight of the Pryor house this
week, if I have to hire to Jacob Hood to get the chance. May I
plow, and may I take the grays, father?"
"Yes!" said father roundly.
"Then here goes!" said Laddie. "You needn't fret,
mother. I'll not overheat them. I must give a concert simultaneous
with this plowing performance, and I'm particular about the music,
so I can't go too fast. Also, I'll wrap the harness."
"Goodness knows I'm not thinking about the horses,"
said mother.
"No, but if they turned up next Sunday, wind-broken, and
with nice large patches of hair rubbed from their sides, you would
be! If you were me, would you whistle, or vocalize to start on?"
Mother burst right out crying and laid her face all tear-wet against
him. Laddie kissed her, and wiped away the tears, teased her,
and soon as he could he bolted from the east door; but I was closest,
so I saw plainly that his eyes were wet too. My soul and body!
AND I HAD DONE IT! I might as well get it over.
"I showed Mr. Pryor the trinket," I said.
"How did you come to do that?" asked father sternly.
"When he was talking with mother. He told her Laddie would
be `wasted' farming----"
"Wasted?"
"That's what he said. Mother told him you had always farmed
and you were a `power in this community.' She told him about what
you did, because you wanted to, and what you COULD do if you chose,
about holding office, you know, and that seemed to make him think
heaps more of you, so I thought it would be a good thing for him
to know about the Crusaders too, and I ran and got the crest.
I THOUGHT it would help----"
"And so it will," said mother. "They constantly
make the best showing they can, we might as well, too. The trouble
is they got more than they expected. They thought they could look
down on us, and patronize us, if they came near at all; when they
found we were quite as well educated as they, had as much land,
could hold prominent offices if we chose, and had the right to
that bauble, they veered to the other extreme. Now they seem to
demand that we quit work----"
"Move to the city, `sit on a cushion and sew a fine seam,'"
suggested father.
"Exactly!" said mother. "They'll have to find out
we are running our own business; but I'm sorry it fell to Laddie
to show them. You could have done it better. It will come out
all right. The Princess is not going to lose a man like Laddie
on account of how he makes his money."
"Don't be too confident," said father. "With people
of their stripe, how much money a man can earn, and at what occupation,
constitute the whole of life."
She wasn't too confident. Yesterday she had been so happy she
almost flew. To-day she kept things going, and sang a lot, but
nearly every time you looked at her you could see her lips draw
tight, a frown cross her forehead, and her head shake. Pretty
soon we heard a racket on the road, so we went out. There was
Laddie with the matched team of carriage horses and a plow. Now,
in dreadfully busy times, father let Ned and Jo work a little,
but not very much. They were not plow horses; they were roadsters.
They liked to prance, and bow their necks and dance to the carriage.
It shamed them to be hitched to a plow. They drooped their heads
and slunk along like dogs caught sucking eggs. But they were a
sight on the landscape. They were lean and slender and yet round
too, matched dapple gray on flank and side, with long snow-white
manes and tails. No wonder mother didn't want them to work. Laddie
had reached through the garden fence and hooked a bunch of red
tulips and yellow daffodils. The red was at Jo's ear, and the
yellow at Ned's, and they did look fine. So did he! Big, strong,
clean, a red flower in his floppy straw hat band; and after he
drove through the gate, he began a shrill, fifelike whistle you
could have heard a half mile:
"See the merry farmer boy, tramp the meadows through,
Swing his hoe in careless joy, while dashing off the dew. Bobolink
in maple high, trills a note of glee,
Farmer boy in gay reply now whistles cheerily."
The chorus was all whistle, and it was written for folks who could.
It went up until it almost split the echoes, and Laddie could
easily sail a measure above the notes. He did it too. As for me,
I kept from sight. For a week Laddie whistled and plowed. He wore
that tune threadbare, and got an almost continuous pucker on his
lips. Leon said if he didn't stop whistling, and sing more, the
girls would think he was doing a prunes and prisms stunt. So after
that he sang the words, and whistled the chorus. But he made no
excuse to go, and he didn't go, to Pryors'. When Sunday came,
he went to Westchester to see Elizabeth, and stayed until Monday
morning. Not once that week did the Princess ride past our house,
or her father either. By noon Monday Laddie was back in the field,
and I had all I could bear. He was neither whistling nor singing
so much now, because he was away at the south end, where he couldn't
be seen or heard at Pryors'. He almost scoured the skin from him,
and he wore his gloves more carefully than usual. If he soiled
his clothing in the least, and it looked as if he would make more
than his share of work, he washed the extra pieces at night.
Tuesday morning I hurried with all my might, and then I ran to
the field where he was. I climbed on the fence, sat there until
he came up, and then I gave him some cookies. He stopped the horses,
climbed beside me and ate them. Then he put his arms around me
and hugged me tight.
"Laddie, do you know I did it?" I wailed.
"Did you now?" said Laddie. "No, I didn't know
for sure, but I had suspicions. You always have had such a fondness
for that particular piece of tinware."
"But Laddie, it means so much!"
"Doesn't it?" said Laddie. "A few days ago no one
could have convinced me that it meant anything at all to me, or
ever could. Just look at me now!"
"Don't joke, Laddie! Something must be done."
"Well, ain't I doing it?" asked Laddie. "Look at
all these acres and acres of Jim-dandy plowing!"
"Don't!" I begged. "Why don't you go over there?"
"No use, Chicken," said Laddie. "You see her exact
stipulation was that I must CHANGE MY OCCUPATION before I came
again."
"What does she want you to do?"
"Law, I think. Unfortunately, I showed her a letter from
Jerry asking me to enter his office this fall."
"Hadn't you better do it, Laddie?"
"How would you like to be shut in little, stuffy rooms, and
set to droning over books and papers every hour of the day, all
your life, and to spend the best of your brain and bodily strength
straightening out other men's quarrels?"
"Oh Laddie, you just couldn't!" I cried.
"Precisely!" said Laddie. "I just couldn't, and
I just won't!"
"What can you do?"
"I might compromise on stock," he said. "I could
follow the same occupation as her father, and with better success.
Neither he nor his men get the best results from horses. They
don't understand them, especially the breeds they are attempting
to handle. Most Arab horsemen are tent dwellers. They travel from
one oasis to another with their stock. At night their herds are
gathered around them as children. As children they love them,
pet them, feed them. Each is named for a divinity, a planet or
a famous ruler, and the understanding between master and beast
is perfect. Honestly, Little Sister, I think you have got to believe
in the God of Israel, in order to say the right word to an Arabian
horse; and I know you must believe in the God of love. A beast
of that breed, jerked, kicked, and scolded is a fine horse ruined.
If I owned half the stock Mr. Pryor has over there, I could put
it in such shape for market that I could get twice from it what
his men will."
"Are Thomas and James rough with the horses?"
"`Like master, like man,' " quoted Laddie. "They
are! They are foolish with the Kentucky strain, and fools with
the Arab; and yet, that combination beats the world. But I must
get on with the P.C. job."
He slid from the fence, took a drink from his water jug, and pulled
a handful of grass for each horse. As he stood feeding them, I
almost fell from the top rail.
"Laddie!" I whispered. "Look! Mr. Pryor is halfway
across the field on Ranger."
"So?" said Laddie. "Now I wonder----"
"Shall I go?"
"No indeed !" said Laddie. "Stay right where you
are. It can't be anything of much importance."
At first it didn't seem to be. They talked about the weather,
the soil, the team. Laddie scooped a handful of black earth, and
holding it out, told Mr. Pryor all about how good it was, and
why, and he seemed interested. Then they talked about everything;
until if he had been Jacob Hood, he would have gone away. But
just at the time when I expected him to start, he looked at Laddie
straight and hard.
"I missed you Sabbath evening," he said.
Then I looked at him. He had changed, some way. He seemed more
human, more like our folks, less cold and stern.
"I sincerely hope it was unanimous," said Laddie.
Mr. Pryor had to laugh.
"It was a majority, at any rate."
Laddie stared dazed. You see that was kind of a joke. An easy
one, because I caught it; but we were not accustomed to expecting
a jest from Mr. Pryor. Not one of us dreamed there was a joke
between his hat crown and his boot soles. Then Laddie laughed;
but he sobered quickly.
"I'm mighty sorry if Mrs. Pryor missed me," he said.
"I thought of her. I have grown to be her devoted slave,
and I hoped she liked me."
"You put it mildly," said Mr. Pryor. "Since you
didn't come when she expected you, we've had the worst time with
her that we have had since we reached this da--ah--er--um--this
country."
"Could you make any suggestion?" asked Laddie.
"I could! I would suggest that you act like the sensible
fellow I know you to be, and come as usual, at your accustomed
times."
"But I'm forbidden, man!" cried Laddie.
Ugh! Such awful things as Mr. Pryor said.
"Forbidden!" he cried. "Is a man's roof his own,
or is it not? While I live, I propose to be the head of my family.
I invite you! I ask you! Mrs. Pryor and I want you! What more
is necessary?"
"TWO things," said Laddie, just as serenely. "That
Miss Pryor wants me, and that I want to come."
"D'ye mean to tell me that you DON'T want to come, eh? After
the fight you put up to force your way in!"
Laddie studied the sky, a whimsy smile on his lips.
"Now wasn't that a good fight?" he inquired. "I'm
mighty proud of it! But not now, or ever, do I wish to enter your
house again, if Miss Pryor doesn't want, and welcome me."
Then he went over, took Mr. Pryor's horse by the head, and began
working with its bridle. It didn't set right some way, and Mr.
Pryor had jerked, spurred, and mauled, until there was a big space
tramped to mortar. Laddie slid his fingers beneath the leather,
eased it a little, and ran his hands over the fretful creature's
head. It just stopped, stood still, pushed its nose under his
arm, and pressed against his side. Mr. Pryor arose in one stirrup,
swung around and alighted. He looped an arm through the bridle
rein, and with both hands gripped his whipstock.
"How the devil do you do it?" he asked, as if he were
provoked.
"First, the bridle was uncomfortable; next, you surely know,
Mr. Pryor, that a man can transfer his mental state to his mount."
Laddie pointed to the churned up earth.
"THAT represents your mental state; THIS"--he slid his
hand down the neck of the horse--"portrays mine."
Mr. Pryor's face reddened, but Laddie was laughing so heartily
he joined in sort of sickly-like.
"Oh I doubt if you are so damnably calm!" he cried.
"I'm CALM enough, so far as that goes," said Laddie.
"I'm not denying that I've got about all the heartache I
can conveniently carry."
"Do you mind telling me how far this affair has gone?"
"Wouldn't a right-minded man give the woman in the case the
first chance to answer that question? I greatly prefer that you
ask Miss Pryor."
If ever I felt sorry for any one, I did then for Mr. Pryor. He
stood there gripping the whip with both hands and he looked exactly
as if the May wind might break him into a thousand tiny pieces,
and every one of them would be glass.
"Um--er----" he said at last. "You're right, of
course, but unfortunately, Pamela and her mother did not agree
with my motives, or my course in coming to this country; and while
there is no outward demonstration er--um--other than Mrs. Pryor's
seclusion; yet, er--um!--I am forced to the belief that I'm NOT
in their confidence."
"I see!" said Laddie. "And of course you love your
daughter as any man would love so beautiful a child, and when
she is all he has----" I thought the break was coming right
there, but Mr. Pryor clenched his whip and put it off; still,
any one watching with half an eye could see that it was only put
off, and not for long at that,--"It has been my idea, Mr.
Pryor, that the proper course for me was to see if I could earn
any standing with your daughter. If I could, and she gave me permission,
then I intended coming to you the instant I knew how she felt.
But in such a case as this, I don't think I shall find the slightest
hesitation in telling you anything you want to know, that I am
able."
"You don't know how you stand with her?"
Laddie took off his hat and ran his fingers through his hair.
His feet were planted widely apart, and his face was sober enough
for any funeral now. At last he spoke.
"I've been trying to figure that out," he said slowly.
"I believe the situation is as open to you as it is to me.
She was a desperately lonely, homesick girl, when she caught my
eye and heart; and I placed myself on her horizon. In her case
the women were slow in offering friendship, because, on account
of Mrs. Pryor's seclusion, none was felt to be wanted; then Miss
Pryor was different in dress and manner. I found a way to let
her see that I wanted to be friends, and she accepted my friendship,
and at the same time allowed it go only so far. On a few rare
occasions, I've met her alone, and we've talked out various phases
of life together; but most of our intercourse has taken place
in your home, and in your presence. You probably have seen her
meet and entertain her friends frequently. I should think you
would be more nearly able to gauge my standing with her than I
am."
"You haven't told her that you love her?"
"Haven't I though?" cried Laddie. "Man alive! What
do you think I'm made of? Putty? Told her? I've told her a thousand
times. I've said it, and sung it and whistled it, and looked it,
and lived it. I've written it, and ridden it, and this week I've
plowed it! Your daughter knows as she knows nothing else, in all
this world, that she has only to give me one glance, one word,
one gesture of invitation, to find me before her six feet of the
worst demoralized beefsteak a woman ever undertook to handle.
Told her? Ye Gods! I should say I've told her!"
If any of Pryors had been outdoors they certainly could have heard
Mr. Pryor. How he laughed! He shook until he tottered. Laddie
took his arm and led him to the fence. He lifted a broad top rail,
pushed it between two others across a corner and made a nice comfortable
seat for him. After a while Mr. Pryor wiped his eyes. Laddie stood
watching him with a slow grin on his face.
"And she hasn't given the signal you are waiting for?"
he asked at last.
Laddie slowly shook his head.
"Nary the ghost of a signal!" he said. "Now we
come to Sunday before last. I only intimated, vaguely, that a
hint of where I stood would be a comfort--and played Jonah. The
whale swallowed me at a gulp, and for all my inches, never batted
an eye. You see, a few days before I showed her a letter from
my brother Jerry, because I thought it might interest her. There
was something in it to which I had paid little or no attention,
about my going to the city and beginning work in his law office;
to cap that, evidently you had mentioned before her our prize
piece of family tinware. There was a culmination like a thunder
clap in a January sky. She said everything that was on her mind
about a man of my size and ability doing the work I am, and then
she said I must change my occupation before I came again."
"And for answer you've split the echoes with some shrill,
abominable air, and plowed, before her very eyes, for a week!"
Then Laddie laughed.
"Do you know," he said; "that's a good one on me!
It never occurred to me that she would not be familiar with that
air, and understand its application. Do you mean to crush me further
by telling me that all my perfectly lovely vocalizing and whistling
was lost?"
"It was a dem irritating, challenging sort of thing,"
said Mr. Pryor. "I listened to it by the hour, myself, trying
to make out exactly what it did mean. It seemed to combine defiance
with pleading, and through and over all ran a note of glee that
was really quite charming."
"You have quoted a part of it, literally," said Laddie.
"`A note of glee'--the cry of a glad heart, at peace with
all the world, busy with congenial work."
"I shouldn't have thought you'd have been so particularly
joyful."
"Oh, the joy was in the music," said Laddie. "That
was a whistle to keep up my courage. The joy was in the song,
not in me! Last week was black enough for me to satisfy the most
exacting pessimist."
"I wish you might have seen the figure you cut! That fine
team, flower bedecked, and the continuous concert!"
"But I did!" cried Laddie. "We have mirrors. That
song can't be beaten. I know this team is all right, and I'm not
dwarfed or disfigured. That was the pageant of summer passing
in review. It represented the tilling of the soil; the sowing
of seed, garnering to come later. You buy corn and wheat, don't
you? They are vastly necessary. Much more so than the settling
of quarrels that never should have taken place. Do you think your
daughter found the spectacle at all moving?"
"Damn you, sir, what I should do, is to lay this whip across
your shoulders!" cried Mr. Pryor.
But if you will believe it, he was laughing again.
"I prefer that you don't," said Laddie, "or on
Ranger either. See how he likes being gentled."
Then he straightened and drew a deep breath.
"Mr. Pryor," he said, "as man to man, I have got
this to say to you--and you may use your own discretion about
repeating it to your daughter: I can offer her six feet of as
sound manhood as you can find on God's footstool. I never in my
whole life have had enough impure blood in my body to make even
one tiny eruption on my skin. I never have been ill a day in my
life. I never have touched a woman save as I lifted and cared
for my mother, and hers, or my sisters. As to my family and education
she can judge for herself. I offer her the first and only love
of my heart. She objects to farming, because she says it is dirty,
offensive work. There are parts of it that are dirty. Thank God,
it only soils the body, and that can be washed. To delve and to
dive into, and to study and to brood over the bigger half of the
law business of any city is to steep your brain in, and smirch
your soul with, such dirt as I would die before I'd make an occupation
of touching. Will you kindly tell her that word for word, and
that I asked you to?"
Mr. Pryor was standing before I saw him rise. He said those awful
words again, but between them he cried: "You're right! It's
the truth! It's the eternal truth!"
"It IS the truth," said Laddie. "I've only to visit
the offices, and examine the business of those of my family living
by law, to KNOW that it's the truth. Of course there's another
side! There are times when there are great opportunities to do
good; I recognize that. To some these may seem to overbalance
that to which I object. If they do, all right. I am merely deciding
for myself. Once and for all, for me it is land. It is born in
me to love it, to handle it easily, to get the best results from
stock. I am going to take the Merriweather place adjoining ours
on the west, and yours on the south. I intend to lease it for
ten years, with purchase privilege at the end, so that if I make
of it what I plan, my work will not be lost to me. I had thought
to fix up the place and begin farming. If Miss Pryor has any use
whatever for me, and prefers stock, that is all right with me.
I'll go into the same business she finds suitable for you. I can
start in a small way and develop. I can afford a maid for her
from the beginning, but I couldn't clothe her as she has been
accustomed to being dressed, for some time. I would do my best,
however. I know what store my mother sets by being well gowned.
And as a husband, I can offer your daughter as loving consideration
as woman ever received at the hands of man. Provided by some miracle
I could win her consent, would you even consider me, and such
an arrangement?"
"Frankly sir," said Mr. Pryor, "I have reached
the place where I would be----" whenever you come to a long
black line like that, it means that he just roared a lot of words
father never said, and never will--"glad to! To tell the
truth, the thing you choose to jestingly refer to as `tinware'--I
hope later to convince of the indelicacy of such allusion--would
place you in England on a social level above any we ever occupied,
or could hope to. Your education equals ours. You are a physical
specimen to be reckoned with, and I believe what you say of yourself.
There's something so clean and manly about you, it amounts to
confirmation. A woman should set her own valuation on that; and
the height of it should correspond with her knowledge of the world."
"Thank you!" said Laddie. "You are more than kind!
more than generous!"
"As to the arrangements you could make for Pamela,"
said Mr. Pryor, "she's all we have. Everything goes to her,
ultimately. She has her stipulated allowance now; whether in my
house or yours, it would go with her. Surely you wouldn't be so
callous as to object to our giving her anything that would please
us!"
"Why should I?" asked Laddie. "That's only natural
on your part.
Your child is your child; no matter where or what it is, you expect
to exercise a certain amount of loving care over it. My father
and mother constantly send things to their children absent from
home, and they take much pleasure in doing it. That is between
you and your daughter, of course. I shouldn't think of interfering.
But in the meantime, unless Miss Pryor has been converted to the
beauties of plowing through my continuous performance of over
a week, I stand now exactly where I did before, so far as she
is concerned. If you and Mrs. Pryor have no objection to me, if
you feel that you could think of me, or find for me any least
part of a son's place in your hearts, I believe I should know
how to appreciate it, and how to go to work to make myself worthy
of it."
Mr. Pryor sat down so suddenly, the rail almost broke. I thought
the truth was, that he had heart trouble, himself. He stopped
up, choked on things, flopped around, and turned so white. I suppose
he thought it was womanish, and a sign of weakness. and so he
didn't tell, but I bet anything that he had it--bad!
"I'll try to make the little fool see!" he said.
"Gently, gently! You won't help me any in that mood,"
said Laddie. "The chances are that Miss Pryor repeated what
she heard from you long ago, and what she knows you think and
feel, unless you've changed recently."
"That's the amount of it!" cried Mr. Pryor. "All
my life I've had a lot of beastly notions in my head about rank,
and class, and here they don't amount to a damn! There's no place
for them. Things are different. Your mother, a grand, good woman,
opened my eyes to many things recently, and I get her viewpoint--
clearly, and I agree with her, and with you, sir!--I agree with
you!"
"I am more than glad," said Laddie. "You certainly
make a friend at court. Thank you very much!"
"And you will come----?"
"The instant Miss Pryor gives me the slightest sign that
I am wanted, and will be welcomed by her, I'll come like a Dakota
blizzard! Flos can hump herself on time for once."
"But you won't come until she does?"
"Man alive! I can't!" cried Laddie. "Your daughter
said positively exactly what she meant. It was unexpected and
it hit me so hard I didn't try to argue. I simply took her at
her word, her very explicit word."
"Fool!" cried Mr. Pryor. "The last thing on earth
any woman ever wants or expects is for a man to take her at her
word."
"What?" cried Laddie.
"She had what she said in her mind of course, but what she
wanted was to be argued out of it! She wanted to be convinced!"
"I think not! She was entirely too convincing herself,"
said Laddie. "It's my guess that she has thought matters
over, and that her mind is made up; but I would take it as a mighty
big favour if you would put that little piece of special pleading
squarely up to her. Will you?"
"Yes," said Mr. Pryor, "I will. I'll keep cool
and do my best, but I am so unfortunate in my temper. I could
manage slaves better than women. This time I'll be calm, and reason
things out with her, or I'll blow out my brains."
"Don't you dare!" laughed Laddie. "You and I are
going to get much pleasure, comfort and profit from this world,
now that we have come to an understanding."
Mr. Pryor arose and held out his hand. Laddie grasped it tight,
and they stood there looking straight at each other, while a lark
on the fence post close by cried, "Spring o' ye-ar !"
at them, over and over, but they never paid the least attention.
"You see," said Mr. Pryor, "I've been thinking
things over deeply, deeply! ever since talking with your mother.
I've cut myself off from going back to England, by sacrificing
much of my property in hasty departure, if by any possibility
I should ever want to return, and there is none, not the slightest!
There's no danger of any one crossing the sea, and penetrating
to this particular spot so far inland; we won't be molested! And
lately--lately, despite the rawness, and the newness, there is
something about the land that takes hold, after all. I should
dislike leaving now! I found in watching some roots your mother
gave me, that I wanted them to grow, that I very much hoped they
would develop, and beautify our place with flowers, as yours is.
I find myself watching them, watching them daily, and oftener,
and there seems to be a sort of home feeling creeping around my
heart. I wish Pamela would listen to reason! I wish she would
marry you soon! I wish there would be little children. Nothing
else on earth would come so close to comforting my wife, and me
also. Nothing! Go ahead, lad, plow away! I'll put your special
pleading up to the girl."
He clasped Laddie's hand, mounted and rode back to the gate he
had entered when he came. Laddie sat on the rail, so I climbed
down beside him. He put his arm around me.
"Do I feel any better?" he asked dubiously.
"Of course you do!" I said stoutly. "You feel whole
heaps, and stacks, and piles better. You haven't got him to fight
any more, or Mrs. Pryor. It's now only to convince the Princess
about how it's all right to plow."
"Small matter, that!" said Laddie. "And easy! Just
as simple and easy!"
"Have you asked the Fairies to help you?"
"Aye, aye, sir," said Laddie. "Also the winds,
the flowers, the birds and the bees! I have asked everything on
earth to help me except you, Little Sister. I wonder if I have
been making a mistake there?"
"Are you mad at me, Laddie?"
"'Cause for why?"
"About the old crest thing!"
"Forget it!" laughed Laddie. "I have. And anyway,
in the long run, I must be honest enough to admit that it may
have helped. It seems to have had its influence with Mr. Pryor,
no doubt it worked the same on Mrs. Pryor, and it may be that
it was because she had so much more to bank on than she ever expected,
that the Princess felt emboldened to make her demand. It may be,
you can't tell! Anyway, it's very evident that it did no real
harm. And forget my jesting, Chicken. A man can't always cry because
there are tears in his heart. I think quite as much of that crest
as you do. In the sum of human events, it is a big thing. No one
admires a Crusader more than I. No one likes a good fight better.
No Crusader ever put up a stiffer battle than I have in the past
week while working in these fields. Every inch of them is battlefield,
every furrow a separate conflict. Gaze upon the scene of my Waterloo!
When June covers it with green, it will wave over the resting
place of my slain heart!"
"Oh Laddie!" I sobbed. "There you go again! How
can you?"
"Whoo-pee!" cried Laddie. "That's the question!
How can I? Got to, Little Sister! There's no other way."
"No," I was forced to admit, "there isn't. What
are we going to do now?"
"Life-saver, we'll now go to dinner," said Laddie. "Nothing
except the partnership implied in `we' sustains me now. YOU'LL
FIND A WAY TO HELP ME OUT, WON'T YOU, LITTLE SISTER?"
"OF COURSE I WILL!" I promised, without ever stopping
a minute to think what kind of a job that was going to be.
Did you ever wish with all your might that something would happen,
and wait for it, expect it, and long for it, and nothing did,
until it grew so bad, it seemed as if you had to go on another
minute you couldn't bear it? Now I thought when Mr. Pryor talked
to her, maybe she'd send for Laddie that very same night; but
send nothing! She didn't even ride on our road any more. Of course
her father had made a botch of it! Bet I could have told her Laddie's
message straighter than he did. I could think it over, and see
exactly how he'd do. He'd talk nicely about one minute, and the
first word she said, that he didn't like, he'd be ranting, and
using unsuitable words. Just as like as not he told her that he'd
lay his whip across her shoulders, like he had Laddie. Any one
could see that as long as she was his daughter, she might be slightly
handy with whips herself; at least she wouldn't be likely to stand
still and tell him to go ahead and beat her.
Sunday Laddie went to Lucy's. He said he was having a family reunion
on the installment plan. Of course we laughed, but none of us
missed the long look he sent toward Pryors' as he mounted to start
in the opposite direction.
Everything went on. I didn't see how it could, but it did. It
even got worse, for another letter came from Shelley that made
matters concerning her no brighter, and while none of us talked
about Laddie, all of us knew mighty well how we felt; and what
was much worse, how he felt. Father and mother had quit worrying
about God; especially father. He seemed to think that God and
Laddie could be trusted to take care of the Princess, and I don't
know exactly what mother thought. No doubt she saw she couldn't
help herself, and so she decided it was useless to struggle.
The plowing on the west side was almost finished, and some of
the seed was in. Laddie went straight ahead flower-trimmed and
whistling until his face must have ached as badly as his heart.
In spite of how hard he tried to laugh, and keep going, all of
us could see that he fairly had to stick up his head and stretch
his neck like the blue goose, to make the bites go down. And you
couldn't help seeing the roundness and the colour go from his
face, a little more every day. My! but being in love, when you
couldn't have the one you loved, was the worst of all. I wore
myself almost as thin as Laddie, hunting a Fairy to ask if she'd
help me to make the Princess let Laddie go on and plow, when he
was so crazy about it. I prayed beside my bed every night, until
the Lord must have grown so tired He quit listening to me, for
I talked right up as impressively as I knew how, and it didn't
do the least bit of good. I hadn't tried the one big prayer toward
the east yet; but I was just about to the place where I intended
to do it soon.
CHAPTER XV
Laddie, the Princess, and the Pie
"O whistle, and I'll come to you, my lad."
Candace was baking the very first batch of rhubarb pies for the
season and the odour was so tempting I couldn't keep away from
the kitchen door. Now Candace was a splendid cook about chicken
gizzards--the liver was always mother's--doughnuts and tarts,
but I never really did believe she would cut into a fresh rhubarb
pie, even for me. As I reached for the generous big piece I thought
of Laddie poor Laddie, plowing away at his Crusader fight, and
not a hint of victory. No one in the family liked rhubarb pie
better than he did. I knew there was no use to ask for a plate.
"Wait--oh wait!" I cried.
I ran to the woodshed, pulled a shining new shingle from a bale
stacked there, and held it for Candace. Then I slipped around
the house softly. I didn't want to run any one's errands that
morning. I laid the pie on the horseblock and climbed the catalpa
carefully, so as not to frighten my robins. They were part father's
too, because robins were his favourite birds; he said their song
through and after rain was the sweetest music on earth, and mostly
he was right; so they were not all my robins, but they were most
mine after him; and I owned the tree. I hunted the biggest leaf
I could see, and wiped it clean on my apron, although it was early
for much dust. It covered the pie nicely, because it was the proper
shape, and I held the stem with one hand to keep it in place.
If I had made that morning myself I couldn't have done better.
It was sunny, spring air, but it was that cool, spicy kind that
keeps you stopping every few minutes to see just how full you
can suck your lungs without bursting. It seemed to wash right
through and through and make you all over. The longer you breathed
it the clearer your head became, and the better you felt, until
you would be possessed to try and see if you really couldn't fly.
I tried that last summer, and knocked myself into jelly. You'd
think once would have been enough, but there I was going down
the road with Laddie's pie, and wanting with all my heart to try
again.
Sometimes I raced, but I was a little afraid the pie would shoot
from the shingle and it was like pulling eye teeth to go fast
that morning. I loved the soft warm dust, that was working up
on the road. Spat! Spat! I brought down my bare feet, already
scratched and turning brown, and laughed to myself at the velvety
feel of it. There were little puddles yet, where May and I had
"dipped and faded" last fall, and it was fun to wade
them. The roadsides were covered with meadow grass and clover
that had slipped through the fence. On slender green blades, in
spot after spot, twinkled the delicate bloom of blue-eyed grass.
Never in all this world was our Big Creek lovelier. It went slipping,
and whispering, and lipping, and lapping over the stones, tugging
at the rushes and grasses as it washed their feet; everything
beside it was in masses of bloom, a blackbird was gleaming and
preening on every stone, as it plumed after its bath. Oh there's
no use to try--it was just SPRING when it couldn't possibly be
any better.
But even spring couldn't hold me very long that morning, for you
see my heart was almost sick about Laddie; and if he couldn't
have the girl he wanted, at least I could do my best to comfort
him with the pie. I was going along being very careful the more
I thought about how he would like it, so I was not watching the
road so far ahead as I usually did. I always kept a lookout for
Paddy Ryan, Gypsies, or Whitmore's bull. When I came to an unusually
level place, and took a long glance ahead, my heart turned right
over and stopped still, and I looked long enough to be sure, and
then right out loud some one said, "I'll DO something!"
and as usual, I was the only one there.
For days I'd been in a ferment, like the vinegar barrel when the
cider boils, or the yeast jar when it sets too close to the stove.
To have Laddie and the Princess separated was dreadful, and knowing
him as I did, I knew he never really would get over it. I had
tried to help once, and what I had done started things going wrong;
no wonder I was slow about deciding what to try next. That I was
going to do something, I made up my mind the instant Laddie said
he was not mad at me; that I was his partner, and asked me to
help; but exactly WHAT would do any good, took careful thought.
Here was my chance coming right at me. She was far up the road,
riding Maud like racing. I began to breathe after a while, like
you always do, no matter how you are worked up, and with my brain
whirling, I went slowly toward her. How would I manage to stop
her? Or what could I say that would help Laddie? I was shaking,
and that's the truth; but through and over it all, I was watching
her too. I only wish you might have seen her that morning. Of
course the morning was part of it. A morning like that would make
a fence post better looking. Half a mile away you could see she
was tipsy with spring as I was, or the song sparrows, or the crazy
babbling old bobolinks on the stakes and riders. She made such
a bright splash against the pink fence row, with her dark hair,
flushed cheeks, and red lips, she took my breath. Father said
she was the loveliest girl in three counties, and Laddie stretched
that to the whole world. As she came closer, smash! through me
went the thought that she looked precisely as Shelley had at Christmas
time; and Shelley had been that way because she was in love with
the Paget man. Now if the Princess was gleaming and flashing like
that, for the same reason, there wasn't any one for her to love
so far as I knew, except Laddie.
Then smash! came another thought. She HAD to love him! She couldn't
help herself. She had all winter, all last summer, and no one
but themselves knew how long before that, and where was there
any other man like Laddie? Of course she loved him! Who so deserving
of love? Who else had his dancing eyes of deep tender blue, cheeks
so pink, teeth so white, such waving chestnut hair, and his height
and breadth? There was no other man who could ride, swim, leap,
and wrestle as he could. None who could sing the notes, do the
queer sums with letters having little figures at the corners in
the college books, read Latin as fast as English, and even the
Greek Bible. Of course she loved him! Every one did! Others might
plod and meander, Laddie walked the tired, old road that went
out of sight over the hill, with as prideful a step as any king;
his laugh was as merry as the song of the gladdest thrush, while
his touch was so gentle that when mother was in dreadful pain
I sometimes thought she would a little rather have him hold her
than father.
Now, he was in this fearful trouble, the colour was going from
his face, his laugh was a little strained, and the heartache almost
more than he could endure--and there she came! I stepped squarely
in the middle of the road so she would have to stop or ride over
me, and when she was close, I stood quite still. I was watching
with my eyes, heart, and brain, and I couldn't see that she was
provoked, as she drew rein and cried: "Good morning, Little
Queer Person!"
I had supposed she would say Little Sister, she had for ages,
just like Laddie, but she must have thought it was queer for me
to stop her that way, so she changed. I was in for it. I had her
now, so I smiled the very sweetest smile that I could think up
in such a hurry, and said, "Good morning," the very
politest I ever did in all my life. Then I didn't know what to
do next, but she helped me out.
"What have you there?" she asked.
"It's a piece of the very first rhubarb pie for this spring,
and I'm carrying it to Laddie," I said, as I lifted the catalpa
leaf and let her peep, just to show her how pie looked when it
was right. I bet she never saw a nicer piece.
The Princess slid her hand down Maud's neck to quiet her prancing,
and leaned in the saddle, her face full of interest. I couldn't
see a trace of anything to discourage me; her being on our road
again looked favourable. She seemed to think quite as much of
that pie as I did. She was the finest little thoroughbred. She
understood so well, I was sorry I couldn't give it to her. It
made her mouth water all right, for she drew a deep breath that
sort of quivered; but it was no use, she didn't get that pie.
"I think it looks delicious," she said. "Are you
carrying it for Candace?"
"No! She gave it to me. It's my very own."
"And you're doing without it yourself to carry it to Laddie,
I'll be bound!" cried the Princess.
"I'd much rather," I said.
"Do you love Laddie so dearly?" she asked.
My heart was full of him right then; I forgot all about when I
had the fever, and as I never had been taught to lie, I told her
what I thought was the truth, and I guess it WAS: "Best of
any one in all this world!"
The Princess looked across the field, where she must have seen
him finishing the plowing, and thought that over, and I waited,
sure in my mind, for some reason, that she would not go for a
little while longer.
"I have been wanting to see you," she said at last.
"In fact I think I came this way hoping I'd meet you. Do
you know the words to a tune that goes like this?"
Then she began to whistle "The Merry Farmer Boy." I
wish you might have heard the flourishes she put to it.
"Of course I do," I answered. "All of us were brought
up on it."
"Well, I have some slight curiosity to learn what they are,"
she said. "Would you kindly repeat them for me?"
"Yes," I said. "This is the first verse:
"`See the merry farmer boy tramp the meadows through,
Swing his hoe in careless joy while dashing off the dew.
Bobolink in maple high----'
"Of course you can see for yourself that they're not. There
isn't a single one of them higher than a fence post. The person
who wrote the piece had to put it that way so high would rhyme
with reply, which is coming in the next line."
"I see!" said the Princess.
"`Bobolink in maple high, trills a note of glee
Farmer boy a gay reply now whistles cheerily.'
"Then you whistle the chorus like you did it."
"You do indeed!" said the Princess. "Proceed!"
"`Then the farmer boy at noon, rests beneath the shade,
Listening to the ceaseless tune that's thrilling through the glade.
Long and loud the harvest fly winds his bugle round,
Long, and loud, and shrill, and high, he whistles back the sound.'"
"He does! He does indeed! I haven't a doubt about that!"
cried the Princess. "`Long, and loud, and shrill, and high,'
he whistles over and over the sound, until it becomes maddening.
Is that all of that melodious, entrancing production?"
"No, evening comes yet. The last verse goes this way:
"`When the busy day's employ, ends at dewy eve,
Then the happy farmer boy, doth haste his work to leave,
Trudging down the quiet lane, climbing o'er the hill,
Whistling back the changeless wail, of plaintive
whip-poor-will,'--
and then you do the chorus again, and if you know how well enough
you whistle in, `whip-poor-will,' 'til the birds will answer you.
Laddie often makes them."
"My life!" cried the Princess. "Was that he doing
those bird cries? Why, I hunted, and hunted, and so did father.
We'd never seen a whip-poor-will. Just fancy us!"
"If you'd only looked at Laddie," I said.
"My patience!" cried the Princess. "Looked at him!
There was no place to look without seeing him. And that ear-splitting
thing will ring in my head forever, I know."
"Did he whistle it too high to suit you, Princess?"
"He was perfectly welcome to whistle as he chose," she
said, "and also to plow with the carriage horses, and to
bedeck them and himself with the modest, shrinking red tulip and
yellow daffodil."
Now any one knows that tulips and daffodils are NOT modest and
shrinking. If any flowers just blaze and scream colour clear across
a garden, they do. She was provoked, you could see that.
"Well, he only did it to please you," I said. "He
didn't care anything about it. He never plowed that way before.
But you said he mustn't plow at all, and he just had to plow,
there was no escaping that, so he made it as fine and happy as
possible to show you how nicely it could be done."
"Greatly obliged, I'm sure!" cried the Princess. "He
showed me! He certainly did! And so he feels that there's `no
escaping' plowing, does he?"
Then I knew where I was. I'd have given every cent of mine in
father's chest till, if mother had been in my place. Once, for
a second, I thought I'd ask the Princess to go with me to the
house, and let mother tell her how it was; but if she wouldn't
go, and rode away, I felt I couldn't endure it, and anyway, she
had said she was looking for me; so I gripped the shingle, dug
in my toes and went at her just as nearly like mother talked to
her father as I could remember, and I'd been put through memory
tests, and descriptive tests, nearly every night of my life, so
I had most of it as straight as a string.
"Well, you see, he CAN'T escape it," I said. "He'd
do anything in all this world for you that he possibly could;
but there are some things no man CAN do."
"I didn't suppose there was anything you thought Laddie couldn't
do," she said.
"A little time back, I didn't," I answered. "But
since he took the carriage horses, trimmed up in flowers, and
sang and whistled so bravely, day after day, when his heart was
full of tears, why I learned that there was something he just
COULDN'T DO; NOT TO SAVE HIS LIFE, OR HIS LOVE, OR EVEN TO SAVE
YOU."
"And of course you don't mind telling me what that is?"
coaxed the Princess in her most wheedling tones.
"Not at all! He told our family, and I heard him tell your
father. The thing he can't do, not even to win you, is to be shut
up in a little office, in a city, where things roar, and smell,
and nothing is like this----"
I pointed out the orchard, hill, and meadow, so she looked where
I showed her--looked a long time.
"No, a city wouldn't be like this," she said slowly.
"And that isn't even the beginning," I said. "Maybe
he could bear that, men have been put in prison and lived through
years and years of it, perhaps Laddie could too; I doubt it! but
anyway the worst of it is that he just couldn't, not even to save
you, spend all the rest of his life trying to settle other people's
old fusses. He despises a fuss. Not one of us ever in our lives
have been able to make him quarrel, even one word. He simply won't.
And if he possibly could be made to by any one on earth, Leon
would have done it long ago, for he can start a fuss with the
side of a barn. But he can't make Laddie fuss, and nobody can.
He NEVER would at school, or anywhere. Once in a while if a man
gets so overbearing that Laddie simply can't stand it, he says:
`Now, you'll take your medicine!' Then he pulls off his coat,
and carefully, choosing the right spots, he just pounds the breath
out of that man, but he never stops smiling, and when he helps
him up he always says: `Sorry! hope you'll excuse me, but you
WOULD have it.' That's what he said about you, that you had to
take your medicine----"
I made a mistake there. That made her too mad for any use.
"Oh," she cried, "I do? I'll jolly well show the
gentleman!"
"Oh, you needn't take the trouble," I cried. "He's
showing you!"
She just blazed like she'd break into flame. Any one could fuss
with her all right; but that was the last thing on earth I wanted
to do.
"You see he already knows about you," I explained as
fast as I could talk, for I was getting into an awful mess. "You
see he knows that you want him to be a lawyer, and that he must
quit plowing before he can be more than friends with you. That's
what he's plowing for! If it wasn't for that, probably he wouldn't;
be plowing at all. He asked father to let him, and he borrowed
mother's horses, and he hooked the flowers through the fence.
Every night when he comes home, he kneels beside mother and asks
her if he is `repulsive,' and she takes him in her arms and the
tears roll down her cheeks and she says: `Father has farmed all
his life, and you know how repulsive he is.'"
I ventured an upward peep. I was doing better. Her temper seemed
to be cooling, but her face was a jumble. I couldn't find any
one thing on it that would help me, so I just stumbled ahead guessing
at what to say.
"He didn't WANT to do it. He perfectly HATED it. Those fields
were his Waterloo. Every furrow was a FIGHT, but he was FORCED
to show you."
"Exactly WHAT was he trying to show me?"
"I can think of three things he told me," I answered.
"That plowing could be so managed as not to disfigure the
landscape----"
"The dunce!" she said.
"That he could plow or do dirtier work, and not be repulsive----"
"The idiot!" she said.
"That if he came over there, and plowed right under your
nose, when you'd told him he mustn't, or he couldn't be more than
friends; and when you knew that he'd much rather die and be laid
beside the little sisters up there in the cemetery than to NOT
be more than friends, why, you'd see, if he did THAT, he couldn't
help it, that he just MUST. That he was FORCED----"
"The soldier!" she said.
"Oh Princess, he didn't want to!" I cried. "He
tells me secrets he doesn't any one else, unless you. He told
me how he hated it; but he just had to do it."
"Do you know WHY?"
"Of course! It's the way he's MADE! Father is like that!
He has chances to live in cities, make big business deals, and
go to the legislature at Indianapolis; I've seen his letters from
his friend Oliver P. Morton, our Governor, you know; they're in
his chest till now; but father can't do it, because he is made
so he stays at home and works for us, and this farm, and township,
and county where he belongs. He says if all men will do that the
millennium will come to-morrow. I 'spose you know what the millennium
is?"
"I do!" said the Princess. "But I don't know what
your father and his friend Oliver P. Morton have to do with Laddie."
"Why, everything on earth! Laddie is father's son, you see,
and he is made like father. None of our other boys is. Not one
of them loves land. Leon is going away as quick as ever he finishes
college; but the more you educate Laddie, the better he likes
to make things grow, the more he loves to make the world beautiful,
to be kind to every one, to gentle animals--why, the biggest fight
he ever had, the man he whipped 'til he most couldn't bring him
back again, was one who kicked his horse in the stomach. Gee,
I thought he'd killed him! Laddie did too for a while, but he
only said the man deserved it."
"And so he did!" cried the Princess angrily. "How
beastly!"
"That's one reason Laddie sticks so close to land. He says
he doesn't meet nearly so many two-legged beasts in the country.
Almost every time he goes to town he either gets into a fight
or he sees something that makes him fighting mad. Princess, you
think this beautiful, don't you?"
I just pointed anywhere. All the world was in it that morning.
You couldn't look right or left and not see lovely places, hear
music, and smell flowers.
"Yes! It is altogether wonderful!" she said.
"Would you like to live among this all your life, and have
your plans made to fix you a place even nicer, and then be forced
to leave it and go to a little room in the city, and make all
the money you earned off of how much other men fight over business,
and land and such perfectly awful things, that they always have
to be whispered when Jerry tells about them? Would you?"
"You little dunce!" she cried.
"I know I'm a fool. I know I'm not telling you a single thing
I should! Maybe I'm hurting Laddie far more than I'm helping him,
and if I am, I wish I would die before I see him; but oh! Princess,
I'm trying with all my might to make you understand how he feels.
He WANTS to do every least thing you'd like him to. He will, almost
any thing else in the world, he would this-- he would in a minute,
but he just CAN'T. All of us know he can't! If you'd lived with
him since he was little and always had known him, you wouldn't
ask him to; you wouldn't want him to! You don't know what you're
doing! Mother says you don't! You'll kill him if you send him
to the city to live, you just will! You are doing it now! He's
getting thinner and whiter every day. Don't! Oh please don't do
it!"
The Princess was looking at the world. She was gazing at it so
dazed-like she seemed to be surprised at what she saw. She acted
as if she'd never really seen it before. She looked and she looked.
She even turned her horse a full circle to see all of it, and
she went around slowly. I stepped from one foot to the other and
sweat; but I kept quiet and let her look. At last when she came
around, she glanced down at me, and she was all melted, and lovely
as any one you ever saw, exactly like Shelley at Christmas, and
she said: "I don't think I ever saw the world before. I don't
know that I'm so crazy about a city myself, and I perfectly hate
lawyers. Come to thing of it, a lawyer helped work ruin in our
family, and I never have believed, I never will believe----"
She stopped talking and began looking again. I gave her all the
time she needed. I was just straining to be wise, for mother says
it takes the very wisest person there is to know when to talk,
and when to keep still. As I figured it, now was the time not
to say another word until she made up her mind about what I had
told her already. If Pryors didn't know what we thought of them
by that time, it wasn't mother's fault or mine. As she studied
things over she kept on looking. What she saw seemed to be doing
her a world of good. Her face showed it every second plainer and
plainer. Pretty soon it began to look like she was going to come
through as Amos Hurd did when he was redeemed. Then, before my
very eyes, it happened! I don't know how I ever held on to the
pie or kept from shouting, "Praise the Lord!" as father
does at the Meeting House when he is happiest. Then she leaned
toward me all wavery, and shining eyed, and bloomful, and said:
"Did you ever hurt Laddie's feelings, and make him angry
and sad?"
"I'm sure I never did," I answered.
"But suppose you had! What would you do?"
"Do? Why, I'd go to him on the run, and I'd tell him I never
intended to hurt his feelings, and how sorry I was, and I'd give
him the very best kiss I could."
The Princess stroked Maud's neck a long time and thought while
she studied our farm, theirs beyond it, and at the last, the far
field where Laddie was plowing. She thought, and thought, and
afraid to cheep, I stood gripping the shingle and waited. Finally
she said: "The last time Laddie was at our house, I said
to him those things he repeated to you. He went away at once,
hurt and disappointed. Now, if you like, along with your precious
pie, you may carry him this message from me. You may tell him
that I said I am sorry!"
I could have cried "Glory!" and danced and shouted there
in the road, but I didn't. It was no time to lose my head. That
was all so fine and splendid, as far as it went, but it didn't
quite cover the case. I never could have done it for myself; but
for Laddie I would venture anything, so I looked her in the eyes,
straight as a dart, and said: "He'd want the kiss too, Princess!"
You could see her stiffen in the saddle and her fingers grip the
reins, but I kept on staring right into her eyes.
"I could come up, you know," I offered.
A dull red flamed in her cheeks and her lips closed tight. One
second she sat very still, then a dancing light leaped sparkling
into her eyes; a flock of dimples chased each other around her
lips like swallows circling their homing place at twilight.
"What about that wonderful pie?" she asked me.
I ran to the nearest fence corner, and laid the shingle on the
gnarled roots of a Johnny Appleseed apple tree. Then I set one
foot on the arch of the Princess' instep and held up my hands.
One second I thought she would not lift me, the next I was on
her level and her lips met mine in a touch like velvet woven from
threads of flame. Then with a turn of her stout little wrist,
she dropped me, and a streak went up our road. Nothing so amazing
and so important ever had happened to me. It was an occasion that
demanded something unusual. To cry, "Praise the Lord!"
was only to repeat an hourly phrase at our house; this demanded
something out of the ordinary, so I said just exactly as father
did the day the brown mare balked with the last load of seed clover,
when a big storm was breaking--"Jupiter Ammon!"
When I had calmed down so I could, I climbed the fence, and reached
through a crack for the pie. As I followed the cool, damp furrow,
and Laddie's whistle, clear as the lark's above the wheat, thrilled
me, I was almost insane with joy. Just joy! Pure joy! Oh what
a good world it was!--most of the time! Most of the time! Of course,
there WERE Paget men in it. But anyway, THIS couldn't be beaten.
I had a message for Laddie from the Princess that would send him
to the seventh heaven, wherever that was; no one at our house
spent any time thinking farther than the first one. I had her
kiss, that I didn't know what would do to him, and I also had
a big piece of juicy rhubarb pie not yet entirely cold. If that
didn't wipe out the trouble I had made showing the old crest thing,
nothing ever could. I knew even then, that men were pretty hard
to satisfy, but I was quite certain that Laddie would be satisfied
that morning. As I hurried along I wondered whether it would be
better to give him my gift first, or the Princess'. I decided
that joy would keep, while the pie was cold enough, with all the
time I had stopped; and if I told him about her first, maybe he
wouldn't touch it at all, and it wasn't so easy as it looked to
carry it to him and never even once stick in my finger for the
tiniest lick--joy would keep; but I was going to feed him; so
with shining face, I offered the pie and stood back to see just
how happy I could get.
"Mother send it?" asked Laddie.
People were curious that morning, as if I had a habit of stealing
pie. I only took pieces of cut ones from the cellar when mother
didn't care. So I explained again that Candace gave it to me,
and I was free to bring it.
"Oh I see!" said Laddie.
After nearly two weeks of work, the grays had sobered down enough
to stand without tying; so he wound the lines around the plow
handle, sat on the beam, and laid aside his hat, having a fresh
flower in the band. Once he started a thing, he just simply wouldn't
give up. He unbuttoned his neckband until I could see his throat
where it was white like a woman's, took out his knife and ate
that pie. Of course we knew better than to use a knife at the
table, but there was no other way in the field. He ate that pie,
slowly and deliberately, and between bites he talked. I watched
him with a wide grin, wondering what in this world he WOULD say,
in a minute. I don't think I ever had quite such a good time in
all my life before, and I never expect to again. He was saying:
"Talk about nectar and ambrosia! Talk about the feasts of
Lucullus! Talk about food for the Gods!"
I put on his hat, sat on the ground in front of him, and was the
happiest girl in the world, of that I am quite sure. When the
last morsel was finished, Laddie looked at me steadily.
"I wonder," he said, "I wonder if there's another
man in the world who is blest with quite such a loving, unselfish
little sister as mine?" Then he answered himself: "No!
By all the Gods, ant half-Gods, I swear it--No!"
It was grand as a Fourth of July oration or the most exciting
part when the Bishop dedicated our church. I couldn't hold in
another second, I could hear my heart beat.
"Oh Laddie!" I shouted, jumping up, "that pie is
only the beginning of the good things I have brought you. I have
a message, and a gift besides, Laddie!"
"A message and a gift?" Laddie repeated. "What!
More?"
"Truly I have a message and a gift for you," I cried,
"and Laddie--they are from the Princess!"
His eyes raised to mine now, and slowly he turned Sabethany-like.
"From the Princess!" he exclaimed. "A message and
a gift for me, Little Sister? You never would let Leon put you
up to serve me a trick?"
That hurt. He should have KNOWN I wouldn't, and besides, "Leon
feels just as badly about this as any of us," I said. "Have
you forgotten he offered to plow, and let you do the clean, easy
work?"
"Forgive me! I'm overanxious," said Laddie, his arms
reaching for me. "Go on and tell carefully, and if you truly
love me, don't make a mistake!"
Crowding close, my arms around his neck, his crisp hair against
my lips, I whispered my story softly, for this was such a fine
and splendid secret, that not even the shining blackbirds, and
the pert robins in the furrows were going to get to hear a word
of it. Before I had finished Laddie was breathing as Flos does
when he races her the limit. He sat motionless for a long time,
while over his face slowly crept a beauty that surpassed that
of Apollo in his Greek book.
"And her gift?"
It was only a breath.
"She helped me up, and she sent you this," I answered.
Then I set my lips on his, and held them there a second, trying
my level best to give him her very kiss, but of course I could
only try.
"Oh, Laddie," I cried. "Her eyes were like when
stars shine down in our well! Her cheeks were like mother's damask
roses! She smelled like flowers, and when her lips touched mine
little stickers went all over me!"
Then Laddie's arms closed around me and I thought sure every bone
in my body was going to be broken; when he finished there wasn't
a trace of that kiss left for me. Remembering it would be all
I'd ever have. It made me see what would have happened to the
Princess if she had been there; and it was an awful pity for her
to miss it, because he'd sober down a lot before he reached her,
but I was sure as shooting that he wouldn't be so crazy as to
kiss her hands again. Peter wasn't a patching to him!
That night Laddie rode to Pryors'. When he brought Flos to the
gate you could see the shadow of your face on her shining flank;
her mane and tail were like ravelled silk, her hoofs bright as
polished horn, and her muzzle was clean as a ribbon. I broke one
of those rank green sprouts from the snowball bush and brushed
away the flies, so she wouldn't fret, stamp, and throw dust on
herself. Then Laddie came, fresh from a tubbing, starched linen,
dressed in his new riding suit, and wearing top hat and gauntlets.
He looked the very handsomest I ever had seen him; and at the
same time, he seemed trembling with tenderness, and bursting with
power. Goodness sake! I bet the Princess took one good look and
"came down" like Davy Crockett's coon. Mother was on
his arm and she walked clear to the gate with him.
"LADDIE, ARE YOU SURE ENOUGH TO GO?" I heard her ask
him whisper- like.
"SURE AS DEATH!" Laddie answered.
Mother looked, and she had to see how it was with him; no doubt
she saw more than I did from having been through it herself, so
she smiled kind of a half-sad, half-glad smile. Then she turned
to her damask rose bush, the one Lucy brought her from the city,
and that she was so precious about, that none of us dared touch
it, and she searched all over it and carefully selected the most
perfect rose. When she borrowed Laddie's knife and cut the stem
as long as my arm, I knew exactly how great and solemn the occasion
was; for always before about six inches had been her limit. She
held it toward him, smiling bravely and beautifully, but the tears
were running straight down her cheeks.
"Take it to her," she said. "I think, my son, it
is very like."
Laddie took her in his arms and wiped away the tears; he told
her everything would come out all right about God, and the mystery,
even. Then he picked me clear off the ground, and he tried to
see how near he could come to cracking every bone in my body without
really doing it, and he kissed me over and over. It hadn't been
so easy, but I guess you'll admit that paid. Then he rode away
with the damask rose waving over his heart. Mother and I stood
beside the hitching rack and looked after him, with our arms tight
around each other while we tried to see which one could bawl the
hardest.
CHAPTER XVI
The Homing Pigeon
"A millstone and the human heart,
Are ever driven round,
And if they've nothing else to grind,
They must themselves be ground."
It seemed to me that my mother was the person who really could
have been excused for having heart trouble. The more I watched
her, the more I wondered that she didn't. There was her own life,
the one she and father led, where everything went exactly as she
wanted it to; and if there had been only themselves to think of,
no people on earth could have lived happier, unless the pain she
sometimes suffered made them trouble, and I don't think it would,
for neither of them were to blame for that. They couldn't help
it. They just had it to stand, and fight the stiffest they could
to cure it, and mother always said she was better; every single
time any one asked, she was better. I hoped soon it would all
be gone. Then they could have been happy for sure, if some of
us hadn't popped up and kept them in hot water all the time.
I can't tell you about Laddie when he came back from Pryors'.
He tore down the house, then tore it up, and then threw around
the pieces, and none of us cared. Every one was just laughing,
shouting, and every bit as pleased as he was, while I was the
Queen Bee. Laddie said so, himself, and if he didn't know, no
one did. Pryors had been lovely to him. When mother asked him
how he made it, he answered: "I rode over, picked up the
Princess and helped myself. After I finished, I remembered the
little unnecessary formality of asking her to marry me; and she
said right out loud that she WOULD. When I had time for them,
I reached Father and Mother Pryor, and maybe it doesn't show,
but somewhere on my person I carry their blessing, genially and
heartily given, I am proud to state. Now, I'm only needing yours,
to make me a king among men."
They gave it quite as willingly, I am sure, although you could
see mother scringe when Laddie said "Father and Mother Pryor."
I knew why. She adored Laddie, like the Bible says you must adore
the Almighty. From a tiny baby Laddie had taken care of her. He
used to go back, take her hand, and try to help her over rough
places while he still wore dresses. Straight on, he had been like
that; always seeing when there was too much work and trying to
shield her; always knowing when a pain was coming and fighting
to head it off; always remembering the things the others forgot,
going to her last at night, and his face against hers on her pillow
the first in the morning, to learn how she was before he left
the house. If you were the mother of a man like that, how would
you like to hear him call some one else mother, and have the word
slip from his tongue so slick you could see he didn't even realize
that he had used it? The answer would be, if you were honest,
that you wouldn't have liked it any more than she did. She knew
he had to go. She wanted him to be happy. She was as sure of the
man he was going to be as she was sure of the mercy of God. That
is the strongest way I know to tell it. She was unshakably sure
of the mercy of God, but I wasn't. There were times when it seemed
as if He couldn't hear the most powerful prayer you could pray,
and when instead of mercy, you seemed to get the last torment
that could be piled on. Take right now. Laddie was happy, and
all of us were, in a way; and in another we were almost stiff
with misery.
I dreaded his leaving us so, I would slip to the hawk oak and
cry myself sick, more than once; whether any of the others were
that big babies I don't know; but anyway, THEY were not his Little
Sister. I was. I always had been. I always would be, for that
matter; but there was going to be a mighty big difference. I had
the poor comfort that I'd done the thing myself. Maybe if it hadn't
been for stopping the Princess when I took him that pie, they
never would have made up, and she might have gone across the sea
and stayed there. Maybe she'd go yet, as mysteriously as she had
come, and take him along. Sometimes I almost wished I hadn't tried
to help him; but of course I didn't really. Then, too, I had sense
enough to know that loving each other as they did, they wouldn't
live on that close together for years and years, and not find
a way to make up for themselves, like they had at the start.
I liked Laddie saying I had made his happiness for him; but I
wasn't such a fool that I didn't know he could have made it for
himself just as well, and no doubt better. So everything was all
right with Laddie; and what happened to us, the day he rode away
for the last time, when he went to stay--what happened to us,
then, was our affair. We had to take it, but every one of us dreaded
it, while mother didn't know how to bear it, and neither did I.
Once I said to her: "Mother, when Laddie goes we'll just
have to make it up to each other the best we can, won't we?"
"Oh my soul, child!" she cried, staring at me so surprised-like.
"Why, how unspeakably selfish I have been! No little lost
sheep ever ran this farm so desolate as you will be without your
brother. Forgive me baby, and come here!"
Gee, but we did cry it out together! The God she believed in has
wiped away her tears long ago; this minute I can scarcely see
the paper for mine. If you could call anything happiness, that
was mixed with feeling like that, why, then, we were happy about
Laddie. But from things I heard father and mother say, I knew
they could have borne his going away, and felt a trifle better
than they did. I was quite sure they had stopped thinking that
he was going to lose his soul, but they couldn't help feeling
so long as that old mystery hung over Pryors that he might get
into trouble through it. Father said if it hadn't been for Mr.
Pryor's stubborn and perverted notions about God, he would like
the man immensely, and love to be friends; and if Laddie married
into the family we would have to be as friendly as we could anyway.
He said he had such a high opinion of Mr. Pryor's integrity that
he didn't believe he'd encourage Laddie to enter his family if
it would involve the boy in serious trouble. Mother didn't know.
Anyway, the thing was done, and by fall, no doubt, Laddie would
leave us.
Just when we were trying to keep a stiff upper lip before him,
and whistling as hard as ever he had, to brace our courage, a
letter came for mother from the head of the music school Shelley
attended, saying she was no longer fit for work, so she was being
sent home at once, and they would advise us to consult a specialist
immediately. Mother sat and stared at father, and father went
to hitch the horses to drive to Groveville.
There's only one other day of my life that stands out as clearly
as that. The house was clean as we could make it. I finished feeding
early, and had most of the time to myself. I went down to the
Big Hill, and followed the top of it to our woods. Then I turned
around, and started toward the road, just idling. If I saw a lovely
spot I sat down and watched all around me to see if a Fairy really
would go slipping past, or lie asleep under a leaf. I peeked and
peered softly, going from spot to spot, watching everything. Sometimes
I hung over the water, and studied tiny little fish with red,
yellow, and blue on them, bright as flowers. The dragonflies would
alight right on me, and some wore bright blue markings and some
blood red. There was a blue beetle, a beautiful green fly, and
how the blue wasps did flip, flirt and glint in the light. So
did the blackbirds and the redwings. That embankment was left
especially to shade the water, and to feed the birds. Every foot
of it was covered with alders, wild cherry, hazelbush, mulberries,
everything having a berry or nut. There were several scrub apple
trees, many red haws, the wild strawberries spread in big beds
in places, and some of them were colouring.
Wild flowers grew everywhere, great beds were blue with calamus,
and the birds flocked in companies to drive away the water blacksnakes
that often found nests, and liked eggs and bird babies. When I
came to the road at last, the sun was around so the big oak on
the top of the hill threw its shadow across the bridge, and I
lay along one edge and watched the creek bottom, or else I sat
up so the water flowed over my feet, and looked at the embankment
and the sky. In a way, it was the most peculiar day of my life.
I had plenty to think of, but I never thought at all. I only lived.
I sat watching the world go past through a sort of golden haze
the sun made. When a pair of kingbirds and three crows chased
one of my hawks pell-mell across the sky, I looked on and didn't
give a cent what happened. When a big blacksnake darted its head
through sweet grass and cattails, and caught a frog that had climbed
on a mossy stone in the shade to dine on flies, I let it go. Any
other time I would have hunted a stick and made the snake let
loose. To-day I just sat there and let things happen as they did.
At last I wandered up the road, climbed the back garden fence,
and sat on the board at the edge of a flowerbed, and to-day, I
could tell to the last butterfly about that garden: what was in
bloom, how far things had grown, and what happened. Bobby flew
under the Bartlett pear tree and crowed for me, but I never called
him. I sat there and lived on, and mostly watched the bees tumble
over the bluebells. They were almost ready to be cut to put in
the buttered tumblers for perfume, like mother made for us. Then
I went into the house and looked at Grace Greenwood, but I didn't
take her along. Mother came past and gave me a piece of stiff
yellow brocaded silk as lovely as I ever had seen, enough for
a dress skirt; and a hand-embroidered chemise sleeve that only
needed a band and a button to make a petticoat for a Queen doll,
but I laid them away and wandered into the orchard.
I dragged my bare feet through the warm grass, and finally sat
under the beet red peach tree. If ever I seemed sort of lost and
sorry for myself, that was a good place to go; it was so easy
to feel abused there because you didn't dare touch those peaches.
Fluffy baby chickens were running around, but I didn't care; there
was more than a bird for every tree, bluebirds especially; they
just loved us and came early and stayed late, and grew so friendly
they nested all over the wood house, smoke house, and any place
we fixed for them, and in every hollow apple limb. Bobby came
again, but I didn't pay any attention to him.
Then I heard the carriage cross the bridge. I knew when it was
father, every single time his team touched the first plank. So
I ran like an Indian, and shinned up a cedar tree, scratching
myself until I bled. Away up I stood on a limb, held to the tree
and waited. Father drove to the gate, and mother came out, with
May, Candace, and Leon following. When Shelley touched the ground
and straightened, any other tree except a spruce having limbs
to hold me up, I would have fallen from it. She looked exactly
as if she had turned to tombstone with eyes and hair alive. She
stopped a second to brush a little kiss across mother's lips,
to the others she said without even glancing at them: "Oh
do let me lie down a minute! The motion of that train made me
sick."
Well, I should say it did! I quit living, and began thinking in
a hooray, and so did every one else at our house. Once I had been
sick and queened it over them for a while, now all of us strained
ourselves trying to wait on Shelley; but she wouldn't have it.
She only said she was tired to death, to let her rest, and she
turned her face to the wall and lay there. Once she said she never
wanted to see a city again so long as she lived. When mother told
her about Laddie and the Princess to try to interest her, she
never said a word; I doubted if she even listened. Father and
mother looked at each other, when they thought no one would see,
and their eyes sent big, anxious questions flashing back and forth.
I made up my mind I'd keep awake that night and hear what they
said, if I had to take pins to bed with me and stick myself.
Once mother said to Shelley that she was going to send for Dr.
Fenner, and she answered: "All right, if you need him. Don't
you dare for me! I'll not see him. All I want is a little peace
and rest."
The idea! Not one of us ever had spoken to mother like that before
in all our born days. I held my breath to see what she would do,
but she didn't seem to have heard it, or to notice how rude it
had been. Well, THAT told about as plain as anything what we had
on our hands. I wandered around and NOW there was no trouble about
thinking things. They came in such a jumble I could get no sense
from them; but one big black thought came over, and over, and
over, and wouldn't be put away. It just stood, stayed, forced
you, and made you look it in the face. If Shelley weren't stopped
quickly she was going up on the hill with the little fever and
whooping cough sisters. There it was! You could try to think other
things, to play, to work, to talk it down in the pulpit, to sing
it out in a tree, to slide down the haystack away from it--there
it stayed! And every glimpse you had of Shelley made it surer.
There was no trouble about keeping awake that night; I couldn't
sleep. I stood at the window and looked down the Big Hill through
the soft white moonlight, and thought about it, and then I thought
of mother. I guess NOW you see what kind of things mothers have
to face. All day she had gone around doing her work, every few
minutes suggesting some new thing for one of us to try, or trying
it herself; all day she had talked and laughed, and when Sarah
Hood came she told her she thought Shelley must be bilious, that
she had travelled all night and was sleeping: but she would be
up the first place she went, and then they talked all over creation
and Mrs. Hood went home and never remembered that she hadn't seen
Shelley. She worked Mrs. Freshett off the same way, but you could
see she was almost too tired to do it, so by night she was nearly
as white as Shelley, yet keeping things going. When the house
was still, she came into the room, and stood at the window as
I had, until father entered, then she turned, and I could see
they were staring at each other in the moonlight, as they had
all day.
"She's sick?" asked father, at last.
"Heartsick!" said mother bitterly.
"We'd better have Doc come?"
"She says she isn't sick, and she won't see him."
"She will if I put my foot down."
"Best not, Paul! She'll feel better soon. She's so young!
She must get over it."
They were silent for a long time and then father asked in a harsh
whisper: "Ruth, can she possibly have brought us to shame?"
"God forbid!" cried mother. "Let us pray."
Then those two people knelt on each side of that bed, and I could
hear half the words they muttered, until I was wild enough to
scream. I wished with all my heart that I hadn't listened. I had
always known it was no nice way. I must have gone to sleep after
a while, but when I woke up I was still thinking about it, and
to save me, I couldn't quit. All day, wherever I went, that question
of father's kept going over in my head. I thought about it until
I was almost crazy, and I just couldn't see where anything about
shame came in.
She was only mistaken. She THOUGHT he loved her, and he didn't.
She never could have been so bloomy, so filled with song, laughter,
and lovely like she was, if she hadn't truly believed with all
her heart that he loved her. Of course it would almost finish
her to give him up, when she felt like that; and maybe she did
wrong to let herself care so much, before she was sure about him;
but that would only be foolish, there wouldn't be even a shadow
of shame about it. Besides, Laddie had done exactly the same thing.
He loved the Princess until it nearly killed him when he thought
he had to give her up, and he loved her as hard as ever he could,
when he hadn't an idea whether she would love him back, even a
tiny speck; and the person who wasn't foolish, and never would
be, was Laddie.
The more I thought, the worse I got worked up, and I couldn't
see how Shelley was to blame for anything at all. Love just came
to her, like it came to Laddie. She would hardly have knelt down
and beseeched the Lord to make her fall in love with a man she
scarcely knew, and when she couldn't be sure what he was going
to do about it--not the Lord, the man, I mean. You could see for
yourself she wouldn't do that. I finished my work, and then I
tried to do things for her, and she wouldn't let me. Mother told
me to ask her to make Grace Greenwood the dress she had promised
when I was so sick; so I took the Scotch plaid to her and reminded
her, and she pushed me away and said: "Some time!"
I even got Grace, and showed Shelley the spills on her dress,
and how badly she needed a new one, but she never looked, she
said: "Oh bother! My head aches. Do let me be!"
Mother was listening. I could see her standing outside the door.
She motioned to me to come away, so I went to her and she was
white as Shelley. She was sick too, she couldn't say a word for
a minute, but after a while she kissed me, I could feel the quivers
in her lips, and she said stifflike: "Never mind, she'll
be better soon, then she will! Run play now!"
Sometimes I wandered around looking at things and living dully.
I didn't try to study out anything, but I must have watched closer
than I knew, for every single thing I saw then, over that whole
farm, I can shut my eyes and see to-day; everything, from the
old hawk tilting his tail to steer him in soaring, to a snake
catching field mice in the grass, lichens on the fence, flowers,
butterflies, every single thing. Mostly I sat to watch something
that promised to become interesting, and before I knew it, I was
back on the shame question. That's the most dreadful word in the
dictionary. There's something about it that makes your face burn,
only to have it in your mind. Laddie said he never had met any
man who knew the origin of more words than father. He could even
tell every clip what nationality a man was from his name. Hundreds
of time I have heard him say to stranger people, "From your
name you'd be of Scotch extraction," or Irish, or whatever
it was, and every time the person he was talking with would say,
"Yes." Some day away out in the field, alone, I thought
I would ask him what people first used the word "shame,"
and just exactly what it did mean, and what the things were that
you could do that would make the people who loved you until they
would die for you, ashamed of you.
Thinking about that and planning out what it was that I wanted
to know, gave me another idea. Why not ask her? She was the only
one who knew what she had done away there in the city, alone among
strangers; I wasn't sure whether all the music a girl could learn
was worth letting her take the chances she would have to in a
big city. From the way Laddie and father hated them, they were
a poor place for men, and they must have been much worse for girls.
Shelley knew, why not ask HER? Maybe I could coax her to tell
me, and it would make my life much easier to know; and only think
what was going on in father's and mother's heads and hearts, when
I felt that way, and didn't even know what there was to be ashamed
about. She wouldn't any more than slap me; and sick as she was,
I made up my mind not to get angry at her, or ever to tell, if
she did. I'd rather have her hit me when she was so sick than
to have Sally beat me until she couldn't strike another lick,
just because she was angry. But I forgave her that, and I was
never going to think of it again--only I did.
Mother kept sending Leon to the post-office, and she met him at
the gate half the time herself and fairly snatched the letters
from his hands. Hum! She couldn't pull the wool over my eyes.
I knew she hoped somehow, some way, there would be a big fat one
with Paget, Legal Adviser, or whatever a Chicago lawyer puts on
his envelopes. Jerry's just say: "Attorney at Law."
No letter ever came that had Paget in the corner, or anything
happened that did Shelley any good. Far otherwise! Just before
supper Leon came from Groveville one evening, and all of us could
see at a glance that he had been crying like a baby. He had wiped
up, and was trying to hold in, but he was killed, next. I nearly
said, "Well, for heaven's sake, another!" when I saw
him. He slammed down a big, long envelope, having printing on
it, before father, and glared at it as if he wanted to tear it
to smithereens, and he said: "If you want to know why it
looks like that, I buried it under a stone once; but I had to
go back, and then I threw it as far as I could send it, into Ditton's
gully, but after a while I hunted it up again!"
Then he keeled over on the couch mother keeps for her in the dining-room,
and sobbed until he looked like he'd come apart.
Of course all of us knew exactly what that letter was from the
way he acted. Mother had told him, time and again, not to set
his heart so; father had, too and Laddie, and every one of us,
but that little half-Arab, half-Kentucky mare was the worst temptation
a man who loved horses could possibly have; and while father and
mother stopped at good work horses, and matched roadsters for
the carriage, they managed to prize and tend them so that every
one of us had been born horse-crazy, and we had been allowed to
ride, care for, and taught to love horses all our lives. Treat
a horse ugly, and we'd have gone on the thrashing floor ourselves.
Father laid the letter face down, his hand on it, and shook his
head. "This is too bad!" he said. "It's a burning
shame, but the money, the exact amount, was taken from a farmer
in Medina County, Ohio, by a traveller he sheltered a few days,
because he complained of a bad foot. The description of the man
who robbed us is perfect. The money was from the sale of some
prize cattle. It will have to be returned."
"Just let me see the letter a minute," said Laddie.
He read it over thoughtfully. He was long enough about it to have
gone over it three times; then he looked at Leon, and his forehead
creased in a deep frown. The tears slid down mother's cheeks,
but she didn't know it, or else she'd have wiped them away. She
was never mussy about the least little thing.
"Father!" she said. "Father----!"
That was as far as she could go.
"The man must have his money," said father, "but
we'll look into this----"
He pushed back the plates and tablecloth, and cleared his end
of the table. Mother never budged to stack the plates, or straighten
the cloth so it wouldn't be wrinkled. Then father brought his
big account book from the black walnut chest in our room, some
little books, and papers, sharpened a pencil and began going up
and down the columns and picking out figures here and there that
he set on a piece of paper. I never had seen him look either old
or tired before; but he did then. Mother noticed it too, for her
lips tightened, she lifted her head, wiped her eyes, and pretended
that she felt better. Laddie said something about doing the feeding,
and slipped out. Just then Shelley came into the room, stopped,
and looked questioningly at us. Her eyes opened wide, and she
stared hard at Leon.
"Why what ails him?" she asked mother.
"You remember what I wrote you about a man who robbed us,
and the money Leon was to have, provided no owner was found in
a reasonable time; and the horse the boy had planned to buy, and
how he had been going to Pryors'--Oh, I think he's slipped over
there once a day, and often three times, all this spring! Mr.
Pryor encouraged him, let him take his older horses to practise
on, even went out and taught him cross-country riding himself----"
"I remember!" said Shelley.
Leon sobbed out loud. Shelley crossed the room swiftly, dropped
beside him and whispered something in his ear. Quick as a shot
his arm reached out and went around her. She hid her head deep
in the pillow beside him, and they went to pieces together. Clear
to pieces! Pretty soon father had to take off his glasses and
wipe them so he could see the figures. Mother took one long look
at him, a short one at Leon and Shelley, then she arose, her voice
as even and smooth, and she said: "While you figure, father,
I'll see about supper. I have tried to plan an extra good one
this evening."
She left the room. NOW, I guess you know about all I can tell
you of mother! I can't see that there's a thing left. That was
the kind of soldier she was. Talk about Crusaders, and a good
fight! All the blood of battle in our family wasn't on father's
side, not by any means! The Dutch could fight too!
Father's pencil scraped a little, a bee that had slipped in buzzed
over the apple butter, while the clock ticked as if it used a
hammer. It was so loud one wanted to pitch it from the window.
May and I sat still as mice when the cat is near. Candace couldn't
keep away from the kitchen door to save her, and where mother
went I hadn't an idea, but she wasn't getting an extra good supper.
Shelley and Leon were quieter now. May nudged me, and I saw that
his arm around her was gripping her tight, while her hand on his
head was patting him and fingering his hair.
Ca-lumph! Ca-lumph! came the funniest sound right on the stone
walk leading to the east door, then a shrill whicker that made
father drop his pencil. Leon was on his feet, Shelley beside him,
while at the door stood Laddie grinning as if his face would split,
and with her forefeet on the step and her nose in the room, stood
the prettiest, the very prettiest horse I ever saw. She was sticking
her nose toward Leon, whinnying softly, as she lifted one foot,
and if Laddie hadn't backed her, she would have walked right into
the dining-room.
"Come on, Weiscope, she's yours!" said Laddie. "Take
her to the barn, and put her in one of the cow stalls, until we
fix a place for her."
Leon crossed the room, but he never touched the horse. He threw
his arms around Laddie's neck.
"Son! Son! Haven't you let your feelings run away with you?
What does this mean?" asked father sternly.
"There's nothing remarkable in a big six-footer like me buying
a horse," said Laddie. "I expect to purchase a number
soon, and without a cent to pay, in the bargain. I contracted
to give five hundred dollars for this mare. She is worth more;
but that should be satisfactory all around. I am going to earn
it by putting five of Mr. Pryor's fancy, pedigreed horses in shape
for market, taking them personally, and selling them to men fit
to own and handle real horses. I get one hundred each, and my
expenses for the job. I'll have as much fun doing it as I ever
had at anything. It suits me far better than plowing, even."
Mother entered the room at a sweep, and pushed Leon aside.
"Oh you man of my heart!" she cried. "You man after
my own heart!"
Laddie bent and kissed her, holding her tight as he looked over
her head at father.
"It's all right, of course?" he said.
"I never have known of anything quite so altogether right,"
said father. "Thank you, lad, and God bless you!"
He took Laddie's hand, and almost lifted him from the floor, then
he wiped his glasses, gathered up his books with a big, deep breath
of relief, and went into his room. If the others had looked to
see why he was gone so long, they would have seen him on his knees
beside his bed thanking God, as usual. Leon couldn't have come
closer than when he said, "The same yesterday, to-day, and
forever," about father.
Leon had his arms around the neck of his horse now, and he was
kissing her, patting her, and explaining to Shelley just why no
other horse was like her. He was pouring out a jumble all about
the oasis of the desert, the tent dwellers, quoting lines from
"The Arab to His Horse," bluegrass, and gentleness combined
with spirit, while Shelley had its head between her hands, stroking
it and saying, "Yes," to every word Leon told her. Then
he said: "Just hop on her back from that top step and ride
her to the barn, if you want to see the motion she has."
Shelley said: "Has a woman ever been on her back? Won't she
shy at my skirts?"
"No," explained Leon. "I've been training her with
a horse blanket pinned around me, so Susie could ride her! She'll
be all right."
So Shelley mounted, and the horse turned her head, and tried to
rub against her, as she walked away, tame as a sheep. I wondered
if she could be too gentle. If she went "like the wind,"
as Leon said, it didn't show then. I was almost crazy to go along,
and maybe Leon would let me ride a little while; but I had a question
that it would help me to know the answer and I wanted to ask father
before I forgot; so I waited until he came out. When he sat down,
smiled at me and said, "Well, is the girl happy for brother?"
I knew it was a good time, and I could ask anything I chose, so
I sat on his knee and said: "Father, when you pray for anything
that it's all perfectly right for you to have, does God come down
from heaven and do it Himself, or does He send a man like Laddie
to do it for him?"
Father hugged me tight, smiling the happiest.
"Why, you have the whole thing right there in a nutshell,
Little Sister," he said. "You see it's like this: the
Book tells us most distinctly that `God is love.' Now it was love
that sent Laddie to bind himself for a long, tedious job, to give
Leon his horse, wasn't it?"
"Of course!" I said. "He wouldn't have been likely
to do it if he hated him. It was love, of course!"
"Then it was God," said father, "because `God is
love.' They are one and the same thing."
Then he kissed me, and THAT was settled. So I wondered when you
longed for anything so hard you really felt it was worth bothering
God about, whether the quickest way to get it was to ask Him for
it, or to try to put a lot of love into the heart of some person
who could do what you wanted. I decided it all went back to God
though, for most of the time probably we wouldn't know who the
right one was to try to awaken love in. I was mighty sure none
of us ever dreamed Laddie could walk over to Pryors', and come
back with that horse, in a way perfectly satisfactory to every
one, slick as an eel.
You should have seen Leon following around after Laddie, trying
to do things for him, taking on his work to give him more time
with the horses, getting up early to finish his own stunts, so
he could go over to Pryors' and help. Mother said it had done
more to make a man of him than anything that ever happened. It
helped Shelley, too. Something seemed to break in her, when she
cried so with Leon, because he was in trouble. Then he was so
crazy to show off his horse he had Shelley ride up and down the
lane, while he ran along and led, so she got a lot of exercise,
and it made her good and hungry. If you don't think by this time
that my mother was the beatenest woman alive, I'll prove it to
you. When the supper bell rang there was strawberry preserves
instead of the apple butter, biscuit, fried chicken, and mashed
potatoes.
She must have slapped those chickens into the skillet before they
knew their heads were off. When Shelley came to the table, for
the first time since she'd been home, had pink in her cheeks,
and talked some, and ate too, mother forgot her own supper. She
fumbled over her plate, but scarcely touched even the livers,
and those delicious little kidneys in the tailpiece like Leon
and I had at Sally's wedding. When we finished, and it was time
for her to give the signal to arise, no one had asked to be excused,
she said: "Let us have a word with the Most High." Then
she bowed her head, so all of us did too. "O Lord, we praise
Thee for all Thy tender mercies, and all Thy loving kindness.
Amen!"
Of course father always asked the blessing to begin with, and
mostly it was the same one, and that was all at meal time, but
this was a little extra that mother couldn't even wait until night
to tell the Almighty, she was so pleased with Him. Maybe I haven't
told everything about her, after all. Father must have thought
that was lovely of her; he surely felt as happy as she did, to
see Shelley better, for he hugged and kissed her over and over,
finishing at her neck like he always did, and then I be- hanged,
if he didn't hug and kiss every last one of us--tight, even the
boys. Shelley he held long and close, and patted her a little
when he let her go. It made me wonder if the rest of us didn't
get ours, so he'd have a chance at her without her noticing it.
One thing was perfectly clear. If shame came to us, they were
going to love her, and stick tight to her right straight through
it.
Now that everything was cleared up so, Shelley seemed a little
more like herself every day, although it was bad enough yet; I
thought I might as well hurry up the end a little, and stop the
trouble completely, so I began watching for a chance to ask her.
But I wanted to get her away off alone, so no one would see if
she slapped me. I didn't know how long I'd have to wait. I tried
coaxing her to the orchard to see a bluebird's nest, but she asked
if bluebirds were building any different that year, and I had
to admit they were not. Then I tried the blue-eyed Mary bed, but
she said she supposed it was still under the cling peach tree,
and the flower, two white petals up, two blue down, and so it
was. Just as I was beginning to think I'd have to take that to
the Lord in prayer, I got my chance by accident.
May and Candace were forever going snake hunting. You would think
any one with common sense would leave them alone and be glad of
the chance, but no indeed! They went nearly every day as soon
as the noon work was finished, and stayed until time to get supper.
They did have heaps of fun and wild excitement. May was gentle,
and tender with everything else on earth; so I 'spose she had
a right to bruise the serpent with her heel--really she used sticks
and stones--if she wanted to. I asked her how she COULD, and she
said there was a place in the Bible that told how a snake coaxed
Eve to eat an apple, that the Lord had told her she mustn't touch;
and so she got us into most of the trouble there was in the world.
May said it was all the fault of the SNAKE to begin with, and
she meant to pay up every one she could find, because she had
none of the apple, and lots of the trouble. Candace cried so much
because Frederick Swartz had been laid in the tomb, that mother
was pleased to have her cheer up, even enough to go snake hunting.
That afternoon Mehitabel Heasty had come to visit May, so she
went along, and I followed. They poked around the driftwood at
the floodgate behind the barn, and were giving up the place. Candace
had crossed the creek and was coming back, and May had started,
when she saw a tiny little one and chased it. We didn't know then
that it was a good thing to have snakes to eat moles, field mice,
and other pests that bother your crops; the Bible had no mercy
on them at all, so we were not saving our snakes; and anyway we
had more than we needed, while some of them were too big to be
safe to keep, and a few poison as could be. May began to bruise
the serpent, when out of the driftwood where they hadn't found
anything came its mammy, a great big blacksnake, maddest you ever
saw, with its pappy right after her, mad as ever too. Candace
screamed at May to look behind her, but May was busy with the
snake and didn't look quick enough, so the old mammy struck right
in her back. She just caught in the hem of May's skirt, and her
teeth stuck in the goods--you know how a snake's teeth turn back--so
she couldn't let go. May took one look and raced down the bank
to the crossing, through the water, and toward us, with the snake
dragging and twisting, and trying her best to get away. May was
screaming at every jump for Candace, and Mehitabel was flying
up and down crying: "Oh there's snakes in my shoes! There's
snakes in my shoes!"
That was a fair sample of how much sense a Heasty ever had. It
took all Mehitabel's shoes could do to hold her feet, for after
one went barefoot all week, and never put on shoes except on Sunday
or for a visit, the feet became so spread out, shoes had all they
could do to manage them, and then mostly they pinched until they
made one squirm. But she jumped and said that, while May ran and
screamed, and Candace gripped her big hickory stick and told May
to stand still. Then she bruised that serpent with her whole foot,
for she stood on it, and swatted it until she broke its neck.
Then she turned ready for the other one, but when it saw what
happened to its mate, it decided to go back. Even snakes, it doesn't
seem right to break up families like that; so by the time Candace
got the mammy killed, loose from May's hem, and stretched out
with the back up, so she wouldn't make it rain, when Candace wasn't
sure that father wanted rain, I had enough. I went down the creek
until I was below the orchard, then I crossed, passed the cowslip
bed, climbed the hill and fence, and stopped to think what I would
do first; and there only a few feet away was Shelley. She was
sitting in the shade, her knees drawn up, her hands clasped around
them, staring straight before her across the meadow at nothing
in particular, that I could see. She jumped as if I had been a
snake when she saw me, then she said, "Oh, is it you?"
like she was half glad of it. My chance had come.
I went to her, sat close beside her and tried snuggling up a little.
It worked. She put her arm around me, drew me tight, rubbed her
cheek against my head and we sat there. I was wondering how in
the world I could ask her, and not get slapped. I was growing
most too big for that slapping business, anyway. We sat there;
I was looking across the meadow as she did, only I was watching
everything that went on, so when I saw a grosbeak fly from the
wild grape where Shelley had put the crock for sap, it made me
think of her hair. She used to like to have me play with it so
well, she'd give me pennies if I did. I got up, and began pulling
out her pins carefully. I knew I was getting a start because right
away she put up her hand to help me.
"I can get them," I said just as flannel-mouthed as
ever I could, like all of us talked to her now, so I got every
one and never pulled a mite. When I reached over her shoulder
to drop them in her lap, being so close I kissed her cheek. Then
I shook down her hair, spread it out, lifted it, parted it, and
held up strands to let the air on her scalp. She shivered and
said: "Mercy child, how good that does feel! My head has
ached lately until it's a wonder there's a hair left on it."
So I was pleasing her. I never did handle hair so carefully. I
tried every single thing it feels good to you to have done with
your hair, rubbed her head gently, and to cheer her up I told
her about May and the snake, and what fool Mehitabel had said,
and she couldn't help laughing; so I had her feeling about as
good as she could, for the way she actually felt, but still I
didn't really get ahead. Come right to the place to do it, that
was no very easy question to ask a person, when you wouldn't hurt
their feelings for anything; I was beginning to wonder if I would
lose my chance, when all at once a way I could manage popped into
my mind.
"Shelley," I said, "they told you about Laddie
and the Princess, didn't they?"
I knew they had, but I had to make a beginning some way. "Yes,"
she said. "I'm glad of it! I think she's pretty as a picture,
and nice as she looks. Laddie may have to hump himself to support
her, but if he can't get her as fine clothes as she has, her folks
can help him. They seem to have plenty, and she's their only child."
"They're going to. I heard Mr. Pryor ask Laddie if he'd be
so unkind as to object to them having the pleasure of giving her
things."
"Well, the greenhorn didn't say he would!"
"No. He didn't want to put his nose to the grindstone quite
that close. He said it was between them."
"I should think so!"
"Shelley, there's a question I've been wanting to ask some
one for quite a while."
"What?"
"Why, this! You know, Laddie was in love with the Princess,
like you are when you want to marry folks, for a long, long time,
before he could be sure whether she loved him back."
"Yes."
"Well, now, 'spose she never had loved him, would he have
had anything to be ashamed of?"
"I can't see that he would. Some one must start a courtship,
or there would be no marrying, and it's conceded to be the place
of the man. No. He might be disappointed, or dreadfully hurt,
but there would be no shame about it."
"Well, then, suppose she loved him, and wanted to marry him,
and he hadn't loved her, or wanted her, would SHE have had anything
to be ashamed of?"
"I don't think so! If she was attracted by him, and thought
she would like him, she would have a right to go to a certain
extent, to find out if he cared for her, and if he didn't, why,
she'd just have to give him up. But any sensible girl waits for
a man to make the advances, and plenty of them, before she allows
herself even to dream of loving him, or at least, I would."
Now I was getting somewhere!
"Of course you would!" I said. "That would be the
WAY mother would, wouldn't it?"
"Surely!"
"If that Paget man you used to write about had seemed to
be just what you liked, you'd have waited to know if he wanted
you, before you loved him, wouldn't you?"
"I certainly would!" answered Shelley. "Or at least,
I'd have waited until I THOUGHT sure as death, I knew. It seems
that sometimes you can be fooled about those things."
"But if you thought sure you knew, and then found out you
had been mistaken, you wouldn't have anything to be ASHAMED of,
would you?"
"Not-on-your-life-I-wouldn't!" cried Shelley, hammering
each word into her right knee with her doubled fist. "What
are you driving at, Blatherskite? What have you got into your
head?"
"Oh just studying about things," I said, which was exactly
the truth. "Sally getting married last fall, and Laddie going
to this, just started me to wondering."
Fooled her, too!
"Oh well, there's no harm done," she said. "The
sooner you get these matters straightened out, the better able
you will be to take care of yourself. If you ever go to a city,
you'll find out that a girl needs considerable care taken of her."
"You could look out for yourself, Shelley?"
"Well, I don't know as I made such a glorious fist of it,"
she said, "but at least, as you say, I've nothing to be ashamed
of!"
I almost hugged her head off.
"Of course you haven't!" I cried. "Of course you
wouldn't have!"
I just kissed her over and over for joy; I was so glad my heart
hurt for father and mother. Shame had not come to them!
"Now, I guess I'll run to the house and get a comb,"
I told her.
"Go on," said Shelley. "I know you are tired."
"I'm not in the least," I said. "Don't you remember
I always use a comb when I fuss with your hair?"
"It is better," said Shelley. "Go get one."
As I got up to start I took a last look at her, and there was
something in her face that I couldn't bear. I knelt beside her,
and put both arms around her neck.
"Shelley, it's a secret," I said in a breathless half
whisper. "It's a great, big secret, but I'm going to tell
you. Twice now I've had a powerful prayer all ready to try. It's
the kind where you go to the barn, all alone, stand on that top
beam below the highest window and look toward the east. You keep
perfectly still, and just think with all your might, and you look
away over where Jesus used to be, and when the right feeling comes,
you pray that prayer as if He stood before you, and it will come
true. I KNOW it will come true. The reason I know is because twice
now I've been almost ready to try it, and what I intended to ask
for happened before I had time; so I've saved that prayer; but
Shelley, shall I pray it about the Paget man, for you?"
She gripped me, and she shook until she was all twisted up; you
could hear her teeth click, she chilled so. The tears just gushed,
and she pulled me up close and whispered right in my ear:
"Yes!"
It was only pretend about the comb; what I really wanted was to
get to father and mother quick. I knew he was at the barn and
he was going to be too happy for words in a minute. But as I went
up the lane, I wasn't sure whether I'd rather pray about that
Paget man or bruise him with my heel like a serpent. The only
way I could fix it was to remember if Shelley loved him so, he
must be mighty nice. Father was in the wagon shovelling corn from
it to a platform where it would be handy to feed the pigs, so
I ran and called him, and put one foot on a hub and raised my
hands. He pulled me up and when he saw how important it was, he
sat on the edge of the bed, so I told him: "Father, you haven't
got a thing in the world to be ashamed of about Shelley."
"Praise the Lord!" said father like I knew he would,
but you should have seen his face. "Tell me about it!"
I told him and he said: "Well, I don't know but this is the
gladdest hour of my life. Go straight and repeat to your mother
exactly what you've said to me. Take her away all alone, and then
forget about it, you little blessing."
"Father, have you got too many children?"
"No!" he said. "I wish I had a dozen more, if they'd
be like you."
When I went up the lane I was so puffed up with importance I felt
too dignified to run. I strutted like our biggest turkey gobbler.
The only reason you couldn't hear my wings scrape, was because
through mistake they grew on the turkey. If I'd had them, I would
have dragged them sure, and cried "Ge-hobble- hobble!"
at every step.
I took mother away alone and told her, and she asked many more
questions than father, but she was even gladder than he. She almost
hugged the breath out of me. Sometimes I get things RIGHT, anyway!
Then I took the comb and ran back to Shelley.
"I thought you'd forgotten me," she said.
She had wiped up and was looking better. If ever I combed carefully
I did then. Just when I had all the tangles out, there came mother.
She had not walked that far in a long time. I thought maybe she
could comfort Shelley, so I laid the comb in her lap and went
to see how the snake hunters were coming on. It must be all right,
when the Bible says so, but the African Jungle will do for me,
and a popgun is not going to scatter families. I never felt so
strongly about breaking home ties in my life as I did then. There
was nothing worse. It was not where I wanted to be, so I thought
I'd go back to the barn, and hang around father, hoping maybe
he'd brag on me some more. Going up the lane I saw a wagon passing
with the biggest box I ever had seen, and I ran to the gate to
watch where it went. It stopped at our house and Frank came toward
me as I hurried up the road.
"Where are the folks?" he asked, without paying the
least attention to my asking him over and over what was in the
box.
"May and Candace are killing every snake in the driftwood
behind the barn, Shelley and mother are down in the orchard, and
father and the boys are hauling corn."
"Go tell the boys to come quickly and keep quiet," he
said. "But don't let any one else know I'm here."
That was so exciting I almost fell over my feet running, and all
three of them came quite as fast. I stood back and watched, and
I just danced a steady hop from one foot to the other while those
men got the big box off the wagon and opened it. On the side I
spelled Piano, so of course it was for Shelley. It was so heavy
it took all six of them, father and the three boys, the driver
and another very stylish looking man to carry it. They put it
in the parlour, screwed a leg on each corner, and a queer harp
in the middle, then they lifted it up and set it on its feet,
under the whatnot, and it seemed as if it filled half the room.
Then Frank spread a beauteous wine coloured cover all embroidered
in pink roses with green leaves over it, and the stylish man opened
a lid, sat down and spread out his hands. Frank said: "Soft
pedal! Mighty soft!" So he smothered it down, and tried only
enough to find that it had not been hurt coming, and then he went
away on the wagon. Father and the boys gathered up every scrap,
swept the walk, and put all the things they had used back where
they got them, like we always did.
Then Frank took a card from his pocket and tied it to the music
rack, and it read: "For Shelley, from her brothers in fact,
and in law." To a corner of the cover he pinned another card
that read: "From Peter."
"What is that?" asked father.
"That's from Peter," said Frank. "Peter is great
on finishing touches. He had to outdo the rest of us that much
or bust. Fact is, none of us thought of a cover except him."
"How about this?" asked father, staring at it as if
it were an animal that would bite.
"Well," said Frank, "it was apparent that practising
her fingers to the bone wouldn't do Shelley much good unless she
could keep it up in summer, and you and mother always have done
so much for the rest of us, and now mother isn't so strong and
the expenses go on the same with these youngsters; we know you
were figuring on it, but we beat you. Put yours in the bank, and
try the feel of a surplus once more. Haven't had much lately,
have you, father?"
"Well, not to speak of," said father.
"Now let's shut everything up, ring the bell to call them,
and get Shelley in here and surprise her."
"She's not very well," said father. "Mother thinks
she worked too hard."
"She's all right now, father," I said. "She is
getting pink again and rounder, and this will fix her grand."
Wouldn't it though! There wasn't one anywhere, short of the city.
Even the Princess had none. Father hunted up a song book, opened
it and set it on the rack. Then all of us went out.
"We'll write to the boys, mother and I, and Shelley also,"
said father. "I can't express myself just now. This is a
fine thing for all of you to do."
Frank seemed to think so too, and looked rather puffed up, until
Leon began telling about his horse. When Frank found out that
Laddie, who had not yet branched out for himself, had given Leon
much more than any one of them had Shelley, he looked a little
disappointed. He explained how the piano cost eight hundred dollars,
but by paying cash all at once, the man took seven hundred and
fifty, so it only cost them one hundred and fifty a piece, and
none of them felt it at all.
"Sometimes the clouds loom up pretty black, and mother and
I scarcely know how to go on, save for the help of the Lord, but
we certainly are blest with good children, children we can be
proud of. Your mother will like that instrument as well as Shelley,
son," said father.
Frank went out and rang the bell, tolled it, and made a big noise
like he always did when he came unexpectedly, and then sat on
the back fence until he saw them coming, and went to meet them.
He walked between mother and Shelley, with an arm around each
one. If he thought Shelley looked badly, he didn't mention it.
What he did say was that he was starved, and to fly around and
get supper. I thought I'd burst. They began to cook, and the boys
went to feed and see Leon's horse, and then we had supper. I just
sat and stared at Frank and grinned. I couldn't eat.
"Do finish your supper," said mother. "I never
saw anything take your appetite like seeing your brother. You'll
be wanting a piece before bedtime."
I didn't say a word, because I was afraid to, but I kept looking
at Leon and he smiled back, and we had great fun. Secrets are
lovely. Mother couldn't have eaten a bite if she'd known about
that great shining thing, all full of wonderful sound, standing
in our parlour. When the last slow person had finished, father
said: "Shelley, won't you step into the front room and bring
me that book I borrowed from Frank on `Taxation.' I want to talk
over a few points."
All of us heard her little breathless cry, and mother said, "There!"
as if she'd been listening for something, and she beat all of
us to the door. Then she cried out too, and such a time as we
did have. At last after all of us had grown sensible enough to
behave, Shelley sat on the stool, spread her fingers over the
keys and played at the place father had selected, and all of us
sang as hard as we could: "Be it ever so humble, There's
no place like home;" and there WAS no place like ours, of
THAT I'm quite sure.
CHAPTER XVII
In Faith Believing
"Nor could the bright green world around
A joy to her impart,
For still she missed the eyes that made
The summer of her heart."
Soon as she had the piano, Shelley needed only the Paget man to
make her happy as a girl could be; and having faith in that prayer,
I decided to try it right away. So I got Laddie to promise surely
that he'd wake me when he got up the next morning.
I laid my clothes out all ready; he merely touched my foot, and
I came to, slipped out with him, and he helped me dress. We went
to the barn when the morning was all gray.
"What the dickens have you got in your head now, Chicken?"
he asked. "Is it business with the Fairies?"
"No, this is with the Most High," I said solemnly, like
father. "Go away and leave me alone."
"Well of all the queer chickens!" he said, but he kissed
me and went.
I climbed the stairs to the threshing floor, then the ladder to
the mow, walked a beam to the wall, there followed one to the
east end, and another to the little, high-up ventilator window.
There I stood looking at the top of the world. A gray mist was
rising like steam from the earth, there was a curious colour in
the east, stripes of orange and flames of red, where the sun was
coming. I folded my hands on the sill, faced the sky, and stood
staring. Just stood, and stood, never moving a muscle. By and
by I began to think how much we loved Shelley, how happy she had
been at Christmas the way she was now, and how much all of us
would give in money, or time, or love, to make her sparkling,
bubbling, happy again; so I thought and thought, gazing at the
sky, which every second became a grander sight. Little cold chills
began going up my back, and soon I was talking to the Lord exactly
as if He stood before me on the reddest ray that topped our apple
trees.
I don't know all I said. That's funny, for I usually remember
to the last word; but this time it was so important, I wanted
it so badly, and I was so in earnest that words poured in a stream.
I began by reminding Him that He knew everything, and so He'd
understand if what I asked was for the best. Then I told Him how
it looked to us, who knew only a part; and then I went at Him
and implored and beseeched, if it would be best for Shelley, and
would make her happy, to send her the Paget man, and to be quick
about it. When I had said the last word that came to me, and begged
all I thought becoming--I don't think with His face, that Jesus
wants us to grovel to Him, at least He looks too dignified to
do it Himself--I just stood there, still staring.
I didn't expect to see a burning bush, or a pillar of fire, or
a cloud of flame, or even to hear a small, still voice; but I
watched, so I wouldn't miss it if there should be anything different
in that sunrise from any other I ever had seen, and there was
not. Not one thing! It was so beautiful, and I was so in earnest
my heart hurt; but that was like any other sunrise on a fine July
morning. There wasn't the least sign that Jesus had heard me,
and would send the man; yet before I knew it, I was amazed to
find the feeling creeping over me that he was coming. If I had
held the letter in my hand saying he would arrive on the noon
train, I couldn't have grown surer. Why, I even looked down the
first time I moved, to see if I had it; but I was certain anyway.
So I looked steadily toward the east once more and said, "Thank
you, with all my heart, Lord Jesus," then I slowly made my
way down and back to the house.
Shelley was at the orchard gate, waiting; so I knew they had missed
me, and Laddie had told them where I was and not to call. She
had the strangest look on her face, as she asked: "Where
have you been?"
I looked straight and hard at her and said, "It's all right,
Shelley. He's going to come soon"; but I didn't think it
was a thing to mouth over, so I twisted away from her, and ran
to the kitchen to see if breakfast had all been eaten. I left
Shelley standing there with her eyes wide, also her mouth. She
looked about as intelligent as Mehitabel Heasty, and it wouldn't
have surprised me if she had begun to jump up and down and say
there were snakes in HER shoes. No doubt you have heard of people
having been knocked silly; I knew she was, and so she had a perfect
right to look that way, until she could remember what she was
doing, and come back to herself. Maybe it took her longer, because
mother wasn't there, to remind her about her mouth, and I didn't
propose to mention it.
At breakfast, mother said father was going to drive Frank home
in the carriage, and if I would like, I might go along. I would
have to sit on the back seat alone, going; but coming home I could
ride beside and visit with father. I loved that, for you could
see more from the front seat, and father would stop to explain
every single thing. He always gave me the money and let me pay
the toll. He would get me a drink at the spring, let me wade a
few minutes at Enyard's riffles, where their creek, with the loveliest
gravel bed, ran beside the road; and he always raced like wildfire
at the narrows, where for a mile the railroad ran along the turnpike.
We took Frank to his office, stopped a little while to visit Lucy,
and give her the butter and cream mother sent, went to the store
to see Peter, and then to the post-office. From there we could
see that the veranda of the hotel across the street was filled
with gayly dressed people, and father said that the summer boarders
from big cities around must be pouring in fast. When he came out
with the mail he said he better ask if the landlord did not want
some of mother's corn and milk fed spring chickens, because last
year he had paid her more than the grocer. So he drove across
the street, stopped at the curb, and left me to hold the team.
Maybe you think I wasn't proud! I've told you about Ned and Jo,
with their sharp ears, dappled sides, and silky tails, and the
carriage almost new, with leather seats, patent leather trimmings,
and side lamps, so shiny you could see yourself in the brass.
We never drove into the barn with one speck of mud or dust on
it. That was how particular mother was.
I watched the team carefully; I had to if I didn't want my neck
broken; but I also kept an eye on that veranda. You could see
at a glance that those were stylish women. Now my mother liked
to be in fashion as well as any one could; so I knew she'd be
mightily pleased if I could tell her a new place to set her comb,
a different way to fasten her collar, or about an unusual pattern
for a frock.
I got my drink at the spring, father offered to stop at the riffle,
but I was enjoying the ride so much, and I could always wade at
home, although our creek was not so beautiful as Enyard's, but
for common wading it would do; we went through the narrows, like
two shakes of a sheep's tail, then we settled down to a slow trot,
and were having the loveliest visit possible, when in the bundle
on my lap, I saw the end of something that interested me. Mr.
Agnew always made our mail into a roll with the Advocate and the
Agriculturist on the outside, and because every one was so anxious
about their letters, and some of them meant so much, I felt grown
and important while holding the package.
I was gripping it tight when I noticed the end of one letter much
wider and fatter than any I ever had seen, so when father was
not looking I began pushing it a little at one end, and pulling
it at the other, to work it up, until I could read the address.
I got it out so far I thought every minute he'd notice, and tell
me not to do that, but I could only see Stanton. All of us were
Stanton, so it might be for me, for that matter. Jerry might be
sending me pictures, or a book, he did sometimes, but there was
an exciting thing about it. Besides being fatter than it looked
right at the end, it was plastered with stamps--lots of them,
enough to have brought it clear around the world. I pushed that
end back, pulled out the other, and took one good look. I almost
fell from the carriage. I grabbed father's arm and cried: "Stop!
Stop this team quick. Stop them and see if I can read."
"Are you crazy, child?" asked father, but he checked
the horses.
"No, but you are going to be in a minute," I said. "Look
at that!"
I yanked the letter from the bundle, and held it over. I THOUGHT
I could read, but I was too scared to be sure. I thought it said
in big, strong, upstanding letters, Miss Shelley Stanton, Groveville,
Indiana. And in the upper corner, Blackburn, Yeats and PAGET,
Counsellors of Law, 37 to 39 State St., Chicago. I put my finger
on the Paget, and looked into father's face. I was no fool after
all. He was not a bit surer that HE could read than I was, from
the dazed way he stared.
"You see!" I said.
"It says Paget!" he said, like he would come nearer
believing; it if he heard himself pronounce the word.
"I THOUGHT it said `Paget,'" I gasped, "but I wanted
to know if you thought so too."
"Yes, it's Paget plain enough," said father, but he
acted like there was every possibility that it might change to
Jones any minute. "It says `Paget,' plain as print."
"Father!" I cried, clutching his arm, "father,
see how fat it is!
There must be pages and pages! Father, it wouldn't take all that
to tell her he didn't like her, and he never wanted to see her
again. Would it, father?"
"It doesn't seem probable," said father.
"Father don't you think it means there's been some big mistake,
and it takes so much to tell how it can be fixed?"
"It seems reasonable."
I gripped him tighter, and maybe shook him a little.
"Father!" I cried. "Father, doesn't it just look
HURRY, all over? Can't you speed up a little? They have all day
to cool off. Oh father, won't you speed a little?"
"That I will!" said father. "Get a tight hold,
and pray God it is good word we carry."
"But I prayed the one big prayer to get this," I said.
"It wouldn't be sent if it wasn't good. The thing to do now
is to thank the Lord for `all his loving kindnesses,' like mother
said.
Drive father! Make them go!"
At first he only touched them up; I couldn't see that we were
getting home so fast; but in a minute a cornfield passed like
a streak, a piece of woods flew by a dark blur, a bridge never
had time to rattle, and we began to rock from side to side a little.
Then I gripped the top supports with one hand, the mail with the
other, and hung on for dear life. I took one good look at father.
His feet were on the brace, his face was clear, even white, his
eyes steely, and he never moved a muscle. When Jo thought it was
funny, that he was loose in the pasture, and kicked up a little
behind, father gave him a sharp cut with the whip and said: "Steady
boy! Get along there!"
Sometimes he said, "Aye, aye! Easy!" but he never stopped
a mite. We whizzed past the church and cemetery, and scarcely
touched the Big Hill. People ran to their doors, even to the yards,
and I was sure they thought we were having a runaway, but we were
not. Father began to stop at the lane gate, he pulled all the
way past the garden, and it was as much as he could do to get
them slowed down so that I could jump out by the time we reached
the hitching rack. He tied them, and followed me into the house
instead of going to the barn. I ran ahead calling: "Shelley!
Where is Shelley?"
"What in this world has happened, child?" asked mother,
catching my arm.
"Her letter has come! Her Paget letter! The one you looked
for until you gave up. It's come at last! Oh, where is she?"
"Be calmer, child, you'll frighten her," said mother.
May snatched the letter from my fingers and began to read all
that was on it aloud. I burst out crying.
"Make her give that back!" I sobbed to father. "It's
mine! I found it. Father, make her let me take it!"
"Give it to her!" said father. "I rather feel that
it is her right to deliver it."
May passed it back, but she looked so disappointed, that by how
she felt I knew how much I wanted to take it myself; so I reached
my hand to her and said: "You can come along! We'll both
take it! Oh where is she?"
"She went down in the orchard," said mother. "I
think probably she's gone back where she was the other day."
Gee, but we ran! And there she was! As we came up, she heard us
and turned.
"Shelley!" I cried. "Here's your letter! Everything
is all right! He's coming, Shelley! Look quick, and see when!
Mother will want to begin baking right away!"
Shelley looked at me, and said coolly: "Paddy Ryan! What's
the matter?"
"Your letter!" I cried, shoving it right against her
hands. "Your letter from Robert! From the Paget man, you
know! I told you he was coming! Hurry, and see when!"
She took it, and sat there staring at it, so much like father,
that it made me think of him, so I saw that she was going to have
to come around to it as we did, and that one couldn't hurry her.
She just had to take her time to sense it.
"Shall I open it for you?" I asked, merely to make her
see that it was time she was doing it herself.
Blest if she didn't reach it toward me!--sort of woodenlike. I
stuck my finger under the flap, gave it a rip across and emptied
what was inside into her lap. Bet there were six or seven letters
in queer yellow envelopes I never before had seen any like, and
on them was the name, Robert Paget, while in one corner it said,
"Returned Dead Letter"; also there was a loose folded
white sheet. She sat staring at the heap, touching one, another,
and repeating "Robert Paget?" as she picked each up
in turn.
"What do you suppose it means?" she asked May. May examined
them.
"You must read the loose sheet," she advised. "No
doubt that will explain."
But Shelley never touched it. She handled those letters and stared
at them. Father and mother came through the orchard and stood
together behind us, so father knelt down at last, reached across
Shelley's shoulder, picked one up and looked at it.
"Have you good word, dear?" asked mother of Shelley.
"Why, I don't understand at all," said Shelley. "Just
look at all these queer letters, addressed to Mr. Paget. Why should
they be sent to me? I mustn't open them. They're not mine. There
must be some mistake."
"These are DEAD LETTERS," said father. "They've
been written to you, couldn't be delivered, and so were sent to
the Dead Letter Office at Washington, which returned them to the
writer, and unopened he has forwarded them once more to you. You've
heard of dead letters, haven't you?"
"I suppose so," said Shelley. "I don't remember
just now; but there couldn't be a better name. They've come mighty
near killing me."
"If you'd only read that note!" urged May, putting it
right into her fingers.
Shelley still sat there.
"I'm afraid of it," she said exactly like I'd have spoken
if there had been a big rattlesnake coming right at me, when I'd
nothing at hand to bruise it.
Laddie and Leon came from the barn. They had heard me calling,
seen May and me run, and then father and mother coming down, so
they walked over.
"What's up?" asked Leon. "Has Uncle Levi's will
been discovered, and does mother get his Mexican mines?"
"What have you got, Shelley?" asked Laddie, kneeling
beside her, and picking up one of the yellow letters.
"I hardly know," said Shelley.
"I brought her a big letter with all those little ones and
a note in it, and they are from the Paget man," I explained
to him. "But she won't even read the note, and see what he
writes. She says she's afraid."
"Poor child! No wonder!" said Laddie, sitting beside
her and putting his arm around her. "Suppose I read it for
you. May I?"
"Yes," said Shelley. "You read it. Read it out
loud. I don't care."
She leaned against him, while he unfolded the white sheet.
"Umph!" he said. "This DOES look bad for you. It
begins: `My own darling Girl.'"
"Let me see!" cried Shelley, suddenly straightening,
and reaching her hand.
Laddie held the page toward her, but she only looked, she didn't
offer to touch it.
"`My own darling Girl:'" repeated Laddie tenderly, making
it mean just all he possibly could, because he felt so dreadfully
sorry for her--" `On my return to Chicago, from the trip
to England I have so often told you I intended to make some time
soon----'"
"Did he?" asked mother.
"Yes," answered Shelley. "He couldn't talk about
much else. It was his first case. It was for a friend of his who
had been robbed of everything in the world; honour, relatives,
home, and money. If Robert won it, he got all that back for his
friend and enough for himself--that he could--a home of his own,
you know! Read on, Laddie!"
"`I was horrified to find on my desk every letter I had written
you during my absence returned to me from the Dead Letter Office,
as you see.'"
"Good gracious!" cried mother, picking up one and clutching
it tight as if she meant to see that it didn't get away again.
"Go on!" cried Shelley.
"`I am enclosing some of them as they came back to me, in
proof of my statement. I drove at once to your boarding place
and found you had not been there for weeks, and your landlady
was distinctly crabbed. Then I went to the college, only to find
that you had fallen ill and gone to your home. That threw me into
torments, and all that keeps me from taking the first train is
the thought that perhaps you refused to accept these letters,
for some reason. Shelley, you did not, did you? There is some
mistake somewhere, is there not----'"
"One would be led to think so," said father sternly.
"Seems as if he might have managed some way----"
"Don't you blame him!" cried Shelley. "Can't you
see it's all my fault? He'd been coming regularly, and the other
girls envied me; then he just disappeared, and there was no word
or anything, and they laughed and whispered until I couldn't endure
it; so I moved in with Peter's cousin, as I wrote you; but that
left Mrs. Fleet with an empty room in the middle of the term,
and it made her hopping mad. I bet anything she wouldn't give
the postman my new address, to pay me back. I left it, of course.
But if I'd been half a woman, and had the confidence I should
have had in myself and in him---- Oh how I've suffered, and punished
all of you----!"
"Never you mind about that," said mother, stroking Shelley's
hair. "Likely there isn't much in Chicago to give a girl
who never had been away from her family before, `confidence' in
herself or any one else. As for him--just disappearing like that,
without a word or even a line---- Go on Laddie!"
"`Surely, you knew that I was only waiting the outcome of
this trip to tell you how dearly I love you. Surely, you encouraged
me in thinking you cared for me a little, Shelley. Only a little
will do to begin with----'"
"You see, I DID have something to go on!" cried Shelley,
wiping her eyes and straightening up.
"`No doubt you misunderstood and resented my going without
coming to explain, and bid you good-bye in person, but Shelley,
_I_ SIMPLY DARED NOT. You see, it was this way: I got a cable
about the case I was always talking of, and the only man who could
give the testimony I MUST HAVE was dying!'"
"For land's sake! The poor boy!" cried mother, patting
Shelley's shoulder.
"`An hour's delay might mean the loss of everything in the
world to me, even you. For if I lost any time, and the man escaped
me, there was no hope of winning my case, and everything, even
you, as I said before, depended on him----'"
"Good Lord! I mean land!" cried Leon.
"`If I could catch the train in an hour, I could take a boat
at New York, and go straight through with no loss of time. So
I wrote you a note that probably said more than I would have ventured
in person, and paid a boy to deliver it.'"
"Kept the money and tore up the note, I bet!" said May.
"`I wrote on the train, but found after sailing that I had
rushed so I had failed to post it in New York. I kept on writing
every day on the boat, and mailed you six at Liverpool. All the
time I have written frequently; there are many more here that
this envelope will not hold, that I shall save until I hear from
you.'"
"Well, well!" said father.
"`Shelley, I beat death, reached my man, got the testimony
I had to have, and won my case.'"
"Glory!" cried mother. "Praise the Lord!"
"`Then I scoured England, and part of the continent, hunting
some interested parties; and when I was so long finding them,
and still no word came from you, I decided to come back and get
you, if you would come with me, and go on with the work together.'"
"Listen to that! More weddings!" cried Leon. He dropped
on his knees before Shelley. "Will you marry me, my pretty
maid?" he begged.
"Young man, if you cut any capers right now, I'll cuff your
ears!" cried father. "This is no proper time for your
foolishness!"
"`Shelley, I beg that you will believe me, and if you care
for me in the very least, telegraph if I may come. Quick! I'm
half insane to see you. I have many things to tell you, first
of all how dear you are to me. Please telegraph. Robert.'"
"Saddle a horse, Leon!" father cried as he unstrapped
his wallet.
"Laddie, take down her message."
"Can you put it into ten words?" asked Laddie.
"Mother, what would you say?" questioned Shelley.
Leon held up his fingers and curled down one with each word. "Say,
`Dear Robert. Well and happy. Come when you get ready.'"
"But then I won't know when he's coming," objected Shelley.
"You don't need to," said Leon. "You can take it
for granted from that epistolary effusion that he won't let the
grass grow under his feet while coming here. That's a bully message!
It sounds as if you weren't crazy over him, and it's a big compliment
to mother. Looks as if she didn't have to know when people are
coming--like she's ready all the time."
"Write it out and let me see," said Shelley.
So Laddie wrote it, and she looked at it a long time, it seemed
to me, at last she said: "I don't like that `get.' It doesn't
sound right. Wouldn't `are' be better?"
"Come when you are ready," repeated Laddie. "Yes,
that's better.
`Get' sounds rather saucy."
"Why not put it, `Come when you choose?'" suggested
mother. "That will leave a word to spare, so it won't look
as if you had counted them and used exactly ten on purpose, and
it doesn't sound as if you expected him to make long preparations,
like the other. That will leave it with him to start whenever
he likes."
"Yes! yes!" cried Shelley. "That's much better!
Say, `Come when you choose!'"
"Right!" said Laddie as he wrote it. "Now I'll
take this!"
"Oh no you won't!" cried Leon. "Father told me
to saddle my horse. She's got enough speed in her to beat yours
a mile. I take that! Didn't you say for me to saddle, father?"
"Such important business, I think I better," said Laddie,
and Leon began to cry.
"I think you should both go," said Shelley. "It
is so important, and if one goes to make a mistake, maybe the
other will notice it."
"Yes, that's the best way," said mother.
"Yes, both go," said father.
It was like one streak when they went up the Big Hill. Father
shook his head. "Poor judgment--that," he said. "Never
run a horse up hill!"
"But they're in such a hurry," Shelley reminded him.
"So they are," said father. "In this case I might
have broken the rule myself. Now come all of you, and let the
child get at her mail."
"But I want you to stay," said Shelley. "I'm so
addle-pated this morning. I need my family to help me."
"Of course you do, child," said mother. "Families
were made to cling together, and stand by each other in every
circumstance of life--joy or sorrow. Of course you need your family."
May began sorting the letters by dates so Shelley could start
on the one that had been written first. Father ran his knife across
the top of each, and cut all the envelopes, and Shelley took out
the first and read it; that was the train one. In it he told her
about sending the boy with the note again, and explained more
about how it was so very important for him to hurry, because the
only man who could help him was so sick. We talked it over, and
all of us thought the boy had kept the money and torn up the note.
Father said the way would have been to send the note and pay the
boy when he came back; but Shelley said Mr. Paget would have been
gone before the boy got back, so father saw that wouldn't have
been the way, in such a case.
Next she read one written on the boat. He told more about sending
the boy; how he loved her, what it would mean to both of them
if he got the evidence he wanted and won his first case; and how
much it would bring his friend. The next one told it all over
again, and more. In that he wrote a little about the ocean, the
people on board the ship, and he gave Shelley the name of the
place where he was going and begged her to write to him. He told
her if the ship he was on passed another, they were going to stop
and send back the mail. He begged her to write often, and to say
she forgave him for starting away without seeing her, as he had
been forced to. The next one was the same thing over, only a little
more yet. In the last he had reached England, the important man
was still living, but he was almost gone, and Mr. Paget took two
good witnesses, all the evidence he had, and went to see him;
and the man saw it was no use, so he made a statement, and Robert
had it all written out, signed and witnessed. For the real straight
sense there was in that letter, I could have done as well myself.
It was a wild jumble, because Robert was so crazy over having
the evidence that would win his case; and he told Shelley that
now he was perfectly free to love her all she would allow him.
He said he had to stay a while longer to find his friend's people
so they would get back their share of the money, but it was not
going to be easy to locate them. You wouldn't think the world
so big, but maybe it seemed smaller to me because as far as I
could see from the top of our house, was all I knew about it.
After Shelley had read the letters, and the note again, father
heaved a big sigh that seemed to come clear from his boot soles
and he said: "Well Shelley, it looks to me as if you had
found a MAN. Seems to me that's a mighty important case for a
young lawyer to be trusted with, in a first effort."
"Yes, but it was for Robert's best friend, and only think,
he has won!"
"I don't see how he could have done better if he'd been old
as Methuselah, and wise as Solomon," boasted mother.
"But he hasn't found the people who must have back their
money," said May. "He will have to go to England again.
And he wants to take you, Shelley. My! You'll get to sail on a
big steamer, cross the Atlantic Ocean, and see London. Maybe you'll
even get a peep at the Queen!"
Shelley was busy making a little heap of her letters; when the
top one slid off I reached over and put it back for her. She looked
straight at me, and smiled the most wonderful and the most beautiful
smile I ever saw on any one's face, so I said to her: "You
see! I TOLD you he was coming!"
"I can't understand it!" said Shelley.
"YOU KNOW I told you."
"Of course I do! But what made you think so?"
"That was the answer. Just that he was coming."
"What are you two talking about?" asked mother.
Shelley looked at me, and waited for me to tell mother as much
as I wanted to, of what had happened. But I didn't think things
like that were to be talked about before every one, so I just
said:
"Oh nothing! Only, I told Shelley this very morning that
the Paget man was coming soon, and that everything was going to
be all right."
"You did? Well of all the world! I can't see why."
"Oh something told me! I just FELT that way."
"More of that Fairy nonsense?" asked father sharply.
"No. I didn't get that from the Fairies."
"Well, never mind!" said Shelley, rising, because she
saw that I had told all I wanted to. "Little Sister DID tell
me this morning that he was coming, that everything would be made
right, and it's the queerest thing, but instantly I believed her.
Didn't I sing all morning, mother? The first note since Robert
didn't come when I expected him in Chicago, weeks ago."
"Yes," said mother. "That's a wonderfully strange
thing. I can't see what made you think so."
"Anyway, I did!" I said. "Now let's go have dinner.
I'm starving."
I caught May's hand, and ran to get away from them. Father and
mother walked one on each side of Shelley, while with both hands
she held her letters before her. When we reached the house we
just talked about them all the time. Pretty soon the boys were
back, and then they told about sending the telegram. Leon vowed
he gave the operator a dime extra to start that message with a
shove, so it would go faster.
"It will go all right," said Laddie, "and how it
will go won't be a circumstance to the way he'll come. If there's
anything we ought to do, before he gets here, we should hustle.
Chicago isn't a thousand miles away. That message can reach him
by two o'clock, it's probable he has got ready while he was waiting,
so he will start on the first train our way. He could reach Groveville
on the ten, to-morrow. We better meet it."
"Yes, we'll meet it," said mother. "Is the carriage
perfectly clean?"
Father said: "It must be gone over. Our general manager here
ordered me to speed up, and we drove a little coming from town."
Mother went to planning what else should be done.
"Don't do anything!" cried Shelley. "The house
is all right. There's no need to work and worry into a sweat.
He won't notice or care how things look."
"I miss my guess if he doesn't notice and care very much
indeed," said mother emphatically. "Men are not blind.
No one need think they don't see when things are not as they should
be, just because they're not cattish enough to let you know it,
like a woman always does. Shelley, wouldn't you like to ride over
and spend the afternoon with the Princess?"
"Nope!" said Shelley. "It's her turn to come to
see me. Besides, you don't get me out of the way like that. I
know what you'll do here, and I intend to help."
"Do you need one of the boys at the house?" asked father,
and if you'll believe it, both of them wanted to stay.
Father said he must have one to help wash the carriage and do
a little fixing around the barn; so he took Leon, but he didn't
like to go. He said: "I don't see what all this fuss is about,
anyway. Probably he'll be another Peter."
Shelley looked at him: "Oh Mr. Paget isn't nearly so large
as Peter," she said, "and his hair is whiter than yours,
while his eyes are not so blue."
"Saints preserve us!" cried Leon. "Come on, father,
let's only dust the carriage! He's not worth washing it for."
"Is he like that?" asked mother anxiously.
"Wait and see!" said Shelley. "Looks don't make
a man. He has proved what he can do."
Then all of us went to work. Before night we were hunting over
the yard, and beside the road, to see if we could find anything
to pick up. Six chickens were in the cellar, father was to bring
meat and a long list of groceries from town in the morning. He
was to start early, get them before train time, put them under
the back seat, and take them out after he drove into the lane,
when he came back. That made a little more trouble for father,
but there was not the slightest necessity for making Mr. Paget
feel that he had ridden in a delivery wagon.
Next morning I wakened laughing softly, because some one was fussing
with my hair, patting my face, and kissing me, so I put up my
arms and pulled that loving person down on my pillow, and gave
back little half-asleep kisses, and slept on; but it was Shelley,
and she gently shook me and began repeating that fool old thing
I have been waked up with half the mornings of my life:
"Get up, Little Sister, the morning is bright, The birds
are all singing to welcome the light, Get up; for when all things
are merry and glad, Good children should never be lazy and sad;
For God gives us daylight, dear sister, that we May rejoice like
the lark and work like the bee."
Usually I'd have gone on sleeping, but Shelley was so sweet and
lovely, and she kissed me so hard, that I remembered it was going
to be a most exciting day, so I came to quick as snap and jumped
right up, for I didn't want to miss a single thing that might
happen.
The carriage was shining when it came to the gate, so was father.
I thought there was going to be a vacant seat beside him, and
I asked if I might go along. He said: "Yes, if mother says
so." He always would stick that in. So I ran to ask her,
and she didn't care, if Shelley made no objections. I was just
starting to find her, when here she came, all shining too, but
Laddie was with her. I hadn't known that he was going, and I was
so disappointed I couldn't help crying.
"What's the matter?" asked Shelley.
"Father and mother both said I might go, if you didn't care."
"Why, I'm dreadfully sorry," said Shelley, "but
I have several things I want Laddie to do for me."
Laddie stooped down to kiss me good-bye and he said: "Don't
cry, Little Sister. The way to be happy is to be good."
Then they drove to Groveville, and we had to wait. But there was
so much to do, it made us fly to get all of it finished. So mother
sent Leon after Mrs. Freshett to help in the kitchen, while Candace
wore her white dress, and waited on the table. Mother cut flowers
for the dining table, and all through the house. She left the
blinds down to keep the rooms cool, chilled buttermilk to drink,
and if she didn't think of every single, least little thing, I
couldn't see what it was. Then all of us put on our best dresses.
Mother looked as glad and sweet as any girl, when she sat to rest
a little while. I didn't dare climb the catalpa in my white dress,
so I watched from the horse block, and when I saw the grays come
over the top of the hill, I ran to tell. As mother went to the
gate, she told May and me to walk behind, to stay back until we
were spoken to, and then to keep our heads level, and remember
our manners. I don't know where Leon went. He said he lost all
interest when he found there was to be another weak-eyed towhead
in the family, and I guess he was in earnest about it, because
he wasn't even curious enough to be at the gate when Mr. Paget
came.
Father stopped with a flourish, Laddie hurried around and helped
Shelley, and then Mr. Paget stepped down. Goodness, gracious,
sakes alive! Little? Towhead? He was taller than Laddie. His hair
was most as black as ink, and wavy. His eyes were big and dark;
he was broad and strong and there was the cleanest, freshest look
about him. He put his arm spang around Shelley, right there in
the road, and mother said: "Hold there! Not so fast, young
man! I haven't given my consent to that."
He laughed, and he said: "Yes, but you'ah going to!"
And he put his other arm around mother, so May and I crowded up,
and we had a family reunion right between the day lilies and the
snowball bush. We went into the house, and he LIKED us, his room,
and everything went exactly right. He was crazy about the cold
buttermilk, and while he was drinking it Leon walked into the
dining-room, because he thought of course Mr. Paget and Shelley
would be on the davenport in the parlour. When he saw Robert he
said lowlike to Shelley: "Didn't Mr. Paget come? Who's that?"
Shelley looked so funny for a minute, then she remembered what
she had told him and she just laughed as she said: "Mr. Paget,
this is my brother."
Robert went to shake hands, and Leon said right to his teeth:
"Well a divil of a towhead you are!"
"Towhead?" said Robert, bewildered-like.
"Shelley said you were a little bit of a man, with watery
blue eyes, and whiter hair than mine."
"Oh I say!" cried Robert. "She must have been stringin'
you!"
Leon just whooped; because while Mr. Paget didn't talk like the
'orse, 'ouse people, he made you think of them in the way he said
things, and the sound of his voice. Then we had dinner, and I
don't remember that we ever had quite such a feast before. Mother
had put on every single flourish she knew. She used her very best
dishes, and linen, and no cook anywhere could beat Candace alone;
now she had Mrs. Freshett to help her, and mother also. If she
tried to show Mr. Paget, she did it! No visitor was there except
him, but we must have been at the table two hours talking, and
eating from one dish after another. Candace LIKED to wear her
white dress, and carry things around, and they certainly were
good.
And talk! Father, Laddie, and Robert talked over all creation.
Every once in a while when mother saw an opening, she put in her
paddle, and no one could be quicker, when she watched sharp and
was trying to make a good impression. Shelley was very quiet;
she scarcely spoke or touched that delicious food. Once the Paget
man turned to her, looking at her so fondlike, as he picked up
one of her sauce dishes and her spoon and wanted to feed her.
And he said: "Heah child, eat your dinnah! You have nawthing
to be fussed ovah! I mean to propose to you, and your parents
befowr night. That is what I am heah for."
Every one laughed so, Shelley never got the bite; but after that
she perked up more and ate a little by herself.
At last father couldn't stand it any longer, so he began asking
Robert about his trip to England, and the case he had won. When
the table was cleared for dessert, Mr. Paget asked mother to have
Candace to bring his satchel. He opened it and spread papers all
over, so that father and Laddie could see the evidence, while
he told them how it was.
It seemed there was a law in England, all of us knew about it,
because father often had explained it. This law said that a man
who had lots of money and land must leave almost all of it to
his eldest son; and the younger ones must go into law, the army,
be clergymen, or enter trade and earn a living, while the eldest
kept up the home place. Then he left it to his eldest son, and
his other boys had to work for a living. It kept the big estates
together; but my! it was hard on the younger sons, and no one
seemed even to think about the daughters. I never heard them mentioned.
Now there was a very rich man; he had only two sons, and each
of them married, and had one son. The younger son died, and sent
his boy for his elder brother to take care of. He pretended to
be good, but for sure, he was bad as ever he could be. He knew
that if his cousin were out of the way, all that land and money
would be his when his uncle died. So he went to work and he tried
for years, and a lawyer man who had no conscience at all, helped
him. At last when they had done everything they could think of,
they took a lot of money and put it in the pocket of the son they
wanted to ruin; then when his father missed the money, and the
house was filled with policemen, detectives, and neighbours, the
bad man said he'd feel more comfortable to have the family searched
too, merely as a formality, so he stepped out and was gone over,
and when the son's turn came, there was the money on him! That
made him a public disgrace to his family, and a criminal who couldn't
inherit the estate, and his father went raving mad and tried to
kill him, so he had to run away. At first he didn't care what
he did, so he came over here. Robert said that man was his best
friend, and as men went, he was a decent fellow, so he cheered
him up all he could, and went to work with all his might to prove
he was innocent, and to get back his family, and his money for
him.
When Robert had enough evidence that he was almost ready to start
to England, his man got a cable from an old friend of his father's,
who always had believed in him, and it said that the bad man was
dying--to come quick. So Robert went all of a sudden, like the
Dead Letters told about. Now, he described how he reached there,
took the old friend of the father of his friend with him, and
other witnesses, and all the evidence he had, and went to see
the sick man. When Robert showed him what he could prove, the
bad man said it was no use, he had to die in a few days, so he
might as well go with a clean conscience, and he told about everything
he had done. Robert had it all written out, signed and sworn to.
He told about all of it, and then he said to father: "Have
I made it clear to you?"
Leon was so excited he forgot all the manners he ever had, for
he popped up before father could open his head, and cried: "Clear
as mud! I got that son business so plain in my mind, I'd know
the party of the first part, from the party of the second part,
if I met him promenading on the Stone Wall of China!"
Father and Laddie knew so much law they asked dozens of questions;
but that Robert man wasn't a smidgin behind, for every clip he
had the answer ready, and then he could go on and tell much more
than he had been asked. He said as a Case, it was a pretty thing
to work on; but it was much more than a case to him, because he
always had known that his friend was not guilty; that he was separated
from his family, suffering terribly under the disgrace, and they
must be also. He had worked for life for his friend, because the
whole thing meant so much to both of them. He said he must go
back soon and finish up a little more that he should have done
while he was there, if it hadn't been that he received no word
from Shelley.
"When I didn't heah from heh for so long, and wrote so many
letters, and had no reply, I thought possibly some gay `young
Lochinvah had come out from the west,' and taken my sweet 'eart,"
he said, "and while I had my armour on, I made up my mind
that I'd give him a fight too. I didn't propose to lose Shelley,
if it were in my powah to win heh. I hadn't been able to say to
heh exactly what I desiahed, on account of getting a start alone
in this country; but if I won this case, I would have ample means.
When I secuahed the requiahed evidence, I couldn't wait to finish,
so I came straight ovah, to make sure of heh."
He arose and handed the satchel to father.
"I notice you have a very good looking gun convenient,"
he said. "Would you put these papahs where you consider them
safe until I'm ready to return? Our home, our living, and the
honah of a man are there, and we are mighty particular about that
bag, are we not, Shelley?"
"Well I should think we are!" cried Shelley. "For
goodness sake, father, hang to it! Is the man still living? Could
you get that evidence over again?"
"He was alive when I left, but the doctors said ten days
would be his limit, so he may be gone befowr this."
Father picked up the satchel, set it on his knees, and stroked
it as if it were alive.
"Well! Well!" he said. "Now would any one think
such a little thing could contain so much?"
Shelley leaned toward Robert.
"Your friend!" she cried, "Your friend! What DID
he say to you? What did he DO?"
"Well, for a time he was wildly happy ovah having the stain
removed from his honah, and knowing that he would have his family
and faw'tn back; but there is an extremely sad feature to his
case that is not yet settled, so he must keep his head level until
we work that out. Now about that hoss you wanted to show me----"
he turned to Leon.
Mother gave the signal, and we left the table. Father carried
the satchel to his chest, made room for it, locked it in and put
the key in his pocket. Then our men started to the barn to show
the Arab-Kentucky horse. Mr. Paget went to Shelley and took her
in his arms exactly like Peter did Sally before the parlour door
that time when I got into trouble, and he looked at mother and
laughed as he said: "I hope you will excuse me, but I"e
been having a very nawsty, anxious time, and I cawn't conform
to the rules for a few days, until I become accustomed to the
fawct that Shelley is not lost to me. It was beastly when I reached
Chicago, had back all my letters, and found she had gone home
ill. I've much suffering to recompense. I'll atone for a small
portion immediately."
He lifted Shelley right off the floor--that's how big and strong
he was--he hugged her tight, and kissed her forehead, cheeks,
and eyes.
"When I've gone through the fahmality of asking your parents
for you, and they have said a gracious `yes,' I'll put the fust
one on your lips," he said, setting her down carefully. "In
the meantime, you be fixing your mouth to say, `yes,' also, when
I propose to you, because it's coming befowr you sleep."
Shelley was like a peach blossom. She reached up and touched his
cheek, while she looked at mother all smiling, and sparkling,
as she said: "You see!"
Mother smiled back.
"I do, indeed!" she answered.
Leon pulled Mr. Paget's sleeve.
"Aw quit lally-gaggin' and come see a real horse," he
said.
Robert put his other arm around Leon, drew him to his side and
hugged him as if he were a girl. "I'm so glad Shelley has
a lawge family," he said. "Big families are jolly. I'm
so proud of all the brothers I'm going to have. I was the only
boy at home."
"You haven't told us about your family," said mother.
"No," said Robert, "but I intend to. I have a family!
One of the finest on uth. We'll talk about them after this hoss
is inspected."
He let Shelley go and walked away, his arm still around Leon.
Shelley ran to mother and both of them sobbed out loud.
"NOW YOU SEE HOW IT WAS!" she said.
"You poor child!" cried mother. "Indeed I DO see
how it was. You've been a brave girl. A good, brave girl! Father
and I are mighty proud of you!"
"Oh mother! I thought you were ashamed of me!" sobbed
Shelley.
"Oh my child!" said mother quavery-like. "Oh my
child! You surely see that none of us could understand, as we
do now."
She patted Shelley, and told her to run upstairs and lie down
for a while, because she was afraid she would be sick.
"We mustn't have a pale, tired girl right now," said
mother.
Well!" said Shelley, but she just stood there holding mother.
"Well?" said mother gripping her.
"You see!" said Shelley.
"Child," said mother, "I DO see! I see six feet
of as handsome manhood as I ever have seen anywhere. His manner
is perfect, and I find his speech most attractive. I am delighted
with him. I do see indeed! Your father is quite as proud and pleased
as I am. Now go to bed."
Shelley held up her lips, and then went. I ran to the barn, where
the men were standing in the shade, while Leon led his horse up
and down before them, told about its pedigree, its record, how
he came to have it. The Paget man stood there looking and listening
gravely, as he studied the horse. At last he went over her, and
gee! but he knew horse! Then Laddie brought out Flos and they
talked all about her, and then went into the barn. Father opened
the east doors to show how much land he had, which were his lines;
and while the world didn't look quite so pretty as it had in May,
still it was good enough. Then they went into the orchard, sat
under the trees and began talking about business conditions. That
was so dry I went back to the house. And maybe I didn't strike
something interesting there!
As I came up the orchard path to a back yard gate, I saw a carriage
at the hitching rack in front of the house, so I took a peep and
almost fell over. It was the one the Princess had come to Sally's
wedding in; so I knew she was in the house visiting Shelley. I
went to the parlour and there I had another shock; for lo and
behold! in our big rocking chair, and looking as well as any one,
so far as you could see--of course you can't see heart trouble,
though--sat Mrs. Pryor. The Princess and mother were there, all
of them talking, laughing and having the best time, while on the
davenport enjoying himself as much as any one, was Mr. Pryor.
They talked about everything, and it was easy to see that the
Pryor door was OPEN so far as we were concerned, anyway. Mrs.
Pryor was just as nice and friendly as she could be, and so was
he. Shelley sat beside him, and he pinched her cheek and said:
"Something seems to make you especially brilliant today,
young woman!"
Shelley flushed redder, laughed, and glanced at mother, so she
said: "Shelley is having a plain old-fashioned case of beau.
She met a young man in Chicago last fall and he's here now to
ask our consent. All of us are quite charmed with him. That's
why she's so happy."
Then the Princess sprang up and kissed Shelley, so did Mrs. Pryor,
while such a chatter you never heard. No one could repeat what
they said, for as many as three talked at the same time.
"Oh do let's have a double wedding!" cried the Princess
when the excitement was over a little. "I think it would
be great fun; do let's! When are you planning for?"
"Nothing is settled yet," said Shelley. "We've
had no time to talk!"
"Mercy!" cried the Princess. "Go make your arrangements
quickly!
Hurry up, then come over, and we'll plan for the same time. It
will be splendid! Don't you think that would be fine, Mrs. Stanton?"
"I can't see any objections to it," said mother.
"Where is your young man? I'm crazy to see him," cried
the Princess. "If you have gone and found a better looking
one than mine, I'll never speak to you again."
"She hasn't!" cried Mrs. Pryor calmly, like that settled
it. I like her. "They're not made!"
"I am not so sure of that," said Shelley proudly. "Mother,
isn't my man quite as good looking, and as nice in every way,
as Laddie?"
"Fully as handsome, and so far as can be seen in such a short
time, quite as fine," said mother.
I was perfectly amazed at her; as if any man could be!
"I don't believe it, I won't stand it, and I shan't go home
until I have seen for myself!" cried the Princess, laughing,
and yet it sounded as if she were half-provoked, and I knew I
was. The Paget man was all right, but I wasn't going to lose my
head over him. Laddie was the finest, of course!
"Well, he's somewhere on the place with our men, this minute,"
said Shelley, "but you stay for supper, and meet him."
"When you haven't your arrangements made yet! You surely
are unselfish! Of course I won't do that, but I'd love to have
one little peep, then you bring him and come over to-morrow, so
all of us can become acquainted, and indeed, I'm really in earnest
about a double wedding."
"Go see where the men are," said Shelley to me.
I went to the back door, and their heads were bobbing far down
in the orchard.
"They're under the greening apple tree," I reported.
"If you will excuse us," said Shelley to Mr. and Mrs.
Pryor, "we'll walk down a few minutes and prove that I'm
right."
"Don't stay," said Mrs. Pryor. "This trip is so
unusual for me that I'm quite tired. For a first venture, in such
a long time, I think I've done well. But now I'm beginning to
feel I should go home."
"Go straight along," said the Princess. "I'll walk
across the fields, or Thomas can come back after me."
So Mr. and Mrs. Pryor went away, while the Princess, Shelley,
May, and I walked through the orchard toward the men. They were
standing on the top of the hill looking over the meadow, and talking
with such interest they didn't hear us or turn until Shelley said:
"Mr. Paget, I want to present you to Laddie's betrothed--Miss
Pamela Pryor."
He swung around, finishing what he was saying as he turned, the
Princess took a swift step toward him, then, at the same time,
both of them changed to solid tombstone, and stood staring, and
so did all of us, while no one made a sound. At last the Paget
man drew a deep, quivery breath and sort of shook himself as he
gazed at her.
"Why, Pam!" he cried. "Darling Pam, cawn it possibly
be you?"
If you ever heard the scream of a rabbit when the knives of a
reaper cut it to death, why that's exactly the way she cried out.
She covered her eyes with her hands. He drew back and smiled,
the red rushed into his face, and he began to be alive again.
Laddie went to the Princess and took her hands.
"What does this mean?" he begged.
She pulled away from him, and went to the Paget man slowly, her
big eyes wild and strained.
"Robert!" she cried. "Robert! how did you get here?
Were you hunting us?"
"All ovah England, yes," he said. "Not heah! I
came heah to see Shelley. But you? How do you happen to be in
this country?"
"We've lived on adjoining land for two years!"
"You moved heah! To escape the pity of our friends?"
"Father moved! Mother and I had no means, and no refuge.
We were forced. We never believed it! Oh Robert, we never--not
for a minute! Oh Robert, say you never did it!"
"Try our chawming cousin Emmet your next guess!"
"That devil! Oh that devil!"
She cried out that hurt way again, so he took her tight in his
arms; but sure as ever Laddie was my brother, he was hers, so
that was all right. When they were together you wondered why in
this world you hadn't thought of it the instant you saw him alone.
They were like as two peas. They talked exactly the same, only
he sounded much more so, probably from having just been in England
for weeks, while in two years she had grown a little as we were.
We gazed at them, open-mouthed, like as not, and no one said a
word.
At last Mr. Paget looked over the Princess' shoulder at father
and said: "I can explain this, Mr. Stanton, in a very few
wuds. I am my friend. The case was my own. The evidence I secuahed
was for myself. This is my only sisteh. Heh people are mine----"
"The relationship is apparent," said father. "There
is a striking likeness between you and your sister, and I can
discern traces of your parents in your face, speech and manner."
"If you know my father," said Robert, "then you
undehstand what happened to me when I was found with his money
on my pehson, in the presence of our best friends and the police.
He went raving insane on the instant, and he would have killed
me if he hadn't been prevented; he tried to; has he changed any
since, Pam?"
The Princess was clinging to him with both hands, staring at him,
wonder, joy, and fear all on her lovely face.
"Worse!" she cried. "He's much worse! The longer
he broods, the more mother grieves, the bitterer he becomes. Mr.
Stanton, he is always armed. He'll shoot on sight. Oh what shall
we do?"
"Miss Pamela," said Leon, "did your man Thomas
know your brother in England?"
"All his life."
"Well, then, we'd better be doing something quick. He tied
the horses and was walking up and down the road while he waited,
and he saw us plainly when we crossed the wood yard a while ago.
He followed us and stared so, I couldn't help noticing him."
"Jove!" cried Robert. "I must have seen him in
the village this morning. A man reminded me of him, then I remembered
how like people of his type are, and concluded I was mistaken.
Mr. Stanton, you have agreed that the evidence I hold is sufficient.
Pam cawn tell you that while I don't deny being full of tricks
as a boy, they weh not dirty, not low, and while father always
taking Emmet's paht against me drove me to recklessness sometimes,
I nevah did anything underhand or disgraceful. She knows what
provocation I had, and exactly what happened. Let heh tell you!"
"I don't feel that I require any further information,"
said father. "You see, I happen to be fairly well acquainted
with Mr. Pryor."
"Pryor?"
"He made us use that name here," explained the Princess.
"WELL, HIS NAME IS PAGET!" said Robert angrily.
Laddie told me long ago he didn't believe it was Pryor.
"Then, if you are acquainted with my father, what would you
counsel? Unless I'm prepahed to furnish the central figyah of
interest in a funeral, I dare not meet him, until he has seen
this evidence, had time to digest it, and calm himself."
Shelley caught him by the arm. No wonder! She hadn't been proposed
to, or even had a kiss on her lips. She pulled him.
"You come straight to the house," she said. "Thomas
may tell your father he thought he saw you."
That was about as serious as anything could be, but nothing ever
stopped Leon. He sidled away from father, repeating in a low voice:
"`For sore dismayed, through storm and shade
His child he did discover;
One lovely hand she stretched for aid,
And one was round her lover--'"
Shelley just looked daggers at him, but she was too anxious to
waste any time.
"Would Thomas tell your father?" she asked the Princess.
"The instant he saw him alone, yes. He wouldn't before mother."
"Hold one minute!" cried father. "We must think
of our mother, just a little. Shelley, you and the girls run up
and explain how this is. Better all of you go to the house, except
Mr. Paget. He'll be safe here as anywhere. Mr. Pryor will stop
there, if he comes. So it would be best for you to keep out of
sight, Robert, until I have had a little talk with him."
"I'll stay here," I offered. "We'll talk until
you get Mr. Pryor cooled off. He can be awful ragesome when he's
excited, and it doesn't take much to start him."
"You're right about that!" agreed Robert.
So we sat under the greening and were having a fine visit while
the others went to break the news gently to mother that the Pryor
mystery had gone up higher than Gilderoy's kite. My! but she'd
be glad! It would save her many a powerful prayer. I was telling
Robert all about the time his father visited us, and what my mother
said to him, and he said: "She'd be the one to talk with
him now. Possibly he'd listen to her, until he got it through
his head that his own son is not a common thief."
"Maybe he'll have to be held, like taking quinine, and made
to listen," I said.
"That would be easy, if he were not a walking ahsenal,"
said Robert. "You have small chance to reason with a half-crazy
man while he is handling a pistol."
He meant revolver.
"But he'll shoot!" I cried. "The Princess said
he'd shoot!"
"So he will!" said Robert. "Shoot first, then find
out how things are, and kill himself and every one else with remorse,
afterward. He is made that way."
"Then he doesn't dare see you until he finds out how mistaken
he has been," I said, for I was growing to like Robert better
every minute longer I knew him. Besides, there was the Princess,
looking like him as possible, and loving him of course, like I
did Laddie, maybe. And if anything could cure Mrs. Pryor's heart
trouble, having her son back would, because that was what made
it in the first place, and even before them, there was Shelley
to be thought of, and cared for.
CHAPTER XVIII
The Pryor Mystery
"And now old Dodson, turning pale,
Yields to his fate--so ends my tale."
It didn't take me long to see why Shelley liked Robert Paget.
He was one of the very most likeable persons I ever had seen.
We were sitting under the apple tree, growing better friends every
minute, when we heard a smash, so we looked up, and it was the
sound made by Ranger as Mr. Pryor landed from taking our meadow
fence. He had ridden through the pasture, and was coming down
the creek bank. He was a spectacle to behold. A mile away you
could see that Thomas had told him he had seen Robert, and where
he was. Father had been mistaken in thinking Mr. Pryor would go
to the house. He had lost his hat, his white hair was flying,
his horse was in a lather, and he seemed to be talking to himself.
Robert took one good look. "Ye Gods!" he cried. "There
he comes now, a chattering madman!"
"The Station," I panted. "Up that ravine! Roll
back the stone and pull the door shut after you. Quick!"
He never could have been inside, before Mr. Pryor's horse was
raving along the embankment beside the fence.
"Where is he?" he cried. "Thomas saw him here!"
I didn't think his horse could take the fence at the top of the
hill, but it looked as if he intended trying to make it, and I
had to stop him if I could.
"Saw who?" I asked with clicking teeth.
"A tall, slender man, with a handsome face, and the heart
of a devil."
"Yes, there was a man here like that in the face. I didn't
see his heart," I said.
"Which way?" raved Mr. Pryor. "Which way? Is he
at your house?"
Then I saw that he had the reins in his left hand, and a big revolver
in his right. So there was no mistake about whether he'd really
shoot. But that gun provoked me. People have no business to be
careless with those things. They're dangerous!
"He didn't do what you think he did," I cried, "and
he can prove he didn't, if you'll stop cavorting, and listen to
reason."
Mr. Pryor leaned over the fence, dark purple like a beet now.
"You tell me where he is, or I'll choke it out of you,"
he said.
I guess he meant it. I took one long look at his lean, clawlike
fingers, and put both hands around my neck.
"He knew Thomas saw him. He went that way," I said,
waving off toward the north.
"Hah! striking for petticoats, as usual!" he cried,
and away he went in the direction of his house. Then I flew for
the Station.
"Come from there, quick!" I cried. "I've sent him
back to his house, but when he finds you're not there, he will
come here again. Hurry, and I'll put you in the woodshed loft.
He'd never think of looking there."
He came out and we started toward the house, going pretty fast.
Almost to the back gate we met Shelley.
"Does mother know?" I asked.
"I just told her," she said.
"Father," I cried, going in the back dining-room door.
"Mr. Pryor was down in the meadow on Ranger. Thomas did see
Robert, and his father is hunting him with a gun. We saw him coming,
so I hid Robert in the Station and sent Mr. Pryor back home--I
guess I told him a lie, father, or at least part of one, I said
he went `that way,' and he did, but not so far as I made his father
think; so he started back home, but when he gets there and doesn't
find Robert he'll come here again, madder than ever. Oh father,
he'll come again, and he's crazy, father! Clear, raving crazy!
I know he'll come again!"
"Yes," said father calmly. "I think it very probable
that he will come again."
Then he started around shutting and latching windows, closing
and locking the doors, and he carefully loaded his gun, and leaned
it against the front casing. Then he put on his glasses, and began
examining the papers they had brought out again. Robert stood
beside him, and explained and showed him.
"You see with me out of the way, the English law would give
everything to my cousin," he said, and he explained it all
over again.
"And to think how he always posed for a perfect saint!"
cried the Princess. "Oh I hope the devil knows how to make
him pay for what all of us have suffered!"
"Child! Child!" cried mother.
"I can't help it!" said the Princess. "Let me tell
you, Mr. Stanton."
Then SHE told everything all over again, but it was even more
interesting than the way Robert explained it, because what she
said was about how it had been with her and her mother.
"It made father what he is," she said. "He would
have killed Robert, if our friends hadn't helped him away. He
will now, if he isn't stopped. I tell you he will! He sold everything
he could legally control, for what any one chose to give him,
and fled here stricken in pride, heartbroken, insane with anger,
the creature you know. In a minute he'll be back again. Oh what
are we going to do?"
Father was laying out the papers that he wanted to use very carefully.
"These constitute all the proof any court would require,"
he said to Robert. "If he returns, all of you keep from sight.
This is my house; I'll manage who comes here, in my own way."
"But you must be allowed to take no risk!" cried Robert.
"I cawn't consent to youah facing danger for me."
"There will be no risk," said father. "There is
no reason why he should want to injure me. As the master of this
house, I am accustomed to being obeyed. If he comes, step into
the parlour there, until I call you."
He was busy with the papers when he saw Mr. Pryor coming. I wondered
if he would jump the yard fence and ride down mother's flowers,
but he left his horse at the hitching rack, and pounded on the
front door.
"Did any of you notice whether he was displaying a revolver?"
asked father.
"Yes father! Yes!" I cried. "And he's shaking so
I'm afraid he'll make it go, when he doesn't intend to."
Father picked up and levelled his rifle on the front door.
"Leon," he said, "you're pretty agile. Open this
door, keep yourself behind it, and step around in the parlour.
The rest of you get out, and stay out of range."
Those nearest hurried into the parlour. Candace, May, and I crouched
in the front stairway, but things were so exciting we just had
to keep the door open a tiny crack so we could see plain as anything.
There had been nothing for Mrs. Freshett to do all afternoon,
so she had gone over to visit an hour with Amanda Deam. Now Mr.
Pryor probably thought father would meet him with the Bible in
his hand, and read a passage about loving your neighbour as yourself.
I'll bet anything you can mention that he never expected to find
himself looking straight down the barrel of a shining big rifle
when that door swung open. It surprised him so, he staggered,
and his arm wavered. If he had shot and hit anything then, it
would have been an accident.
"Got you over the heart," said father, in precisely
the same voice he always said, "This is a fine day we are
having." "Now why are you coming here in such a shape?"
This was a little cross. "I'm not the man to cringe before
you!" This was quite boastful. "You'll get bullet for
bullet, if you attempt to invade my house with a gun." This
pinged as if father shot words instead of bullets.
"I want my daughter to come home," said Mr. Pryor. "And
if you're sheltering the thief she is trying to hide, yield him
up, if you would save yourself."
"Well, I'm not anxious about dying, with the family I have
on my hands, neighbour," said father, his rifle holding without
a waver, "but unless you put away that weapon, and listen
to reason, you cannot enter my house. Calm yourself, man, and
hear what there is to be said! Examine the proof, that is here
waiting to be offered to you."
"Once and but once, send them out, or I'll enter over you!"
cried Mr. Pryor.
"Sorry," said father, "but if only a muscle of
your trigger finger moves, you fall before I do. I've the best
range, and the most suitable implement for the work."
"Implement for the work!" Well, what do you think of
father? Any one who could not see, to have heard him, would have
thought he was talking about a hoe. We saw a shadow before we
knew what made it; then, a little at a time, wonderingly, her
jolly face a bewildered daze, her mouth slowly opening, Mrs. Freshett,
half- bent and peering, stooped under Mr. Pryor's arm and looked
in our door. She had come back to help get supper, and because
the kitchen was locked, she had gone around the house to see if
she could get in at the front. What she saw closed her mouth,
and straightened her back.
"WHY, YOU TWO OLD FOOLS!" she cried. "IF YE AIN'T
DRAWED A BEAD ON EACH OTHER!"
None of us saw her do it. We only knew after it was over what
must have happened. She had said she'd risk her life for mother.
She never stopped an instant when her chance came. She must have
turned, and thrown her big body against Mr. Pryor. He was tired,
old, and shaking with anger. They went down together, she gripping
his right wrist with both hands, and she was strong as most men.
Father set the gun beside the door, and bent over them. A minute
more and he handed the revolver to Leon, and helped Mrs. Freshett
to her feet. Mr. Pryor lay all twisted on the walk, his face was
working, and what he said was a stiff jabber no one could understand.
He had broken into the pieces we often feared he would.
Robert and Laddie came running to help father carry him in, and
lay him on the couch.
"I hope, Miss Stanton," said Mrs. Freshett, "that
I wa'n't too rough with him. He was so shaky-like, I was 'feered
that thing would go off without his really makin' it, and of course
I couldn't see none of yourn threatened with a deadly weepon,
'thout buttin' in and doin' the best I could."
Mother put her arms around her as far as they would reach. She
would have had to take her a side at a time to really hug all
of her, and she said: "Mrs. Freshett, you are an instrument
in the hands of the Lord this day. Undoubtedly you have kept us
from a fearful tragedy; possibly you have saved my husband for
me. None of us ever can thank you enough."
"Loosen his collar and give him air," said Mrs. Freshett
pushing mother away. "I think likely he has bust a blood
vessel."
Father sent Leon flying to bring Dr. Fenner. Laddie took the carriage
and he and Robert went after Mrs. Pryor, while father, mother,
Mrs. Freshett, the Princess, May, and I, every last one, worked
over Mr. Pryor. We poured hot stuff down his throat, put warm
things around him, and rubbed him until the sweat ran on us, trying
to get his knotted muscles straightened out. When Dr. Fenner came
he said we were doing all he could; MAYBE Mr. Pryor would come
to and be all right, and maybe his left side would be helpless
forever; it was a stroke. Seemed to me having Mrs. Freshett come
against you like that, could be called a good deal more than a
stroke, but I couldn't think of the right word then. And after
all, perhaps stroke was enough. He couldn't have been much worse
off if the barn had fallen on him. I didn't think there was quite
so much of Mrs. Freshett; but then she was scared, and angry;
and he was about ready to burst, all by himself, if no one had
touched him. He had much better have stayed at home and listened
to what was to be said, reasonably, like father would; and then
if he really had to shoot, he would have been in some kind of
condition to take aim.
After a long hard fight we got him limber, straightened out, and
warm, it didn't rip so when he breathed, then they put him in
the parlour on the big davenport. Leon said if the sparkin' bench
didn't bring him to, nothing would. Laddie sat beside him and
mother kept peeping. She wouldn't let Dr. Fenner go, because she
said Mr. Pryor just must come out of it right, and have a few
years of peace and happiness.
Mrs. Pryor came back with Laddie and Robert. He carried her in,
put her in the big rocking chair again, and he sat beside her,
stroking and kissing her, while she held him with both hands.
You could see NOW why his mother couldn't sleep, walked the road,
and held her hands over her heart. She was a brave woman, and
she had done well to keep alive and going in any shape at all.
You see we knew. There had been only the few hours when it seemed
possible that one of our boys had taken father's money and was
gone. I well remembered what happened to our mother then. And
if she had been disgraced before every one, dragged from her home
away across a big sea to live among strangers, and not known where
her boy was for years, I'm not a bit sure that she'd have done
better than Mrs. Pryor. Yes, she would too; come to think it out--she'd
have kept on believing the Lord had something to do with it, and
that He'd fix it some way; and I know she and father would have
held hands no matter what happened or where they went.
I guess the biggest thing the matter with Pryors was that they
didn't know how to go about loving each other right; maybe it
was because they didn't love God, so they couldn't know exactly
what PROPER LOVE was; because God is love, like father said.
Mrs. Pryor didn't want to see Mr. Pryor--I can't get used to calling
them Paget--and she didn't ask anything about him. I guess she
was pretty mad at him. She never had liked the Emmet cousin, and
she'd had nothing but trouble with him all the time he had been
in her family, and then that awful disgrace, that she always THOUGHT
was all him, but she couldn't prove it, and she had no money.
That's a very bad thing. A woman should always have some money.
She works as hard as any one, and usually she has more that worries
her, so it's only fair for her to have part of what the work and
worry bring. Mother always has money. Why, she has so much, she
can help father out when he is pushed with bills, as she did last
fall, to start Shelley to music school. It's no way to be forced
to live with a man, just to get a home, food, and clothing. I
don't believe mother ever would do it in all this world. But then
mother has worked all her life, and so if father doesn't do as
she wants him to, she'd know exactly how to go about taking care
of herself.
After all Mrs. Pryor didn't need to sit back on her dignity and
look so abused. He couldn't knock her down, and drag her clear
here. Why didn't she say right out, in the beginning, that her
son COULDN'T be a thief, that she knew it, and she'd stay at home
and wait for him to come back? She could have put a piece in the
paper saying she knew her boy was all right, and for him to come
back, so they could go to work and PROVE it. I bet if she'd had
one tenth of the ginger mother has, she'd have stopped the whole
fuss in the start. I looked at her almost steadily, trying to
figure out just what mother would have done in her place. Maybe
I'm mistaken about exactly how she would have set to work, but
this I KNOW: she'd have stuck to the Lord; she'd have loved father,
so dearly, he just COULDN'T have wanted her to do things that
hurt her until it gave her heart trouble; and she never, never
would have given up one of us, and sat holding her heart for months,
refusing to see or to speak to any one, while she waited for some
one else to do something. Mother never waits. She always thinks
a minute, if she's in doubt she asks father; if he can't decide,
both of them ask God; and then you ought to see things begin to
fly.
The more I watched Mrs. Pryor, the more I began to think she was
a lady; and just about when I was sure that was what ailed her,
I heard father say: "Perhaps the lady would like a cup of
tea." I had a big notion to tell her to come on, and I would
show her where the cannister was, but I thought I better not.
I wanted to, though. She'd have felt much better if she had got
up and worked like the rest of us. With all the excitement, and
everything happening at once, you'd have thought mother would
be flat on her back, but flat nothing! Everything was picked up
and slid back, fast as it was torn down; she found time to flannel
her nose and brush her hair, her collar was straight, and the
goldstone pin shone in the light, while her starched white apron
fluttered as she went through the doors. She said a few words
to Candace and Mrs. Freshett, May took out a linen cloth and began
to set places for all the grown people, so I knew there'd be strawberry
preserves and fried ham, but in all that, would you ever have
thought that she'd find a second to make biscuit, and tea cakes
herself? Plain as preaching I heard her say to Mrs. Freshett:
"I do hope and pray that Mr. Pryor will come out of it right,
so we can take him home, and teach him to behave himself; but
if he's gone this minute, I intend to have another decent meal
for Shelley to offer her young man; and I don't care if I show
Mrs. Pryor that we're not hungry over here, if we do lack servants
to carry in food on silver platters."
"That I jest would!" said Mrs. Freshett. "Even
if he turns up his toes, 'tain't YOUR funeral, thank the Lord!
an' looky here, I'd jest as soon set things in a bake pan an'
pass 'em for you, myself. I'll do it, if you say the word."
Mother bit her lip, and fought her face to keep it straight, as
she said confidential-like: "No, I'm not going to toady to
her. I only want her to see that a meal really consists of food
after all; I don't mind putting my best foot foremost, but I won't
ape her."
"Huccome they to fuss like this, peaceable as Mr. Stanton
be, an' what's Shelley's beau to them?"
"I should think you could tell by looking at Pryors,"
said mother. "He's their mystery, and also their son. Shelley
met him in Chicago, he came here to see her, and ran right into
them. I'll tell you about it before you go. Now, I must keep these
applications hot, for I've set my head on pulling Mr. Pryor out
so that he can speak, and have a few decent years of life yet."
"But why did the old devil--EX-cuse me, I mean the old GENTLEMAN,
want to shoot your man?"
"He didn't! I'll tell you all about it after they're gone."
"I bet you don't get shet of them the night," said Mrs.
Freshett.
"All right!" said mother. "Whatever Dr. Fenner
thinks. I won't have Mr. Pryor moved until it can't hurt him,
if he stays a week. I blame her quite as much as I do him; from
what I know. If a woman is going to live with a man, there are
times when she's got to put her foot down--flat--most unmercifully
flat!"
"Ain't she though!" said Mrs. Freshett; then she and
mother just laughed.
There! What did I tell you? I feel as good as if father had patted
me on the head and bragged on me a lot. I THOUGHT mother wouldn't
think that Mr. Pryor was ALL to blame, and she didn't. I figured
that out by myself, too.
Every minute Mr. Pryor grew better. He breathed easier, and mother
tilted on her toes and waved her hands, when he moved his feet,
threw back his head, lifted his hand to it, and acted like he
was almost over it, and still in shape to manage himself. She
hurried to tell Mrs. Pryor, and I know mother didn't like it when
she never even said she was glad, or went to see for herself.
Laddie and the Princess watched him, while every one else went
to supper. Laddie picked up Mrs. Pryor's chair, carried her to
the dining-room, and set her in my place beside father. He placed
Dr. Fenner next her, and left Robert to sit with Shelley. I don't
think Mrs. Pryor quite liked that, but no one asked her.
I watched and listened until everything seemed to be going right
there, and then I slipped into the parlour, where Laddie and the
Princess were caring for Mr. Pryor. With one hand Laddie held
hers, the other grasped Mr. Pryor's wrist. Laddie never took his
eyes from that white, drawn face, except to smile at her, and
squeeze her hand every little while. At last Mr. Pryor turned
over and sighed, pretty soon he opened his eyes, and looked at
Laddie, then at the Princess, and it was nothing new to see them,
so he smiled and dozed again. After a while he opened them wider,
then he saw the piano--that was an eye-opener for any one--and
the strange room, so he asked, most as plain as he ever talked,
why he was at our house again, and then he began to remember.
He struggled to sit up and the colour came into his face. So Laddie
let go the Princess, and held him down while he said: "Mr.
Pryor, answer me this. Do you want to spend the remainder of your
life in an invalid's chair, or would you like to walk abroad and
sit a horse again?"
He glared at Laddie, but he heard how things were plainly enough.
Laddie held him, while he explained what a fight we had to unlock
his muscles, and start him going again, and how, if we hadn't
loved him, and wanted him so, and had left him untouched until
the Doctor came, very likely he'd have been paralyzed all the
rest of his life, if he hadn't died; and he said he wished he
HAD, and he didn't THANK any one for saving him.
"Oh yes you do!" said Laddie, the same as he'd have
talked to Leon. "You can't stuff me on that, and you needn't
try. Being dead is a cold, clammy proposition, that all of us
put off as long as we can. You know you want to see Pamela in
her own home.
You know you are interested in how I come out with those horses.
You know you want the little people you spoke of, around you.
You know the pain and suspense you have borne have almost driven
you insane, and it was because you cared so deeply. Now lie still,
and keep quiet! All of us are tired and there's no sense in making
us go through this again, besides the risk of crippling yourself
that you run. Right here in this house are the papers to prove
that your nephew took your money, and hid it in your son's clothing,
as he already had done a hundred lesser things, before, purposely
to estrange you. Hold steady! You must hear this! The sooner you
know it, the better you'll feel. You remember, don't you, that
before your nephew entered your home, you idolized your son. You
thought the things he did were amusing. A boy is a boy, and if
he's alive, he's very apt to be lively. Mother could tell you
a few pranks that Leon has put us through; but they're only a
boy's foolishness, they are not unusual or unforgivable. I've
gone over the evidence your son brings, with extreme care, so
has father. Both of us are quite familiar with common law. He
has every proof you can possibly desire. You can't get around
it, even if your heart wasn't worn out with rebellion, and you
were not crazy to have the loving sympathy of your family again."
"I don't believe a word of it!"
"You have got to! I tell you it is PROOF, man! The documents
are in this house now."
"He forged them, or stole them, as he took the money!"
Laddie just laughed.
"How you do long, and fight, to be convinced!" he said.
"I don't blame you! When anything means this much, of course
you must be sure. But you'll know your nephew's signature; also
your lawyer's. You'll know letters from old friends who are above
question. Sandy McSheel has written you that he was with Robert
through all of it, and he gives you his word that everything is
all right. You will believe him, won't you?"
Big tears began to squeeze from under Mr. Pryor's lids, until
Laddie and the Princess each tried to see how much of him they
could hold to keep him together-like.
"Tell me!" he said at last, so they took turns explaining
everything plain as day, and soon he listened without being held.
When they had told him everything they could think of, he asked:
"Did Robert kill Emmet?"
"I am very happy to be able to tell you that he did not.
It would have been painful, and not helped a bad matter a particle.
Your nephew had dissipated until he was only a skeleton just breathing
his last. It's probable that his fear of death helped your son
out, so that he got the evidence he wanted easier than he hoped
to in the beginning. I don't mean that he is dead now; but he
is passing slowly, and loathsomely. Robert thinks word that he
has gone will come any hour. Think how pleasant it will be to
have your son! Think how happy your home will be now! Think how
you will love to see Sandy, and all your old friends! Think how
glad you'll be to go home, and take charge of your estate!"
"Think!" cried Mr. Pryor, pushing Laddie away and sitting
up: "Think how I shall enjoy wringing the last drop of blood
from that craven's body with these old hands!"
What a sight he did look to be sure! Sick, half-crazy, on the
very verge of the grave himself, and wanting to kill a poor man
already dying. Aren't some people too curious?
Laddie carefully laid him down, straightened him out and held
him again. Mother always said he was "patient as Job,"
and that day it proved to be a good thing.
"You're determined to keep yourself well supplied with trouble,"
laughed Laddie. I don't believe any one else would have dared.
"Now to an unbiased observer, it would seem that you'd be
ready to let well enough alone. You have your son back, you have
him fully exonerated, you have much of your property, you are
now ready for freedom, life, and love, with the best of us; you
have also two weddings on your hands in the near future. Why in
the name of sense are you anxious for more?"
"I should have thought that Sandy McSheel, if he's a real
friend of mine----"
"Sandy tells you all about it in the letter he has sent.
He went with Robert fully intending to do that very thing for
you, but the poor creature was too loathsome. The sight of him
made Sandy sick. He writes you that when he saw the horrible spectacle,
all he could think of was to secure the evidence needed and get
away."
Suddenly the Princess arose and knelt beside the davenport. She
put her arms around her father's neck and drew his wrinkled, white
old face up against her lovely one.
"Daddy! Dear old Daddy!" she cried. "I've had such
a hard spot in my heart against you for so long. Oh do let's forget
everything, and begin all over again; begin away back where we
were before Emmet ever came. Oh Daddy, do let's forget, and begin
all over new, like other people!"
He held her tight a minute, then his lips began whispering against
her ear. Finally he said: "Take yourselves off, and send
Robert here. I want my son. Oh I want my boy!"
It was a long time before Robert came from the parlour; when he
did, it was only to get his mother and take her back with him;
then it was a still longer time before the door opened; but when
it did, it was perfectly sure that they were all friends again.
Then Leon went to tell Thomas, and he came with the big carriage.
White and shaking, Mr. Pryor was lifted into it and they went
home together, taking Shelley with them to stay that night; so
no doubt she was proposed to and got her kiss before she slept.
That fall there were two weddings at our church at the same time.
Sally's had been fine; but it wasn't worth mentioning beside Laddie
and the Princess, and Robert and Shelley. You should have seen
my mother! She rocked like a kingbird on the top twig of the winesap,
which was the tallest tree in our orchard, and for once there
wasn't a single fly in her ointment, not one, she said so herself,
and so did father. As we watched the big ve-hi- ackle, as Leon
called it, creep slowly down the Little Hill, it made me think
of that pathetic poem, "The Three Warnings," in McGuffey's
Sixth. I guess I gave Mr. Pryor the first, that time he got so
angry he hit his horse until it almost ran away. Mother delivered
the second when she curry-combed him about the taxes, and Mrs.
Freshett finished the job. The last two lines read as if they
had been especially written about him:
"And now old Dodson, turning pale,
Yields to his fate--so ends my tale."